CHAPTER 2: Mating.

~ Sortitus ~

"How are you feeling?"

I frowned when I heard the woman's voice. She had just entered this hut. I had been awake for a while, but the events of the war remained unclear in my mind.

The woman sat next to me, and she helped me get up from lying down because I still felt a little pain in my muscles even though I didn't have any wounds on my body.

"I prepared something for you to eat. Eat now," she said to me with concern. She was about to bring the spoon closer to my mouth when I suddenly refused and pushed her hand away.

I swallowed, and I got up immediately from lying on the pallet. "Who are you? Wait.. what happened?" I asked curiously because I don't remember how I got to this hut.

"Clavem, that's my name. I brought you here because you passed out earlier in the war."

I frowned, held my senses, and was confused by what she was saying. "L-Lost consciousness?" I asked in turmoil.

"Because your wolf has come out of you, Alpha," she gladly informs me. "It's not even complete yet because you haven't changed your skin yet, but your other strength, agility, speed, and fighting skills are as ferocious as an extraordinary wolf; even your half likeness between a wolf and a human has come out."

Because of what she said, I turned my gaze outside the hut. I immediately saw the full moon. At that point, I felt something strange. When I turned to her, she grabbed my full attention. I was drowned in her overflowing beauty and winsome body.

Suddenly I couldn't control myself; I felt like there was a powerful, unleashing monster within my body that I could not control because it wanted to mark this woman.

I could hear Clavem's strong heartbeat when my hands touched her chest beneath her strong heartbeat.

"You're mine, Clavem." Words that came out of my lips but were contrary to what my heart wanted.

"I'm all yours, alpha," she breathlessly responded to me, and I felt her warm palm on my cheek down to my neck.

My eyes were filled with desire, and I could no longer bear the heat that engulfed my entire system. I came even closer to her and buried my face in her neck to smell her fragrant scent. "You're mine," I repeated as my kisses marked her neck as proof that she belonged to me and that no one else could take her away from me.

My body became even more inflamed as she did the same thing I did to her; she marked me too, and while her warm palms slid from my face to my waist, I could feel the heat that had been exposed on the top of my body. And I still continued to sniff the natural aroma of her femininity while my hands were busy going around her body.

We didn't waste any more time with each other, and I immediately picked her up, sat her on the table, opened her legs, and grabbed her lips with passionate kisses. I was even more eager to possess her when I felt the strange warmth and sweet lips of her kisses. We were halfway through our passionate kiss when I came back into the system. I stopped and slightly loosened the hug from Clavem. I saw the pain on her face. "Damn, this is wrong, I said weakly.

Clavem caressed my face. I could feel the pain she was feeling because half of our minds and hearts had been united since I marked her as mine.

"When I saw you, I knew you were the one the moon had chosen for me, Alpha, and I couldn't fight my heart to fall for you; but if it's difficult for you to accept me in your life, I won't force myself on the man I love if he can't love me back."

I felt the weight in my chest when she turned her back on me. Why is it so painful? It hurts me when I see her hurt too. I couldn't bear this feeling, so I pulled her back to me again and hugged her tightly. "Then fall for me harder, my luna. Stay with me." I can no longer control my emotions, so I say the opposite of what my heart dictates.

"Fuck! What is this?" I cannot understand myself. There is some force inside me, even my feelings, that I can't control anymore. I want to escape from the heat I feel.

"Sortitus, she's my Luna. She's for me. I heard the threatening voice inside my mind talking to me. I know he is my Wolf. As an Alpha, it won't change if my wolf suddenly talks to me, similar to what I often see with other wolves of my kind.

"I only love Heres, only her," I answered emphatically through my mind.

"But you need her." My Wolf gave me a threatening answer. I don't know him yet, but I can feel what a strong class of wolf he is.

Later, I found myself lying on a large pallet. Clavem and I were both naked, and I was lying on top of her. I could feel the heat on our rubbing skins and the exchanging of saliva.

When I lay down on her, I saw her entire face and body. Her lips are thin and velvet colored, her almond and amber eyes (yet she's not transformed), her Greek-shaped nose, her high neck, her white pair of skin, her caramel hair, and her body were hot and hourglass. Every skin I touch is addicting, but it can't be because it's wrong. It's wrong that I'm having sex with a woman I don't even love and who was only wanted for me by insidious destiny.

I tried to remove my hand from her palm, but I couldn't resist her body, so I lowered it until I reached her womanhood and played with it with my three fingers. While my other hand is on her chest and is stroking her bulging breast.

