Instead of answering his question, I shook my head while repeating the words I've said to him over and over again, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Dashiel... If only I knew... If only I knew that this is how it is--"I couldn't continue with what I was about to say when I felt his index finger touch my lips, "Shhh... no need to say sorry, honey, because I've forgiven you a long time ago. And besides, I deserved what happened to me because if it weren't for my negligence, our child would still be here now." He interrupted me, making me quiet.My body immediately reacted to what he said, making me stand up from kneeling and sit beside him. "No, you don't deserve--" I was about to protest that he didn't deserve what happened to him when he put his arms around me, holding me tight.I feel sorry for him because he didn't deserve what happened to him and he is not to blame for the death of our child, but I couldn't continue to feel his lips on mine.Our lips touched briefly, but it was enough to c
"No... please tita, spare me, please." I pleaded repeatedly to the woman in front of me, hoping that she would release me from her hold.But instead of pity, she just laughed as if she was enjoying my begging."No.. no.. no baby boy, your mother already paid me, so it's only right that I make the most of what she paid for," she grinned at me while slowly taking off her bra.As she finally took it off, her huge breasts came out, which I thought could reach her belly button. It sagged, but what really disgusted me was her extremely dark nipples. It looked like the typical breasts of old women, which is one of the things I fear."No, tita, please." I begged, while wishing to God that she would hear my plea - that the demon-like friend of my mother would be enlightened and stop her abusive actions towards me."No baby boy, no." She tried to sound seductive while saying those words, even biting her lower lip as if hoping to seduce me.But instead of looking attractive in front of me, she l
Instead of feeling pleasure from what she was doing, I just cried. Disgust for myself filled my heart, but it was not a surprise to me anymore. It's always like this. This is always what I experience. This is always what I feel.Perhaps when she got tired of sucking, she slowly moved her lips towards my groin, causing me to squirm even more. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't bear the disgust I was feeling.The woman got irritated with my behavior, and punched me in the stomach. "Stop acting like a fool! You act like this is your first time. Hey! For your fucking information, your mom has paid me and her other debts several times, so don't act like you're all clean!" she shouted, causing me to cry and cry.I cried and cried because she was right... she was right about what she said.. I've experienced this several times.. I've experienced being raped and used to pay off my own parents' debts... and I've prayed to God many times to escape from the prison of desire that I never wante
I thought that she was just using me to pay off her debts, but it seems like she's also selling me. Well, what's the difference between the two, right? Because both of them would just lead me to becoming a prostitute."You're such a cautious one, mommy! You should be grateful that your son looks delicious!" the gay guy said while shaking his head, then he took out a white envelope. The others followed suit, taking out envelopes from their bags. Then, they gave the remaining envelopes they had, which I assumed contained money."Here it is, mommy dear," said one of the gays as he gave the envelope to mommy. Mommy was about to accept the envelope, but the gay guy suddenly took it back. "Wait a minute, mommy, is it really okay for the three of us to take on that kid?" the gay guy asked while raising his eyebrows.Mama nodded, 'Yes, of course! How could he not be well-trained by now!' she replied to the gay man's question, taking the money he handed her.When mama passed by, she said to th
The woman, whose name was apparently Jane, immediately followed the order of the gay in front of me.After a few seconds, Jane returned with a long black whip. I swallowed hard as I saw it, knowing it would make me cry if it hit my body."Looks like we'll have to use force on you, baby boy," the gay in front of me taunted before nodding to his companions.It seemed to be the signal for the two of them to approach me and grab my hands, causing me to struggle."Strip her," Jane laughed like a demon.The gay in front of me proceeded to rip my t-shirt off, and even though I was struggling, I couldn't fight back as the others were too strong.As my t-shirt was completely torn, the gay in front of me immediately sucked on my nipple, causing me to struggle even more.This passage contains graphic and disturbing content that may be triggering or offensive to some readers. It depicts a scene of sexual assault and is not suitable for all audiences. Reader discretion is advised."No! No! No! Ple
The wake, where I always go to whenever I want to escape my bitter and complicated life.When I reached the foot of the hill, I paid Manong using the money I took from the person I killed.During that time, there was no path leading to the top of the hill yet, so I had no other choice but to climb it from the foot to the summit.The feeling of nostalgia that I first felt when I arrived here returned as soon as I reached the top. I closed my eyes and leaned my shoulders on each side to feel the cold breeze coming from the Pacific Ocean.Ghad. I miss this! I miss this feeling!It reminded me of how I found this place. It was raining, and I was crying because for the second time, my mother's friend abandoned me on the side of the road. Since I didn't know where I was, I had no choice but to follow the road in front of me.The second customer left me alone in the woods after using my body. I was left alone, crying and disgusted with myself.Since I didn't know the way back home, I just fo
