It has been eight months since Auden with his ex-girlfriend left and went to the United States. Each day has been tough for me. There were times that I would suddenly burst into tears. But I have to accept that we are just up there. It was a big slap in the face that he left me. Slap of reality that everything will only happen in my dream. Getting married and our union was a big mistake and wasted because of the person who was truly the content of her heart.
I let out a deep sigh as I watched my fellow graduates take pictures with their friends and family. Today is the day I graduate from college. My eyes wander in every corner of the university. I observe the surroundings as I reminisce about the past. I found myself imagining Auden also wearing a black gown. He's smiling while going in my direction. To my suprise, Adeena came out of nowhere, running towards Auden and smiling like a happy an
So many questions are swirling around in my head. I'd like to know the answers to these questions. What is happening has made my mind befuddled and concerned.Even though I still haven't recovered from the shock of Dash's confession that I hadn't been paying attention for months, Kenny's reaction has added to my perplexity. She baffled me as our gazes connected and I felt the envy and grief in her eyes. But why is that?I'm curious what she was thinking when she saw me and Dash hugging each other. I'm sure it wasn't good because of her expression on her face, which was also evident that she was stunned.Dash shifted a little bit between our embraces, and I flinched. He is still reluctant to let me go. I felt terrible that I couldn't return his feelings for me. This is
From the middle, I pulled the curtain on either side, leaving it open. Next I opened my sliding window. Fresh, cold breeze blew and touched my face that I could not help but close my eyes just to feel.The sun from outside illuminated my entire room. I put my arms on the edge of the window. I looked down and then observed the quiet and beautiful atmosphere in the village. I'll see it in a moment. I don't know when I will be able to see this favorite place where I grew up again.Next I went to the front of the vanity table. I sat down and looked in the mirror. I started combing my long red hair. I stopped when I remembered what happened yesterday. Kenny must have been really hurt and I feel sorry for him. I'm guilty but I didn't want that.If I could just change how Dash feels, I’ll make sure he will like her. My life is still complicated like thread that tied in a knot. It's not that easy to fix so the knot has to be cut.Since yesterday we haven't
A week later, the day of my departure arrived. I am now dragging a suitcase while my assistant has my other belongings to take to our rest house in Batangas. It will be my temporary home in the next few days, months or maybe years.When we got to the gate, Dash and our driver grabbed the heavy baggages from me and our maid to help us get them inside the van. As I watched them put my belongings away I felt someone approach my side so I turned my attention to it.She sighed as it could be seen on her face that she was about to cry. "I will miss you..." Kenny said in a trembling voice, uncontrollable and hugged me tightly. "I will visit you, just tell me when you're bored there," she reminded as she parted from her hug."It won't take me many years there, if you talk like we'll never meet again," I said after striking her softly on the hands.As my daddy and I discussed, I will stay at one of our rest houses lo
My tears were starting to fall down my cheeks as I painfully stared at him. Seeing him brought me back to the day when he chose her more than me. Up to the day he left me in pain where crying was the only way to alleviate the pain. I was sobbing as my heart continued to pound hard.His presence was enough to hurt me and I could not stop my tears from falling. I’m sure I feel sorry in front of him now. I can no longer face him. I can’t hide anymore that fact that I’m still hurting and I’m still affected.I turned away without saying a word. Why? how?There are so many questions on my mind. How is he here in front of me when they are in the US? Why does he even need to go back? Of all places, why here?It was painful to see him. Why is it that every time I try to fix myself, he is here to ruin my plan and stop me? Is it fun to see me hurt and struggling to move on?
"You missed me?" I repeat what he said. I faced him while unable to believe what he said. "Are you playing with me?" annoyed I asked him. I didn’t have time to play with him. Because no matter what I do, I’m also the only one who loses the game he wants.If before he was laughing, now his face is serious. He's looking deep in my eyes. His stares touches my heart but my mind refuses it. I'm sure this is one of his games."I don't have time to play with you anymore, Auden. We're done, so, could you please stop giving me false hope? I'm so sick of this. You have given me too much pain. So that's right, please..." I couldn't stop the outburst of emotion and the flow of tears down my cheeks. His lips parted as he looked at me.I gave him one last look before turning my back at him. But before it happens, he suddenly grab my waist and pulled it to his body. I don't know why he keeps doing this. He's acting weird.
