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2022-01-02 18:37:55Fate walked on the footpath with other humans walking right through her. She stopped and looked at her book
"Don't do it, Death. I'm telling you, you'll regret it way more than you think and in the end, you're the one who'll be left alone."
'I know, Fate'
"The person for whom I wanted to love betrayed me, I don't see any reason to move ahead--"
"Even when you can't see clearly, you must move ahead or you will rot"
"I want to rot. Let my soul rot in the hells of tarnished fate"
"Once you're dead, I can't undo it. You know that, right?"
"I do"
He thought something and finally said:
"This morning, as the dawn light hits your body, I will take away your soul to the blue stairs of fate. If you want to change your mind, you have tonight's time."
She just nodded her head and he disappeared in the black clouds, leaving her standing on the street all by herself.
"What she said-- about killing her-- I wasn't
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Kirito stared at Vivian and she looked back at him. He slowly walked towards her and touched her face "You're not a dream again, right?" He confirmed.She looked at his face. He hadn't shaved for these two months and it seemed as if he hadn't slept much either. She pressed his hand on her face and he hugged her tightly 'That's not Kirito's perfume' She thought."I thought you'd never wake up"'Well too bad for you-- I did'He kissed her head and took a deep breath. She could hear him breathe above him. He seemed happy. 'Where's Lucus, he didn't tell me anything!'"You know, I've been pretty depressed lately" He said "And I was lonely" Vivian closed her eyes and held his sweater 'I'm gonna hate myself for this'"Vivian""Yes""Vivian""Yes""Vivian""What?""Vivian""What do you want-""I just wanted to call your name." Kirito said with a smile.
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Vivian was back home again. But her mind was still resounding Fate's words."This is the key" "Key to what?" Her hair grew to its original length and her clothes changed back.Everything was back to how it was-- Except the choker. She looked at her reflection in the mirror and then looked at the golden choker. She tried pulling it out but it was fixed on her neck."What the--" She applied some cream to pull it off, soap, oil, powder, but nothing worked. She took a hammer and decided to break it. She pulled it away and hit the hammer on it. She tried everything she could think off but it didn't come off.Finally, tired, she threw herself back on the bed. "What the hell, so this is what it is? I can't remove it," She said to herself. "It looks so weird to go out with this but I need to buy the groceries..."Aoi was on target. He sneezed as he sat inside his room, playing video games."Something unnecessary is going to happen."
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Vivian was sleeping under the blanket when she suddenly felt fingers tracing her waist. Kirito slid his fingers from her waist to her hips. She quickly opened her eyes and saw that he was on top of her."Oh my God." She covered her mouth. "Vivian, let's fuck," He removed his shirt."Oh no!" Vivian said but he grabbed both her hands and looked deep into her eyes "Do you think I'm asking you for your permission?" His blue-green eyes dominated her blue eyes. Vivian blushed and he gave a half-smirk."Alright then,""No""No...No... Yes,""I said get the fuck up," Kirito said and Vivian opened her eyes. "Huh?""I've fried eggs," Kirito pointed towards the dining table."Eggs? You fried them?""Fresh up and let's eat""Okay," Vivian looked at him."Do I have something on my face?" He asked."No, I'll go!" She ran into the bathroom. She locked the door and pressed her back on it."I can't believe mys
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"Alright, try these," Kirito said as Vivian picked out a few clothes for herself. Vivian tried different types of clothes and style but Kirito rejected each one of them."Nah- Too bright.""Too dull""What the fuck is that? Are you going to the circus?""Hysterical""Pathetic, pervert material""You look like a professional pauper in that"Kirito soon lost interest and looked into his phone. "How's this?" Vivian asked."Rejec--" He said as he looked up at her dress which was a short one piece.He cleared his throat."Take that but don't wear it outside of home," Kirito looked at her."Then what's the use of buying it?""Because I said so,""...Okay, mom."He looked back into his phone when he got a call. He got up and walked out."I said I won't come today, didn't I, Soma?" He said to his secretary."But sir, Mr Scruton wants to meet you," She said."Tell him not today"
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'May you find the angel who guides you to the far fields of fortune.May you travel with diamonds on your head made from the moon.May angels guard you till you reach the reaches of beauty and boon?Will you become my only angel from birth to death, and death to doom?'"You still remember this prayer?" Fate asked "We used to pray this all the time back then.""It still calms me down." Lucus said. Fate looked at him and then his book started glowing "Alright, gotta go."He disappeared in the dark smoke while Fate stood there with her book. "Humans and angels can't be together, Death. For the simple fact that humans are mortals while angels are not. You've made a mortal-- immortal. Surely, life will take it's toll."Suddenly she felt cold and looked around her "A free spirit," Her blue book turned into a huge angel sword and she turned back-- suddenly blacking out.The next morning, Vivian got up and prepared breakfast while Kiri
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It was half past 11 at night. The moonlight penetrated through the balcony's window, straight into the apartment. Vivian fell on Kirito and grabbed his coat as she desperately tried to walk on the heels."I can't walk in these!" Vivian said."Too bad, you need to dance in these," Kirito said as he held her hand. "I hate dancing! Especially classical dancing! I'd rather sing!" Vivian said.Kirito grabbed her cheeks and gave a sarcastic smile "I'm not giving you a choice there. 1st of January, we have a party. This month and the next is all I have" Kirito said."I don't wanna learn it." Vivian grinned "Okay, then I'll dance with someone else" Kirito said with a smirk.Vivian looked at the floor "What? Got something to say?" He said. Tear drops fell down from cheeks her cheeks."Don't cry! I was just joking! What a cry baby." He said as he wiped her tears with his shirt "Okay, let's learn it slowly. I'll hold you." Kirito said.Vivian no
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"The graves have been loud" Fate said as Lucus sat beside her on a park bench, looking at birds feed on the pieces of bread. They sat there in their human form. Lucus had blonde hair while Fate had black hair."Yeah""Why don't you do something about it?""I don't want to.""You make me wish I had more middle fingers, you cuntybollock!" Suddenly a foreigner stood in front of them."Excuse me, are you a couple? Can I click your picture? You look good" She said in English."Yes sure-""Go away. He and I ain't a couple-- I hate his guts" Fate said in English."Oh! Sorry. Have a nice day." She bowed and walked away."Huh! I wish I could invoice people for wasting my time.""Can't you be a bit friendly?""Haven't you heard what mortals call me? Karma is a bitch.""You actually mind what mortals call you? You're stupid""Yeah, you're rubbing off on me" She said. Lucus took a deep sigh "Oh God"
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"Sir, one of our models' has been missing for two days now," Sora said."Not now, Sora. My mind doesn't want any new news right now, am I clear?" Kirito said as he looked into the file."Yes sir" Sora said. But Kirito wasn't listening anymore.'She will see inside me eventually. What if she doesn't like what she sees? What will I do 'cause I can't unlove you now.I should've seen this coming. I shouldn't have fallen so deep. Should I rise or should I fall? Because a part of me doesn't want to show you the monster in me, but there's a part of me who wants to just rip apart all the walls for you and pull you inside in my heart, to make you a monster too.It's so complicated. I can't understand myself anymore. Can I pull away from you. Because no matter how much of a monster I am or no matter what all I've done up until now-- I still want to be the best person in your life. My monsters love you, Vivian. This is bad. I feel like I'm gonna get a panic a
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