The two girls stand still, looking at Joshua. The man places the package on the table, and then asks once again:
"What's going on?"
Thabata's face changes completely: the hostility previously shown turns into contemplation, politeness, and concern.
"Hi, dear. Thank you for bringing what I asked for!" She hugs him, but Joshua does not enthusiastically reciprocate. "Emanuele and I were talking about the horrible night she had last night. She came to apologize to me for locking herself in her room."
Emanuele could knock down a wall of so much hate, but she decided to play along. All she didn't need now was to be the enemy of the apartment owner's brother.
"Yes, I... I came to get something to eat and took the opportunity to apologize. But I saw that you had left. So I will apologize to you now. It was very rude of me to do what I did.... I'm sorry."
Joshua raises his hand in a soothing gesture.
"It was nothing. It's all right." Then he turns to Thabata, a gleam appearing in his eyes. "I'm glad you two are getting along. In the future, maybe we can go out; have a little drink the three of us.
The mere idea almost made Emanuele laugh with debauchery, but she restrained herself.
Thabata got around the situation easily, using the greatest weapon in her arsenal: manipulation.
"Ah, honey, I don't know if in Emanuele's town they usually go out in threesomes. She might get uncomfortable."
"É. I would be," Emanuele replies. "Well, I think I'll get something to eat now."
"And I have to go," Thabata bids her boyfriend goodbye with a fond kiss on the cheek. "Thanks for bringing my skin creams. I can't be without them."
"Anything for you," the man almost melts from so much passion in his tone of voice.
Emanuele does not stay to watch the rest of the honeyed words. Heading to the kitchen, she pays attention to what is available to eat. So she opts for orange juice, toast with jam, and a small portion of yogurt.
Just as she is finishing putting the jam on the bread, Joshua appears in the kitchen doorway.
"Hi."
"Hi.", Emanuele politely replies.
"I think we need to... Start everything from the beginning."
"What do you mean?"
"Our presentation was a bit turbulent. I think we should start over. Present ourselves properly."
The girl remains focused on the amount of jam.
"You think?"
"Yes. Is there something you want to ask me?"
Indeed, if Emanuele could simply throw up a mountain of questions for Joshua, she would do so at that moment. However, besides needing to behave to the best of her ability because she was in the presence of a total stranger, there was the more important issue: the original landlady wouldn't like it at all if the new tenant didn't respect her older brother. By the way... There was something, yes, that she would love to ask.
"That trip Alexandra took...," Emanuele begins, squinting at Joshua. "What happened? Why did she need to rush out?"
His eyes turn cold.
"A member of our family is quite ill, and she went to help him."
"A member?"
"Yes. And she has great esteem for this person, so she decided to visit him."
"But... He is also your relative, isn't he?"
"Yes."
Emanuele wanted to ask the next question, to question why he wasn't also concerned. But Joshua, foreseeing this, subtly decided to cut the subject short.
"I don't live very far from here. So Alexandra asked me to look after her apartment. She also told me that you were coming, and for me to be.... Nice to you." He almost laughed.
"I see."
"Speaking of which, do you work? Since you came from far away, I guess it's hard for you to commute there every day."
"I work by cell phone," Emanuele replied. She assembled all the breakfast items on the tray.
"Is that right?"
"Yes."
"Interesting."
"É."
Uncomfortable silence. As Emanuele begins to make her way to the living room and settle in, she asks:
"What about you? Is this your day off?"
"Actually, yes. I'm a teacher."
"Cool."
More seconds of silence. Emanuele wants to talk to Alexandra's older brother; to meet him. But she had always been terrible in social situations, and he was so... Attractive. It was hard not to stare at his biceps, pecs, and all the rest of the spectacular ensemble he hid behind long-sleeved shirts. Also.
"Physical education." Joshua says.
Emanuele blinks.
"What?"
"I'm a physical education teacher."
"Ah. I hate physical education."
Joshua laughs openly. The girl is genuinely surprised to see the intensity of Joshua's expression, who usually presented a neutral expression all the time.
After getting his breath back, the teacher says:
"It's always good to do some exercises."
"It's easy for you to talk."
"What do you mean?"
"Oh, look at the size of you! Of course, exercising should be pretty easy for you."
Emanuele realizes too late that she is staring into Joshua's arms. He notices the girl's gaze, and for a second that seemed to pass extremely slowly, he seems to enjoy that, that attention.
She opens her mouth to apologize, but the man speaks:
"Tell you what, then. Today I'm going to prove that anyone, my size or not, can and should exercise."
"But-"
"I would be very happy if you would accept. I... I'm still feeling guilty about yesterday."
