Chapter 6

Beta David †

Running deeper and deeper into the woods, my paws hitting the mud making loud thumping sound as I let my wolf take control.I ran for hours not caring if I'm losing track of time.I needed to let out my anger in some way and freeing my wolf is the only way I could feel better but that quite didn't happen.My wolf was happier than ever but it turned into melancholy the more we run into woods.He didn't like the fact of going far away from our mate.

Mate, the word which used to bring excitement, happiness and lots of different emotions now only disgusts me.All I feel is hatred ,pure hatred towards my mate.

I never imagined it, I never wanted my mate to be a male.The thought itself cringes my soul.Why Moon Goddess did this to me? Why couldn't she give me a mate who I could accept proudly.Why would she mate me with a male ? Why !! 

My hope, expectations towards my mate were crushed into pieces which could never be fixed.I wanted to have pups with my mate, live happily like every other mated wolves.Cherish every second with my mate but Moon Goddess snatched it away..

I let out a loud growl in pure rage.If I see a single soul in front of me then I won't hesitate to slit their throat.My whole body is burning in anger as if I would burn the whole area into ashes.

Despite my anger ,my wolf is mad not at Moon Goddess or our mate but me.My wolf is mad knowing I don't want to be with my mate.For him, it's mate despite the gender but it's too much for me to adjust.

I don't want him as my mate.I would never be with him.

My wolf growled loudly at my thoughts.The freaking mate Bond, this is all because of mate Bond.I used to feel blessed with the thought of having a mate out there waiting for me but now I regret it ,I wish that wolves didn't had any mate.I wish I could choose someone for myself..Only if it was possible then I wouldn't have to go through this emotional pain.

The moment Crystal Moon Pack Alpha arrived in our territory with his few pack members.My senses were alarmed, my wolf was excited to see our mate and I couldn't be more happier when the addictive scent became more stronger.But I was confused because there was only one she-wolf, Scarlett who is Alpha Lucian's mate.For a second, I thought she is my mate but it couldn't be possible and my excitement died down when I make eye contact with him.

Herrick, a weak unranked wolf.I could hear my wolf calling out for him but I was in such a dilemma to believe any of it.I kept assuring myself that it's just a misunderstanding.He is not my mate ,it's not possible.

A male wolf mated with another male wolf, that's ridiculous.Something must be wrong but it wasn't when I heard my wolf whimpering in pain seeing him close to Scarlett.

I don't care who he sticks up with.But my wolf is making it hard for me.This mate Bond is making it hard for me to ignore him.

I almost lost control over my wolf when Scarlett linked her arms with Herrick.I hate to admit it but I wanted to rip her off my mate.If she wasn't my Luna than I would've attacked the moment I saw them together.I never lose control over my wolf but the situation was different where I couldn't hold it back.Its pretty obvious that my wolf is possessive but I don't want myself to react this way.

I don't want to have a thing with Herrick.I could never look at him with love.This all thing was already too much to adjust when I found out he didn't shift in front of the rogues.

Was he scared? What could be more worse then having a male mate who couldn't even protect himself.Him and I could never be together.I have to stay away from him.Just few months then he'll go back to his Pack.I don't care if I have to live mateless for rest of my life because living without a male mate is better than living with him.

After calming myself ,I came back to the Pack House and directly head to my room until his scent filled my nostrils.I hate to admit it but it's addictive, probably the effect of mate Bond.

Without thinking much ,I unconsciously walked towards the direction of his room and opened the door even though I shouldn't and regretted instantly.

A growl left my lips which made the half naked guy flinch.He looked into my direction with panic written over his face.My eyes shamelessly wander around his body making my wolf all greedy that I almost lost control.

"What brings you here?" He asked in a low soft voice but I could sense him tensing up.He walked towards his closet ignoring my stare which definitely made him uncomfortable.

"Sorry, I mistaken it as my room" I hurried away from there while clenching and unclenching my fists to somehow keep my wolf in control.

I slammed the door shut loudly before cursing my fate for giving me a male mate.This is not how I imagined my life.

Lucian Pov † 

After discussing the important and some personal information with Logan.I came back into my room still feeling disheartened by the incident that took place earlier.

As remarked by Logan, those rogues are behind either Scarlett or Herrick but if it's true then why would rogues attack our neighbor packs despite being aware of Scarlett and Herrck's whereabouts.

And about Herrick, there are more chances that the attack was on him considering Logan's words.But my wolf is distressed, alarming me that Scarlett is surrounded with danger as well.

My chains of thought were broke by Emy who leaned closer thinking I'm asleep.My eyes shot open before I pushed her away and threw her a death glare.

"I have warned you to stay away from me Emy" I said through gritted teeth.She scoffed before crossing her arms against her chest.

"I don't understand why are you pushing me away? We both love each other then why are you running away from me?" I grew furious at her words which are nothing but lies.

"First of all ,I don't love you nor I ever did and you are very well aware of it.Secondly, we both broke up four years ago and you should search for your mate instead of throwing yourself on me because I am not making you my Luna" 

"Lucian but— 

"I'm your Alpha Emy ,do not disrespect my command and Leave !" She flinched and nodded in submission before leaving my room.

I massaged my scalp and entered the bathroom to take a shower.