"Mukang masarap talaga huh," bulong ko habang kasama ko na nag-dinner si Yhra na napaka-pino ng kilos, naka dress at make-up habang ako naka Hoodie at sweat pants. Mukang broken na broken ang itsura ko ngayon. Tapos may kasama pa akong super model. It's so unfair. "Kumain ka ng kumain di yung tititigan mo yang lalaki na yan," kinunutan ko ito ng noo, the fuck. Sinong lalaki sinasabi ni Yhra. Well, after that scene, nag karoon ako ng instant friend na super model "Gaga ka, mamaya barilin ka sa tabas ng bibig mo. Wala ako tinitignan no." I drink my water at umiwas ng tingin. Minsan napaka lakas mag-assume ni Yhra. "Talaga ba, oo nga pala may binigay saakin na flyer about sa isang island para daw sa mga sawi." Inabot saakin ito at sandali ko binaba, well they have a great facility and at dekalidad na kagamitan. But I am at the moment where I love to feel all, kahit masakit pa iyan or hindi. Basta maramdaman ko ang mga bagay na pag-kakamali ko. "I am busy Yhra, at saka mas gusto ko pa
Nakatulala ako habang nilalaro ko ang lighter sa kamay ko at nakasandal sa sun lounger ng yacht na nasa di kalayuan ng Isla Fuegerito. Nilapag ko ang lighter at pinalit doon ang tequila na nasa tabi ng sigarilyo ko. I smile bitterly. Marahan ko na binuga ang usok at sinunod ang shot ng alak. I am at the island where no one can find me, mag-solo ako at ayoko na makipag-usap sa kahit sinong tao. I am crying every night lalo na kapag naaalala ko si Leto. All of his promises turn into dusk. Ako lang ang nakakakita ng ngiti nya noon, but now. I knew that I wasn't real. Everything is fake. Napaka-hirap ko ba talaga mahalin. Of course, I want a man who's responsible and well oriented on his life. Binaba ko ang standard ko para sa kanya, if that is what my family want, then gagawin ko. Ayoko na ma-disappoint sila mama at papa saakin. I obey them. Kahit na hindi bukal sa loob ko, ginawa ko padin. At ito ang resulta ng bawat sakripisyo ko para sa pang-sarili ko na kaligayan. Niloko at pi
Naka upo ako sa sun lounger habang naka two piece at may hawak na baso, nakatanaw sa mga tao na nasa isla padin, they are such a party freak. I roll my eyes when Erwan look at my direction at kinakawayan ako, he is fucking insane. After I allow him to taste my lips, he went crazy when I pushed him.I know that I am acting a desperate thirsty bitch out there but damn, it doesn't mean that I want to have sex with him. I play, yes. But mag-padilig, wala pa ako nasa mood, maybe if he kiss me with all of his might, there is a chance na ibigay ko ang hinahanap ng pototoy nya. "Thana! Come, join us!" sigaw nito saakin pero tumayo ako at tinaas ko ang baso na may lamang alak bago ito tinalikuran at lumakad papunta sa loob. Inalis ko ang flip plops ko, nilapag ang shades ko sa lamesa at hinablot ang sigarilyo na nakapatong sa Island counter ng kusina. I even open the music and remove my bikini at lumublob sa jacuzzi. I know that I have a lot of responsibility out there, but I really need
I can feel the heat of sun haban ang lagaslas ng alon ay nag-sisilbing musika sa tenga ko. I smile while watching my cousins and siblings sa mga kanya-kanya nilang social media accounts. Zoe always does her OOTD at motivational quotes na akala mo ay inlove na inlove. My brother post his hand and wrist watch habang nasa manibela ang kamay nito, ang lakas maka heartrob ang peg ni Delivery man ng Del Russo na jakulero. Sumunod naman ang litrato ni Lesaiah na busy na sa nalalapit nitong debut. I can't ditch her, as long that I can heal kahit paunti-unti ay mas mabuti. Lesaiah is such a good kid, at kahit na bihira kami mag-kita at mag-kausap ay lagi syang nag message saakin. Every morning, and evening, may message sya and never failed to remind that I gotta take care of myself and drink water. She is health conscious, lahat naman kaming Maga-pipinsan but sometimes. I forgot to sleep regularly and I rarely eat heavy meals. Sunod ay ang picture ng San Diego Bridge sa States, si Louis