"Aughmm....." she moaned loudly, and she was full of pleasure at what I was doing to her. Like her, I couldn't help myself from moaning because of the overwhelming warmth that flowed through our united bodies.

"A-Alpha, take me.. Aurgh.. ooh-mm." she mumbled as I felt her scratches on my back. I couldn't hold back my wolf because some energy pushed me to insert my big and hardened dick into Clavem's wet pussy.

"You're making me crazy, my luna. Ohhhh.. fuck. You're mine now." The grunt grew louder throughout the hut as my large weapon slowly moved in and out of Clavem's womanhood. I saw the rise of her waist, the nails pressing more on my skin, and the unexpected turning purple of her eyes, which gave my wolf even more contentment.

After Clavem and I had sex, I seemed to feel repentance for myself when I remembered Heres. I didn't realize that, little by little, I couldn't recognize myself because I felt like I was cheating on the woman I loved.

A few moments later, I felt a sudden twist in my stomach. I left Clavem in the hut and ran, even though I was naked, into the forest. I was sweating, and I couldn't understand the strange heat and pain that made my whole body seem like it was going to explode.

After I reached the top of the mountain, my loud moans of pain and rolling on the grass caused by worsening stomach cramps did not stop.

"Holy shit! It's happening now. My werewolf form is out!" I screamed in pain while watching the gradual growth of my hairy hair from hand to toe. The entry of strange energy and the extra power it brought to my body started to awaken me.

I lifted my head and saw the perfect light of the full moon. I howled very loudly and postured my hands, ready to scratch. I closed my eyes, and when I regained the ability to open them, I was a completely black wolf. A big, broad, strong, and ferocious black-haired wolf with red eyes for alphas like me. It has sharp, long, and strong fangs and yellow claws.

I ran and ran through the forest. My fangs are so itchy that the trees I pass by I destroy and cut down, then throw them far away, as well as the flowers and plants I scratch with my long and yellow nails until they are ready to die and turn black. All the animals there I knock down, trample, and decapitate until I kill them all and there is nothing left. I can't control myself, and I want to destroy and kill more and more until there's no end.

I hid behind the plants in the dark part of the forest and waited for the right opportunity to prey on the stranger.

"Is there someone there? Can you hear me?" he yelled.

I smirked as I smelled the delicious blood flowing through his veins.

"The man's scent is crazy," I said to myself as I sniffed his scent and my stomach grumbled with hunger.

"Sortitus!" screamed a white wolf woman with purple eyes at me when I was blocked by her.

"Leave!" My eyes flashed with anger as I looked at her.

I heard the foreign man's scream again. I was turned back by him, and I grumbled with extreme hunger. "Blood!" I was constantly drooling.

"Sortitus, do not mix your blood with an innocent creature. You are a good Alpha!"

I heard Clavem's pleading voice trying to stop me from doing what I was planning to do.

"Just leave me, Clavem. Don't take me to your mercy."

"Mercy? I'm not begging, Sortitus. Just for me, don't kill an innocent person just because of your hungriness."

It seemed that my wolf listened, so I gradually felt it calm down inside me, and I was able to control my hunger. I just drifted to Clavem and went with her back to the hut.

"Clavem," I called as soon as we got inside the hut to spend the night.

She looked at me. She doesn't speak, but I can read her desire to touch me. I let out a deep breath and stepped closer to her until our noses were touching each other and I could feel her flaming breath. I don't know how to tell her how I really feel without hurting her.

"Clavem! I called again. Even by mentioning her name, I find it difficult because I know that what I say next may crush her personality. But I still chose to say it, even though she already felt it.

"Fenrir has claimed you, and my body accepts it, but it doesn't mean that you have the power to control me or manipulate my life. I don't like you, I don't love you, and I hate the fact that you are my destined mate."

I can clearly see how my fated mate could be hurt because of the hurtful words I uttered. I feel my wolf raging inside me, but I try to hold him. It's my body, my life, and so I still need to control my wolf. There was pain and heavyness in my heart when I saw her tears falling apart, but I brushed them away. It is much better that Clavem and I understand each other's feelings and decisions, even my wolf.

"I know. You don't need to show me how much you reject me as your fated mate. You are on your own. Just tell me now under the full moon that you Sortitus want to reject me as your fated mate. I am ready to accept your painful rejection, Alpha."

For a moment, we stared into each other's eyes. But I was disgusted with myself because I couldn't even say the words she wanted me to say. There was a part of me that didn't want to let her go either. I also wanted her to stay by my side. "Fuck!" I cursed myself as I hit the pallet. I saw her on the other side of the pallet, but with her back to me.

