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2021-04-30 14:16:54Aubree's Pov
Silently I entered the apartment and tiptoed towards our room and locked it while I sat on the bed and began rummaging through the pages of the diary. Jaden wasn't home yet and I knew that I had almost an hour before he came back.
As I was trying to find the date that I remembered, I saw that a packet with white powder fell on the ground. I picked to inspect it and I realised what it was.
What the hell?
I was on drugs? I never knew I would even consider such a thing. Oh my god! I could not believe it. I instantly packed the powder in a packet and threw it out of the window.
Now my curiosity level had increased even more. I opened a page and found that I had written about that club where I went, and all the memories after that was a blur. So I began to read from the next date onwards.
25th May 2007
Hey Diary, this is me Aubree again! You have no idea what happened today! After that par
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