Nakatingala ako sa kalangitan habang ramdam ko ang init ng buhangin sa likod ko ngayon. I am laying on the sands at ang shades ko at proteksyon ko sa mga mata ko.Ramdam ko naman na ang hapdi ng sinag ng araw sa balat ko, i prefer this kind of heat at may balak ako maging tanned kapag babalik ako sa Manila, i really hate my milky white complexion, at yun din ang dahilan kaya ako iniwan ni Leto. Dahil sa burikatna morena.I canot blame my mama for having a milky white skin, pero alam ko sa sarili ko na lamang ako sa kahit saang angulo naman tignan, his girl is such a small insect, at ang palaka ay mabilis ma-attract sa insekto na lumilipada.Kaya lang, lamang padin sya kapag pag-mamahal na ni Leto ang usapan, doon ako talo at hindi ko na aasamin na manalo pa. I will do my best to e happy and stop worrying aat this time. Hindi naman bawal na maging single at the age of twenty eight. Marami pa naman akong pwede pag-daanan att tikman. Este matutuhan, my god. My whole mind is poluted becau
"Hindi at ayoko ano!" asik ko habang nasa likod ko si EJ at may hawak na bote ng beer, it's twelve of afternoon. Ang nang-yare kahapon sa dalampasigan na offer nya ay hindi pwede.Ayoko na patayin ako ng buong angkan ko, hindi pa nga nila alam na hiwalay na kami ni Leto, tapos mag-papakasal ako kay EJ? Well, kung sakal ay hindi ako mag-rereklamo. I love that, chos!"Why, you are single and I am too, we already fucked and I think we are compatible too Thana. At hindi din pwede na pakawalan pa kita, yu are one of a kind woman," he said at puring puri naman ako sa lalaki an ito. It makes me wonder, ilang babae na kaya nasabihan nya."Wow naman, lakas mambola ah. Samantalang member ka nga ng samahan ng mga hiwalay sa asawa elite group." Tinaasan ko ito ng kilay and his face went red. I saw it because I am also a member of that group.Wala kasi samahan nga mga hiwalay sa Fiance kaya no choice akong sumali doon, hindi sya desprate move no! I just want to find peace, at ang kapayapaan na iyo
My eyes are focused on Ej, na nakikipag usap sa babae na waitress sa bar. As what he said, dadalhin nya ako sa sand bar. Excited ako pero pag-dating namin ay dinagsa sya ng mga babae.I roll my eyes and heard the chuckles of the waitress who almost sat on Ej's lap now. "Sir, may order pa po ba kayo.?" she ask and I roll my eyes, again. Ang harot lang, sarap tampalin ng bote ng brandy."Umalis ka nalang, dami mo arte babae ka. Ihulog kita dyan," I whisper before drinking the brandy na kanina ko pa iniinom.Tumawa naman si Ej sa sinabi ko, tinignan ko din ito ng masama, nag-panting ang tenga ko ng madininig ko ang binulong nung babae."Ang yabang, maputi lang naman." Tinignan ako mula ulo hanggang paa. I smile sweetly bago tumayo.I start looking at her face and memorizing every single detail of it. "At least I am Del Russo, how about you? Anong maipag-mamalaki mo ha, tanginaka?" She is about to say something when I feed her with my hand, tinampal ko ng malakas ang pisngi saka tinulak
After that night, halos lumpuhin ako ni Ej, it's a good thing na mahimbing ang tulog nito. Matapos ko maisend ang emails sa mga partner ng pamilya ni Leto, the news start to spread like a wild fire. I did pay one of the publisher to expose Leto's infidelity while he is my Fiance. Media is harashing him and his lovely wife. I just bring hell to his life, he deserve every single time na kinakawawa sila sa social media.Paunti-unti silang binibitawan ng mga partners nila. Wala nang mas sasaya pa saakin ngayon, habang nasa taas ako, pinapanood ko silang mahulog at madapa. Gumapang sa lupa. He deserve it, every single time of it.Sumandal ako sa shivel chair ng opisina sa isla at binuksan ang tv. The news, sobrang init na balita ngayon.I can't help but to laugh. Sumimsim sa baso na may lamang alak. This is not the end of my revenge for him, kulang pa iyan sa lahat ng sakit at kahihiyan na ginawa nya saakin.Gusto ko gumapang sya pabalik saakin, hindi makakatiis si Leto, alam ko na hindi
Navi and I are sitting now and waiting for the attorney he hired for the case. There is an arrest warrant, and the police are currently looking for the manager. Today the attorney will talk to us about the case, and the police are also going to our house now."I'm nervous, Navi," I said, looking at Navi. My hands are sweating, and I feel like it's my fault. I might lose the case because Mama didn't respond and didn't want to talk to anyone; she didn't show up at home for several days."Why, there's nothing to be afraid of, baby. You are innocent, and you will win the case, that's for sure. Since he ran away with the money, the amount of evidence will say that he cheated and intended to run away with your money. So calm down, okay?" Navi caressed my hand and held it tight.I calmed down and smiled, leaning my head on his shoulder. I closed my eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. "Thank you; you are by my side while I am struggling with my situation right now. I feel safe and okay,
