Chapter 5

Jesse pressed against her and she tried to get away from him, but he put his arms on either side of her so his face was right in front of hers. Her body tensed as she waited for the blows to come. It was a natural reaction for her now. He just continued to look at her and she shivered a little as his expression was dark and brooding. She couldn’t do anything but look at his face and she realized he was actually a good looking guy. If he hadn’t been a rapist, she probably would have found him attractive. 

“Keep running your mouth and I’m going to put it to good use. I don’t care if you like me or not. I’m still going to do what I want with you and you can either learn to enjoy it or continue to squirm. It makes no difference to me. I’m on the run for life so why not have a sex slave, too? Eventually, I’m going to have to get a job. So, you’ll have to be by yourself. If you don’t want to stay tied up while I’m gone, then you’ll get with the program, because believe me when I say if I get any hint of trouble that the first stop I’m making is to kill your precious Kevin. I’ll leave you alive so you can see his mutilated body,” Jesse sneered. 

Renee felt a shiver go down her spine as a picture sprang to mind that made tears well in her eyes. She knew he meant what he said, but there was no way she could possibly give herself over willingly. She felt dead inside. The last part of her had just died. He had told her that she was his sex slave, so he was never going to let her leave. He may have killed her before if she pushed hard enough but thinking she was pregnant just ended that. 

“I need to go to the bathroom now. Can you please leave the bathroom?” Renee asked politely.

“Since you asked so nicely, I’ll wait outside,” Jesse said and kissed her, crushing her lips under his.

She didn’t kiss him back but she didn’t fight him either. When she felt his tongue running across her lower lip, she opened her mouth so he could stick his tongue inside. She closed her eyes and imagined Kevin. Jesse was about Kevin’s height, maybe an inch or two shorter. She imagined Kevin’s body pressing against hers while he kissed her passionately. If she could at least let her imagination run away with her, then maybe she could forget that this horrible man was touching her.

When Jesse finally stepped back from her, she opened her eyes. She found him smirking at her before he left the bathroom. She frowned. He didn’t think she had actually enjoyed that kiss, did he? She took the pregnancy tests out of the bag and took them out of the boxes. Once she had used them, she laid them on the counter. She leaned against the counter, not even wanting to look at the tests. She was trying to figure out what had just happened between her and Jesse.

When he knocked on the door, she called out, “I’m done.”

It shocked her that he had actually knocked. Jesse came in and looked at her for a second and then walked over to the tests. He looked at both of them and then at her. She showed him the boxes and how to read the tests. Truthfully, she didn’t want to know, but the look on his face told it all. He was grinning from ear to ear.

“Well, I will be damned. I’m going to be a daddy.”

Renee burst into tears. She didn’t want to be pregnant with this monster’s baby. She was dead inside. Jesse surprised her when he wiped her tears away. She initially jerked when she felt his hand on her face, thinking he was about to hit her. 

“Hey, I told you, no more hitting. Stop crying. A baby is a blessing.”

“Not when it belongs to a monster. I’ll be damned if my child is going to grow up to be a rapist, abuser, or all-around asshole,” Renee yelled.

She stormed past him, but he grabbed her and yanked her back against him. She was angry and scared all at the same time. Her whole body was shaking with it. Jesse squeezed her hard when she started trying to get away.

“Do you want to be tied back up? If so, keep this up. If not, calm your ass down. I like your fire, but I’m only going to tolerate so much disrespect before I get nasty,” Jesse whispered in her ear.

“I don’t care. I’m a human being and I have a right to be angry and hurt by someone who is constantly hurting me physically and mentally. You are going to be the person you already are no matter what I do. Don’t like it? Don’t dish it out!” Renee yelled while still squirming to get away.

Jesse walked out to the bedroom with a struggling Renee still in his arms. He threw her on the bed and she tried to get away but he grabbed her ankles. He laid on top of her and she began to cry again, knowing what was coming. He took her off guard by just laying there, restraining her. When she finally grew tired of trying to get away, Jesse moved and pulled her on to her side against him. 

“Now, we can make this work if you just get with the program. Stop fighting me. I’m the bad guy, I know. But, you are having my baby. That changes things. I may be a bad guy who has done some truly fucked up shit to you, but I will never treat my kid like my father treated me and my brother. The man did us just like I’ve done you.”

“Then, you would think you wouldn’t want to do that to someone else,” Renee whispered, feeling exhausted.

“It’s what made me the bastard I am today. Your boyfriend did the rest by killing my brother.”

“That doesn’t have anything to do with me. You brought me into this situation to hurt Kevin. All you’re doing is hurting me,” Renee cried.

“Then don’t make me hurt you anymore. I like your fire as I said before. It’s a turn on truth be told, but my temper won’t tolerate it too much depending on what you say. I’ll raise the baby with you and I will treat you well if you just stop fighting.”

Renee knew that no matter what, she had to protect her baby. What if it wasn’t his? Would he kill her if it wasn’t? She had no money, no car, no phone, no way to run without him being able to catch up to her. He was a light sleeper and woke up every time she moved. She started to cry again but this time, Jesse held her until she fell asleep.

When she woke up, she was not tied to the bed like she usually was. She rolled over and found Jesse was sitting in the chair in the room. He was watching her. She sighed and rolled back over, trying to act like she was still asleep. Unfortunately, he had seen her look at him. He stood up and grabbed her arm. He pulled her up and off the bed. She was too tired to fight. He took her into the kitchen and sat her on a chair. He then proceeded to put the hair dye in her hair. She just sat there and let him.

“It’s unfortunate that I have to cover your real color. It is pretty to look at with the gold tones in it. But, we can’t be too careful if you have to go out. We have already been here for a week. Time to get going again.”

“Jesse, we can’t keep running. It’s not going to be healthy for the baby. I need to start seeing a doctor to get prenatal care. And when the baby is born, it will need regular checkups, too.”

“We have some time. We’ll just start staying in hotels for a night or two until we get far enough away. I’m thinking of Canada. I know someone there that can get us fake citizenship.”

“You are truly planning on keeping me hostage, aren’t you?”

“You are going to have my baby. I can always take the baby and run, but until you have it, you stay.”

“I’m not letting you take my baby from me,” Renee snapped.

“Then, I guess you are no longer my hostage but are willingly staying,” Jesse smirked.