"Clavem, I'm sorry." I spoke to her through my mind.

"Enough, Sortitus." She answered very, painfully.

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Before the sun rose, I was transformed into my human form. I woke up naked. Clavem is no longer on the pallet or by my side.

"I brought you some clothes." My eyes got used to Clavem's back and body and I stared at the sunlight outside the hut. She is also in human form now. I know she felt that I was awake too, so she immediately returned to the hut. I hurriedly got up and put on the clothes that were still a bit tight on me. I don't know where she got it, just to make me wear it.

"Thank you, I said while looking at her back. She didn't waste time looking back at me. Even if she doesn't say it, I can read what's going on in her mind, even the ache she feels because of what I told her last night.

"Sortitus, let me out!" I heard my wolf arguing with me. But I ignored him. I tried to control him because I knew if I let him, he would approach Clavem again, who was now walking away from us.

"I am Fenrir, and no one can control me. Let me out!"

"So, your name is Fenrir." I answered my wolf through my mind.

"Listen to me, Sortitus. Clavem is the woman for us, not Heres," he clarified to me.

"It's not hard to love what we're destined for, so it's not hard to love Clavem. You just have to give yourself a chance with her and open your heart to let her in," he added.

"No! I will never give her a place in my heart, not one bit!" I protested. "Also, she's an enemy! I saw the symbol of the blooded white wolf race on her rib!"

"Calm down, Sortitus; I'm not your enemy; we're allies, remember that," he eased me.

Fenrir also told how Clavem was tortured and nearly killed by the man in black with whom I fought in the war, which triggered my wolf, Fenrir, to come out of me.

"What do you think now, Sortitus? Is Clavem a bad mate?" his sarcastic question.

I was about to answer when I noticed Heres approaching me. She is still wearing a gown. I felt sorry for her. Maybe she didn't have time to get changed because she was looking for me all night and day.

"You've been on your honeymoon, Sortitus, with another woman."

"Heres, let me explain." I said it was difficult and hugged her tightly.

She loosened from my embrace. Her eyes circled, and I knew she was looking for Clavem.

Heres' burning eyes turned to me. "I hate you, Sortitus. I thought I would be your Luna!" Her words to me were full of resentment. "I've been looking for you everywhere, do you know that? Even though I can feel you cheating me. Where is she, huh? I'll make her see who I am in your life!" Heres' eyes were flaming, and I could feel her urge to kill Clavem.

"There's no need for you to see her anymore. I still love you, and I'll stay with you." I hugged her.

My fierce smell has caught on, and Heres has immediately smelled it, so she knows about my successful transformation.

I saw Heres taking a deep breath, crossing her arms, and biting her lips after licking. I was very shocked when she quickly hit Clavem with her fists when she saw her.

"You fucking slut wolf!" she snorted.

Now they both have the same abilities and strengths in the fight. Their scores were equal—nothing more and nothing less—and what's more, they were both powerful, so Heres had a hard time beating Clavem.

"Fuck!" I cursed so badly. "Stop! Goddammit!" I shouted at the two of them and used my might to separate them. I intervened and temporarily stopped the two in their rivalry.

"H-Heres, I don't want to battle with you, b-but ---" I cut Clavem off.

I let out a deep breath before inhaling again. I swallowed my saliva, trembling. I looked directly into Clavem's eyes and bravely held Heres' hand right in front of my Fated Mate.

"I'm sorry. Clavem."

I felt my inner wolf raging because of what I did. But I didn't let him win over me.

"Alright, tell her that you love me with all your might, Sortitus," she ordered. I turned on the woman I love. "Heres, she's my Fated mate."

"What!?" Heres was surprised to hear what I said. "But you love me, Sortitus. We love each other," she insisted to me.

"I know. But—"

"But you can tell her that you reject her as your fated mate, right?" she interjected.

I turned to Clavem. I saw her painful smile on her face covered by her tears, and I could feel every inch of heartache she was in.

"I love you, Sortitus; that's why I'm freeing you." I heard her speak to me.

"No, Clavem." I pulled her hand just as she was about to leave.

"What are you doing, Sortitus, Huh?" Heres angrily hit my chest because I couldn't decide what I really wanted.

"You just have to reject her now, or I'll be the one to leave." I suddenly felt scared because of what Heres said. Clavem secretly shed tears as she looked at me.

"J-Just let me go, Alpha," she let out, but I don't understand why I can't let her go.