"Finish it too, Kourtney; you need to finish it now because we need it later." The folders fell in front of me, and the employee who was with me in my OJT today gave me a silly smile.I feel from the start that they don't like me, and it makes me feel uncomfortable. The company that bought our property, my current employer, is also stupid. The day he greeted the students and the big smile of Mr. Cruz to meBut his employees, especially the women, hate me. The work they leave behind is terrible, and I have almost exceeded the time allotted to me."Yes, I'll bring it later." I put the folders aside, and he looked at me before turning away. I dropped my back on the chair and stood up. It's been a long time; my lunch break is later.I stood up and took my pouch. I walked because I stepped on a bump, and I have a wound on my foot now."I'm only on a fifteen-minute break," I promised, and they just shut me up. I passed them and carried my pouch. I'm going to the company's smoking area, so I
When I got out of bed, I had a dragging sensation, and I knew I had school the next day, but I didn't feel like participating in our ojt. Drinking and getting drunk is my preferred activity."Kourtney!" When I turned to face the door, it opened with a warning from my mother, who looked quite irate and gave the impression that she was about to smack me at any moment. He threw the statement of account on the table and was visibly upset as he did so.This indignant remark and me spreading my blanket now: "You sold a building but no money entered my account; did you cheat me?" "Mom, the hospital costs for Papa have been paid. I also paid my tuition fee," I added, as his trembling fist smacked the paper across my face.If you spent it at school, that's perfectly OK; there's no reason for you to spend it with your dad. He is going to pass away; are you willing to spend any more money? My hair was smoothed back, and my shoulders were dropped forward."Mama, please don't speak to Papa in that
It seemed as though heaven and earth had encompassed me after our conversation with Tita. What the heck, I prepare everything and he knows it's our anniversary today, and then he goes to a pub with his pals. This is insane and really disturbing.I rose up, took up my coat and pocketbook, and placed my keys and phone inside. If Navi is here, I will approach her, and she will be quite near to me now.My fingers shook as I closed the hotel room door, even after I wiped my tears away and kept them from dropping since my make-up was a waste today, but I prepare and make an effort for this. I want it to be unique and unforgettable. But it's like throwing away all of my hard work here.I clutched my bag tighter and stepped into a cab in front of the hotel, my hand longing to hit someone, wanting to let out all my rage. Even though we seldom contact anymore, I understand him; he also stated that he knows my predicament because I am in it.We're both old and understand things like not being ab
I paid the remaining hospital money, but Papa's condition is not improving. Something is obstructing a vein in Papa's heart, preventing it from recovering.Every day that I am with Papa, I notice that his body is weakening and that issues in his body have emerged, therefore I can't help but be concerned about his current state.I grinned and stepped to the window, looking at the calendar and saw that today is Navi's anniversary. I need to get my thoughts in order, and because Navi and I haven't seen each other in a long time, I'll take advantage of the situation, because Navi promised to return home to Manila today, and it's also our anniversary.I grinned as I approached Papa and kissed his brow. His eyes were wide open, but he was unresponsive; nonetheless, I had the impression that he was listening to me."Just be patient, Dad, I'm graduating and will be able to focus on our business, so get well." I always support you because I can fight for your good." I grinned and hugged Papa,