Despite the fright Emanuele had been through, she didn't want to talk about it at all. And although she was terrified and scared, the girl was doing everything to appear normal. This was her way of dealing with her own traumas: pretending they didn't happen.
The woman with wavy hair dyed in red dye took a sip of her juice, staring straight into Joshua's eyes. He didn't break eye contact.
She felt, deep in her chest, that he was also hiding information, just as she was. What kind of secrets could a physical education teacher who took care of his little sister's apartment keep? Not just a teacher, but a hero who saved young maidens in dark alleys.
Was there a connection between this and the close relative he obviously didn't want to talk about? Or was it mere coincidence and Emanuele was just confusing things; jumping to conclusions?
The girl replied, propping her glass up on the tray:
"When do we start?"
"As soon as you finish your breakfast."
"Are we going to do the exercises right here in the apartment?", the girl looks to the sides, clearly noticing that there was no room due to the furniture and the size of the rooms."
"There's a sports court nearby."
Whoa... Court? Sports?
Joshua noticed the change of expression on Emanuele's face.
"What?"
"I... I just don't do well in spaces like this."
"Like what?"
"... Like this."
The man frowned.
"I promise it won't take long."
Overcome by her insistence, Emanuele complies with Joshua's request. He looks quite excited.
"Good. I'm going to change my clothes. And you need to, too. Put on some lycra shorts, if you have them. Oh, and a tank top too."
Half an hour later, faithfully following her temporary host's hints, dressed in a short-sleeved shirt and exercise shorts, Emanuele descended the last steps of the first floor of the apartment. The last time she had gone out, it had been raining and something horrible had happened. A shiver ran down her arms as she contemplated the memory.
But the vision was quickly replaced when she saw Joshua. He was wearing a T-shirt that showed all of his arm muscles, as well as much of his broad chest.
The shorts, although loose so as not to hinder her movements, barely hid the pronounced volume in the middle of her legs.
Emanuele's cheeks turned violently red.
Joshua didn't mind.
"Now let's go."
The two of them headed for the court that was a few meters away from the building where they lived. Aside from a few kids here and there, all that could be seen besides the sports space were a few toys and basic equipment.
"You don't think I'll be able to hang from one of these bars, do you?", Emanuele asked half jokingly, half seriously.
Like a good professional, he analyzed Emanuele's silhouette, assessing her weight and height. The girl blushed even more.
"I think you can do it. Best out of five?"
"No."
"Oh, come on. Just once."
"I told you I'm not going to make it."
Joshua pokes his head out. He seems to be having a great time.
"Okay, let's make it interesting, then."
Emanuele looks at him, puzzled.
"If you can do it twice instead of once, I'll wash all your clothes for a week."
"ALL my clothes?"
Imagining him touching her panties and bras, Emanuele gives a small groan of embarrassment. Joshua looks at her, wide-eyed.
The girl simply turns around, but is gently pulled back.
"Stop being a pain in the ass. Instead of washing your clothes, I'll do something else. Whatever you want. But at least try."
Emanuele seems to ponder seriously...
"What if I can't?"
Joshua's smile could indicate anything.
"Then I choose your punishment."
The redhead looks at him. The two stare at each other for only three seconds before she silently makes her decision and assesses the height of the bar.
Although it was at a high height, with one jump she could easily be reached. Taking a deep breath, praying that no one was looking at her, the girl jumps up and holds the bar with both hands.
"Now try to lift your chest over the bar."
Doing all the strength in the world, Emanuele begins to do what Joshua asks. He is directly below her. Did he think she would fall?
When she finally does, the girl's hands and fatigue betray her.
Because she simply loses her balance and lets go of her fingers.
Falling straight into Joshua.
And as if that were not enough, she is now on top of him, directly under his strong chest. The heat emanating from his skin is unprecedented, something she has never felt before...
She...
She simply can't move.
Joshua's arms are on her shoulder now. His fingers are firm yet soft.
Shivers run over her skin.
Would he... kiss her?
Emanuele's heart beats quickly as she waits to see what he will do next.
She looks up at him.
Joshua is staring her straight in the face.
