TOPHERAGAIN, she responded to the kiss so eagerly, and I groaned between our lips. Anything she did turned me on in a big way. Had I known we’d be in bed together when I was undressing her this afternoon? I had wanted her since then. I missed taking care of someone. I missed loving someone. I missed being in love, and making love with a woman like Jenna who, by her simple smile, could make my heart blossom like a plant long denied of water.And all these—my longing and hunger, I poured out to her. I kissed her deeply, and she gave back to me as hungrily, her tongue sensually playing with my tongue, her body rubbing against mine. I lifted myself from her and she knew. She opened her thighs and I placed myself between them. Ahh, her flesh felt warm to me. I couldn’t wait to take her. I rubbed my meat against her silken flesh and we both moaned. I growled against her skin. Ang sarap niya sa pakiramdam, hindi ko napigil ang aking sarili. I couldn’t stop kissing her but her breasts,
JENNAI WASN’T REALLY SURE how it was to go. I knew my first experience with a guy was sorely lacking – I didn’t cum then. I had to fake it so it would stop and anything else after that just didn’t matter. I was never excited enough. Lalo pang lumala noong mabisto ko ang panloloko.Kahit kay Keith, I couldn’t relax. I couldn’t forget.When Topher carried me to his bed, I was scared to disappoint him. But he kept kissing me and I was so excited like I had never been before, and I certainly knew he wasn’t a conman. Kasi hindi kami.We were basically both just reacting to the sexual tension we definitely feel since this started. When he got rid of his clothes, I couldn’t help but wonder about how good he looked, and how hot he moved. He was so confident and so warm, so sexy, that I could only feel what he was doing to me. The way he checked on me, connected as he kissed me, touched me, and when he went down there I was fascinated with how watchful he was of my every reaction. It was
JENNA I BECAME aware of Topher again after a long moment. He was still thrusting, but slower.“Topher…?” “Sshhh... give me a second to calm down a bit.”“Did you cum?” I asked, feeling ashamed for even not knowing. He still felt hard. Hindi man lang lumambot o lumiit.Umiling siya, pero nakangiti. “Ayokong matapos ito agad,” sabi niya. Saka siya umurong at lumabas.At nakangisi pa rin… bumaba siya roon.And he licked me, happily. It would have looked weird if it didn’t feel so good, and if watching him doing so while he watched me watch him wasn’t such a turn on. The act was so intimate, sandali akong napaisip kung hindi ba sa matagal nang lovers nangyayari ito, nararamdaman ito.Pero ni hindi ko ma-imagine itanong ito sa kanya. I didn’t want him to think that I needed more than this. I didn’t even want to think about this now. Gusto ko lang ma-excite lalo noong nakikita kong gumagapang na siya pabalik.“I’ll make you cum again,” pangako niya.Nakakahiya iyong parang iyak ng antisip
JENNAHE MOVED and I became aware. Not fully awake or right away, pero namalayan ko siya agad. Naging conscious ako agad sa posisyon namin sa pagtulog.It hadn’t changed since I fell asleep. His arms were still around me, my head was laying on one of his upper arm, his other arm was around my waist, and his other thigh was over one of mine, which was securely wedged between his. I was sleeping deeply and it wasn’t even my bed, nasurpresa akong naisip. Pero ni hindi ko nga ito prinoblema kanina bago kami matulog. There were times when I wasn’t comfortable in other beds. Actually, the only other bed that didn’t disturb me from sleeping were houses or any other places where my mother happened to be staying wherever in the world she happened to be at whenever I visited her. Bukod doon, namamahay ako. Kahit sa guestroom sa bahay ng Uncle Markus, hindi ako nakakatulog nang maayos.But I felt so comfortable here. And I was warm in his arms, covered by his naked body. I slept without a c
