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2022-01-02 18:46:47Ethan stood on the balcony, sipping on his bear as Vivian slept on the bed. "I feel empty," He turned towards her sleeping face.
"Vivian, look at me too..." He stood inside the balcony, separated by an invisible wall Vivian seemed to form even as she slept. He couldn't approach her anymore. He turned back towards the balcony.
"I knew it would happen. Show biz has never made anyone happy except the bystanders. They call this entertainment? This isn't entertainment. I am not entertained. Not one bit." He continued drinking.
Next morning, Ethan woke up with a bad hangover. Vivian wasn't there. The dishes weren't done, the food wasn't made.
"Maybe she left in a hurry, I wonder if she ate."
He got up and took a bath. The pitter-patter of the water drops on the bathroom floor was the only sound he could hear. He came out of the bathroom and walked on the carpet to the bedroom.
He wore his shirt and looked at Vivian's clothes. He stared at them for
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Ethan called Vivian to their apartment. She sat on that chair after one month. He prepared some coffee for both of them and she took a deep breath to remove all her stress in that one cup of coffee. Her hands didn't have those marks like back then, it was her soul that was suffering this time.It seemed as if she was nearing her breaking point and Ethan could do nothing but just be a mere spectator like everyone else in that huge crowd with all their eyes fixed on her. Her breath was so tired, he could actually hear her wheezing. He didn't want to talk to this Vivian. He wanted her to talk but she wouldn't."Why have you not been coming home, Vivian?" He finally gathered the courage to ask."Someone saw me coming out of the apartment and I don't want any scandals.""Scandal? I'm your husband..." Ethan was infuriated. Who were they to decide who she could meet and who she couldn't? She made her vows to him not them."Yeah but I don't want them to fi
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Ethan agreed to everything in silence after that night. He stopped fighting back to her because that would just raise arguments. He slept peacefully after many days. Vivian left that morning before he woke up. She called him during the afternoon."The shows are booked! I need to write a new song within three hours! Can you believe it, Ethan? I won't be coming home for a while- The tour!" Vivian complained over the phone."Okay""But hey, we can always call!""Okay""Oh! I've gotta hang up now! Eat properly and don't drink! I'll be home soon" She said with a smile. "Okay," He said as he kept the phone aside and looked at the beer bottle in his hand. He got up and threw it in the dustbin.'If this is what you want...'Vivian looked at her phone as she travelled in her van. Hans drove the van and looked at her from the rear mirror. "Is something wrong, Vivian?" He asked."I feel tired,""You didn't sleep well?"
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Fate walked towards Lucus with her Grecabulum in her hands as he stood on a road in Romania, looking at a dying cat "She has forgotten that she is an angel" Lucus looked at Vivian's Antabulam."In that matter, she's just like you," Fate said. Lucus looked at her as she sat beside him."I thought of them today, it pissed me off," Fate said "We are mere spectators. You shouldn't interfere anymore, Death""Can't we prevent this?" He asked."That's for her to decide. Shall mortals decide which blue gate they'll take? Either that blue will calm them like the ocean or drown them like their fate""Ocean... No matter harmless or calm it seems, it can kill somebody" Lucus said "It hurts like hell to see her hurt""Well, she is like a rolling stone mediating between her two lives. But, a rolling stone gathers no moss,""Yes. But it certainly gains a certain polish,""I don't know what to say..." She looked at the cat."Everything
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Maya picked Ethan up on her back and walked towards his apartment. "You aren't heavy at all for a man, prez! Tell me your secret diet!" She stood in front of the apartment's door. "Is this it? 6556?" She asked as she looked at the door. He nodded. "What's the password?""The same number," He said. He seemed completely wasted."Dumb" She opened the door and walked inside "Wow!" She said as she looked at the mess "My house is the same after any breakup or after some makeup disaster!" She moved towards the bedroom and lay him on the bed.She removed his wet shirt and threw it aside. He slept instantly. "It's so hot and suffocating here!" She opened the balcony door. "Much better" She removed her wet one piece and wore one of Ethan's shirts from his wardrobe. She looked at the lower section of the cupboard and found a woman's clothes."Prez! You're living with a girl!?" She exclaimed "And still your house is so dirty! You both must be lazy or she must be a di
