"Forgiving people in silence and never speaking to them again is a form of self care." - poetsglobe.
While scrolling through my Instagram feed, I came across this post. Okay, fine. Maybe it's best if I just stay quiet and find peace on my own. You will be dissatisfied if the enjoyment you seek comes from others. True enjoyment is having peace of mind and being content even without the assistance of others.
I promise myself that even if it's just me, I'll have fun. Even if I'm only carrying myself. I'm going to rebuild myself. I'm going to get up and start over. Maybe it's time to let go of the people who have just hurt me. I was happy without him, and I'm confident I can do it now.
Cami, you can do it. It's difficult, but you can and must deal with it.
For a few moments, the ride became awkward. This is because of what Dash told me last time. I don't want to make assumptions any
I've always wanted to slow time down. I want to appreciate every second, minute, and hour of my life. I want to live a longer life. I'm not sure I believe what my doctor told us. I refuse to accept the fact that I only have a short time left to live. That is something I despise. But I still want to give my all. I wantall the best. That's how valuable time is to me.But during these times, I want to finish quickly and make the most of every second. I was in pain every minute. Choking and breathing difficulties Why isn't the ferris wheel spinning faster? I must be a moron if I ask for it to roll faster. I'm desperate for this to be over. I don't want to because it is already in pain. Their sweet gestures take my breath away.It seemed to take away all the enjoyment I had previously felt when I hadn't even seen them. I'm content. Even if only for a few hours, I was content. But why is fate betraying me yet again?We w
In a short time, so much has changed. The wind seemed to blow my life. And it turned out to be a whole chaos. It seems like a while ago we just got married. It seems like a while ago we just moved into a new house. Everything seem so perfect and everything we plan went well. I have nothing more to ask for. I was happy with my family, Auden and the short time left for me.But how quickly I was happy for a moment was so quickly how it all took away from me. What happened make me question myself. Did I do somethingin my life to make me suffer all this? It’s just sad that I wasted my whole life spent building myself. It’s sad because I’m here at the point in my life that is gradually being crushed and destroyed because of the person I thought was the ‘right person’.Despite all the chaos happening in my life, I'm thankful that I'm not losing my whole self yet. This is the only one who will love me completely,
My mind is a mess. But there is one thing I'm sure of. I want to see Auden and stop him. It was as if something was blocking my heart until I took action to do so. And in the end, I decided to actually go to him.I turned to climb up. I'll take my car key. Then I went down as well. Daddy greeted me with a dark aura staring at me."You're not leaving, Cami," he said, full of authority. I've always been a good daughter to them. But now I have nothing else to do. I want to stop Auden. Only now will I disobey them. It hurts to do this to them but I don’t want to regret in the end that I did nothing to stop him.I walked past them as my tears flowed. I stopped when Daddy grabbed my arm to stop me. I cried looking at him.
KENNEDY’S POVI almost ran and walked out of the room carrying my belongings. We just finished our last class today. I'm going to Cami now. I heard this morning what happened at the airport. I'm so shocked when I found out it was my friend who's in the news. What is she doing at the airport that night?I was absent for a few days so we barely talked. My body mix is so bad to the point that I can't even text her so I don't have any idea what is going on."Mars! Where are you going?" Kim suddenly appeared in front of me, she's wearing her usual bubbly face. I looked up at the man next to him, my forehead furrowed. He looks familiar. I'm trying to remember from the back of my mind where I saw this man. Ohh ... Yeah. He was Auden's friend. So he is the man with Auden to
"Are you hitting on me?" I almost slapped my mouth for saying those words but it's too late, he heard it.He chuckled while scooping some ice cream. "I'm sorry if I make you feel like that, but I'm not. I like someone else," he replied directly, like he wasn't offended by what I accused him of. It was as if the cold wind was hugging me, my chest aching because of what he said. This is so awkward!"Whoever they are, they will assume the same thing I thought when you told them what you just told me," I defended myself in extreme embarrassment. Why does he have to tell me those words? I almost think that he likes me. Grr."Really? But I'm just describing you," he said as he made eye contact with me, my lips parted. So, I'm the only one who thinks the meaning of what he said?
