ETHAN
~Trusting sucks when you get stabbed in the back repeatedly~ “What are you doing here?” I whispered, placing his coffee on the round table. The smirk on his lips was gone, replaced with a look that sent a shudder down my spine, like he'd answered the same question before. He made me feel dumb for asking a reasonable question. He took a small sip of the coffee, his eyes never leaving mine, “I followed you here, Master. I wasn't allowed to go in through the back door.” Why on earth was he even following me? I pinched the bridge of my nose, glancing over my shoulders to stare at my grumpy boss. “You need to leave. Now.” I spat, fingers tightening around the silver tray. He ruined my class with Prof. Meadows, he'd definitely do the same here. Standing up close to him was already messing with my system. “I'm not leaving. I'll stay till you close up.” He gave me a challenging smile, almost like he was saying ‘you can't make me leave. I'm stuck with you till death' “That's not going to work.” I swallowed, watching as a few ladies kept staring at Killan. They weren't just staring—they were gawking at him. I suddenly wanted to shove him inside for my eyes alone. He was too beautiful to be beholded by the world. I raked my fingers through my hair, exhaling out loud. “First, you barged into my school, and now, you're stalking me at my work place. What exactly are you?” “Your loyal servant.” He grinned, taking a majestic sip of the coffee again. I didn't have time for this. Deep down, I knew that Killan wasn't going to leave. He'd never. Not even if I forced him. I returned back to the counter to begin taking orders, but just like the lady staring at him earlier had been waiting for me to leave his table, she slipped Into the seat across from him, her fingers naturally finding its way towards his wrist. Her actions zapped discomfort down my spine. I tried to rip my gaze away—to act unconcerned—but I couldn't. My eyes unconsciously found its way to her red lips, reading each sentence that flowed out of them. “You look new around here.” She slurred, leaning her face on her palm, “changed cities?” To hear them quite clearly, I began taking orders from tables close to theirs. Now, standing up close to Killan, I watched his reaction to her question. He slowly placed his coffee cup on the table, his eyes devoid of any emotion. “Hmm. I did.” “Explains your British accent.” She slurred, leaning even closer, so fucking closer I wanted to snap her in two. ‘She is hot.’ Hot was an understatement. She was an exotic beauty men would eagerly wait on the line to have a chit chat with, but Killan didn't even bat an eyelid. “Do you think we might hang…out sometime?” She asked. “No, sweetheart. Not this week.” Killan spelled, leaning against his chair. “How about the next?” “Also completely booked.” “So you have a girlfriend you'd rather spend your entire time with?” Strangely, Killan's eyes found mine. “And she's extremely jealous, she'd snap you in two if she lays her paws on you.” “How jealous is she? I think I can handle her.” “I bet you can't.” He smirked, pushing his chair backwards. “I gotta go.” “Where?” Killan didn't respond. A relief. He handled the situation smoothly, leaving the young girl in a state of confusion. He'd said he wanted to leave the restaurant, but why was he advancing towards me? He stopped before me, slowly slipping his hands into his pocket. “Had fun eavesdropping?” “E..eavesdropping?” I chuckled, tightening my grip on the silver tray. “Why on earth would I eavesdrop on your conversation with—” I pointed at the blonde, giving a nervous smile. “I..I mean, I was just looking out for you.” He smirked, stepping closer. “Looking out for me by eavesdropping?” “You're new here, what if she wanted to lure you out somewhere?” “Where?” He grinned, running his smooth fingers through his hair, “You're afraid I'd get raped by dozens of hot ladies?” “I mean….yeah.” I nodded, avoiding his gaze, “trust me, you wouldn't want that to happen.” “But it doesn't seem all bad.” He glanced over his shoulder, watching her with his hawk-like gaze. Just like she felt the burn in her skin, she whirled around, giving Killan a nasty wink. “You know what? You should leave.” “Why?” “Because…. you're interrupting my work!” Killan gave me his hurtful look again, placing his palm over his chest. “Oww, that hurts.” He leaned closer, his magnetic voice grazing my