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Vivian and Fate stood face to face. Vivian couldn't understand what fate was trying to tell her and Fate understood that."There are three divine angels- Life, Fate and Death. Rest all are made by them. All other angels were mortals before except the three divine angels. They are angels by birth.We are strictly prohibited from interacting with mortals. We can talk to their souls, but not in their consciousness. About a few hundred years ago, Death broke that rule. He killed a human girl before her time because he fell for her. He learned then that he could keep the soul away from the stairs if he tore away the page of the Antabulam. So, he did that. She would go around with him everywhere. Just like you followed him everywhere after you died, she was just like that.She didn't like the name "Death", so she named him "Jericho". They both loved each other dearly and soon she got pregnant. The child wasn't an angel, it was a mortal girl who had Death's blood in he
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Ethan was forced to shave for his makeup to go smoothly. Maya touched his wet face right after he shaved. "Hmm... Good skin, prez!" She said."Now, close your eyes" He looked reluctant but she was stubborn and irritating so he just did what she told him.She sprayed a hydrating spray on his face and hence commenced the make up! "I'm shocked you didn't say something like "Guys don't put makeup"" She said in a grumpy voice while applying the base of the makeup."I've seen male models too," He said."...Male models wearing lingerie--""I've been invited to certain business firms and fashion shows so no. Thankfully I haven't seen that yet and I hope I never do" Ethan said."Okay done! Next- Highlighter!" She said as she searched her purse. She applied the blush on his cheeks and then applied the highlighter. She did the contour and an eyeshadow."Now~ I'll just put on a lip balm. Sunny Peach is like my favourite shade" She said as she app
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Maya mixed something in the beer bottles and kept them inside the fridge. She left for work after that.After some time, Ethan got up and looked around "Oh... I slept..." He looked at the time. It was evening. He moved towards the fridge and opened it "Beer? I thought she threw it. Well..." He took a can and drank some of it.He immediately threw up "Gross!" He said. He threw it in the dustbin and tried another can. Then another, then another. He finally gave up and slept back....Vivian kept the piece of paper inside an envelope and pressed the stamp on it. Sejok pressed the horn "Hurry up, Vivian!" He said.She took a deep breath and kissed the envelope. She posted it on her way to the party. They got down on the red carpet. Every celebrity was there. The paparazzis surrounded her and camera flashes followed up. Other celebrities began whispering among themselves.Maya looked over from the crowd and saw Vivian surrounded b
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"Who is it now?" Vivian said and looked at the clock. It was about to be eight in the evening. Fate looked at the door.Vivian touched the doorknob "Don't open it" Fate said. Vivian turned towards her. She took her Grecabulum and Vivian's Antabulam in her arms. "Fate--" She stood with her back pressed on the front wall. Vivian looked ahead at the doorknob. The doorbell rang again. "What is it?""I don't know. But, I'm scared" Fate said "I don't wanna know what's behind that door" Fate said. He pushed the doorbell for the third time. Vivian grew sweaty as she moved away from the door. Fate pressed her pen between her teeth.Finally, he began hitting the door "I know you're in there, Vivian" He said with a smile. Vivian recognised his voice "Why are you here?" She asked as she moved further behind."I'm here with a gift, Vivian. Open the door""I don't want it. Go away""Don't say that, Vivian. I'm here to apolog
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Maya picked Ethan up on her back and walked towards his apartment. "You aren't heavy at all for a man, prez! Tell me your secret diet!" She stood in front of the apartment's door. "Is this it? 6556?" She asked as she looked at the door. He nodded. "What's the password?""The same number," He said. He seemed completely wasted."Dumb" She opened the door and walked inside "Wow!" She said as she looked at the mess "My house is the same after any breakup or after some makeup disaster!" She moved towards the bedroom and lay him on the bed.She removed his wet shirt and threw it aside. He slept instantly. "It's so hot and suffocating here!" She opened the balcony door. "Much better" She removed her wet one piece and wore one of Ethan's shirts from his wardrobe. She looked at the lower section of the cupboard and found a woman's clothes."Prez! You're living with a girl!?" She exclaimed "And still your house is so dirty! You both must be lazy or she must be a di
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