I am patiently waiting, like a child with the blanket up to my knees and my feet wriggling.
My brother is a big boy; he comforts his sister. I still remember him crying when Mama cannot stay by his side. As the older brother, I was by his side then. It's been a long time; it's just a toy; is it difficult to shop for all the colors or sizes? He's smiling from ear to ear when he comes out of my walk-in closet, and I'm frowning. Why is he smiling like an idiot? "Here." I almost threw my pillow at him when I took out all my collection; it was a tray! What the heck, I can't talk. I felt like I was covered with a dildo in my bed. I look at him, but he's at the door. "I'll get going." After he closes the door, I start shouting, "Tangina!" What? I'll put that in my pee at the same time. Then I don't want to use a diddle. I just miss Leto. He uses that toy before leaving me and fights with me as if we had nothing in common. I got the toy and hugged it all of a sudden. Everything in my mind disappeared, replaced by sadness, pain, and questions. Why did he do that to me? I'm still his fiance; I can't believe that. What if I was wrong? "He's loyal, Thana; stop that. It's impossible; he got your virginity so. "He's head over heels for you." I nodded then closed my eyes. Tomorrow they must not see any trace of sadness or any other pain that I felt tonight. Athanasia is a joyful and well-mannered woman. Full of wisdom, she is one of the strongest personalities in the business industry. No one can challenge me; I am the ruler of my own. And if there's something stupid about me, that's impossible. When I got off, as soon as I got out of my car, Brother Mage's staff met me. They made a fuss about taking the bag I brought and food for my brother since he always forgets to eat his lunch. "Ma'am Athanasia, I'm here." "Ma'am, what can you order?" "Ma'am Athanasia, this is—" I sigh and roll my eyes. At least, they will cause trouble in the morning. "Run away. Here, take my bag and take it to my office." When Ma'am Athanasia hears something, I'll tell you. I'll drop you from the rooftop. Be gone!" They ran away in front of me, and I handed the car key to the guard. I press the floor where Brother Mage is; I heard he has a new secretary. I hope she's beautiful and sexy when she's not dry, and she doesn't need to be fucked every day. So what! Office sex is hot; it's a dream come true if Leto fucks me at his office and covers my mouth to shut my mouth. "Kyahh," I shouted before the elevator opened. I saw Hestia talking to brother Mage. I sped up my pace to catch up and annoy Hestia even for a moment; she's cute when annoyed. Brother stood up, and Hestia seemed restless. "Ma'am Athanasia, here are papers that need to be reviewed," said Mr. Del Russo. I nodded and accepted the folder. "Thank you; can you please give me some warm espresso for me?" Use this" I reached for my credit card, and at the bottom of the building, there was a coffee shop. When I entered, Hestia was right out, and brother Mage's baby girl was half-running. Is it like I'm sick, and is the village girl avoiding me? I can hit it when I catch him or corner him. "What's wrong with her?" I ask my brother Mage, and he just smirks. "Did you give me some sex toys? That probably annoyed you," he said, sitting on his swivel chair and checking the paper on his table. "Impossible, she will love that sooner or later," says brother, who wears his eyeglasses. I feel a little sorry for my brother. That's at his age. His sexual life should be active. But that's it; focus on work in the company. He's the one who is responsible since he's firstborn and still male. "Sir Mage, here's your coffee." I looked at the woman who came in, and I almost laughed because she was walking carefully and the coffee is close. My brother crossed his fingers and watched the coffee reach him. "It's good that you didn't spill the coffee," my brother said. I walked to his secretary, an unfamiliar face. It's true. Brother's new secretary is young. Where was it before? "New secretary?" I ask and Kuya introduces her; she's Yuki, and Yuki looks like she won't break dishes; she's only as far as my eyes can see; I am taller than her. "I'm Athanasia Louise Del Russo, Kuya Mage's most beautiful, delicious, and kind cousin," I said, walking around her. She's perfect for Kuya. Small, sexy, and virgin faces too I have an idea! "You're perfect!" I said and clapped. I didn't listen to their wimps and snatched the sexy secretary. Many people were looking at us, and we were already in the elevator, going down. Let's see if my brother will let this secretary of his go. "Where are we, ma'am?" she asked, and I smirked. "You will be given a sexual life." So don't ask questions," he said, turning pale. I laughed at his reaction. "Ma'am?" "What the hell, it's delicious." At first, it hurts to break it. "But when you keep watering it, it's like you're living in a secret paradise, a paradise in a crowded cave!" I am very excited. I'm going to dress up. My brother Mage is my mascot.We went down to the salon and left the handbag we bought, along with the jewelry, on the side. But when clothes, shoes, and bags are delivered to the house“Ma’am Athanasia, welcome back!” I nodded and spoke to the stylist.“I want a full body massage for her, a pedicure, and a manicure as well.” Please fix her hair. “Put hair extensions when needed, okay?” I stopped talking and my phone rang, and the caller was Brother Mage.“Thana, please just please let my secretary come back; I need her.” He sounded problematic, but he needed to endure it for a day. For her sexual life“I’ll send my secretary, brother; Yuki will come in tomorrow.” “Don’t complain, you’ll be happy with what I did,” when I’m proud of him and I feel like he’s doing a facepalm right now.“I hired Yuki to be my secretary, not your shopping buddy.” I pouted and looked at Yuki. Lying there and massaging“Just now, tomorrow I’ll finish what you’re asking me to do.” I was interrupted when the text that had just been delive