ears. “Why do I feel like you're…jealous?” “Stop being ridiculous.” I pushed him away, glaring hard at him. “You know what? Just stay away from me.” A few customers were starting to get all grumpy in their seats, and soon, my boss would dash out and start cursing under his breath at how incapable I was. I didn't want to lose my job. It'd kill me. Clutching the tray hard, I walked past Killan, but he suddenly grabbed my wrist, his nails grazing my skin. “Master, don't walk home alone tonight.” “What?!” I pushed his hands away, glaring hard at him. “Stick your nose in your business.” But deep down, I felt a bit uneasy. He'd said it desperately, like he was indirectly warning me of an impending doom. “Promise me you won't walk home tonight.”ETHAN'S POV~I met him again—the young boy that found comfort in darkness instead of being afraid of it~“Who on earth does he think he is to order me around?” I huffed, plugging my earbuds in as I strolled down the empty streets. Did he think I was some helpless guy who couldn’t fight for himself? Or a damsel in distress, clinging to cryptic messages from some strange guy calling me “Master?” I had just finished my shift at St. Travis’s restaurant.It was almost midnight, no taxis in sight, so I kept walking, letting ‘Just My Type by The Vamps’ blast through my ears. The beat always calmed my nerves during frustrating times like these. To get home faster, I took a shortcut through an alley, but the moment I turned the corner, three men blocked my path. My steps slowed as I yanked my earbuds out and shoved them into my pocket.“Excuse me,” I said, squaring my shoulders. “You’re in my way.”“That was intentional.” The leanest of the three crossed his arms. The dim alleyway barely le
ETHAN~Betrayal doesn't come from enemies—it comes from those who promised to stay~“So, you got all mushy together last night?“ Liam asked, stuffing some chips into his mouth, his lips spreading into a wide grin. “Tell me, did something else…happen?“ “No, gross.“ I spat, grabbing a small bottle of water on our round table. Each student had their table. For example—the school losers, Liam and I, had been sitting on this table since freshman year. Jamie moved ever since he started fucking Alicia. Not like he was a school loser. He was seemingly too perfect to be one. A complete opposite of me. “I don't believe you.“ Liam smirked, staring down at his empty bag of chips. “I mean, he wouldn't have just hugged you without initiating something.“ “Shut the fuck up, Liam.“ I growled. “Nothing happened. He…it was just a hug.“ But deep down, I knew it was way more than that. It was how he tapped into my emotions and calmed me in a way no one had ever done it. And strangely, I gave into h
ETHAN ~Sometimes, pain doesn't bleed. It stays quiet, eats you up slowly until you can't hold it in no more~ “What little secret?“ My jaw clenched, rage surging through my veins as my pulse raced. Sometimes, I wondered what I'd done to deserve friends who shattered the word 'trust' like it never really mattered. Jamie and I had been through the worst together, been through hell even. Once, we skipped prom to sit on a cold hospital floor, waiting for his sick mom to wake up. He took punches for me in highschool and me? I took the fall for him in college every fucking time. He'd apologize, say it was a mistake, but I knew my best friend was slowly slipping. He was the first person who ever said he loved me like family, but now, he made me realize that the word 'brother' never really mattered. He hurt me. And hell, it hurt more than a thousand stitches on my dick. Jamie smirked, his eyes ridiculously dark. He once told me we'd be friends for life, join our children together
ETHAN~Sometimes, I wondered if everything he showed was just a mask, but I chose to trust him anyway~I woke up with a slight groan, my head pounding, vision blurry. Glancing around the white walled room, my eyes naturally gravitated to a tall, lean figure leaning on the wall. Clad in a black blazer and some blue jeans, he looked ruggedly handsome, breathtaking, beautiful—in a dark way. Dammit. Why was I thinking about him that way? I tried to sit upright, but my whole body ached. It literally felt like I was run down by a large truck. Swallowing hard, I squinted my eyes. “Take me home, Killan. I shouldn't be here.“ Killan's gaze pinned me in place, cutting through me like a blade as a twitch touched the corner of his lips. “You have a broken nose, a broken rib, and oh,” he stalked towards me, his eyes narrowing. “A purple eye. So, tell me MASTER, do you think you deserve to go home in this state?“ “I have to work.“ I ripped my gaze from his, focusing on something else. Those eye