That's not true! I was still rolling around in my bed. I woke up earlier because I couldn't sleep thinking about what Aria said. It keeps messing with my mind.I lay down and pulled the blanket over my body up to my chest. I made myself comfortable with it. I let out a deep sigh as I faced the ceiling. The lamp to my right is the only source of light in my room.Aria's allegation is patently absurd. Closure? Auden wants closure? That is impossible. If he really wanted to, he would have done it a long time ago. Why did he need to stay a few more months? A few months passed before he took action.Maybe he was just being forced. If he wanted to, he would have taken me to our house then. What if I don't see him here? No closure to take place?What are these thoughts. I send too much of Aria's words. Allegations are untrited. I still don't know what caused Auden's return. There is uncertainty about whethe
"Now, tell me what's your relationship with that a*shole?" he asked emphatically after kissing me. His eyes seemed to be burning in anger. Did Dash made him jealous so he keeps acting like this? I still can't go back to my senses. I'm still shocked with what he just did. Is he the real Auden who is infront of me? I walked away a little and kept my eyes in gaze. I could still feet the sluggishness of his lip on mine. "Answer me or I'll kiss you again," he blackmailed me. I closed my eyes as he tossed my breath away. "He's my friend, Auden. Friend. Are you happy now?" I hissed. His expression changed rapidly. A corner of his lip glowed. "What was the kiss for? Are you really playing with me? I don't understand why you're messing with my mind, Auden. Can you stop? I'm tired and sick of being hurt—" "I like you, Cami. You are the reason why I came back. It's because of you," he said seriously as he smiled at me. My jaw
I squinted my right eye then followed it with a yawn. I turned my bedroom doorknob and exited. It was about twelve o'clock when I looked at the time so I decided to leave the room. My stomach is also getting bigger, because I didn't eat breakfast. I also slept for almost two hours. But it was still not enough to make up for my lack of sleep. I'll just go to bed early tonight.When I came out I looked at the first floor, but Aria was not there. Probably already in his room. I knocked three times before opening the door. I stuck my head in the small opening in the door. I saw Aria lying on her stomach while facing her laptop. She was smiling, she did not notice me yet."Hey, Aria!" I call her attention in my soft whispering voice. She got up when she looked back at me. "Let’s have lunch downstairs," I said. I even wave my hand.[Who's that, Aring, son?] The woman's voice asked from the laptop. Aria looked back there.
Lush leaves from the big tree serve as shade for Cami and Auden in the park. Cool and fresh breeze accompanies their singing hearts.Cami couldn't take her eyes off Auden's gentle face. She looks at him the way she looks at the sunset. Sunset is her favorite part of the day and Auden is her favorite person."Do you feel bored? Do you want to go home?" Auden asked Cami as she noticed her husband's silence. He put his hand in his wife's hair and combed it."I don't want to, I enjoy the view here, I want to savor every second and every minute looking at it," Cami said meaningfully while smiling. She is currently lying down and resting her head on Auden's thighs. She has a big belly and will only have a few days to wait for t
"I said where am I and you... Who are you?"I blinked a few times as I swallowed what was really going on. Tears start to trickle down my cheeks. It felt like my heart was being stabbed continuously. Gradually it is crushed.Why doesn't he remember me?I stood up and turned around because I could no longer. My chest tightens. I cried but I kept from making a noise. I quickly turned to face Auden as he pulled my arm.Suddenly the tears stopped flowing when I saw him laughing. "I was just kidding my wife. Come here, you called but I grabbed my hand and hit him."I though
"Please! Do everything you can! Please save him!" I pleaded with the nurses as Auden lay on the stretcher and headed to the emergency room. He's showering with blood. The shirt he was wearing was almost red and no longer white. I don’t know where he was hit, I don’t know if it was critical. All I knew was I was scared.I do not want to. I'm scared.Only now have I felt this fear again. Fear of losing an important person in life. I just want to take over there. I just wish. For me, isn't that bullet? Why does it always have to be Auden? Why not just me?I ran following the nurses until one of them blocked me when we got to the emergency room. "You're only up to here, Ma'am. It's forbidden to go inside," he said