JENNANOONG BUMAGSAK ako at natunaw sa kanya, pumihit siya sa pagkakahiga hanggang sa nakatihaya na ako sa kanyang tabi, ang mga labi ko ay kulong sa mga labi niya, ang katawan niya ay nakakurba sa akin.Saka siya bumangon at sa sumunod na sandali ay nahila na niya ako, nakaangat na ang mga tuhod ko sa ere, at bumababa ang kanyang ulo sa pagitan ng aking mga hita.Napahingal ako. “Topher!” I thought that was going to be the first time. Nakukuha ko nang gusto niyang gawin iyon, lick me after I cum. And he was tender as he laved my clit with his tongue, sensitive as I was. The first time we made love, the first time he touched me there, he knew how much should be enough. He knew how to touch a woman. Hindi lalayo na alam din niya kung paano gamitin ang kanyang dila. Sa lahat ng bagay, naiiba siya talaga.Napaungol na lang akong parang kuntentong pusa habang patuloy siya sa paglaro at pagdila sa akin, slow movements that calmed me down. Pagkatapos niyon, pumuwesto siya at naramdaman k
TOPHERI WATCHED her as she walked inside the doors to the big hall, my hot and beautiful Christmas gift last night in a sexy and chic off-the-shoulder burgundy dress and high-heeled sexy and strappy stilettos. Jenna’s beauty and elegance made her glow tonight. Nakita ko pa ang pagkatulala sa mukha ni Keith noong pumihit ito at nakita ang babaeng pinaniniwalaan nitong fiancée pa rin nito, since he still didn’t know he’d been fired from that privilege. Kahit ako, hindi ko pa nakita si Jenna na ganito.And I felt proud of her… and of myself, dahil nakikita kong malayong malayo siya sa babaeng iniuwi ko sa bahay kahapon, drunk and defeated.Instead, she bloomed. Like a woman thoroughly loved. I might have helped put that beautiful blush on those cheeks. At gusto kong tumayo at bayuhin ang dibdib ko sa pagmamalaki.Gusto ko lang… nangingiti kong naisip. Jenna had always been pretty, but subtly, because she never deliberately tried to get attention to herself. Sa kabila niyon, napansin
TOPHER HINDI naging madali ang makalapit sa kanya.Paano, hindi lang ako ang nakapansin ng pagbabago niya nang gabing iyon. Hindi lang siya nagpaganda nang husto, naging accommodating din siya sa mga lumapit sa kanya at nakipag-usap.Nakikipagtawanan.Nagpapahawak ng kamay, nagpapahalik sa knuckles sa mga mas mapangahas. Nakikipagsayaw. Sumayaw sila ni Keith, pero nakipagsayaw din siya sa iba bukod kay Tito Markus. Sa paligid ko, naririnig ko ang mga comments na nasurpresa.How lovely she’s always been and it was good to see her so happy and ‘in love’ and that she and Keith were probably going to get engaged soon, if not tonight.Napapailing na lang ako.Not that I cared.Okay, so I did. Only because that simply wasn’t true.Tama?“Chris! I’m glad you came! You want to sit with us?”Nakalampas na ako sa mesa bago ko naintindihan na ako ang tinawag. I wasn’t Chris. It was either I was Christopher or Topher. Why couldn’t they remember this?Pumihit ako at ngingiti sana kay Beryl… i
TOPHERSHE was dancing with another man, at patapos na ang tugtog. Napansin ko siya dahil bumunggo ang likod niya sa akin, and when I looked, she seemed surprised.Pero alam kong sinadya niya.“Topher!” sambit niya. “Jenna,” sambit ko. “Hi. Thank you for coming. Tinuro ka ni Uncle kanina, lagi kang nasa tabi.”Hindi ko mapigil ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. Like an idiot. “I didn’t come with a date.”“Talaga? Then dance with me.”“Wait—” sinasabi ni Barnacle. Mas gracious ang partner ni Jenna. Tumango itong nakangiti noong nag-excuse ang babae sa last notes ng tugtog. I wondered, if Jenna was known to be single, if he would be as smooth in letting her go with his hands, kahit hirap nitong alisin ang mga mata nito sa mukha ng dalaga.Binitiwan ko si Berlin. Beryl. I slid in front of Jenna as she gave me her hand. Pumihit siya in a way na matutulak ang lalaki niyang dating partner sa sayaw kung hindi ito uurong, directly putting him in front of Berna.Na nakatayo roong mistulang naiwan ku
