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Chapter 41
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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Sir, one of our models' has been missing for two days now," Sora said.
"Not now, Sora. My mind doesn't want any new news right now, am I clear?" Kirito said as he looked into the file.
"Yes sir" Sora said. But Kirito wasn't listening anymore.
'She will see inside me eventually. What if she doesn't like what she sees? What will I do 'cause I can't unlove you now.
I should've seen this coming. I shouldn't have fallen so deep. Should I rise or should I fall? Because a part of me doesn't want to show you the monster in me, but there's a part of me who wants to just rip apart all the walls for you and pull you inside in my heart, to make you a monster too.
It's so complicated. I can't understand myself anymore. Can I pull away from you. Because no matter how much of a monster I am or no matter what all I've done up until now-- I still want to be the best person in your life. My monsters love you, Vivian. This is bad. I feel like I'm gonna get a panic a
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Vivian stood at the door. Her skin was glowing just like her hair. She looked like an angel without wings. Kirito looked at her as she slowly moved closer to him.'She is wearing her pheromones like a perfume and this is not good.' He thought as he covered his nose."Vivian, you must be tired. Should we sleep--""It's okay. You need to do the work of knocking me off of my feet." She pressed his tie and slowly pushed him towards the wall "Vivian--""Where were you?" She said as she looked into his eyes "At my uncle's place--""You liar" She said as she bit his neck and grabbed his hair. 'Okay, I should stop her. This shit is making me horny'He pushed her away "Stop. You're not into your senses.""Of course since I have you" She pressed her hands on his face. He grabbed her wrist "Sorry, I'm not into rough fingers.""Who cares. You are into rough sex." She smirked."Vivian?! What the-- I thought you were
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"Why would you feel hungry in the middle of the night?" Vivian asked as she took out a tray of persimmons while Kirito sat on the chair in front of the dining table "Is everything alright?""I usually get up in the middle of the night""This never happened before though""I usually drink alone in the balcony when it happens"Then let's drink together""Shut up. I don't want a hurricane in here. Besides, I like drinking alone" Vivian just smiled and sat opposite to him. The clock struck two in the morning. Vivian yawned as she picked up a persimmon."Christmas is coming" Vivian puckered out the persimmon peel "You said you'd take me to the Philippines!" Kirito sat and ate a piece of it."Philippines.""I have been meaning to ask--Are you somehow related to the Philippines?""Why do you think that?""Because, you can speak Filipino--""I don't. I only know a few words.""I see. By the way, did you like these?"
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Lucus and Fate held Erika's hands and walked by her side as they walked up the stairs. She slowly paced up the white stairs. Soon, the blue stairs arrived. "I'm leaving her to your care now," Lucus said to Fate. Fate stared at him and looked at Erika."You've got something to say?" She asked Erika."Tell Kirito, his uncle is after his life. He should stay as far away from him as possible.""We aren't your messan--""It's okay. We'll tell him" Lucus said with a smile. Fate gave him an ugly look. He just smiled and nodded his head. Then, she climbed on the stairs with Erika. Lucas looked at the blue stairs."They are still just as blue. God is still just as angry"Kurosava walked into his office as the employees bowed at him. He bowed back with a smile."I think Mr Kurosava is better than Kirito Hiomi," One of the employees said."Yeah. He's so humble and down to Earth. So unlike that Kirito brat. He's just 24 and still acts so a
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Kurosava searched through the old and weary objects kept inside the old attic. There were old toys, books, pictures and all other useless and rusty stuff.The attic was filled with cobwebs and rats. Two huge mirrors were supported by the walls. It looked like an old child's playland-- provided how many toys it had. From dolls to mecha robots. There were drawing books and everything was laying there in the worst conditions they could be in.Finally, he found a huge picture of Mr Hiomi and Mrs Hiomi. Kirito, about three years old, sat in his mother's arms while looking at the camera."I would have believed it was Kiroto..." He had green eyes just like Mr and Mrs Hiomi. The bottom of the frame read "Hiomi family""I didn't know your eye colors change when you grow up" Kurosava said with a wicked smile. He clenched the frame tightly "My stupid brother giving the entire enterprise to this brat... This brat who is not even his own blood!" He threw it aside and