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Nakatulala ako habang nilalaro ko ang lighter sa kamay ko at nakasandal sa sun lounger ng yacht na nasa di kalayuan ng Isla Fuegerito. Nilapag ko ang lighter at pinalit doon ang tequila na nasa tabi ng sigarilyo ko. I smile bitterly. Marahan ko na binuga ang usok at sinunod ang shot ng alak. I am at the island where no one can find me, mag-solo ako at ayoko na makipag-usap sa kahit sinong tao. I am crying every night lalo na kapag naaalala ko si Leto. All of his promises turn into dusk. Ako lang ang nakakakita ng ngiti nya noon, but now. I knew that I wasn't real. Everything is fake. Napaka-hirap ko ba talaga mahalin. Of course, I want a man who's responsible and well oriented on his life. Binaba ko ang standard ko para sa kanya, if that is what my family want, then gagawin ko. Ayoko na ma-disappoint sila mama at papa saakin. I obey them. Kahit na hindi bukal sa loob ko, ginawa ko padin. At ito ang resulta ng bawat sakripisyo ko para sa pang-sarili ko na kaligayan. Niloko at pi
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I can feel the heat of sun haban ang lagaslas ng alon ay nag-sisilbing musika sa tenga ko. I smile while watching my cousins and siblings sa mga kanya-kanya nilang social media accounts. Zoe always does her OOTD at motivational quotes na akala mo ay inlove na inlove. My brother post his hand and wrist watch habang nasa manibela ang kamay nito, ang lakas maka heartrob ang peg ni Delivery man ng Del Russo na jakulero. Sumunod naman ang litrato ni Lesaiah na busy na sa nalalapit nitong debut. I can't ditch her, as long that I can heal kahit paunti-unti ay mas mabuti. Lesaiah is such a good kid, at kahit na bihira kami mag-kita at mag-kausap ay lagi syang nag message saakin. Every morning, and evening, may message sya and never failed to remind that I gotta take care of myself and drink water. She is health conscious, lahat naman kaming Maga-pipinsan but sometimes. I forgot to sleep regularly and I rarely eat heavy meals. Sunod ay ang picture ng San Diego Bridge sa States, si Louis
Nakatingala ako sa kalangitan habang ramdam ko ang init ng buhangin sa likod ko ngayon. I am laying on the sands at ang shades ko at proteksyon ko sa mga mata ko.Ramdam ko naman na ang hapdi ng sinag ng araw sa balat ko, i prefer this kind of heat at may balak ako maging tanned kapag babalik ako sa Manila, i really hate my milky white complexion, at yun din ang dahilan kaya ako iniwan ni Leto. Dahil sa burikatna morena.I canot blame my mama for having a milky white skin, pero alam ko sa sarili ko na lamang ako sa kahit saang angulo naman tignan, his girl is such a small insect, at ang palaka ay mabilis ma-attract sa insekto na lumilipada.Kaya lang, lamang padin sya kapag pag-mamahal na ni Leto ang usapan, doon ako talo at hindi ko na aasamin na manalo pa. I will do my best to e happy and stop worrying aat this time. Hindi naman bawal na maging single at the age of twenty eight. Marami pa naman akong pwede pag-daanan att tikman. Este matutuhan, my god. My whole mind is poluted becau
"Hindi at ayoko ano!" asik ko habang nasa likod ko si EJ at may hawak na bote ng beer, it's twelve of afternoon. Ang nang-yare kahapon sa dalampasigan na offer nya ay hindi pwede.Ayoko na patayin ako ng buong angkan ko, hindi pa nga nila alam na hiwalay na kami ni Leto, tapos mag-papakasal ako kay EJ? Well, kung sakal ay hindi ako mag-rereklamo. I love that, chos!"Why, you are single and I am too, we already fucked and I think we are compatible too Thana. At hindi din pwede na pakawalan pa kita, yu are one of a kind woman," he said at puring puri naman ako sa lalaki an ito. It makes me wonder, ilang babae na kaya nasabihan nya."Wow naman, lakas mambola ah. Samantalang member ka nga ng samahan ng mga hiwalay sa asawa elite group." Tinaasan ko ito ng kilay and his face went red. I saw it because I am also a member of that group.Wala kasi samahan nga mga hiwalay sa Fiance kaya no choice akong sumali doon, hindi sya desprate move no! I just want to find peace, at ang kapayapaan na iyo
My eyes are focused on Ej, na nakikipag usap sa babae na waitress sa bar. As what he said, dadalhin nya ako sa sand bar. Excited ako pero pag-dating namin ay dinagsa sya ng mga babae.I roll my eyes and heard the chuckles of the waitress who almost sat on Ej's lap now. "Sir, may order pa po ba kayo.?" she ask and I roll my eyes, again. Ang harot lang, sarap tampalin ng bote ng brandy."Umalis ka nalang, dami mo arte babae ka. Ihulog kita dyan," I whisper before drinking the brandy na kanina ko pa iniinom.Tumawa naman si Ej sa sinabi ko, tinignan ko din ito ng masama, nag-panting ang tenga ko ng madininig ko ang binulong nung babae."Ang yabang, maputi lang naman." Tinignan ako mula ulo hanggang paa. I smile sweetly bago tumayo.I start looking at her face and memorizing every single detail of it. "At least I am Del Russo, how about you? Anong maipag-mamalaki mo ha, tanginaka?" She is about to say something when I feed her with my hand, tinampal ko ng malakas ang pisngi saka tinulak