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2024-07-11 20:59:02Silvia woke up to Depeche Mode’s Personal Jesus.
The sun was setting and she was alone in bed, tucked in soft sheets that smelled of lemon and the fat white comforter. Jim had left a few hours ago to let her rest, because after those weeks apart, it was plain to see she wouldn’t get any rest with him around.
She’d fallen sound asleep, exhausted, and now she had the persistent feeling of being still lost in a dream. But she wasn’t. This was not the Black Rock. It was the Ashtray, her new home, and that music had to be a phone ringing.
But not hers. She’d never used that song as a ringtone.
She followed the music to the other nightstand, where she found a new phone still inside its open box with a red ribbon. And she laughed out loud when she grabbed it and saw the caller was My Personal J.
“Hey, you awake?” Jim asked when she picked up, still chuckling.
“Hey, you just woke me u
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