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"Is he gonna stay this way?" Ethan asked as he looked at Mr Hiomi who was frozen. Ethan's hands and feet were bandaged."I don't know. I don't even know how it happened" Vivian said. "Just what the hell are you?" Ethan asked and Vivian chuckled nervously.He looked outside. The clouds weren't moving and neither was the traffic. Everything was quiet. It was like the whole world had stopped. Everything was a stone, except them.He stood at the balcony and looked outside. "It's so quiet. Somehow, I love it" Ethan said. Vivian stood behind him "Everything has changed. From slums to cities and then to a golden civilisation, bringing golden azure. I don't want to see what's next"Vivian quietly came beside him and stood beside him. The glass pieces crushed beneath their boots. He took a deep breath as he closed his eyes and shivered from the cold."Please don't find me," He said."What?" Vivian said as she looked at him. "Those were the last words
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"I ran back," Ethan said. His voice was getting sharper as he spoke. He seemed a bit restless, as if hurrying up and finishing all the narration. Words forcefully gushed out of his mouth "I ran to mom. He saw me and asked me how I came back""You brat!" Ruso said as he threw Ethan away from his mom "We sold you! Don't show your face to us again!""Ina! I came back for you!" Ethan said as Parhi looked at him. Ruso grabbed her hair "So you're the reason! Can you do anything except being a block in the way of my son's happy life!" He said and moved to the kitchen.He picked a knife and walked towards her."Ina!" Ethan shouted."Finally" She said with a smile and turned towards Ethan "I love you, Ethan" He slit her throat."Ina!" Ethan shouted as he ran towards her and she fell on the floor "Ina! Ina! Ina! Don't go! Ina!"'You always smile, but you're not happy. If I wouldn't come back to you-- You wouldn't die. Ina...' Ethan cri
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"I'm sorry I couldn't save us all" Vivian said with a sad smile as she looked at Ethan. "But I can," Maya said as she walked towards them. Lucus and Fate looked at her. Her hair grew longer and turned golden from brunette. Her eyes turned blue, just like death. Ethan looked at her with surprise. "It's you" He said as he looked at her. "Who is it?" Vivian asked "...The girl that saved me from drowning that day" Ethan said. She pressed her hand on his face "Do you know why you couldn't die after all those efforts?" She asked as she looked into his eyes and his eyes turned light blue too. "I saved you, everytime" She said "I shall do that today too" Her yellow wings opened from her back and her white key appeared on her neck "Who are you?" Vivian asked. "Just like you are Death's blood, Ethan is my blood" She said with a smile as a white book appeared in her hand. "The Bulosum... I knew it" Fate said. "Life..." Lucus said. She tou
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As Kurosawa got up, Lucus raised his hand while holding his Antabulam in it. "The reaper's pride- Come forth my scythe!" He said but nothing happened. Fate looked at him with surprise. He looked at his Antabulam."Why isn't it working?" Lucus said and Kurosava started laughing like a madman."Ahahaha!!" He laughed for a minute continuously as everyone stared at him "That's right... I couldn't die. And how could I? Everything I wanted could not be mine and above that-- I even lost what I had! And you know who is responsible for that-- You! Ethan Evaganza! I was always more talented but I was never given what I deserved!People were always unfair with me! Such people who cannot respect art and talent deserve no place in this beautifully rotten world! They must be killed for better people to take their place! You were no better but my own sister betrayed me over you!She broke her promise of giving me the company and threw me and Maria inside that old mansio
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"Maria" Kurosawa said as he held his sick wife's hand. Her skin was moist and sticky. "You shouldn't come here often. What if you catch this disease too? You know it's infectious" She said."Nothing will happen to me. I will take you abroad and we will cure you" Kurosawa said as he looked into her eyes."That sounds like it'll take a lot of money. Leave me just like this. You don't have to do anything at all" She said."My sister is rich. And once I inherit the company, it'll be alright. I'll have the money for your treatment" Kurosawa said as he squeezed her hand.She moved it away "Don't touch me, you might get infected" She said. He hugged her "I don't care" He whispered in her ear..."What?" Kurosawa said as he stood in front of Mrs Hiomi, inside her room as the maids dressed Kirito's hair and fixed his clothes."I've decided. Kirito will inherit my company and Aoi will inherit their father's company" Mrs Hiomi said.
