Joshua murmurs softly.
"Emanuele."
The redhead seems to be half dreaming, half awake. His voice was deep, deep and soothing. She remained in the same place.
"Emanuele."
Again, she just listened to the call. His hands remained on her shoulders.
But then the girl finally comes to her senses.
Joshua is frowning as he watches her. Quickly, feeling very ashamed, the girl gets off the teacher. How humiliating! How long had she stood there like a fool? And I wonder what he was thinking of her now.
"That was quite a tumble. Are you okay?"
The man didn't sound angry or offended. In fact, it was concern that glistened in his eyes as he stood up. But there was also no sign of spark, reverie, or any of the things Emanuele had felt.
What a disaster.
"I'm fine," she replied, trying in vain to regain her composure. "I'm sorry... I don't think I can really do that kind of thing. I'm no good."
"It was my fault. I think we need to slow down the intensity until we find a rhythm that's comfortable for you."
The girl scratches her head, looking sideways.
"Look, I really need-"
"You lost the challenge, remember?" he blinks one of his eyes at her.
"But-"
"And whoever lost would have to do whatever the other guy told them to. That was the deal."
Emanuele couldn't contain her small tone of huffiness.
"But it wasn't a fair challenge!"
"Sure it was. Now, enough of your whining. We have plenty to do. Start stretching."
"What?!"
"Come on, sit on the floor and start touching your feet."
"Wait a minute there!"
"Bad loser."
"I'm not a bad loser."
"Then sit still and stretch. I'll walk you through it."
Joshua actually sits up and begins to lean back on his tiptoes. Emboldened, Emanuele begins to do the same thing.
Within minutes, the two begin to do a series of different stretches. Joshua asks Emanuele questions: what is the city like where she came from, was the trip very stressful, and what job was it that she could earn money on her cell phone. She answered everything vaguely, except for the job. According to the redhead, she sent articles to a fictional literature magazine, and was paid well for it.
Emanuele also asked Joshua questions. Most of the time he said that he really enjoyed his work, and that teenagers used to be much happier and healthier when they played sports. He was also passionate about soccer, but he didn't support any team from the United States.
"What team do you support, then?"
"Clube de Regatas do Flamengo. It's a Brazilian team."
"Well, what to expect from a place that is known as the country of soccer, right?" was Emanuele's response.
After stretching, the two started running around the court. The girl didn't want to give up, but she was enjoying doing those physical activities. It was as if small particles of joy were being activated and spread in her bloodstream.
An hour later, sweaty and tired, the pair decided to go back to the apartment. In the middle of their conversation, they did not notice when a group of people stopped near them.
They were two girls and three boys, all smiling and friendly. And, of course, friends of Joshua.
"Look at that, if it isn't our favorite teacher," says one of the boys.
"And apparently he has already enslaved one person to be the guinea pig for his exercises. Girl, if you need help, blink three times," jokes the other boy.
The third boy is too busy noticing Emanuele, so I do nothing. But not in a sharp, unkind way. In fact, he seems to be quite enjoying what he sees.
The girls, two identical twin sisters, are also quite receptive. One of them says:
"Aren't you going to introduce us, Joshua?'
The older man seems to swallow dryly.
'Ãhm, sure. Guys, this is Emanuele. She's the new tenant of my sister's apartment."
"Tenant? I don't know. This story is weird. I'm sure you're torturing and enslaving her," the second boy jokes again.
"Don't mind him," says the first boy. "He can't act like a normal person, but you'll still find he's a nice person. Sometimes."
"Hey!" complains the nice person in question.
Emanuele laughs.
"My name is Carlos. This is Andrew, Johnny, Amanda and Amora."
"Hi," they all speak in unison.
Andrew, the seemingly funny guy in the group, asks Emanuele directly:
"Are you new in town?"
"Yes, I am. I arrived the day before yesterday."
"Then you need to come to our meeting tonight," Amora looks excited.
"Meeting?"
"It's the way they talk about the moral depravity, greasy foods, and dubious music they usually consume on these nights," Joshua grumbles.
"He doesn't care about him. He's old and doesn't know what he's talking about. So, are you coming?" asks Amanda.
"I-," she hesitates, a little uncomfortable with so much excitement coming from the five strangers.
"Please. It would be really nice if you would come," the quiet boy, named Johnny, speaks softly as he seems to have trouble looking Emanuele in the eye.