I was seated on the dining chair, clutching my insurance policy. I discovered that I couldn't move her again since Mama previously touched her and took half of it, and I don't know what to do because I'm in the agreement that I can have complete control there when I'm twenty-four, and while I'm not at the correct age, Mom and Dad can still move it.I'm waiting for Mama to come home today; the situation has changed, and I'm worried I'm going insane since I don't have enough money to pay for school. Aunt and I covered Papa's other medical costs, and the school set me a deadline to pay my massive tuition price.I found the paperwork in Papa's study, and we have additional properties that I can mortgage. However, you are unable to move since Mama does not have a prime. My mother now has complete control of our properties, but I have no idea where she is.Mama spent all of the money in the bank, and if there had been no limit, she may have taken it all. Mama didn't come home when I began s
I was seated on the dining chair, clutching my insurance policy. I discovered that I couldn't move her again since Mama previously touched her and took half of it, and I don't know what to do because I'm in the agreement that I can have complete control there when I'm twenty-four, and while I'm not at the correct age, Mom and Dad can still move it.I'm waiting for Mama to come home today; the situation has changed, and I'm worried I'm going insane since I don't have enough money to pay for school. Aunt and I covered Papa's other medical costs, and the school set me a deadline to pay my massive tuition price.I found the paperwork in Papa's study, and we have additional properties that I can mortgage. However, you are unable to move since Mama does not have a prime. My mother now has complete control of our properties, but I have no idea where she is.Mama spent all of the money in the bank, and if there had been no limit, she may have taken it all. Mama didn't come home when I began s
I'm holding the ballpen, and we have an exam on my major topic today; I need to finish everything before I compete in the ojt because this is my final year of college."Miss Sanjorjo!" said our professor, and I leapt to my feet as my last name was pronounced. He raised his eyebrows as he examined my test paper."Okay, continue." I was turned aside, and Sheen moved to my side, motioning for me to pick up the tossed paper. I took it for granted, and now I know why.I rapidly copied the response and couldn't study it since I had to audit the store's income and pay Papa's hospital bill because it was rising and I couldn't afford to pay it, especially if it was a boy. We'll be out of pocket just in case.Papa's condition worsened rather than improved, and he is currently unstable. His hospital treatment is pricey, and we are concerned that he will have issues in his body.I can't limit my spending on Mama since I can't see her and inform her. Maybe I'll be the caustic one, or maybe we'll q
Tita was the first to return home, driving Navi's car back to their residence. We drove to their house in the afternoon after we ate, and Navi held my hand while driving and utilizing his new automobile with a large smile on his face, like a child who was overjoyed with the present he received."I didn't expect Mama to give me a new car, especially since she provided for all of my needs." "I am grateful that she always supports me," Navi murmured as we rounded the bend."You deserve this baby, and you work hard too." Navi gripped my hand tighter and grinned as she drove along the road."I'd like to leave you alone today, but Aunt has already planned a party." Maybe I'll say goodbye to Aunt Amelie tomorrow if you don't go home?" He inquired, and we came to a halt close to it. I shook my head and reached for my phone."No, I'll be the one to say goodbye to Tita, and they expect me to leave now." We'll be back tomorrow to celebrate your new accomplishment, so enjoy this day. You're the s