Jenna“Mommy?! Anong ginagawa mo rito?” nagawa kong masambit matapos ang ilang sandali habang tinatago na sobra akong dismayado. What the hell was she doing here?Sa halip na sumagot agad ay niyakap niya ako at hinalikan sa magkabilang pisngi. “I came here as soon as I heard na may exhibit ang boyfriend mo.” Pagkatapos ay tiningnan niya ako nang may paninisi sa mukha. “Do I have to learn this from your uncle, Jenna. I wanna let it go but Claud said he’s a really good painter and I wanna see his work. And I love them! I bought a couple. Is it true he’s a really good boy, as well. You did good, sweetie. I’m so happy for you!”Tumikhim ako para lang makasingit sa kanyang litanya, lalo’t nakakatawag na ng pansin ang mga sinasabi niya sa mga nasa malapit. She seemed so happy she hadn’t realized she was being so loud. “Ahm, thank you, mom. Sinong kasama mo? Did you come alone? How did you know to come here?”“With your aunt and uncle and a friend, whom I would like to introduce to you a b
JennaVALENTINE’S DAY.I wouldn’t miss Topher’s exhibit in the world.So, after carefully dressing myself up for him, I drove to where he was going to do his exhibit with his artist friends. And the venue was packed with art enthusiasts and curious folks. I had a special invitation, though, and I was so excited to see Topher’s work on display and quite apprehensive about our two paintings together. Syempre, nakamata rin ako sa paligid ko. Baka kasi totohanin ng mga katrabaho kong dumalo at magkita-kita kami kung saan ayokong makasama sila.Nang maging pamilyar sa akin ang ilang paintings, alam kong nakarating na ako sa spot kung saan naroroon ang mga gawa ni Topher. Mas maraming tao roon at alam kong hindi lang dahil magaling siya kundi dahil isa siya sa mga featured painters. Kahit hindi masyadong alam sa work ang kanyang isa pang karera ay marami siyang followers sa art world.Hinahanap ko siya nang pasimple. Oo, alam na ng mga katrabaho namin ang tungkol sa amin pero hindi pa kam
JENNASo, iyon nga, nagpatuloy ang hapunan. Hindi pa man nangangalahati si Topher sa kanyang kare-kare order ay nagsipag-order na ng beer at cocktails ang iba. I asked for a Smirnoff at gumaya si Topher. I knew, Valerie and Jasmine noted this, too. Pero bukod naman dito ay nakikipagkuwentuhan siya sa iba. Sinasagot niya ang interested na tanong ng mga ito tungkol sa exhibit. Most of them were surprised to find out he regularly had his paintings on private and semi-private exhibits once or twice a year. Topher wasn’t very forthcoming about this part of his life ever since. Ngayon lang.Tapos na si Topher sa pagkain at dumating na rin sa mesa ang in-order nitong dalawang Hoisin pizza para sa gusto pang magtagal doon at uminom noong mahina ko siyang tinanong kung babalik pa siya sa mga kaibigan niya.“Yes. Medyo marami pang gagawin. But let me know when you’re going and I’ll come back and drive you home.”Hindi ko dinala ang car ko kaninang umaga kasi magkasabay kaming pumasok… I meant h
JENNA“MAS masarap ito, ano? Tikman mo,” ani Sandra habang nilalagay sa bibig ko ang piraso ng binalatang hipon mula sa kanyang plato. Nasa isang resto bar kami at may cocktails at seafood sa mesa. Sa halip na umuwi, doon kami nag-dinner at nag-relax paglabas namin sa trabaho. It was a Friday night and it would be a lax day tomorrow. Pwedeng pumasok ng late o hindi pumasok since katatapos lang namin sa isang project kaya nga kami narito. Nagse-celebrate ang team namin.Hindi namin kasama si Topher. Last weekend na kasi ito bago ang Valentine’s Day Exhibit kaya busy siya kasama ng kanyang mga artist friends. Sini-set nila ang media hall na gagamitin sa isang mall dito sa BGC para sa event.Baka nga hindi ko siya makita buong weekend.Habang nginunguya ko ang hipon na sinubo ni Sandra, nakikinig ako sa mga usapan sa paligid ng mesa. I actually was just busying myself while I waited for a message from my… what do I call him now? Boyfriend ko na ba siya?Parang ganoon na nga yata. Pinig
JENNAKUMABOG ang dibdib ko nang makita kong may kotseng nakaparada sa labas ng gate ng bahay ko noong makarating ako roon.It really was almost impossible to believe he could get here before me because I left the parking lot of the restaurant with him still inside the place but… he must have driven here like crazy.He’s coming out of the car.Topher.He looked mad.Uh-oh.Pinarada ko ang kotse ko sa unahan ng kanya sa tabi ng kalsada. Noong bumaba ako, nasa tabi na siya ng kotse.“Did you kiss him?”“Hah! Did you think I’ll have time—”Nahaklit ako sa kanya.And he was kissing me bad. It was rough and angry and bruising. But I was just happy he was there. And then I was happy he was angry. I didn’t think my kind and gentle Topher could be like this. And it’s…Hot.Umangat ang ulo niya. “Did you kiss him?”“No,” parang mabait na tupa kong reply.“Is there anyone else in the house?”“Noone.”“Let’s go inside.”“The cars—”“Inside, baby.”Oh my God, natunaw yata ang matres ko!We were