The redhead seems to seriously consider the invitation. She still had an essay to submit, and could take the evening off to have some fun. In the city where she came from, her main entertainment was usually reading books about mythological dragons and princesses in danger. Why not change her habits?
An atypical smile takes over the girl's lips.
"That's fine. It might be nice. But I've never been to a... Meeting."
"There's a first time for everything," Amora says, pulling a blue card from the pocket of her jeans and handing it into Emanuele's hands. "Text me at this number. I'll pick you up at eight."
After a few more minutes of chatting, the group finally leaves. Joshua snorts.
"What's wrong?" asks Emanuele. They walk through the double doors on the second floor of the apartment.
"Huh? Nothing."
"You don't know how to lie very well."
The man presses the elevator button and waits while answering the girl:
"Don't get me wrong. I like them a lot. But I don't know if they are good company."
"They seem to like you a lot. I thought you were their friend."
Joshua nods.
"I am. I mean, I used to be more present in their lives. But they usually hang out more with Alexandra. The age is closer."
"Speaking of which, how old are you? If I may ask."
He smiles.
"How old do you think I am?"
"Um... Forty?"
"It came close. I'm forty-two."
"Oh."
"What about you, young lady?"
Emanuele didn't like the " young lady" at all, but decided to ignore it.
"Twenty-two."
"Ah."
The elevator finally arrives. The two of them get in.
As the doors close, Emanuele comments:
"When I visited Alexandra's social media profile, she said she was 29. That's a really big difference."
Joshua looks kind of sad and thoughtful when she says that. Then he mutters:
"Yeah..."
Had she said something wrong? She didn't mean it.
When the two enter the apartment, Joshua puts his hand on his forehead, as if remembering something terrible.
"Damn, I forgot to take the copy of the keys. Can you wait for me? I promise I won't be long."
"Sure. It's okay."
As he leaves, Emanuele looks at the blue card in his hands. In addition to the phone number and the name "Amora Parker," stars and flowers formed the print on the object. If Alexandra liked these people, then obviously they were good, right?"
But... What if something bad happened? After all, she would be going to a place full of strangers... And who could guarantee that nothing would go wrong during the night?
After taking a good shower and putting on a comfortable pair of jeans and a striped cotton blouse, the redhead sat down on the sofa and saved the contact on her cell phone. Almost instantly, a clatter of keys sounded. The door opened. Joshua entered the apartment, quite sweaty, and showed her the extra keys.
"Done." He tossed them to Emanuele, who caught them without difficulty.
"Great reflex. Tomorrow we can test them more."
She doesn't know if he is joking or not, so she doesn't answer. Her thoughts go back to the meeting that night....
It seems that the man guesses her thoughts.
"You want to go out with the groupie, don't you?"
Emanuele nods.
"Are you coming with me?"
Joshua grimaces before answering, probably ready to say no, but the girl pleads:
"Please. I would love for you to go with me..."
That seems to give his thinking pause. A discreet smile appears on her plump lips.
"Would you love to?"
Emanuele's heart feels like it is going to burst out of her chest.
"Yes."
He moves closer to her. One step, two steps.
Then he kneels down, to stand at her height.
The air between the two is so close that she can feel his breath on her own skin.
Instinctively, she starts to lean forward, closer to him.
And in that moment, in that second, she is absolutely sure of one thing: shy or not, ashamed or not, she wants to kiss him.
The space between them gets shorter and shorter.
Time for the truth.