Each of every second and every minute counts. The wedding will begin in ten minutes. My hands were shaking, cold yet sweaty with nervousness as if it hadn’t been once we were married. Almost everyone was waiting at church while I was still here at my Mommy's house, our house. I wanted to strike and pull my heart out because of the sheer force of its beating. Quiet, please. Auden might hear you later, embarrassing! I'm so stupid, talking to myself.I lifted my gaze in front of the mirror. A beautiful woman was standing in front of the mirror, facing me. A white, dazzling, diamond-covered, trumpet style gown made me in love with myself. Shez! Is it really me?This is not the wedding gown I wore then, that is way too simple compared to this one. We prepared everything better for this weddi
CAMI'S POV"Calm down, Cams," Kenny said as he nuzzled my back to calm me down. He sat next to me here in our living area. He took my hand and suppressed the shiver. "I really hope that Adeena witch gets caught, she has done nothing but disturb you!""I hope so too, Kenny. I hope he catches up so I can calm down. We have been married for a few days but this is still happening," I told her sadly. I sighed.Kenny is here at our house to accompany me. Auden doesn’t want to leave me alone, especially now that Adeena is just around and there seems to be a threat to us. Auden went to the police station because Adeena was about to be arrested by them. I kept praying that he would be imprisoned.
"Oh fuck!"I heard that and I know it was Auden. It was followed by the sharp and loud sounds of shoes hitting the floor and approaching me but I remained bent over and focused on my stomach.I don't feel pain.I don't feel anything.I kept my eyes staring at the blood stain in my dress and I froze with fear. I held it and immediately the missing red liquid was placed and clung to my hands. I almost fainted when I looked at my hand wrapped in red liquid."Damn it, what happened!?" Auden asked hurriedly, there was also a hint of fear in his voice. When I turned to look
What should I wear? Hmm?I picked up the blue knee -length stripe and the pink plain drop waist dress from the bed. I applied it one by one to myself while facing the full body mirror to compare which one would suit me better. I can’t decide what I’m going to wear. I'm leaving now because I'm going to earn Kenny. It’s also been a long time since we last met."This one seems uncomfortable," I said to myself while holding the pink drop waist dress to my right. I shook. I turned my gaze to the blue stripe dress on my left. This one looks nice and comfortable. My skin color got even brighter with this dress. I like it but I need a second opinion.I went out of the room and there I saw Auden talking on the ph
The newly rising sun was faintly shining in the streets, bringing a chaotic activity in the morning. I couldn't help but have fun while watching and retaliating here on our veranda. I still haven’t done it because sometimes I repeat. It's not that easy even though I'm just doing the basics.I decided to finish and make a scarf for my baby. I wish I had worked hard to be the first to hug him. I want her to feel my love through this scarf. That whenever he sees it, he will remember me. That his mommy did that. And she will give it more importance than other things because I did it for her myself.Tears well up in my eyes because I can't help but get emotional every time I think that Auden and I are going to have a baby. The speed of time. My decision to go back to him was not wasted. Those dise
“No, please ... Not my baby. It's just me! ”I struggled to beg as my trembling hands clasped and tears continued to flow into my eyes. I feel like I am on the brink of death."You took Auden with me, do you think I will just let both of you be happy?" She laughed like crazy then shook her head as she slowly stepped towards my direction. “Fucking no! Maybe in your dream, yes. But I won’t let you enjoy the position that is supposed to be mine. You should also feel how miserable I am because of you! ”Adeena's teeth chattered as she was crushing and killing me in her gaze. Her eyes were dark.I grew colder as if icy w