I spent most of the afternoon and evening with my father, we caught up on everything we missed out on. He brought me and Jeremy to the grocery store and made sure I had lots of extra food, he was heading back to work tomorrow and would be gone for the week. I think he bought me food for 3 months, I got used to not eating much. I spent most of my money on things for Jeremy and putting payments on my debt. My father also wanted to leave me his car while he was away at work since he wouldn’t be using it. “Are you sure you guys will be ok here?” he said on his way out the door looking around my apartment. I nodded, “Yes dad thank you for everything, we both really appreciate it.” With that he left, I took Jeremy in my arms and gave him big snuggles. This little boy was beyond perfect and I wouldn’t let anyone hurt him, I couldn’t. He looked up at my with his big brown eyes, I was so thankful I made the choice to run. We didn’t have much but we had each other and I’ll do everything in
I spent the next weeks trying to catch up on sleep every time Jeremy slept, he seemed to always be up every night around 4 until about 6. I kept getting texts all week from different numbers, I would block the number then I would get one from a different number,Unknown number: Tell me where you are before I find you.Unknown number: I’m not saying it again! Tell me now before I get fucking pissed off.Unknown number: I’ll call every fucking hospital in the state until I find out where you had my son, I will fucking find you.Unknown number: I miss you so much can I please meet my son, we are supposed to be a family. Let me be part of your lives, I want to be there for my son the way my father wasn’t.Unknown number: I love you Kay, I know I fucked up, can you please forgive me I promise you no more shit, I’m done with the drinking and drugs let me show you how much I’ve changed.I constantly ignored his messages even though a little part of me wanted to answer him and tell him
I woke up to my phone ringing, it was really late. I sat up looking around when I saw Jeremy begin to move, I grabbed my phone quickly and answered before even looking at the caller ID,“Hello, is this Kay Myles?”“Hi, yes it is can I help you?” my voice was muffled as I just woke up, I glance at the clock and it was 3 in the morning.“Ms Myles, I am calling from the Mexican border patrol, I was just calling to let you know we have arrested a Darren Spencer. He asked we give you a call so you would not worry. He is in custody and will be detained at Sonora Correctional Centre if you wish to contact him.”I was a bit taken back, why would he ask them to contact me. I shook my head,“What did he get arrested for?”“He was found with several narcotics trying to come into Mexico.”I shook my head, of course he was. Why would he want me to hear this. I thanked the man and hung up, this wasn’t the first time he was arrested.FlashbackI had just found out about Darren emptying my account an
I woke up in the morning feeling very restless after last nights call I couldn’t go back to sleep. The Sonora jail called, I contemplated answering but curiosity got the best of me.“Hello?”“Hey babe, can we talk?”That’s the first time I heard his voice in a month, I felt my heart beat faster. I didn’t know what to say to him, I was completely speechless.“How about I talk and you can listen. I’m looking at about 5 years for this. The lawyer I met with this morning told me he thinks he can get me off with a promise to not return into Mexico but it could take a year or two to get there.”I still didn’t say anything, I listened to his hurt voice as he tried to explain everything to me.“I love you so much Kay, you have no idea how crazy I went when you left. I fucked things up bad didn’t I? It wasn’t supposed to be this way, I was supposed to be there for you and our little boy. We were supposed to be a family and I messed up so bad this time. What’s his name?”“Jeremy” I was able to
Tomorrow was the day my dad was supposed to be coming home, I was looking forward to seeing him again. I definitely needed a distraction after days of contemplating if I should write Darren or not. My head said no while my heart was begging me too.Jeremy was starting to sleep a bit better, so I was feeling more rested and like myself. Instead of being up every 2 hours, sometimes he would sleep 4 hours at a time which was amazing.My phone rang, I glanced down at the caller ID, it was the jail again. He has called me every single day since we talked but I felt guilty knowing those talks were costing him food. I have ignored each of his calls since then, I looked over at Jeremy who had his big brown eyes open suddenly,“Good morning handsome”He gave me a big gummy smile, I loved when he smiled at me although I’m pretty sure it was just gas.I decided to take him out for a walk, we haven’t really been out much and I was beginning to feel down. I haven’t even explored the town since we
I sent a bit of money into Darren’s account and began to write a letter,‘Hey, hope all is going good for you there. I know it can’t be easy, but maybe this is a sign Darren, it’s time to slow down. In a way I do wish you would of met Jeremy, he is so beautiful. He looks so much like you, he is literally perfect. I sent you some pictures in the letter so you could see him. I am sorry for the way things worked out but I can’t do this anymore, our son deserves better.’I left it at that, who even writes letters anymore, and what was I supposed to say to him. I put the letter in the envelope along with some pictures.I took Jeremy out and went to the mail, dropping the letter in there, once I got home I was receiving a call from the jail,“Hello?” “Hey, thank you for sending me money.”“Yeah I thought you weren’t going to call constantly, I wrote you a letter so you don’t need to call constantly ok”“Thank you, I just wanted to try it out make sure it worked, I got a few things from can
