95. By the lake - Jacob -.This day has been a strange rollercoaster of emotions and incidents I am unable to interpret. I have to do something to make this a better day . Match was in the evening, so I thought I would spend the first half with Natalie. But she kind of vanished in the morning and I didn’t see her until after the match. She called me before the match to wish me good luck. But I was somewhat disappointed because I wanted to see her before going into the rink. I didn’t say anything to her because I thought maybe I was being a clingy boyfriend.This is not the first time it has happened, though. She usually vanishes on Saturday mornings or is occasionally unreachable. Considering we know each other’s routines like the back of our hand, that’s peculiar. I wish she wouldn’t keep things from me. But then again, maybe I am being too nosy. It’s my first real relationship, so I am in self-doubt most of the time about so many things.For this reason, I felt lost and distracte
96. The Camp- Natalie -.“I get to ask questions today. Not you.”Once my hair is out of the way, He feels my neck, my fluttering pulse, and my warm skin. Then he grabs my throat in a tight hold. It’s calculative. He isn’t pressing my windpipe, rather grabbing me on sides. Still it’s… oh fuck… Is this how it feels?I gasp and lean my head backwards with my eyes closed. He grabs my boob, then slowly massages it with his warm, big hand. I can feel blood rushing through to my core. When I moan and he lets it go.What?I frown and look at him, breathing hard.
97. After Care- Jacob -.I wish I had set up the tent before we had sex. It’s too dark even with a flashlight on. It’s taking me longer than usual to set up this damn thing. I want to hold her in my arms, not this damn equipment. I glance at Natalie. She is wrapped up in a blanket and waiting patiently. After that intense session, she certainly needs cuddles. I don’t want her to get upset again. There was this mood sub-drop thing I read about that can happen if choking or spanking is tried for the first time or if it’s too intense. I hope I was careful enough. I need to ask her.I set up a tiny lantern after setting up the camp, then I pick her up to take her inside. She doesn’t resist. Usually she is too self-conscious when I try this or even suggest the idea.I sit there and hold her for sometime. It’s comforting to hold her like this. Despite her above average height, she fits me perfectly. When her breath gets slower, I glance at her and she stirs. “Natalie.. “I call out to he
98. A Letter- Natalie -.Last night turned out to be wonderful. After what happened at the party, I thought there was no saving it. But Jacob was there to save the day.In an exceptionally cheerful mood, I call Ira and she answers the call in a rather grumpy voice,” What is it?”My eyes widen and I am suddenly unsure why I called her.“uhmmm… nothing… What happened to you?” I ask casually.“Spit it!”Jesus! This girl scares me sometimes.I hold my ground anyway. “No… You tell me. What happened?”“I want to kill Liam!” Okay… Fine by me.“Why?”“He is acting like an asshole big brother!!” she cries. “I was supposed to go on an outing with a boy today and he scared him off. I want to fucking kill him!”I can see the imaginary veins of her brain popping in exasperation.If Ira gets a chance, she might indeed kill him. She isn’t the one anybody should mess with. Then I realize… She is trying to date new people!Wow! That’s good.“I am glad you are trying to move on!“ Words slip out of
99. Anticlimactic- Natalie -.After coming back home. I engross myself with efforts in cooking with mom. I want to learn something before I go off to college. It would also be nice to cook or bake something for Jacob for a change. Something that is not cheese and bread. Mom claims I am making a mess in her kitchen. I scowl and go back to my room and fall asleep.....It’s almost four when I reach Riley’s place and knock at her door in hopes of talking to her. And of course I am so damn lucky.Because West opens the door.“What the fuck are you doing here?” I ask and slip by his side, letting myself into her house. I don’t need to see his fucking smirks or sneers.“Her parents aren’t home. We thought we could enjoy some private time.”“Why? Didn’t you fuck enough girls at the party last night?” I quip and make my way to Riley’s room.“I am here…” I announce myself while walking towards her room.He chuckles and says, “She isn’t home.”I stop in my tracks.What?I pull out my phone t
100. Premonition - Jacob -.It was somewhat awkward for Norris being over in the morning at my place. He was trying to make small talk with my mom while having breakfast, but anybody could tell he was miserable inside. Of Course my mom didn’t realize that! And he kept asking his questions again and again. Draggin the conversation.“Oh, I thought Arizona was only famous for science,” Mom says and I wince.That was an ignorant comment, Mom!“Yeah it is… but I found their software engineering program is genuinely good too,” Norris says.“No sports though… Right?” My mom says in a disappointing tone and I want to facepalm myself.Send June to Dance university! Just leave us alone! I almost say to her.I leer at Norris’ plate, wondering why he is eating so damn slowly. I want to take a bath, but there is no way I will leave him alone with Mom.“Let’s head to my room. We can go out once I have taken my bath.” I suggest as soon as he is done with his breakfast.“Oh… he can wait here and wa
101. Night with West— One Year Ago—— Before Summer Break—- Natalie -.I come back home and fall into my bed, feeling drained. West wasn’t at school again. He hasn’t answered my calls. I want to visit him, to see if he is ok. But he has forbidden me from visiting him unless he tells me so.I am feeling so anxious. It's been a few days since I saw him.My phone vibrates next to me. I pick it up and I take a breath of relief to see it’s him.Finally!West: ‘I need you Nat.. Come here by 7. West: ‘Stay for the night.’I was worried sick about him. He is fine. I don’t know why I assume worse when he is unreachable. I will ask him why he didn’t come to school for the last few days.I almost called CPS on him. Thank Goodness I didn’t. He wouldn’t have forgiven me.“Child Protective services are bullshit!” He had told me last time. ”They don’t give a damn about kids like me… Let me tell you! I am too old for them… And a boy! Boys don’t need saving…” He had told me bitterly.Looks like h
— One Year Ago— — Before Summer Break— - Natalie - . “Show them to me!” I demand the phone from him. “Why?” He teases me with the phone up my head. I try to get up to grab it but he holds me down in his lap. Then he brushes his nose against my neck from behind and I shrink away with a tickle. Click! I look at phone in surprise. Click! I cover my breasts with my arms. “Don’t! Delete that one! My boobs were showing.” Click! “Is this better?” “Nooo” I scowl… “It’s obvious we aren’t wearing anything.” “But nothing is showing here right?” “Delete it!!” “Nope!” “Delete the indecent ones Please…” He chuckles and says, “Sure…” And leans in for a kiss. I bring my face closer to him. Click! I push the phone away and kiss him back. . 102. Chaos — Present Day— - Natalie - . I sit in the middle of the presentation hall looking at the very pictures West took that morning. Tears simmer in my eyes as each and every detail of my last night with West replay in front of me.