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2021-03-27 20:49:47IT'S NOT A GOODBYE
Lillian.
I keep thinking that my baby will die but I desperately want to keep it. I called my mom,I told her about my pregnancy, she said "it will stay" . why isn't any body telling me that it might die,they keep giving me positive vibes increasing my wanting for this baby that might die. I told Mark not to tell his mom about my pregnancy for now,he agreed even though I know he will tell her later.
It hasn't been long I came to this school as a woman searching for a new life but here I am today, about to tell the principal about my resignation. To think I will tell my students who once had difficult times with me and finally now that we are in good sync, I'm leaving. I sat down in front of the principal,explaining to him why I wanted to resign. He gave his ears as I said mumbling words,words that I didn't want to tell him. He looked and spoke as iRelated chapters
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