I never expected that I would fall for her because of our everyday interactions. At first, I tried to stop myself from falling for her because it was forbidden for us to get involved, if ever.But I couldn't resist. I was carried away by my emotions to the point that I claimed her as mine for life even though she didn't know it yet.But will she be mine too?My feelings for her grew even stronger when I learned about her past and how strong and independent she is. It impressed me so much that I even thought about making her mother's case my first case when I become a lawyer.Our secret relationship, which only I knew about, was going well until... I became careless - we became careless - until Buenaventura came along and acted as if he was my girlfriend.Until someone recorded us having sex. I tried to find the person who was filming us while Marra and I were doing that thing, but unfortunately, I couldn't find him.When I told Buenaventura about it, he advised me to stay away from Ma
"I didn't expect that because of my search for her, I would get into an accident on my motorcycle, causing me to break my leg and be disabled for a few months. Someone sent me a tip that she could be found in that area, so I hurriedly went there without expecting that my haste would lead to an accident.Months passed, and they continued searching for the woman I love. This time, even my dad helped in the search, but unfortunately, there was still no update.I have already started walking again, but up until now, there is still no news about her. I have already buried my dear mother, but still, there is no update about her.I failed the Bar Exam because I did not review properly due to my experiences, and my dad was disappointed in me, but still, there is no news about her.My dad has already passed the company to me, and I have made it prosper, but there is still no update about her. I have won the case about her mother, but there is still no update about her. I have even set her free
"I didn't expect that because of my search for her, I would get into an accident on my motorcycle, causing me to break my leg and be disabled for a few months. Someone sent me a tip that she could be found in that area, so I hurriedly went there without expecting that my haste would lead to an accident.Months passed, and they continued searching for the woman I love. This time, even my dad helped in the search, but unfortunately, there was still no update.I have already started walking again, but up until now, there is still no news about her. I have already buried my dear mother, but still, there is no update about her.I failed the Bar Exam because I did not review properly due to my experiences, and my dad was disappointed in me, but still, there is no news about her.My dad has already passed the company to me, and I have made it prosper, but there is still no update about her. I have won the case about her mother, but there is still no update about her. I have even set her free
I never expected that I would fall for her because of our everyday interactions. At first, I tried to stop myself from falling for her because it was forbidden for us to get involved, if ever.But I couldn't resist. I was carried away by my emotions to the point that I claimed her as mine for life even though she didn't know it yet.But will she be mine too?My feelings for her grew even stronger when I learned about her past and how strong and independent she is. It impressed me so much that I even thought about making her mother's case my first case when I become a lawyer.Our secret relationship, which only I knew about, was going well until... I became careless - we became careless - until Buenaventura came along and acted as if he was my girlfriend.Until someone recorded us having sex. I tried to find the person who was filming us while Marra and I were doing that thing, but unfortunately, I couldn't find him.When I told Buenaventura about it, he advised me to stay away from Ma
The wake, where I always go to whenever I want to escape my bitter and complicated life.When I reached the foot of the hill, I paid Manong using the money I took from the person I killed.During that time, there was no path leading to the top of the hill yet, so I had no other choice but to climb it from the foot to the summit.The feeling of nostalgia that I first felt when I arrived here returned as soon as I reached the top. I closed my eyes and leaned my shoulders on each side to feel the cold breeze coming from the Pacific Ocean.Ghad. I miss this! I miss this feeling!It reminded me of how I found this place. It was raining, and I was crying because for the second time, my mother's friend abandoned me on the side of the road. Since I didn't know where I was, I had no choice but to follow the road in front of me.The second customer left me alone in the woods after using my body. I was left alone, crying and disgusted with myself.Since I didn't know the way back home, I just fo