ETHAN~He wasn't the monster I feared, he was the one I couldn't help but reach out for~Now that I thought about it, Liam was quite right. It made me remember the first time I picked up a dog in the middle of the street, my first reaction to meeting a grown up man laying on my bed like he owned it. It was odd. Too strange. What was Killan if he wasn't human? And who exactly was he? I was discharged from the hospital a few days later, and I spent most of my time doing research on the theory of a dog transforming into a man. Each writeup I came across didn't make sense, none of them did. What I saw was Lycanthropy—a man transforming into a beast, but that dog was no beast. Could it be a disguise? Of course not. It could have been a hallucination, maybe Killan sneaked into my home, perhaps science could explain whatever the shit happened . I closed up my computer and sucked in a deep breath. A chilly sense of dread crawled up my spine, making me uneasy. Lycans didn't exist, werewo
ETHAN ~Regret is a useless feeling, the deed is already done~The soft ray of the sun seeped in through the curtains, disrupting my peaceful sleep on a barely perfect day. Massaging my temples, I briefly glanced at the blank space where Killan slept—but he wasn't here. I stretched with a groan and stumbled into the bathroom, almost losing my balance at the sight of a shirtless Killan washing his face. For some odd reason, I couldn't stop staring at his broad shoulders and the V shape of his firm waist. His chest was well sculpted, powerful, but my eyes kept wandering towards the slight bulge dow—“Can't stop staring?“ Killan teased, turning to stare at me, his back leaning against the ceramic sink. “I wasn't staring.“ “Which isn't true.“ His lips tilted into a cunning smirk as he stalked towards me. Standing before me, his fingers found my cheekbone, grazing it slowly, like a master caressing his favorite pet. I unconsciously leaned in, but Killan pulled away with a mischievous g
ETHAN ~He was a deathly mistake, a pleasurable sin, a deadly obsession….and soon, he'd be the death of me~Days turned into weeks. The sun barely showed up, the sky was always cloudy, gloomy and moody. Just the way I felt ever since my encounter with the stranger at the cafeteria. He held so much power that he crushed my bones with a single touch. It literally felt like my whole being was being stuffed with unquenchable flames, more painful than anything I'd ever experienced. Killan avoided the question like a plague. He avoided me like a plague. He was always on the edge, always extra cautious—like he knew he was being followed. Standing at the front porch of my small apartment, I licked my lips, watching as Gregor's car passed right by. I'd been able to get a little cash from my shift at St. Travis—wasn't all of it, but it was a tangible amount. “Gregor.“ I called out, jogging after his crumpled car. The shit was as messed up as he was. He pulled up at his garage, his stern e
ETHAN~The lie. The truth. I had no idea what to believe anymore~“I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I feel nothing for ladies, but I still prefer tits to some flat, hard chest.” I kept chanting the words like a mantra as I strode into the cafeteria, ignoring the curious glances thrown my way.Liam waved at me from our usual corner.And there was Killan, sitting alone as usual. He avoided me throughout the whole night, like I was a mistake. He literally said it was a mistake. I chuckled dryly and stalked towards Liam.I slipped into the seat next to him, setting my meal on the round table. “I wish I had kicked him out sooner.” I exhaled. “Who?” “Killan.” “Did last night really happen?” Liam leaned closer, his curious eyes searching mine. “The message you sent, is it really true? You…”“I don't want to talk about it.““Dude, you're gay!” Liam exclaimed, eyes wide with shock. “I mean, I know you're not so into girls, so men then?““Like I explained last night, it was a mistake.““The gaze in