Joshua murmurs softly."Emanuele."The redhead seems to be half dreaming, half awake. His voice was deep, deep and soothing. She remained in the same place."Emanuele."Again, she just listened to the call. His hands remained on her shoulders.But then the girl finally comes to her senses.Joshua is frowning as he watches her. Quickly, feeling very ashamed, the girl gets off the teacher. How humiliating! How long had she stood there like a fool? And I wonder what he was thinking of her now."That was quite a tumble. Are you okay?"The man didn't sound angry or offended. In fact, it was concern that glistened in his eyes as he stood up. But there was also no sign of spark, reverie, or any of the things Emanuele had felt. What a disaster."I'm fine," she replied, trying in vain to regain her composure. "I'm sorry... I don't think I can really do that kind of thing. I'm no good.""It was my fault. I think we need to slow down the intensity until we find a rhythm that's comfortable for y
Emanuele is sure that Joshua wants her too.There is a sparkle in his dark eyes, something that sparkles like a diamond. The girl simply knows; she understands that he wants her. Even if they hardly know each other.Or... No.In fact, Joshua stands a respectable distance away from her, still with a friendly smile on his lips. Courteous, even. But no shadow of flirtation or any sign that denotes anything more.Emanuele leaned forward, true, but not so much. In her mind, incredible things were about to happen. But it was all just a daydream.How stupid she was!And the tense seconds? Apparently those had been real, but still completely out of the context in which she imagined it."Emanuele.""Huh?" the redhead gave a startled little jump, keeping her back erect again."I know it's not a good idea to ask this, but... Are you sure you're okay?""What do you mean?""You know. After yesterday.""I'm fine."Emanuele's voice came out shaky. The man understood. "I just wanted to say that if y
Emanuele's first surprise was to notice that the urban environment was slowly disappearing.The enormous amount of buildings, honking cars, people here and there going about their business simply fell behind, further and further away, and in its place trees and dirt roads came into view.The girl looked at Joshua with a raised eyebrow, asking him silently what was going on. The young man explained:."Their meetings are usually at Amora and Amanda's house. Or rather, at the party house of the two.""Party house?""Yes."In Emanuele's hometown, the closest thing to a party house she knew was a small ranch where the elders gathered to drink and eat barbecue. But she was pretty sure that this gathering, and with this group, would be completely different.And she was totally right.When they got out of the cab, a few meters away they saw a huge ranch house. The windows were all open, and you could tell that a lively little tune was playing. Emanuele did not recognize the artist, but she li
The kiss is quick, brief, and hot. For seconds, the two remain only with their lips pressed against each other. Johnny's hands hold Emanuele's hands, softly and tenderly.Then he pulls his face away from hers, staring into her eyes.The girl doesn't know what to say or do. She just stares back at him, searching for the right words. If there were any right words to be said.Jhonny is the first to speak, his voice hoarse."I'm sorry. Was that too hasty?"Emanuele replies, somewhat flustered:"Precipitate? Precipitate?! That depends. Big city rules must be quite different from small towns, right? I mean, maybe you already had a few drinks before I arrived and that's why you became uninhibited. Not that you are uninhibited. I mean, people tend to be more loose around here, right? Or don't they? Is it biased of me to say that? Of course not, right? Is it a prejudice to think that it is a prejudice for me to say that?Jhonny holds himself back from laughing, letting out only a small chuckle
Before Emanuele can defend herself or even react, Thabata's flattened hand goes straight for her face.Or almost.Strongly holding the hand of Joshua's crazy, possessive girlfriend, Jhonny says:"You've got to have gone crazy."Thabata growls at him."Stay out of it, brat. This is a reckoning.""No. This is pure and utter madness. What did she do to you that you could attack her like that?""None of your business, kid. Let go of my soul now." She starts to try to pull away, but the boy won't let go.Emanuele takes two steps back, and ends up bumping into a girl who was dancing. She apologizes, but realizes that she didn't even hear her. Like other people, she noticed Thabata and Johnny, who were now clearly very angry with each other."That boyfriend stealer is going to get what she deserves," says the madwoman, making a monumental effort to break free of Jhonny's iron grip. He doesn't budge."She doesn't give a damn about your boyfriend, Thabata. You're the one who's crazy, insecure,
"Joshua," murmurs Emanuele, trying to intervene before something serious happens."I'll talk to you later." He doesn't even look at the girl as he says this. His dark eyes are fixed on Jhonny, who remains beside the redhead.For a few seconds the three of them are silent, assessing each other. Then Jhonny steps forward and puts his hands in his pockets."You want to talk, then talk."Joshua tilts his head to the side."I prefer to listen before I say anything. What happened?"Emanuele looks down, uncomfortable. Jhonny says loudly:"Your girlfriend is jealous of Emanuele."To the redhead's utter surprise, the older man neither tries to deny it nor gives any sign of being inclined to disagree with Jhonny's sure sentence. He continues:"She told everyone who was listening that you saved her from a near-rape, and that Emanuele used that as a pretext to try to seduce you."Joshua says nothing. Emanuele can't face either of them. She simply wants to run away, but she was afraid of bumping