Emanuele is sure that Joshua wants her too.There is a sparkle in his dark eyes, something that sparkles like a diamond. The girl simply knows; she understands that he wants her. Even if they hardly know each other.Or... No.In fact, Joshua stands a respectable distance away from her, still with a friendly smile on his lips. Courteous, even. But no shadow of flirtation or any sign that denotes anything more.Emanuele leaned forward, true, but not so much. In her mind, incredible things were about to happen. But it was all just a daydream.How stupid she was!And the tense seconds? Apparently those had been real, but still completely out of the context in which she imagined it."Emanuele.""Huh?" the redhead gave a startled little jump, keeping her back erect again."I know it's not a good idea to ask this, but... Are you sure you're okay?""What do you mean?""You know. After yesterday.""I'm fine."Emanuele's voice came out shaky. The man understood. "I just wanted to say that if y
Emanuele's first surprise was to notice that the urban environment was slowly disappearing.The enormous amount of buildings, honking cars, people here and there going about their business simply fell behind, further and further away, and in its place trees and dirt roads came into view.The girl looked at Joshua with a raised eyebrow, asking him silently what was going on. The young man explained:."Their meetings are usually at Amora and Amanda's house. Or rather, at the party house of the two.""Party house?""Yes."In Emanuele's hometown, the closest thing to a party house she knew was a small ranch where the elders gathered to drink and eat barbecue. But she was pretty sure that this gathering, and with this group, would be completely different.And she was totally right.When they got out of the cab, a few meters away they saw a huge ranch house. The windows were all open, and you could tell that a lively little tune was playing. Emanuele did not recognize the artist, but she li
The kiss is quick, brief, and hot. For seconds, the two remain only with their lips pressed against each other. Johnny's hands hold Emanuele's hands, softly and tenderly.Then he pulls his face away from hers, staring into her eyes.The girl doesn't know what to say or do. She just stares back at him, searching for the right words. If there were any right words to be said.Jhonny is the first to speak, his voice hoarse."I'm sorry. Was that too hasty?"Emanuele replies, somewhat flustered:"Precipitate? Precipitate?! That depends. Big city rules must be quite different from small towns, right? I mean, maybe you already had a few drinks before I arrived and that's why you became uninhibited. Not that you are uninhibited. I mean, people tend to be more loose around here, right? Or don't they? Is it biased of me to say that? Of course not, right? Is it a prejudice to think that it is a prejudice for me to say that?Jhonny holds himself back from laughing, letting out only a small chuckle
Before Emanuele can defend herself or even react, Thabata's flattened hand goes straight for her face.Or almost.Strongly holding the hand of Joshua's crazy, possessive girlfriend, Jhonny says:"You've got to have gone crazy."Thabata growls at him."Stay out of it, brat. This is a reckoning.""No. This is pure and utter madness. What did she do to you that you could attack her like that?""None of your business, kid. Let go of my soul now." She starts to try to pull away, but the boy won't let go.Emanuele takes two steps back, and ends up bumping into a girl who was dancing. She apologizes, but realizes that she didn't even hear her. Like other people, she noticed Thabata and Johnny, who were now clearly very angry with each other."That boyfriend stealer is going to get what she deserves," says the madwoman, making a monumental effort to break free of Jhonny's iron grip. He doesn't budge."She doesn't give a damn about your boyfriend, Thabata. You're the one who's crazy, insecure,
"Joshua," murmurs Emanuele, trying to intervene before something serious happens."I'll talk to you later." He doesn't even look at the girl as he says this. His dark eyes are fixed on Jhonny, who remains beside the redhead.For a few seconds the three of them are silent, assessing each other. Then Jhonny steps forward and puts his hands in his pockets."You want to talk, then talk."Joshua tilts his head to the side."I prefer to listen before I say anything. What happened?"Emanuele looks down, uncomfortable. Jhonny says loudly:"Your girlfriend is jealous of Emanuele."To the redhead's utter surprise, the older man neither tries to deny it nor gives any sign of being inclined to disagree with Jhonny's sure sentence. He continues:"She told everyone who was listening that you saved her from a near-rape, and that Emanuele used that as a pretext to try to seduce you."Joshua says nothing. Emanuele can't face either of them. She simply wants to run away, but she was afraid of bumping
Emanuele almost drops the cup. She looks incredulously at Johnny, who continues to stare at his hands.The girl opens her mouth, but realizes that they cannot make any sound. He obviously hated her, and made no effort to disguise it. I wonder."Does Joshua know?" she finally manages to verbalize something."I don't see why he wouldn't know. It was never a secret."Johnny sighs and continues:"They started dating about five months after we broke up.""But... When... How?""Yeah, she deceives people pretty well. It's just that I could never completely believe what she said, you know? And that was way before she met the guys.""Why did you guys break up?"He looks up at the bright stars above. "She manipulated me into cutting off a long-standing friendship. She made me blind and stupid as a mule. I didn't even give that person a chance, I just cut her out of my life."Emanuele says nothing immediately, waiting for him to conclude his thoughts."When I realized what exactly she was, what
