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Chapter 13
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2021-10-16 01:26:28Kirito heard footsteps and opened his eyes. Everything was dark and he saw a small snowflake fall down slowly. He brought his hand forward and held the snowflake.
As soon as he touched it, he felt a soothing calmness. He didn't want to let go. Jericho stood behind him "In death," Kirito suddenly turned back and looked at him "There is peace. It takes effort to live."
Kirito stared at him "What? Scared of temptation?" Jericho smirked.
"What temptation?"
"That maybe you like death more than life."
Kirito didn't say anything. Jericho walked to him "You know what's scary? You believe what you see and not what you feel."
"What are you saying?" Kirito asked.
"I just wanted to," He heard Vivian's voice "Drink down the scars in your past, reflected in the depths of your tired eyes."
He heard her but he couldn't see her.
"The people who you love, don't deserve that love." Jericho said "Only selective people deserve you. Yet, you'
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Vivian wasn't expecting anyone in the bathroom at that moment. But, maybe she had forgotten about his shameless husband. "Hiomi? Oh you're back already." "Yeah unfortunately." He looked away. Vivan washed her hair into the running water under the tap. "This makes a woman lose all her charms" He turned back and began moving. As he walked, he was suddenly pulled back. Vivian held his arm and looked at the floor. "What?" "What do you mean by ‘lose her charms’?" She asked with her gaze fixed at the floor. He grabbed her hair and pulled it down. He gave a half smirk "You can be a lion, and I'll still be water" He left her hair and went away. She quietly went back and stood under the shower. "Well, whatever." She began rubbing her scalp again. Kirito sat on the sofa and looked into his phone. He seemed lost somewhere else in the middle of texting Erika. 'That hair' "Hey Erika, let's meet up. I don't feel good." He te
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Kirito lay on Vivian's sofa with a book in his hand. Vivian was doing the dishes and he suddenly had this desire to have attention. So, he kept the book aside and shouted."Aye! Aye, get your ass here!""What is it?" Vivian asked as she got out of the kitchen."I want food. I'm hungry and I want food!""Okay okay. I'll make something. What do you want to eat?""Something Italian. ""Okay," Vivian opened the fridge and took out a few vegetables. She soaked them in water and she started preparing the dough."What are you making? Pizza?" Kirito asked as he gazed at his phone."Why does everyone think Italian food is all about pizza and pasta?""Is it not? Just mix vegetables and dough, bake it-- you get Italian food, boom.""Have you ever eaten an Italian vegetarian lasagna- Or let me correct myself, have you ever eaten genuine Italian cuisine?" Vivian asked angrily."Not really," Kirito looked at her.
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Kirito stared at the ceiling above him as he lay on the sofa. With the dawn hitting in, the room got brighter. He took a deep breath and looked at the window at the end of his feet. He slowly got up and sat on the sofa.'Ethan...He knows' Kirito thought to himself. He looked at the floor as silence surrounded him. Vivian slept peacefully on the bed. He got up and got inside the bathroom. He took a hot water shower as he constantly increased the temperature of the water.He looked at the shower wall as the mist covered the bathroom and the mirror turned foggy. He pressed his head on the wall and closed his eyes."Thanks bastard. You've reminded me of everything all over again." He said. He stayed in the shower for about an hour as memories hit him. Memories about Ethan."She looked just like you..... She was 14 at that time" "How old were you?" "I was 18""You were 18 and a friggin psycho" Kirito t
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Kirito drove back home and opened the door. It was half past eleven and the lights were out. Two candles lit on the dining table and Vivian was asleep on the dining table."What the--" Kirito looked at that shameless woman sleeping on the dining table like her father owned the damn place! Well, her husband did. He went ahead to pick her up but then he saw a small note on her hand."I've put the dinner in the oven. You just need to heat it and you can have it. Next time, tell me before you leave, I get worried. How old are you seriously?" He read aloud and crushed the paper."I am not a kid." At the end of paper, in a small font, it read- 'flip'. He flipped the paper and it read in a huge font"Anyways I love you" Beneath it, again in small font it read "If you're hurting Hiomi, then you don't have to say it to me, I know how stubborn guys can be. Just don't return this paper back to me if you are feeling exhausted, I won't ask for it. If everythi
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Kirito squirmed in his sleep. He was perspiring heavily and was extremely uncomfortable under the blanket."You psychopath!""I prefer creative"He opened his eyes and all of a sudden got up. He was wet with sweat and his head was spinning. He fell back on the bed and looked overhead."Great, I can't sleep now. At this rate, I'll go mad"He tucked his knees into his stomach and curled his back. He clenched his arms and dug his face into the pillow. He moved into every position he could think of but it was all vile effort."Alright, I can't sleep." He got up. Vivian was asleep on the sofa. He walked towards the fridge and searched for a beer can."We are out of beer. I'll just get some more." He said as he moved towards the entrance and tucked his shoes. He walked out of the apartment. The streets were empty and dim lit by the street lights. It was quiet and still."It's been a month since I went to work" Kirit
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It was morning too. None of them could sleep last night but Vivian was happy. At least she had a good conversation with him. Though, she still didn't know a lot about him. She was in the kitchen when Kirito came out of the bath, he had a towel wrapped around him."I've kept your clothes in the basket." Vivian said from the kitchen. He picked them up and looked at them. After he was dressed up in a red T- shirt and blue pajamas, he went to the kitchen with the towel around his neck."Jeez! You didn't even dry your hair properly""I guess they are okay" He was looking for something in the fridge."They are not!" She took the towel from him. She gently scrubbed his head with the towel as he looked at her."There you have it." His bangs covered his eyes and his greenish blue eyes were glowing under his hair."Wow. You look... Ethereal!" She laughed."Oh yeah?" He touched his bangs while looking at them. She sniffed him "You smell like lov
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'Huli ka'; With those words, Kirito dug deeper into his past. He remembered how hard he fought to prevent this marriage but he couldn't win. That broke his spirit to go against them."I don't want to marry," He told his mother."You don't have a choice. That's the main reason why you exist.""Oh yeah- Then kill me!! But I won't marry her!"It was like he lost his identity and became a complete different individual.'I have died but somehow I still exist, visiting my own grave-- I feel sick!Why did I have everything taken away from me? They took everything and left me with money-- but money won’t find my lost self.I can't speak it. And I was aware, I must not. But, I don't know what happened in that moment, I felt so free and it just slipped. What have I done? It's reversing back--this woman is destroying everything I've worked so hard to build.'Vivian pressed a band-aid on the cut over his cheek. He moved away.
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