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2021-04-30 14:28:02Aubree's Pov
*Then*
My eyes were open all the time. I looked at a body coming near me. Though my eyes were blurry at that time, I could still recognise him. It was Jaden. He had come here now, I would be safe now. Safe from Seb, but forever unsafe in life.
Have you ever felt this way? That whether your eyes are opened or closed, it doesn't matter anymore. Like all your deepest desires are suddenly dead. Once in my life, I opened my eyes cheerfully, just to experience the good in the day to follow. I always had a hope that something good would suddenly come over, and my life will change to the normal one that I once lived. But nothing like that ever occurred. Though I still had that hope in my heart.
I thought that if I owned nothing, had nothing, was nothing, I would have nothing left to lose, and I wouldn't be scared anymore. Because my whole life I’ve been so damn scared. Scared to live becaus
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