A soft breeze makes the ruddy waves of Emanuele's hair flutter, and she tucks a strand behind her ear as she nervously ponders seriously the invitation from the boy in front of her.Spend the night with him...He is not ill-intentioned. Despite the more daring kisses and touches a few thousand years ago, Johnny really just wants to spend more time with the redhead, convey security to her, and do what he can to lessen her stress.The girl blinks twice before politely refusing:"Johnny, that's very kind of you.... But I'm really going to need to get back to the apartment."The boy understands. Then he approaches Emanuele and kisses her forehead before asking:"I will see you more often, won't I?""Of course you will. You don't have to worry about that. We'll just have to iron out a few details in our schedule."They talk some more, trying in vain to forget the negative events of that night. Johnny says that he lives in the neighborhood next to Emanuele's, and that he works as a waiter i
Emanuele didn't know why her face was buried in Joshua's body, nor why she was hugging him so tightly. She just felt, deep in her soul, that he desperately needed a hug.How would it be for him, a man of integrity who took his duties and relationships seriously, to hear from more than one person that his girlfriend was not exactly a good person? And what about after three years of being with this person?Joshua didn't say much about him. All she knew so far was that he had a problematic girlfriend, that he was the older brother of the real owner of the apartment, and that he was a physical education teacher. Oh, and supposedly the sick relative that Alexandra went to visit was of no concern to him, which in itself was kind of strange.Well, Emanuele said almost nothing about himself either. It was only fair that they both chose to withhold information, after all trust is something that is earned little by little.But... There she was.At that moment, the girl didn't reflect on being i
. . . . . . . . FIVE MONTHS LATER . . . . . .Emanuele looked at herself in the huge full-length mirror. The girl hardly knew where to look, which detail to care about first.She didn't know whether to look at the beautiful hairstyle in her now dark brown hair; her natural color.She didn't know whether to look at the impeccable makeup on her face, which made her even more beautiful and radiant than she was feeling.And I also didn't know whether to look at the beautiful white dress, simply cut, adorned with small mother-of-pearl beads. Despite the simplicity of the outfit, it was undeniable to say that the bride looked divine that day.Smiling, she turned around in front of her own reflection. Her heart was pounding with happiness, and she felt the stars in the night sky outside wishing her good luck. The curtain behind the door opened. A short, pudgy girl smiled sympathetically as she entered the room, openly admiring her."Miss Parker, you look beautiful!"Emanuele smiled."Thank
The old man falls to his knees at the same instant. Emanuele runs to him and hugs him tight, but Joseph does not respond. Instead, he seems to be doing his best not to scream as loud as he can."Dad!" The girl says."Adriele died? I had two daughters, and one of them died? Is that it?! Is that what you are telling me?!'Emanuele tries to hold back her sobs, but she can't. Instead, she says:"Yes, Dad. I'm really, really sorry. It all happened so fast! I lost my mother, my sister, and now... Now you are all I have left. You are literally all I have as family!"Joseph can't say anything for a while, only cry. The two of them are shaking very hard. Sarah, when alive, said that Morgan couldn't get the proper reaction, that he was too broken inside. But now he seemed quite emotional. I wonder what had happened.The smell of her father, enveloping Emanuele's nostrils, is soothing and familiar. In a snap, she remembers that the same scent enveloped her when she was in the arms of death, tra
Convincing Crimson to enter the police database to find her father's address was not that difficult.In fact, Emanuele was quite surprised when she had to use only one of the six rehearsed arguments. The old man shrugged and said that at that point it was no longer worth trying to pretend not to act unofficially from time to time.What really took a lot of lip from the redhead was convincing Joshua not to go with her. The girl knew that he only wanted to protect her, but Emanuele was very assertive in her arguments. She needed to do this alone, face that part of her past, and see if there was any possibility of fixing it in her future.Sarah had said that he was in a depressive spiral, and that when he saw her he could not react properly, and that it hurt her.Emanuele then prepared herself emotionally. She would not be disappointed or resentful if, by some chance, the man who at one time taught her a beautiful lullaby did not remember her... or was not touched by the moment.The youn