KILLANI still saw my blood—soaked in a white tee, dripping from a large wound over my forehead, trailing down my brows until I was a bloody mess. The loud screech of the tires still rang in my ears day and night. It was a repeat of the never ending pain that sucked all air from my lungs, made me helpless, weak. That goddamned accident that changed everything. That goddamned accident that made me meet him—Ethan. Only two things mattered in my life. Control and power. With these two things, I could control the world, bend everyone to my will, make them bow to their knees at the sound of my voice. But it was different with him. He was slowly slipping into my cracks, invading my thoughts like he owned everything in there. He was making me lose one thing I valued more than my whole life—control. What I felt for him, I couldn't explain. It wasn't just attraction, it was a burn in my whole being, a sick obsession to claim him each time I set my eyes on him. Pin him against the wall, p
ETHAN ~once again, the truth and the lie, I didn't know what to believe~ Kneeling before Killan, I carefully dabbed the ointment on his bruised cheeks. There was a slight twitch in his jaw, but he didn't flinch, no visible reaction of pain. He'd ignored my question earlier, but I wasn't one to back down on a single try. Tilting his jaw with my fingers, I dabbed the ointment on the small bruise, applying a little more pressure to see him wince. He didn't. “Who did this to you?” I asked softly. Killan avoided eye contact. Instead, he kept staring at my fingers working against his face. “Just got into a little trouble.” He replied calmly, his back stiff. “It's nothing serious.” It was just a hunch, but I could tell he was lying. He did it so effortlessly these days. Staring down at the scratch running from his neck to his collarbone, I swallowed hard. I leaned forward, still on my knees, and traced his smooth skin with the ointment. This time, Killan's body tensed. His s
ETHAN ~He was the first person that made me feel alive. Shouldn't that be a problem?~Marinette looked as pale as a ghost with her red lips parted in horror. Her brown eyes were wide with shock, tears streaming down her cheeks as her soft sobs filled the space. Slowly, she took a few steps backwards before running out of the restroom. I'd expected Killian to go after her, to at least prove they had a thing together, but he dragged me out of the restroom instead, his touch burning my skin. Upon getting back to the party, the loud bass pulsing through my veins made me wince. Killan's grip was still on my wrist, tightening with every second that passed by. “Where are we going?” I asked, coming to a halt. Killan turned to stare at me, a cold glint in his eyes. “Home.” “Aren't you going to settle things with her?” “If this is about Marinette, there's nothing between us.” He said calmly, glancing at his wristwatch like he was running out of time. “I don't think you have to explain to
ETHAN~He liked black, maybe he was the devil who came to drag me back to hell~Ever since the incident at the restroom, Killan and I became…distant. We didn't talk during breakfast, didn't talk during dinner, not even at the school's cafeteria. And I hate to admit, but I missed him. A lot. The weekend would have been great with Killan around, but he'd left the apartment since noon. He kissed me. I should be angry, not him. Left with nothing to do, I kept stuffing my stomach with food and coffee. I mean, I literally found interest in nothing. Liam came by a few hours later and yelled at me like my mother for stuffing my stomach with food when there were other great things to do. Great things like fucking women. Dancing with women. Watching women glide against each other. He pushed me into a bar filled with tons of people rocking each other. “Do something wild for the first time in your life.” He whispered against my ears, grabbing a drink from one of the waiters. The loud bass pu
ETHAN~The lie. The truth. I had no idea what to believe anymore~“I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I feel nothing for ladies, but I still prefer tits to some flat, hard chest.” I kept chanting the words like a mantra as I strode into the cafeteria, ignoring the curious glances thrown my way.Liam waved at me from our usual corner.And there was Killan, sitting alone as usual. He avoided me throughout the whole night, like I was a mistake. He literally said it was a mistake. I chuckled dryly and stalked towards Liam.I slipped into the seat next to him, setting my meal on the round table. “I wish I had kicked him out sooner.” I exhaled. “Who?” “Killan.” “Did last night really happen?” Liam leaned closer, his curious eyes searching mine. “The message you sent, is it really true? You…”“I don't want to talk about it.““Dude, you're gay!” Liam exclaimed, eyes wide with shock. “I mean, I know you're not so into girls, so men then?““Like I explained last night, it was a mistake.““The gaze in