The next day, I was waiting for my dad to come visit. He called earlier and asked if I wanted to go spend a few days at his place, I agreed it would be nice to get away for a bit. I knew Darren was locked up and wouldn’t be able to find me, I had everything packed while Jeremy slept. I decided to write another letter to Darren,‘Hey, there’s something I want to ask you, I want an honest answer. Have you ever cheated on me? I keep thinking about it, I want you to know I’ve never cheated on you. You made me feel so shitty about myself when I was pregnant and I’ve never done anything. I really loved you a lot Darren, I always have and I think I always will.If you ever want things to work out we need to talk more and work some things out. We need to be honest with each other and rebuild our trust. My gut tells me you cheated, I have come to terms with the fact you have cheated on me and I know you weren’t in the right state of mind. I have forgiven you for it, but I refused to forgive yo
I spent a few days with my father ignoring all the calls from the jail, I was trying to get my head clear. My last night there, my dad put Jeremy to bed and fell asleep with him. I took Jeremy off of him and put him in his bed and put a blanket over my father. I was wide awake, since I’ve been here my dad has been doing a lot to help me out, he would let me sleep in and even got up for some night feedings.I went and sat on the deck and enjoyed some time alone, my father lived on a dead end street that looked onto the bush. He had a large deck with a couch and table, as a teenager I used to hate living out here, away from everyone but right now this was perfect.I looked over at the yard and I could picture Jeremy running around and playing here, I heard a sound not too far from me. I looked over, it was probably just an animal, there were always animals coming through here.I moved over on the couch so I could lay down and look up at the stars,“Don’t forget to make a wish!” a famil
As we entered the house, I glanced everywhere it was literally perfect, he listened to every think I liked and didn’t like from every house we looked at. I couldn’t stop smiling as I made my way to each room.I felt tears coming down my cheeks as I pulled Ian closely, “Thank you babe.”He hugged me back, “Maybe we will get luckier here trying to make a family, we have 1 less thing to stress about now.”And that’s the first thing we did, we stripped our clothing off and tried our luck as we had hot crazy sex all over the new house. We spent the next few days planning our move and picking colors and every chance we got we would try our luck in the new house. Once we got back home we posted Ian’s house for sale and it sold immediately. I was so anxious to pick the boys up and show them the house, as I got there I was so happy and Steve noticed.“Was it a good few days?” He asked me giving me a curious look.I nodded, “Yes Ian got my dream house built for us. It’s only an hour aw
I felt my heart completely stop as I began to panic “Surgery? What happened? I thought he was okay and would be coming home today.”She seemed to panic a bit too as she tried to shuffle through the papers she was reading quickly as she kept looking up at me,“It looks like this is a different procedure Ma’am, he is in getting a small repair done from a previous injury.”I was taken by surprise as I looked at her, he was getting the surgery done so we could start trying for babies. I couldn’t hide my smile as I thanked her and walked back to his room. I sat patiently as I waited for him to get out. He came in walking a bit funny as I began to laugh,“Are you okay babe?”He gave me a awkward smile, “Yeah I’m just numb and it feels so weird.”I got up and gave him a tender kiss on his lips as he kissed me back, “I hear you went for the procedure.”He nodded, “Don’t get upset though if it doesn’t work Kay, the odds are really slim, promise?”I smiled and nodded, “It’s fine if it
Ian explained to us how when he used to have the odd run ins with Will he was usually just there, never anything to get him for even though he heard rumors he was a assassin there was never any proof. The last time he spoke to Darren , Darren mentioned Will was in there and was trying to bribe him into helping him out of there. Obviously he denied and I guess Darren put a hit on him.Although these were all theories there was no hard evidence of any of this being true although Will would be incarcerated for quite some time after this.We spent the next few days in the hospital as Ian was doing amazing, he was beginning to slowly get around the room and go for small walks around the hallways. I was constantly with him, I was terrified to leave his side. The last day in the hospital Ian had several tests to do before they would release him so I took a bit of time to go check on the boys. I was really excited to see them, it’s been a while since I saw them.I drove over to mine and St
