Annaās DiaryAugust 12 2013 I smelt him today. The scent hit me so strong while I was in the forest walking around after I caught Xavier again sitting at the beach looking at that god forsaken ocean. Heās been going there a lot especially since she left. I thought her leaving would make things easi
āAthena" I whispered, my mind is in just a fog, this was not my intention when she came in here. I knew I had a feeling that she was going to reject, and the only thought I had in mind was that I needed to stop I couldnāt let her reject me, at least not yet. I shake my head out of the fog, and I lo
It took me awhile to get down to the beach, I wondered aimesly around thinking about what happened back in Xavier office. I hate myself for it, it should have never happened, God how could I be so stupid I mean I let him touch me and I hate myself for it. No thats not true I hated myslef because I
I looked around making sure that Chase or Zack weren't there I couldn't deal with them not after what happened with Xavier, even though they told me that they were coming but you never know mates can be very convincing, I would know."There not here" Leah said " We told you they weren't coming, and
"So tell me about yourself" Leah said while we are sitting on the beach, we created a little bonfire and laid out towels and now watching the stars on sky. After a full day at the beach, I was relaxed I felt amazing, even after my crying session out in the ocean. Kristen had to leave because my brot
I looked at her maybe if I have a friend I could finally not feel so lonely, it felt good to open up to Leah even if its only half of the story"I would love for you to be my friend" I whisperedShe smiled at me big and clapped and yelled a "yay" I just laughed at her" Athena you don't need to tell
"What" I stuttered out, this is my sisters memorial the place where she had those rogues kill her, I looked around again not believing it. His eyes are blood shot and heās stumbling a little and I can smell the alcohol from him."Did you do this?" I said "It's beautiful Xavier" I couldn't stop looki
"Xavier, Listen to me, you don't mean what you are saying, you are drunk right now, and it is the liqour that is speaking, you are not even going to remember this in the morning, so please stop" I said"Athena" he whispered again"Xavier" I said not knowing what to say, I grabbed his hand made him l
Diary of Anna āWhen are you going to tell him.ā He growls out. āI canāt right now, you know that.ā I whisper out but in reality, I just donāt have the courage to do it. I still believe he is mine and I donāt want to lose him, even though I already feel him slipping through my fingers. āIām tired
I canāt get over his kisses, his kisses are like the storm that is surrounding us. Inhibited. He kisses me like he canāt get close enough to me, if he takes a breath he will die, if he stops kissing me, I will disappear. I know I feel the same way, I feel if I stop kissing me this will be over with
I grab a hold of Athena hair tighter. I devour her lips; I want to climb myself into her body and attach myself to her soul. How can she possibly think that I think of Anna still, when all I can think about is her. When all I thought about ever was her. I hear thunder, and I remember that is one of
āI would like to know what is going on hereā Xavier growls out. Iām still looking at him in shock, how did he know I was here, then I think of course he knew I would be, because Iām always here when I need to think. Before I could say anything, I hear Stephen snort and shake his head, and looks at
Diary of Anna,Alpha Stephen, he warned me and his brother that if I donāt tell Xavier the truth, he will. He thinks what me and his brother are doing is cruel, but he doesnāt get it. I worked to hard to get the life I have now, I lied and hurt the people I love to get to where I am. He doesnāt unde
The next couple of days there is a weird tension between Xavier and me. Iām avoiding him, when he comes into a room I walk out. I know my family can feel it also but they donāt say anything. Ever since the moment we had in Xavier office, I canāt seem to face him. Itās that I donāt crave him because
I continue to stare at the door with tears streaming down my face. He just walked away after he said those words to me again, heās said the, before but that was out of anger, I felt like I forced the, out of him like he did not have another option because he was my mate. This time I wanted him to s
A couple of weeks later:āAthena whatās wrong?ā Xavier comes in storming into my bedroom well more like our bedroom since heās been staying with me every night since that night we were together during my heat. He looks crouches down next to me on the bed while Iām sobbing, heās looking over me fran
Diary of Anna I got a phone call today. I thought it was him since it was on the phone that I keep hidden just for his phone calls. I walk to the back patio just so someone wonāt hear the conversation. He knows not to call me during this time so it must be something urgent, but when I go to pick up