My Lifelong Crush
Claire has always had a crush on Rawls. She always thought he was handsome but never looked at him like anything other than her best friend’s dad. That changed when she turned sixteen years old. He did not have the dad bod and did not (at least most of the time) make the corny dad jokes. He worked out all of the time, so he was in good shape. He was also so handsome, with some gray at the temples in his black hair. She always wondered why he never got remarried. After his wife, Fiona, died he spent his time raising Evie. He has not been celibate for the last nineteen years. He had his share of women over the years. There were not many weekends that he slept alone. She was jealous of all of the women that had been with him. She has fantasized so many times of what it would be like for him to just kiss her. She dated while in college but no one ever measured up to him and she never slept with them either. The guys had always tried to get in her pants. But for some reason, she held onto her virginity in the hopes of one day giving it to Rawls. She knew she was hoping for something that would never happen, but a girl could dream. She had touched herself many nights thinking about him being her first. Rawls has never had any committed relationships, only hit it and quit it kind. He did not need complicated. He was a single dad raising a daughter which was complicated enough. He spent most of his time building his business and being a dad. He didn’t want to bring another woman in to try to replace Evie’s mother. Fiona’s death was hard on him and Evie. Unfortunately due to his spoiling her,she has become a spoiled brat. He has watched Claire grow up into a stunningly beautiful woman. While his daughter went out of state to college, Claire went to a local community college. She chose to finish her bachelor’s degree on line. Claire was not raised with a silver spoon in her mouth like his own daughter. Claire had to pay for college on her own. Her parents were hard working people but didn’t have the money to send her away to school. Claire worked full time and went to school full time to pay for her education. She received scholarships, grants, and even took out school loans to make sure she could finish school. She completed a four year degree program in social work in three years. She wanted to get the work done, so she could help her parents out. She even worked as an intern to gain more experience. Most people twice her age did not have that amount of ambition. Rawls was starting to have feelings for Claire. The feelings were much more than what he should feel for his best friend’s daughter. He could see her most nights sitting in her window. She knew he saw all the women he brought home and he felt guilty about it. He could see the hurt look on her face every time. He had been best friends with her parents since high school and he felt like he was betraying them by having intimate thoughts about their daughter. He wondered how would Claire feel if she knew how he felt. Will Clair and Rawls give in to what both of them want? Will their families accept their relationship? An unexpected visitor will come back to town and upend everyone’s lives.Claire Evie and her father, Rawls, were like family. Evie and I met in pre-school when we were only three years old. She had just lost her mom in a car accident. She was really shy and sat by herself at the back of the room. . I was the shy girl as well, so we both just gravitated towards each other. We were both only children, which was another way that we bonded. From pre-school until Evie left for college, we were together almost every day. We were both going to major in social work when we went to college. My parents could not afford for me to go away to college. I went to the local community college which was going to save time and money in the long run. To be able to pay for tuition, I worked full time, applied for grants, and even got a few scholarships for my grades. The community college only allowed me to complete my Associates Degree. The rest of my classes were taken online to get my Bachelors Degree. I was able to finish in three years so I could start my career early. I
Tomorrow I start my career as a full time social worker. I feel like this internship has taken forever. I am ready to get paid to do the job I went to school for. Six months without pay was hard but it will be well worth it once I start on my case load. I have hated not being able to contribute to the bills to help my parents. They have had some issues with their hours being cut back at work. Covid has hit this economy so hard, that no one is immune. Social work, unfortunately, is booming. It may keep me busy, but it means that there are families and children are struggling as well. I am sitting in the window seat of my bedroom when I see Rawls come home from work. I am hoping he does not have a woman with him. I hate seeing those women getting out of his car. I am so jealous of what they have, which is him. He hasn’t been a monk since his wife died. The painful part for me was that I fell in love with him when I turned sixteen. I can still remember that day like it was yesterday.
I was not expecting for Evie to come home again so soon. She is always “taking a break” from her college experience. At this rate, it may take her until she is thirty before she finishes her degree. The degree is still another issue. She has changed majors so many times that I have no idea what kind of degree she will finally receive. I wish I knew where I had gone wrong with her. I had the help of Robert and Mary Edwards, my friends for over twenty years. They had a daughter, Claire, that was the same age as Evie. I had hoped with their help and having Claire to keep her company, things would have turned out better. Claire and Evie were different as night and day. They have been thick as thieves ever since they were three years old in preschool. After my wife, Fiona, died in a car accident, I was a wreck. I had no idea how to take care of a little girl. If it wasn’t for my best friends, Robert and Mary Edwards, I would not have made it through. Fiona took care of Evie. I was busy tr
My first week on the job has been so hectic. My case load is huge. I have twenty different families that I am responsible for. That is a large number for a newbie like me. My supervisor, Janice Hayes, said that with my internship, I had proven myself to be able to handle that large of a work load. I am glad that she has such faith in me, but it scares me. I don’t want to disappoint her, the families I am responsible for, or my parents. I know they tell me they don’t need my help financially but I want to take care of them like they cared of me. I am so deep into the case files from today, that I don’t realize every one has already left for the day. It is only myself and the cleaning staff left in the building. “Miss Claire, what are you still doing here?” I look up and it’s Thelma. She and I have become very close since I have been here. She’s like another mother to me. She is always on me about making sure I eat and is always bringing me homemade treats. I think she is trying to f