62. By the lake

95. By the lake

- Jacob -

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This day has been a strange rollercoaster of emotions and incidents I am unable to interpret. I have to do something to make this a better day .

Match was in the evening, so I thought I would spend the first half with Natalie. But she kind of vanished in the morning and I didn’t see her until after the match. She called me before the match to wish me good luck. But I was somewhat disappointed because I wanted to see her before going into the rink. I didn’t say anything to her because I thought maybe I was being a clingy boyfriend.

This is not the first time it has happened, though. She usually vanishes on Saturday mornings or is occasionally unreachable. Considering we know each other’s routines like the back of our hand, that’s peculiar. I wish she wouldn’t keep things from me. But then again, maybe I am being too nosy. It’s my first real relationship, so I am in self-doubt most of the time about so many things.

For this reason, I felt lost and distracte