It took me awhile to get down to the beach, I wondered aimesly around thinking about what happened back in Xavier office. I hate myself for it, it should have never happened, God how could I be so stupid I mean I let him touch me and I hate myself for it. No thats not true I hated myslef because I
I looked around making sure that Chase or Zack weren't there I couldn't deal with them not after what happened with Xavier, even though they told me that they were coming but you never know mates can be very convincing, I would know."There not here" Leah said " We told you they weren't coming, and
"So tell me about yourself" Leah said while we are sitting on the beach, we created a little bonfire and laid out towels and now watching the stars on sky. After a full day at the beach, I was relaxed I felt amazing, even after my crying session out in the ocean. Kristen had to leave because my brot
I looked at her maybe if I have a friend I could finally not feel so lonely, it felt good to open up to Leah even if its only half of the story"I would love for you to be my friend" I whisperedShe smiled at me big and clapped and yelled a "yay" I just laughed at her" Athena you don't need to tell
"What" I stuttered out, this is my sisters memorial the place where she had those rogues kill her, I looked around again not believing it. His eyes are blood shot and he’s stumbling a little and I can smell the alcohol from him."Did you do this?" I said "It's beautiful Xavier" I couldn't stop looki
"Xavier, Listen to me, you don't mean what you are saying, you are drunk right now, and it is the liqour that is speaking, you are not even going to remember this in the morning, so please stop" I said"Athena" he whispered again"Xavier" I said not knowing what to say, I grabbed his hand made him l
Xavier:“Athena when you left you broke me, and I hate you for that because when Anna died I didn’t feel half the pain I felt when you left. When Anna died I felt like a half of me was taken away, but when you left my soul left with you.” I tell her while looking into her eyes hoping she see the emo
“Because I know I will never get it.” How wrong is she. “Yo say you need me and that you hate me because if it, then let me reject you Xavier, let us both free from this torture.” She finishes in a low whisper, but I can still hear the pain in her voice, but I can sense a affection in also. “ I c
Diary of Anna “When are you going to tell him.” He growls out. “I can’t right now, you know that.” I whisper out but in reality, I just don’t have the courage to do it. I still believe he is mine and I don’t want to lose him, even though I already feel him slipping through my fingers. “I’m tired
I can’t get over his kisses, his kisses are like the storm that is surrounding us. Inhibited. He kisses me like he can’t get close enough to me, if he takes a breath he will die, if he stops kissing me, I will disappear. I know I feel the same way, I feel if I stop kissing me this will be over with
I grab a hold of Athena hair tighter. I devour her lips; I want to climb myself into her body and attach myself to her soul. How can she possibly think that I think of Anna still, when all I can think about is her. When all I thought about ever was her. I hear thunder, and I remember that is one of
“I would like to know what is going on here” Xavier growls out. I’m still looking at him in shock, how did he know I was here, then I think of course he knew I would be, because I’m always here when I need to think. Before I could say anything, I hear Stephen snort and shake his head, and looks at
Diary of Anna,Alpha Stephen, he warned me and his brother that if I don’t tell Xavier the truth, he will. He thinks what me and his brother are doing is cruel, but he doesn’t get it. I worked to hard to get the life I have now, I lied and hurt the people I love to get to where I am. He doesn’t unde
The next couple of days there is a weird tension between Xavier and me. I’m avoiding him, when he comes into a room I walk out. I know my family can feel it also but they don’t say anything. Ever since the moment we had in Xavier office, I can’t seem to face him. It’s that I don’t crave him because
I continue to stare at the door with tears streaming down my face. He just walked away after he said those words to me again, he’s said the, before but that was out of anger, I felt like I forced the, out of him like he did not have another option because he was my mate. This time I wanted him to s
A couple of weeks later:“Athena what’s wrong?” Xavier comes in storming into my bedroom well more like our bedroom since he’s been staying with me every night since that night we were together during my heat. He looks crouches down next to me on the bed while I’m sobbing, he’s looking over me fran
Diary of Anna I got a phone call today. I thought it was him since it was on the phone that I keep hidden just for his phone calls. I walk to the back patio just so someone won’t hear the conversation. He knows not to call me during this time so it must be something urgent, but when I go to pick up