Survival instincts.

Amanda. 

‘You are pregnant, Amanda.’

No matter how many times I tried to release my mind from those words after hearing them about three days ago, I just couldn’t. 

Zane had gotten me pregnant, and then went ahead to mate with my twin sister. 

Who would I tell my plight to?

*Tell him.* My wolf, Sapphire, whispered to me. 

*And then what?* I asked her. 

*He’ll definitely take us back. He knows that he is the only person you have ever been with. He will know that the pup belongs to him.* Sapphire said. 

Her words encouraged me. And despite my reluctance of doing anything else but trying to get him to accept me as a second option because I am pregnant, I desperately wanted to try now. 

*Alright.* I told my wolf and smiled when she squeaked in my head. I felt her pant from that little task and felt sorry for making her bear the weight of carrying an Aloha blooded child. 

*We’ll be fine.* She said to me, making me realize that she could always hear my thoughts since we were one. 

For the rest of afternoon went better for me. Marie, who was always hovering around me like a mother hen after hearing what the doctor told me, rushed to my side and took the big pot I was carrying, giving me a few plates to carry instead. I smiled my gratitude at her, wondering what I would have done without her help. 

We went about our tasks that way and soon, night crowded the place. While the other argued and fought for bathing and sleeping space, I sat outside under the half moonlight and thought about what to do next. 

“What’s bothering you?” I heard behind me. Before I could turn, Marie was beside me. 

I shook my head, dismissing her question. There was no way I would tell her that the man I was pregnant for was Alpha Zane and that I was looking for a way to get him away from the Luna, who happened to be my sister, and letting him know that I was pregnant for him. 

“I think you should let Alpha Zane know about the baby. That way, he can decide what he wants to do and that might make him realize the errors of his ways,” Marie said. 

I looked at her with shock and she chuckled. 

“Well, everyone knows how lovey-dovey you and Alpha Zane was before this turn of events.” She said with a shrug. 

I blushed, not knowing what to say to that. 

“And if you are worried about the Luna who is always around him, I’ll be glad to let you know that she went for a visit to your parents’ house, and that should give you enough time to see the Alpha and let him know what is going on.”

Relief flooded me from hearing that. I quickly got up from my seat. 

“Thank you so much, Marie,” I said, squeezing her hand. 

I rushed into the bathroom just as the person inside came out. The others yelled about staying in line but I ignored. I wanted to look good before my encounter with Zane. Once I was out, Marie helped dressed me up in one of the few nice and clean clothes I had. By the time we were done, I felt beautiful in my own skin. 

“Now, go and show him what he is missing in his life,” Marie said with an encouraging smile. 

I nodded. Before leaving, I gave her a hug and whispered a ‘thank you’ into her ears. 

Now alone and on my way to the Alpha’s house, my heart beat erratically in my chest. Lott of thoughts and questions filled my mind. A lot of ‘what ifs’. 

What if it all works out well?

What if he denied the pregnancy?

What if he called the whole pack on me and humiliate me?

What if mg sister came in then and beat me up until I lost the baby I was carrying?

What if this, what if that. 

Still, I forged ahead, determined to take the bold step. At least that way, I would never end up with regrets of what could have been if I had only summoned courage to talk to the man. 

I soon got to his place. Luckily for me, as Marie had said, Tiana was nowhere to be found. Just as there was no guard to be found. That revelation brought back the memory of what I found out about my ex and my sister a few weeks ago, but I brush the memory and hurt off. 

Now was not the time for that. 

I pushed the door opened and got in. Alpha Zane was sitting on the couch, bent over the table and looking over some files. 

“Wi… Alpha?” I called to get his attention. 

He looked up to see who had called him. His blue eyes darkened the moment his gaze fell over my face. 

“How dare you?!” He hissed at me. 

Not the kind of energy I expected, but I still wasn’t willing to back down from the task at hand. 

I immediately went on my knees for him. “Please listen to me. Just… five minutes,” I pleaded, already closed to tears. 

“Unless you want to—“ He started. I knew it was going to be a threat, so just cut him off. 

“—I am pregnant!” I yelled at the top of my voice. The tears began to fall freely. “Please,” I added after I didn’t hear a response for like twenty seconds. I risked a look up at him and saw his gaze so dark, I was sure he was ready to kill someone. 

Fear gripped me at that moment. Even though I wanted to trust him from the times we’ve spent together, something told me I was going to regret telling him about the baby. 

“How dare you be pregnant?!” He stormed at me. 

I looked up to pleading with him, but what I saw next made me moved back with reflex. 

Alpha Zane’s claws were out and they were aimed at my throat. If I hadn’t moved when I did, I would be a dead person already. 

“Die!” He yelled, rushing toward me. 

I got up and did the next best thing I knew. 

I ran!

I ran straight out of his house and the pack. 

That, was the only way I knew my baby and I would survive.