For a few seconds, all Emanuele can do is stare at Joshua. The two of them are still naked, and the distance between their bodies is as minimal as possible. "What?" she asks, softly. I wonder if she had heard right. Had her emotions stunned her enough for her to hear such a request?He gives a quiet laugh, then opens a confident, sentimental smile."Will you marry me?"The girl immediately sits up, leaning against the headboard of the bed. She covers her own nakedness with the blanket, still looking at the man, who also sits down."I..."Several things go through her head.The first was that no, she could not get married. Not in that life and not ever. All the misfortunes that had happened to her, all the horrible and unfortunately scarring traumas that were etched into her skin; all that made marriage itself a terrible idea.According to the books that the young woman read, especially during her teenage years, marriage was the union of two people. Total commitment to each other, com
As soon as he closes the door, Joshua gives warm, soft kisses on the sensitive skin of Emanuele's neck. The man sighs, almost intoxicated with passion, and murmurs:"I love the way you smell."With all the delicacy and romance in the world, Joshua props the redhead's torso on the bed, leaving her legs and feet touching the floor. He caresses her over her clothes. Emanuele moans."The last time we were together like this, I gave only a demonstration of what might come next. Remember?"He stimulates her further with the tip of his thumb, in subtle, gentle circular motions. "Those were the words of a man overcome with desire, and even lust, if I am willing to admit it. Today I may again have those feelings in my body, but... there is a difference. Now I am sure that I love you."Still with his thumb on Emanuele's clit, Joshua kisses her eagerly; the movement of his tongue is smooth and warm. Murmurs come out of her throat, as if the teacher is delighting in that moment.Emanuele's hands
The winter dawn is cold.A month has passed since Emanuele saw her sister die. One month, and even then, the memory was still latent and terrible.The girl had already been to therapy, but the nightmares continued to torment her. Joshua didn't know what to do anymore, since every night at two o'clock in the morning the girl's terrified screams woke him up.The teacher got out of his own bed in the dim light. The clock on his cell phone said it was one hour and fifty minutes, that is, ten minutes before the nightmares began.Standing up, taking care not to make any excessive noise, Joshua opened the door to his room, going towards Emanuele's door.But the door was open.Frowning, the man approaches the room. Her bed is empty.Still not making hasty decisions, Joshua goes to the living room, equally empty. His heart only slows down when he sees the girl sitting at the table, drinking a glass of water. She watches him without saying anything, then goes back to sipping the liquid.Slowly
Joshua immediately embraces Emanuele as soon as she, still very tearful and emotional, leaves the room where Sarah is being held. She clings to the man's clothes, sobbing terribly. Her eyes are swollen and red. "I am here," he murmurs. "I'm right here, my love." The girl can barely respond or say anything. A man wearing religious robes appears. He is middle-aged and wears thick-rimmed glasses. In his hand is a Bible. The man's voice is patient and docile, and he uses all his politeness as he approaches Emanuele. "May God's infinite mercy soothe your heart, child. I am so sorry for your loss." Apparently, the priest was already very well informed of the situation. The girl does not respond, only sinks even deeper into the chest of Joshua, who makes no mention of letting go. The policeman in charge of Sarah's surveillance accompanies the religious man. That was the protocol. Before being formally executed, Sarah would have the right to console herself and at least try to ensure a se
The next day dawned gray, cold and absolutely silent.Of course, cars were still passing by, people were leaving their homes to go to work, and children were going to school. But the noise present, that typical sound that Emanuele's ears were used to, could not penetrate the enormous bubble of silence that surrounded her.The call from the delegate the day before was an answer she had been begging to receive, but now that she knew that her sister's last wish was to see her, an unbearable weight had taken over her heart. Sarah was going to die. And all they had together were brief, monitored, timed conversations.Emanuele looked at herself in the mirror. She was wearing a black overcoat and pants of the same color, as well as dark boots. Her dyed red hair was tied up in a tight bun, and no matter how hard she tried to disguise her swollen face, red from crying with makeup, it was still obvious to anyone paying a little more attention. Joshua appeared in the doorway, wearing dark soci
Emanuele could neither sleep nor eat properly in the days that followed.All the girl could do, and at the massive insistence of Joshua who took care of her whenever he could, was to take a few naps and, very begrudgingly, put food in her stomach. He always tried to be as close as possible, even though he needed to work.With the insurance money, Joshua was able to recover almost nothing from the old apartment, so he opted to buy new furniture and decorate Alexandra's apartment, or rather his apartment. Doing this, however, seemed pointless and even disrespectful, since the present moment was one of mourning, not of celebration.When the man apologized for his attitude, Emanuele just shrugged and continued to stare at some fixed point on the wall.They did not sleep together. Each stayed in his own room most of the time. Joshua tried to get close to her physically, but he was content to give her a respectful cuddle and caress to comfort her. It was not the time for them to get close l