I felt my stomach turn as I looked over at Ian, this means that this was all my fault. I haven’t heard from Darren or anything since I walked out of the visit with him. Jones told me he was going to look into a few things and go visit Darren, I was praying it had nothing to do with him. I didn’t want to be held responsible for Ian being shot.I sat next to Ian all day when I remembered I had to pick the kids up in the morning, I sent Steve a message,Kay: There’s been an emergency , I’m going to see if my father can pick the boys up tomorrow.Steve answered me quickly, Steve: No worried Kay, I’ve missed them. I’ll take this run off. Can I keep them until my next run?I looked over at Ian, I wanted to see my boys I missed them so much but I needed to be here for Ian. I didn’t want to leave his sight.Kay: Yes but I want to see them when I’m done dealing with this, even just for a little bit.Steve: Your always welcome here Kay.I rolled my eyes then I thought about it, I looke
I followed the nurse to the room, I saw Ian’s body laying on the bed. There was no movement and he was extremely pale. I slowly walked over as I glanced at the monitor I was trying to memorize all the numbers to keep an eye on them. I grabbed Ian’s hand when I noticed his ring was gone, I looked at the nurse,“Where’s his ring?”She gave me apologetic look, “I’m sorry ma’am it’s in his possessions, we had to remove it for surgery once he’s awake we can put it back on.”I nodded and gave her a smile, I noticed she was optimistic also. Once she left the room I sat there and starred at him he looked so peaceful, I looked at the monitor several times waiting for something to change. I began to talk to him,“Hey baby, I’m here. Your out of surgery now and you did so good. Besides dying on me several times but you came back so your forgiven. Now I need you to open those beautiful eyes of yours and come back to me. I don’t like spending my honeymoon like this. We are supposed to be plann
I was waiting as I saw several officers begin to pile into the waiting room, they just kept coming and coming, when I noticed Officer Cooper walk in, she sat with some of the other officers I could see she was crying as some of them were trying to console her.Detective Jones came and sat next to me with a coffee as he passed it to me, I gave him a small smile and thanked him. Just then I saw a woman walk in and she looked so much like Ian it made my stomach turn to see her. She ran directly to officer Cooper as I watched, I saw Jones tense up. I heard his sister say, “Cassie, what the fuck is going on? Did I hear right? My brother was getting married when this happened?”The officer glared at me and nodded as she gave her a hug. His sister backed away as she continued, “I guess congratulations Cassie, I always knew you two would work it out. I’m so happy my brother finally settled.”I saw her whisper something towards her and they both glared to me, I felt extremely uncomfortabl
I heard a lot of screaming around us as I looked up everything was in slow motion, the man who was looking at us was being handcuffed and dragged away, I looked at myself and I was covered in blood. I looked back down at Ian he’s eyes were large, he kept trying to sit up. I put my hands on him and pushed him back down, “Relax babe, relax.” I was trying to put pressure on his wound when I felt someone come next to me. There was a man standing there, he began to unbutton Ian’s shirt,“I am a physician at the local hospital ma’am, we need to see where the wound is.”I began to nod, I was in such shock I don’t think I could speak or move or cry. I just kneeled down next to him and held his hand as I starred at him. There was so much going on around us, I could hear screaming and crying from everywhere, I heard a lady shout,“The ambulance is 5 minutes out.”The doctor had his shirt pushed against his chest, he managed to spit out a few words,“I.. I… love.. you.. I’m.. I’m.. sorry
I smiled at him as I nodded. He returned my smile, “You know Kay, if you want a big wedding I’ll be happy to give you one.”I nodded, “What do you want?”He shook his head, “You in any way I can have you.”I laughed as I could feel my cheeks warm up, “How about we plan a party in a few months for family and friends to celebrate our wedding.”He smiled, “That sounds perfect.”Just then we heard our name, “Kay Myles and Ian Smith”I felt my stomach turn as I got up and followed Ian into the court room. I was beginning to shake as we made our way to the room. Ian handed me his ring as I looked into his eyes and I saw complete confidence on his face. I gave him a smile as I felt myself calming down, the minister began to ceremony, this was completely different then a traditional wedding. “Do you take Ian Smith as your lawfully wedded husband?”I smiled at him, “I do.” I took his ring out and slid it on his finger.He gave me a large smile as the minister continued, “Do you take
The next morning I woke up to Ian playing with my hair, our legs were tangled together as we were holding on to each other closely. I was never much of a cuddler but the small amount of sleep I did get felt like the best sleep I’ve ever had. I looked up to his eyes, “Good morning.” I whispered. He kissed me, “Good morning my fiancée.”I gave him a big smile as he looked into me eyes, “Are you still agreeing to marry me?”I smiled as I nodded, “Yeah I am.”He looked to be thinking, “When do you want to get married?”I shrugged, “I’m not sure, I’ve had the big wedding and planned out so many things and that didn’t last more then a few days. Let’s do something different this time.”He smiled, “Hmmm, like maybe elope? Or let’s go buy rings and go to the courthouse today?”I began to laugh, “You would marry me today?”He smiled at me, “Oh baby I would of married you the day my eyes met yours.”I began to laugh, the first time I met Ian was when he was on the team to charge Darr