JENNA“I INVITED him, actually,” paliwanag ni Auntie Claud nang maupo na rin si Topher at sa pagitan pa nila ni Greg, err, Glenn. “I also invited another girl pero Portia couldn’t make it. Akala ko nga hindi makakarating itong si Topher,” sabi pa niya. “’Buti na lang kahit busy ang sched mo you made it!”Portia? Sinong Portia? “You’re setting us all up for a blind date, Auntie?” hindi ko napigilang itanong. Hindi ako makapaniwala na gusto niyang i-blind date pati si Topher!Napatingin silang lahat sa akin. At nag-init ang mga pisngi ko. Napalakas at napataas ang boses ko.Nanatili ang ngiti sa mga labi ni Auntie Claud. “Why, yes! Binata si Christopher, single… as well as you, Greg and Portia, my dear. Why not?”“Hi!” breathless na bati nang isang pambabaeng boses.I don’t believe it, bwisit kong naisip. Akala ko ba hindi makakarating?“Portia!” excited na walang mintis na sambit ni Auntie Claud.“Iha,” gracious namang sabi ni Uncle Markus. This time, siya ang tumayo para mag-request n
JENNAI AM so much in trouble.It had been a full three hours since I parted with Topher. I still didn’t know what happened, because we just didn’t fuck inside that office – thank you very much. Kasi, kung iyon lang iyon, bakit ayoko nang tumuloy sa date ko tonight?I lied to Topher. Or, it was a half lie. Totoong nasa parehong dinner si Uncle Markus, pero hindi sila lang kundi ang date na in-arrange ni Auntie Claudine para sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit napahiya pa akong umamin kahit alam ko namang nakakarating sa kanya ang pagpa-party ko at ibang mga kabulastugang pinaggagagawa ko nitong nakaraang mga araw. If only canceling wouldn’t make Auntie Claudine think that me and Topher had a secret relationship ay nagkansela na ako talaga.Ganito kasi ang nangyari. Iyong pagkukunwari namin ni Topher sa kanyang Mommy at stepfather at Maxine na iyon bilang magkasintahan, nagkaroon ng consequence. His mother asked questions and it reached my Auntie’s ear. Ipinaliwanag ko sa dalawa
TOPHERI KISSED her–hard–because I missed kissing her and I wanted her to know.I kissed her the best way that I know because I wanted all other kisses from other men gone from her memory. She kissed me back as hard and as hotly. I pushed her with my body towards the door and she knew why because it was her hand that reached for the knob behind her to lock it. Sabi ko na nga ba. Para sa aming dalawa, walang halfway-halfway. She wanted me, too. As in now.But I was me, stupid me. At napaungol ako pero kailangan kong gawin ang sunod. Inangat ko ang ulo ko at tumingin ako sa kanya hanggang napilitan siyang magmulat ng kanyang mga mata.“Yes,” she replied before I even asked the question.“Oh, Jenna…” paiyak kong tugon dahil sa sobrang relief. We still synched, she and I. As I reached for the hem of her short dress, she was unbuckling my belt.“Topher, who still wears belts?” reklamo niya.Natawa ako habang nakasubsob sa kanyang dibdib. I was right. She was wearing a strapless bra. I
TOPHERI TRIED not to listen to rumors. Pero hindi maiwasan. Pinag-uusapan siya kahit saan.Sinasabi nilang nagbago na si Jenna. She was all over the place, flirting with anyone who would flirt back. Mula noong bumalik siya sa office, laman na siya ng parties kahit hindi naman siya palalabas before. She went out with friends, wearing hot clothes and stilettos, having a great time with girl friends and male admirers. They were fascinated with the new Jenna. Somehow, her actions didn’t shame her. Kasi maganda. Kasi sexy. And single. And she could move, and dance. And she just came out of a rather stupid relationship. She deserved it.Kasi spontaneous, nakakadala ang mga halakhak niya. Nakakainggit kasi hindi kayang gawin nang iba ang ganoon. Pero masayang kasama. Nakakawala ng problema.She’d become notoriously famous.She didn’t care what people think now. But sometimes, she looked lonely. Sabi.Minsan daw natutulala pa rin. Kapag naririnig ko iyon, natutulala rin ako.I sent h