ETHAN ~He was a deathly mistake, a pleasurable sin, a deadly obsession….and soon, he'd be the death of me~Days turned into weeks. The sun barely showed up, the sky was always cloudy, gloomy and moody. Just the way I felt ever since my encounter with the stranger at the cafeteria. He held so much power that he crushed my bones with a single touch. It literally felt like my whole being was being stuffed with unquenchable flames, more painful than anything I'd ever experienced. Killan avoided the question like a plague. He avoided me like a plague. He was always on the edge, always extra cautious—like he knew he was being followed. Standing at the front porch of my small apartment, I licked my lips, watching as Gregor's car passed right by. I'd been able to get a little cash from my shift at St. Travis—wasn't all of it, but it was a tangible amount. “Gregor.“ I called out, jogging after his crumpled car. The shit was as messed up as he was. He pulled up at his garage, his stern e
ETHAN ~Regret is a useless feeling, the deed is already done~The soft ray of the sun seeped in through the curtains, disrupting my peaceful sleep on a barely perfect day. Massaging my temples, I briefly glanced at the blank space where Killan slept—but he wasn't here. I stretched with a groan and stumbled into the bathroom, almost losing my balance at the sight of a shirtless Killan washing his face. For some odd reason, I couldn't stop staring at his broad shoulders and the V shape of his firm waist. His chest was well sculpted, powerful, but my eyes kept wandering towards the slight bulge dow—“Can't stop staring?“ Killan teased, turning to stare at me, his back leaning against the ceramic sink. “I wasn't staring.“ “Which isn't true.“ His lips tilted into a cunning smirk as he stalked towards me. Standing before me, his fingers found my cheekbone, grazing it slowly, like a master caressing his favorite pet. I unconsciously leaned in, but Killan pulled away with a mischievous g
ETHAN~He wasn't the monster I feared, he was the one I couldn't help but reach out for~Now that I thought about it, Liam was quite right. It made me remember the first time I picked up a dog in the middle of the street, my first reaction to meeting a grown up man laying on my bed like he owned it. It was odd. Too strange. What was Killan if he wasn't human? And who exactly was he? I was discharged from the hospital a few days later, and I spent most of my time doing research on the theory of a dog transforming into a man. Each writeup I came across didn't make sense, none of them did. What I saw was Lycanthropy—a man transforming into a beast, but that dog was no beast. Could it be a disguise? Of course not. It could have been a hallucination, maybe Killan sneaked into my home, perhaps science could explain whatever the shit happened . I closed up my computer and sucked in a deep breath. A chilly sense of dread crawled up my spine, making me uneasy. Lycans didn't exist, werewo
ETHAN~Sometimes, I wondered if everything he showed was just a mask, but I chose to trust him anyway~I woke up with a slight groan, my head pounding, vision blurry. Glancing around the white walled room, my eyes naturally gravitated to a tall, lean figure leaning on the wall. Clad in a black blazer and some blue jeans, he looked ruggedly handsome, breathtaking, beautiful—in a dark way. Dammit. Why was I thinking about him that way? I tried to sit upright, but my whole body ached. It literally felt like I was run down by a large truck. Swallowing hard, I squinted my eyes. “Take me home, Killan. I shouldn't be here.“ Killan's gaze pinned me in place, cutting through me like a blade as a twitch touched the corner of his lips. “You have a broken nose, a broken rib, and oh,” he stalked towards me, his eyes narrowing. “A purple eye. So, tell me MASTER, do you think you deserve to go home in this state?“ “I have to work.“ I ripped my gaze from his, focusing on something else. Those eye