Emanuele almost drops the cup. She looks incredulously at Johnny, who continues to stare at his hands.The girl opens her mouth, but realizes that they cannot make any sound. He obviously hated her, and made no effort to disguise it. I wonder."Does Joshua know?" she finally manages to verbalize something."I don't see why he wouldn't know. It was never a secret."Johnny sighs and continues:"They started dating about five months after we broke up.""But... When... How?""Yeah, she deceives people pretty well. It's just that I could never completely believe what she said, you know? And that was way before she met the guys.""Why did you guys break up?"He looks up at the bright stars above. "She manipulated me into cutting off a long-standing friendship. She made me blind and stupid as a mule. I didn't even give that person a chance, I just cut her out of my life."Emanuele says nothing immediately, waiting for him to conclude his thoughts."When I realized what exactly she was, what
A soft breeze makes the ruddy waves of Emanuele's hair flutter, and she tucks a strand behind her ear as she nervously ponders seriously the invitation from the boy in front of her.Spend the night with him...He is not ill-intentioned. Despite the more daring kisses and touches a few thousand years ago, Johnny really just wants to spend more time with the redhead, convey security to her, and do what he can to lessen her stress.The girl blinks twice before politely refusing:"Johnny, that's very kind of you.... But I'm really going to need to get back to the apartment."The boy understands. Then he approaches Emanuele and kisses her forehead before asking:"I will see you more often, won't I?""Of course you will. You don't have to worry about that. We'll just have to iron out a few details in our schedule."They talk some more, trying in vain to forget the negative events of that night. Johnny says that he lives in the neighborhood next to Emanuele's, and that he works as a waiter i
. . . . . . . . FIVE MONTHS LATER . . . . . .Emanuele looked at herself in the huge full-length mirror. The girl hardly knew where to look, which detail to care about first.She didn't know whether to look at the beautiful hairstyle in her now dark brown hair; her natural color.She didn't know whether to look at the impeccable makeup on her face, which made her even more beautiful and radiant than she was feeling.And I also didn't know whether to look at the beautiful white dress, simply cut, adorned with small mother-of-pearl beads. Despite the simplicity of the outfit, it was undeniable to say that the bride looked divine that day.Smiling, she turned around in front of her own reflection. Her heart was pounding with happiness, and she felt the stars in the night sky outside wishing her good luck. The curtain behind the door opened. A short, pudgy girl smiled sympathetically as she entered the room, openly admiring her."Miss Parker, you look beautiful!"Emanuele smiled."Thank
The old man falls to his knees at the same instant. Emanuele runs to him and hugs him tight, but Joseph does not respond. Instead, he seems to be doing his best not to scream as loud as he can."Dad!" The girl says."Adriele died? I had two daughters, and one of them died? Is that it?! Is that what you are telling me?!'Emanuele tries to hold back her sobs, but she can't. Instead, she says:"Yes, Dad. I'm really, really sorry. It all happened so fast! I lost my mother, my sister, and now... Now you are all I have left. You are literally all I have as family!"Joseph can't say anything for a while, only cry. The two of them are shaking very hard. Sarah, when alive, said that Morgan couldn't get the proper reaction, that he was too broken inside. But now he seemed quite emotional. I wonder what had happened.The smell of her father, enveloping Emanuele's nostrils, is soothing and familiar. In a snap, she remembers that the same scent enveloped her when she was in the arms of death, tra
Convincing Crimson to enter the police database to find her father's address was not that difficult.In fact, Emanuele was quite surprised when she had to use only one of the six rehearsed arguments. The old man shrugged and said that at that point it was no longer worth trying to pretend not to act unofficially from time to time.What really took a lot of lip from the redhead was convincing Joshua not to go with her. The girl knew that he only wanted to protect her, but Emanuele was very assertive in her arguments. She needed to do this alone, face that part of her past, and see if there was any possibility of fixing it in her future.Sarah had said that he was in a depressive spiral, and that when he saw her he could not react properly, and that it hurt her.Emanuele then prepared herself emotionally. She would not be disappointed or resentful if, by some chance, the man who at one time taught her a beautiful lullaby did not remember her... or was not touched by the moment.The youn