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"Who is it now?" Vivian said and looked at the clock. It was about to be eight in the evening. Fate looked at the door.Vivian touched the doorknob "Don't open it" Fate said. Vivian turned towards her. She took her Grecabulum and Vivian's Antabulam in her arms. "Fate--" She stood with her back pressed on the front wall. Vivian looked ahead at the doorknob. The doorbell rang again. "What is it?""I don't know. But, I'm scared" Fate said "I don't wanna know what's behind that door" Fate said. He pushed the doorbell for the third time. Vivian grew sweaty as she moved away from the door. Fate pressed her pen between her teeth.Finally, he began hitting the door "I know you're in there, Vivian" He said with a smile. Vivian recognised his voice "Why are you here?" She asked as she moved further behind."I'm here with a gift, Vivian. Open the door""I don't want it. Go away""Don't say that, Vivian. I'm here to apolog
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Maya mixed something in the beer bottles and kept them inside the fridge. She left for work after that.After some time, Ethan got up and looked around "Oh... I slept..." He looked at the time. It was evening. He moved towards the fridge and opened it "Beer? I thought she threw it. Well..." He took a can and drank some of it.He immediately threw up "Gross!" He said. He threw it in the dustbin and tried another can. Then another, then another. He finally gave up and slept back....Vivian kept the piece of paper inside an envelope and pressed the stamp on it. Sejok pressed the horn "Hurry up, Vivian!" He said.She took a deep breath and kissed the envelope. She posted it on her way to the party. They got down on the red carpet. Every celebrity was there. The paparazzis surrounded her and camera flashes followed up. Other celebrities began whispering among themselves.Maya looked over from the crowd and saw Vivian surrounded b
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Ethan was forced to shave for his makeup to go smoothly. Maya touched his wet face right after he shaved. "Hmm... Good skin, prez!" She said."Now, close your eyes" He looked reluctant but she was stubborn and irritating so he just did what she told him.She sprayed a hydrating spray on his face and hence commenced the make up! "I'm shocked you didn't say something like "Guys don't put makeup"" She said in a grumpy voice while applying the base of the makeup."I've seen male models too," He said."...Male models wearing lingerie--""I've been invited to certain business firms and fashion shows so no. Thankfully I haven't seen that yet and I hope I never do" Ethan said."Okay done! Next- Highlighter!" She said as she searched her purse. She applied the blush on his cheeks and then applied the highlighter. She did the contour and an eyeshadow."Now~ I'll just put on a lip balm. Sunny Peach is like my favourite shade" She said as she app
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Vivian and Fate stood face to face. Vivian couldn't understand what fate was trying to tell her and Fate understood that."There are three divine angels- Life, Fate and Death. Rest all are made by them. All other angels were mortals before except the three divine angels. They are angels by birth.We are strictly prohibited from interacting with mortals. We can talk to their souls, but not in their consciousness. About a few hundred years ago, Death broke that rule. He killed a human girl before her time because he fell for her. He learned then that he could keep the soul away from the stairs if he tore away the page of the Antabulam. So, he did that. She would go around with him everywhere. Just like you followed him everywhere after you died, she was just like that.She didn't like the name "Death", so she named him "Jericho". They both loved each other dearly and soon she got pregnant. The child wasn't an angel, it was a mortal girl who had Death's blood in he
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Maya picked Ethan up on her back and walked towards his apartment. "You aren't heavy at all for a man, prez! Tell me your secret diet!" She stood in front of the apartment's door. "Is this it? 6556?" She asked as she looked at the door. He nodded. "What's the password?""The same number," He said. He seemed completely wasted."Dumb" She opened the door and walked inside "Wow!" She said as she looked at the mess "My house is the same after any breakup or after some makeup disaster!" She moved towards the bedroom and lay him on the bed.She removed his wet shirt and threw it aside. He slept instantly. "It's so hot and suffocating here!" She opened the balcony door. "Much better" She removed her wet one piece and wore one of Ethan's shirts from his wardrobe. She looked at the lower section of the cupboard and found a woman's clothes."Prez! You're living with a girl!?" She exclaimed "And still your house is so dirty! You both must be lazy or she must be a di
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Fate walked towards Lucus with her Grecabulum in her hands as he stood on a road in Romania, looking at a dying cat "She has forgotten that she is an angel" Lucus looked at Vivian's Antabulam."In that matter, she's just like you," Fate said. Lucus looked at her as she sat beside him."I thought of them today, it pissed me off," Fate said "We are mere spectators. You shouldn't interfere anymore, Death""Can't we prevent this?" He asked."That's for her to decide. Shall mortals decide which blue gate they'll take? Either that blue will calm them like the ocean or drown them like their fate""Ocean... No matter harmless or calm it seems, it can kill somebody" Lucus said "It hurts like hell to see her hurt""Well, she is like a rolling stone mediating between her two lives. But, a rolling stone gathers no moss,""Yes. But it certainly gains a certain polish,""I don't know what to say..." She looked at the cat."Everything