The woman, whose name was apparently Jane, immediately followed the order of the gay in front of me.After a few seconds, Jane returned with a long black whip. I swallowed hard as I saw it, knowing it would make me cry if it hit my body."Looks like we'll have to use force on you, baby boy," the gay in front of me taunted before nodding to his companions.It seemed to be the signal for the two of them to approach me and grab my hands, causing me to struggle."Strip her," Jane laughed like a demon.The gay in front of me proceeded to rip my t-shirt off, and even though I was struggling, I couldn't fight back as the others were too strong.As my t-shirt was completely torn, the gay in front of me immediately sucked on my nipple, causing me to struggle even more.This passage contains graphic and disturbing content that may be triggering or offensive to some readers. It depicts a scene of sexual assault and is not suitable for all audiences. Reader discretion is advised."No! No! No! Ple
I thought that she was just using me to pay off her debts, but it seems like she's also selling me. Well, what's the difference between the two, right? Because both of them would just lead me to becoming a prostitute."You're such a cautious one, mommy! You should be grateful that your son looks delicious!" the gay guy said while shaking his head, then he took out a white envelope. The others followed suit, taking out envelopes from their bags. Then, they gave the remaining envelopes they had, which I assumed contained money."Here it is, mommy dear," said one of the gays as he gave the envelope to mommy. Mommy was about to accept the envelope, but the gay guy suddenly took it back. "Wait a minute, mommy, is it really okay for the three of us to take on that kid?" the gay guy asked while raising his eyebrows.Mama nodded, 'Yes, of course! How could he not be well-trained by now!' she replied to the gay man's question, taking the money he handed her.When mama passed by, she said to th
Instead of feeling pleasure from what she was doing, I just cried. Disgust for myself filled my heart, but it was not a surprise to me anymore. It's always like this. This is always what I experience. This is always what I feel.Perhaps when she got tired of sucking, she slowly moved her lips towards my groin, causing me to squirm even more. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't bear the disgust I was feeling.The woman got irritated with my behavior, and punched me in the stomach. "Stop acting like a fool! You act like this is your first time. Hey! For your fucking information, your mom has paid me and her other debts several times, so don't act like you're all clean!" she shouted, causing me to cry and cry.I cried and cried because she was right... she was right about what she said.. I've experienced this several times.. I've experienced being raped and used to pay off my own parents' debts... and I've prayed to God many times to escape from the prison of desire that I never wante
"No... please tita, spare me, please." I pleaded repeatedly to the woman in front of me, hoping that she would release me from her hold.But instead of pity, she just laughed as if she was enjoying my begging."No.. no.. no baby boy, your mother already paid me, so it's only right that I make the most of what she paid for," she grinned at me while slowly taking off her bra.As she finally took it off, her huge breasts came out, which I thought could reach her belly button. It sagged, but what really disgusted me was her extremely dark nipples. It looked like the typical breasts of old women, which is one of the things I fear."No, tita, please." I begged, while wishing to God that she would hear my plea - that the demon-like friend of my mother would be enlightened and stop her abusive actions towards me."No baby boy, no." She tried to sound seductive while saying those words, even biting her lower lip as if hoping to seduce me.But instead of looking attractive in front of me, she l
Instead of answering his question, I shook my head while repeating the words I've said to him over and over again, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Dashiel... If only I knew... If only I knew that this is how it is--"I couldn't continue with what I was about to say when I felt his index finger touch my lips, "Shhh... no need to say sorry, honey, because I've forgiven you a long time ago. And besides, I deserved what happened to me because if it weren't for my negligence, our child would still be here now." He interrupted me, making me quiet.My body immediately reacted to what he said, making me stand up from kneeling and sit beside him. "No, you don't deserve--" I was about to protest that he didn't deserve what happened to him when he put his arms around me, holding me tight.I feel sorry for him because he didn't deserve what happened to him and he is not to blame for the death of our child, but I couldn't continue to feel his lips on mine.Our lips touched briefly, but it was enough to c
When Buenaventura and Thunder came out of the hospital, that's when I stood up from my seat to go inside.If they thought that I stopped insisting on entering Dashiel's room just to see him, well, they were wrong. I would never allow that.It has been a week since I felt embarrassed in the hallway because of that witch. And since that week, she still hasn't woken up.And during that week, I tried several times to go inside Dashiel's room just to catch a glimpse of him or to watch over him for a few seconds.But the past few days have really been unlucky for me. Every time I tried to enter his room, I would always end up embarrassed and going home with drooping shoulders.I have been embarrassed many times because I thought that Buenaventura had left the room, but I always ended up facing her angry face. Because she was mad at me and an attention seeker, she would do anything to get rid of me, including throwing a tantrum and pulling my hair, which made me go home with drooping shoulde