For a few seconds, all Emanuele can do is stare at Joshua. The two of them are still naked, and the distance between their bodies is as minimal as possible. "What?" she asks, softly. I wonder if she had heard right. Had her emotions stunned her enough for her to hear such a request?He gives a quiet laugh, then opens a confident, sentimental smile."Will you marry me?"The girl immediately sits up, leaning against the headboard of the bed. She covers her own nakedness with the blanket, still looking at the man, who also sits down."I..."Several things go through her head.The first was that no, she could not get married. Not in that life and not ever. All the misfortunes that had happened to her, all the horrible and unfortunately scarring traumas that were etched into her skin; all that made marriage itself a terrible idea.According to the books that the young woman read, especially during her teenage years, marriage was the union of two people. Total commitment to each other, com
As soon as he closes the door, Joshua gives warm, soft kisses on the sensitive skin of Emanuele's neck. The man sighs, almost intoxicated with passion, and murmurs:"I love the way you smell."With all the delicacy and romance in the world, Joshua props the redhead's torso on the bed, leaving her legs and feet touching the floor. He caresses her over her clothes. Emanuele moans."The last time we were together like this, I gave only a demonstration of what might come next. Remember?"He stimulates her further with the tip of his thumb, in subtle, gentle circular motions. "Those were the words of a man overcome with desire, and even lust, if I am willing to admit it. Today I may again have those feelings in my body, but... there is a difference. Now I am sure that I love you."Still with his thumb on Emanuele's clit, Joshua kisses her eagerly; the movement of his tongue is smooth and warm. Murmurs come out of her throat, as if the teacher is delighting in that moment.Emanuele's hands
The winter dawn is cold.A month has passed since Emanuele saw her sister die. One month, and even then, the memory was still latent and terrible.The girl had already been to therapy, but the nightmares continued to torment her. Joshua didn't know what to do anymore, since every night at two o'clock in the morning the girl's terrified screams woke him up.The teacher got out of his own bed in the dim light. The clock on his cell phone said it was one hour and fifty minutes, that is, ten minutes before the nightmares began.Standing up, taking care not to make any excessive noise, Joshua opened the door to his room, going towards Emanuele's door.But the door was open.Frowning, the man approaches the room. Her bed is empty.Still not making hasty decisions, Joshua goes to the living room, equally empty. His heart only slows down when he sees the girl sitting at the table, drinking a glass of water. She watches him without saying anything, then goes back to sipping the liquid.Slowly
Joshua immediately embraces Emanuele as soon as she, still very tearful and emotional, leaves the room where Sarah is being held. She clings to the man's clothes, sobbing terribly. Her eyes are swollen and red. "I am here," he murmurs. "I'm right here, my love." The girl can barely respond or say anything. A man wearing religious robes appears. He is middle-aged and wears thick-rimmed glasses. In his hand is a Bible. The man's voice is patient and docile, and he uses all his politeness as he approaches Emanuele. "May God's infinite mercy soothe your heart, child. I am so sorry for your loss." Apparently, the priest was already very well informed of the situation. The girl does not respond, only sinks even deeper into the chest of Joshua, who makes no mention of letting go. The policeman in charge of Sarah's surveillance accompanies the religious man. That was the protocol. Before being formally executed, Sarah would have the right to console herself and at least try to ensure a se
The next day dawned gray, cold and absolutely silent.Of course, cars were still passing by, people were leaving their homes to go to work, and children were going to school. But the noise present, that typical sound that Emanuele's ears were used to, could not penetrate the enormous bubble of silence that surrounded her.The call from the delegate the day before was an answer she had been begging to receive, but now that she knew that her sister's last wish was to see her, an unbearable weight had taken over her heart. Sarah was going to die. And all they had together were brief, monitored, timed conversations.Emanuele looked at herself in the mirror. She was wearing a black overcoat and pants of the same color, as well as dark boots. Her dyed red hair was tied up in a tight bun, and no matter how hard she tried to disguise her swollen face, red from crying with makeup, it was still obvious to anyone paying a little more attention. Joshua appeared in the doorway, wearing dark soci
Emanuele could neither sleep nor eat properly in the days that followed.All the girl could do, and at the massive insistence of Joshua who took care of her whenever he could, was to take a few naps and, very begrudgingly, put food in her stomach. He always tried to be as close as possible, even though he needed to work.With the insurance money, Joshua was able to recover almost nothing from the old apartment, so he opted to buy new furniture and decorate Alexandra's apartment, or rather his apartment. Doing this, however, seemed pointless and even disrespectful, since the present moment was one of mourning, not of celebration.When the man apologized for his attitude, Emanuele just shrugged and continued to stare at some fixed point on the wall.They did not sleep together. Each stayed in his own room most of the time. Joshua tried to get close to her physically, but he was content to give her a respectful cuddle and caress to comfort her. It was not the time for them to get close l