It has been eight months since Auden with his ex-girlfriend left and went to the United States. Each day has been tough for me. There were times that I would suddenly burst into tears. But I have to accept that we are just up there. It was a big slap in the face that he left me. Slap of reality that everything will only happen in my dream. Getting married and our union was a big mistake and wasted because of the person who was truly the content of her heart.I let out a deep sigh as I watched my fellow graduates take pictures with their friends and family. Today is the day I graduate from college. My eyes wander in every corner of the university. I observe the surroundings as I reminisce about the past. I found myself imagining Auden also wearing a black gown. He's smiling while going in my direction. To my suprise, Adeena came out of nowhere, running towards Auden and smiling like a happy an
So many questions are swirling around in my head. I'd like to know the answers to these questions. What is happening has made my mind befuddled and concerned.Even though I still haven't recovered from the shock of Dash's confession that I hadn't been paying attention for months, Kenny's reaction has added to my perplexity. She baffled me as our gazes connected and I felt the envy and grief in her eyes. But why is that?I'm curious what she was thinking when she saw me and Dash hugging each other. I'm sure it wasn't good because of her expression on her face, which was also evident that she was stunned.Dash shifted a little bit between our embraces, and I flinched. He is still reluctant to let me go. I felt terrible that I couldn't return his feelings for me. This is
From the middle, I pulled the curtain on either side, leaving it open. Next I opened my sliding window. Fresh, cold breeze blew and touched my face that I could not help but close my eyes just to feel.The sun from outside illuminated my entire room. I put my arms on the edge of the window. I looked down and then observed the quiet and beautiful atmosphere in the village. I'll see it in a moment. I don't know when I will be able to see this favorite place where I grew up again.Next I went to the front of the vanity table. I sat down and looked in the mirror. I started combing my long red hair. I stopped when I remembered what happened yesterday. Kenny must have been really hurt and I feel sorry for him. I'm guilty but I didn't want that.If I could just change how Dash feels, I’ll make sure he will like her. My life is still complicated like thread that tied in a knot. It's not that easy to fix so the knot has to be cut.Since yesterday we haven't
Lush leaves from the big tree serve as shade for Cami and Auden in the park. Cool and fresh breeze accompanies their singing hearts.Cami couldn't take her eyes off Auden's gentle face. She looks at him the way she looks at the sunset. Sunset is her favorite part of the day and Auden is her favorite person."Do you feel bored? Do you want to go home?" Auden asked Cami as she noticed her husband's silence. He put his hand in his wife's hair and combed it."I don't want to, I enjoy the view here, I want to savor every second and every minute looking at it," Cami said meaningfully while smiling. She is currently lying down and resting her head on Auden's thighs. She has a big belly and will only have a few days to wait for t
"I said where am I and you... Who are you?"I blinked a few times as I swallowed what was really going on. Tears start to trickle down my cheeks. It felt like my heart was being stabbed continuously. Gradually it is crushed.Why doesn't he remember me?I stood up and turned around because I could no longer. My chest tightens. I cried but I kept from making a noise. I quickly turned to face Auden as he pulled my arm.Suddenly the tears stopped flowing when I saw him laughing. "I was just kidding my wife. Come here, you called but I grabbed my hand and hit him."I though
"Please! Do everything you can! Please save him!" I pleaded with the nurses as Auden lay on the stretcher and headed to the emergency room. He's showering with blood. The shirt he was wearing was almost red and no longer white. I don’t know where he was hit, I don’t know if it was critical. All I knew was I was scared.I do not want to. I'm scared.Only now have I felt this fear again. Fear of losing an important person in life. I just want to take over there. I just wish. For me, isn't that bullet? Why does it always have to be Auden? Why not just me?I ran following the nurses until one of them blocked me when we got to the emergency room. "You're only up to here, Ma'am. It's forbidden to go inside," he said
Each of every second and every minute counts. The wedding will begin in ten minutes. My hands were shaking, cold yet sweaty with nervousness as if it hadn’t been once we were married. Almost everyone was waiting at church while I was still here at my Mommy's house, our house. I wanted to strike and pull my heart out because of the sheer force of its beating. Quiet, please. Auden might hear you later, embarrassing! I'm so stupid, talking to myself.I lifted my gaze in front of the mirror. A beautiful woman was standing in front of the mirror, facing me. A white, dazzling, diamond-covered, trumpet style gown made me in love with myself. Shez! Is it really me?This is not the wedding gown I wore then, that is way too simple compared to this one. We prepared everything better for this weddi
CAMI'S POV"Calm down, Cams," Kenny said as he nuzzled my back to calm me down. He sat next to me here in our living area. He took my hand and suppressed the shiver. "I really hope that Adeena witch gets caught, she has done nothing but disturb you!""I hope so too, Kenny. I hope he catches up so I can calm down. We have been married for a few days but this is still happening," I told her sadly. I sighed.Kenny is here at our house to accompany me. Auden doesn’t want to leave me alone, especially now that Adeena is just around and there seems to be a threat to us. Auden went to the police station because Adeena was about to be arrested by them. I kept praying that he would be imprisoned.
"Oh fuck!"I heard that and I know it was Auden. It was followed by the sharp and loud sounds of shoes hitting the floor and approaching me but I remained bent over and focused on my stomach.I don't feel pain.I don't feel anything.I kept my eyes staring at the blood stain in my dress and I froze with fear. I held it and immediately the missing red liquid was placed and clung to my hands. I almost fainted when I looked at my hand wrapped in red liquid."Damn it, what happened!?" Auden asked hurriedly, there was also a hint of fear in his voice. When I turned to look
What should I wear? Hmm?I picked up the blue knee -length stripe and the pink plain drop waist dress from the bed. I applied it one by one to myself while facing the full body mirror to compare which one would suit me better. I can’t decide what I’m going to wear. I'm leaving now because I'm going to earn Kenny. It’s also been a long time since we last met."This one seems uncomfortable," I said to myself while holding the pink drop waist dress to my right. I shook. I turned my gaze to the blue stripe dress on my left. This one looks nice and comfortable. My skin color got even brighter with this dress. I like it but I need a second opinion.I went out of the room and there I saw Auden talking on the ph
The newly rising sun was faintly shining in the streets, bringing a chaotic activity in the morning. I couldn't help but have fun while watching and retaliating here on our veranda. I still haven’t done it because sometimes I repeat. It's not that easy even though I'm just doing the basics.I decided to finish and make a scarf for my baby. I wish I had worked hard to be the first to hug him. I want her to feel my love through this scarf. That whenever he sees it, he will remember me. That his mommy did that. And she will give it more importance than other things because I did it for her myself.Tears well up in my eyes because I can't help but get emotional every time I think that Auden and I are going to have a baby. The speed of time. My decision to go back to him was not wasted. Those dise
“No, please ... Not my baby. It's just me! ”I struggled to beg as my trembling hands clasped and tears continued to flow into my eyes. I feel like I am on the brink of death."You took Auden with me, do you think I will just let both of you be happy?" She laughed like crazy then shook her head as she slowly stepped towards my direction. “Fucking no! Maybe in your dream, yes. But I won’t let you enjoy the position that is supposed to be mine. You should also feel how miserable I am because of you! ”Adeena's teeth chattered as she was crushing and killing me in her gaze. Her eyes were dark.I grew colder as if icy w