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A feeling of dirtiness and uncleanliness washed over me, something just a shower wouldn't get rid of. My mind and my eyes had seen, heard and experienced too much, and it was such a recurring nightmare in my head, especially since it happened in the very same room that I sleep in.

Nolan would be able to see the filth that lingered on me, he would be able to sense the feeling that in his eyes and mine I would never be beautiful again.

I had saved myself for so many years, but never for someone else, but for me. It was a choice I had made, because I wanted to feel the magic, the sparks, the flames and with Nolan I felt it all and so much more.

Blood had been dried on the rocky soil that was inside the room with me, and the cold textured area almost made me freeze. I knew where the blood had came from, and as I lied there only covered by a blanket, I reached down and swiped my hand softly against my agitated vagina, and I brought it back seeing the blood still dripping.

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