I didn't expect the number of visitors that we have. Ang sabi ni Auntie na sa dinner daw yung celebration. I thought it's only gonna be us. I mean it's been awhile since I celebrated my birthday with family. Nagulat nalang ako na marami nang nakaparada sa harap ng bahay namin. I heard violins playing. Even the chattering of the people, I can hear it from where I am now."Happy Birthday, Kali! It's so nice to finally meet you," Biglang may lumapit sa akin kaya nagulat ako. "Your Auntie told me a lot of things about you. How's life being an architect?"She must've mistaken me for Kali. Hindi naman nakakagulat yun kasi magkamukhang-magkamukha kaming dalawa. Even I sometimes mistaken myself for my twin on pictures. Well, sometimes."It's Kaia po," I corrected her. Napawi yung ngiti niya sa labi na para bang nadismaya. "Oh. The disappointment," iling niya. "Oh well, happy birthday anyways."Hindi na niya hinintay yung sagot ko at agad tumalikod na. The disrespect which I expected from eve
I found myself on the bridge. Don't get me wrong. Hindi naman ako tatalon. It's just healing when I saw the place. Mahangin at walang masyadong tao. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako napunta dito. Hindi ko din alam kung nasaan na ako. I just drove my car, not knowing the directions until I found myself here. I didn't stop my tears from crawling down my cheeks. No one will judge me here. Gusto ko lang maibsan yung bigat sa aking dibdib. Life was never by my side and I guess it's too much for me to handle now. I look down the river and noticed how calm the current flow is. Pumikit ako nang mariin at huminga nang malalim. I knew that after this, I'll have to face everyone at the party. Hindi nga lang ako sigurado kung babalik ba ako ngayon or I l'll have to stay away from home muna. "I say broken bones. But death? Impossible."May biglang nagsalita kaya dali-dali kong pinahiran ang aking mga luha at nilingon yung tao. She's a she. She's wearing a black hoodie and without a make up on her fa
"Shots pa!" Abot ni Carol sa akin ng baso.I smiled at her and took the glass. Agad ko namang nilagok yung laman at inilagay sa mesa. Carol is already drunk. Napapansin ko na panay lang yung ngiti niya, tumatawa, at nage-ingles na. "Kali," Tawag ko sa kakambal. "It's okay for you to stop drinking."Kinuha ko mula sa kanya yung baso pero binawi niya naman agad. Same as how Carol is doing now, mas dumoble si Kali. She can't even open her eyes. I told her that it's okay na hindi siya iinom but she still insisted."Kaya ko pa, Kaia. I'm your big sister, okay?" She smiled, half-awake."Wow! You are younger than her?" Gulat na tanong ni Carol. "Why do you look older?""Because I'm not the type who smiles a lot?" Irap ko. "Sige na, Kali. Tama na.""Ayoko!" She resisted. Bago pa man niya mainom yung alak ay kinuha na ni Lev yung baso at siya ang uminom nito. Napanguso nalang si Kali at sinamaan ng tingin yung lalaki."Tama na," Lev said, full of authority."Bakit ayaw niyo akong painumin?
I stared at Kali's sleeping face from the mirror. Natutulog pa rin siya hanggang ngayon. I'm sure that this would be her first hangover. I'm worried kasi alam kong sobrang sakit ng first hangover niya kaya I prepared a pain reliever right by my side.Will everything be okay? Did I make the right decision? Letting Lev like Kali wouldn't cause any conflicts, right? I'm okay with it naman. Kung may makakakita man silang magkasama, then they would've thought that it was me. Except for Auntie, of course. She can differentiate us from one another.Inayos ko na yung buhok ko at naglagay ng kolorete sa mukha. I'm going to work today. Even though I am the boss and that I could choose to go and not to, I still chose to go. Kasi ayokong manatili dito sa bahay. Nakakabagot at nakakasakal."Kaia?" I heard Kali called my name.Napalingon ako sa kanya. She's trying to sit back up while holding her head. I can see how she flinched the moment she opened her eyes."You can stay in bed," Sabi ko at nila
Lev stared at Sebastian with knitted brows. Marahil ay hindi niya naintindihan kung bakit kailangan itong sabihin ng lalaki sa harap niya. I, too, am surprised as well. It's a no-brainer that Lev and I are basically seeing each other. Alam naman siguro yan ng lahat."Kaia's not entertaining anyone aside from me," Sabi ni Lev."I'm not saying that I'm stealing him from you. Tinanong mo ako kung anong klaseng babae ang gusto ko. I am merely answering your question," depensa ni Seb sa sarili."I'm just making sure, pare. Know your limitations," pabalang na sabi ni Lev."You are so possessive of her. Bakit? Sinagot ka na ba niya?" Ngisi ni Seb so I had to step in."Tama na," I halted them. "Please not in my shop. You are scaring the customers away."Napalingon ako sa paligid and I guess I was wrong about scaring the customers away. Sa katunayan nga, nakaharap phones nila sa amin, waiting for the drama to arise."Looks like your customers loves the drama," Iling ni Seb. "Don't worry, Kaia.
"I am so sorry of how we acted earlier, hija. Akala kasi namin..." She paused. "It won't happen again."Nasa harap ko ngayon Mommy ni Seb while he is standing behind me. Papauwi na kasi ako. Ayokong maabutan ng hating-gabi kasi delikado na sa byahe. I overthink a lot and I am already thinking of a worst case scenario."It's okay, Tita. We all make mistakes," I smiled assuringly.Napanguso siya bago ako hinawakan sa pisngi. "Why can't it be you? Gusto ko ng manugang na katulad mo."Napangiti ako at hinawakan yung kamay niya sa pisngi ko. "I'm sure there's someone for Seb, Tita. Maybe someone better?""Who could be better than you?" Nguso niya. "Osya. Mag-ingat ka sa byahe. Are you sure you're going to be okay? You can stay here for the night.""I'll be fine po. Thanks for the offer.""Okay," She nodded. "I'm sure this is not the last time that we will be seeing each other. See you soon!""Until then, Tita," I smiled. Nag-beso muna kami bago siya tuluyang nagpaalam at iniwan kami ni Se
"Kaia? Kaia! Open the door this instance!"Isang galit na boses ang gumising sa akin. I could tell that the sun did not rise yet. Hindi pa kasi sumisilip yung liwanag sa aking bintana. I assume that it's probably dawn. "If you don't open this door, sisirain ko to!" Sigaw ni Auntie.I groaned and forced myself up. Pagbubuksan ko naman talaga siya so she doesn't have to resort to violence. Besides, ano ba ang kinaputok ng butsi niya sa mga oras na ito?I opened the door and saw my Aunt fuming in anger. Kinusot ko ang aking mga mata. Nasa likuran niya at si Kali who still couldn't look at me in the eyes. Sa kabilang gilid naman ni Auntie ay yung katulong sa bahay dala yung susi ng pinto ko. Sisirain daw niya pintuan? May susi naman palang dala."Good morning, Auntie," I greeted her."Good morning? There's nothing good about my morning!" Nay diin niyang sabi.Kumunot yung noo ko. "Why?" Napalingon ako kay Kali na agad umiwas ng tingin. I nodded. "Is it because I let your favorite niece s
"I'm really sorry, Carol. I really must go," Paumanhin ko sa kasama."It's okay, Kaia. I understand."I tried so hard not to answer calls. I turned off my phone when Carol and I were talking— well, most of the time it was I who was talking. Palaging may tumatawag and it's usually Auntie or Kali. I don't want to talk to them pa kahit gaano pa kaimportante yung tawag. But my shop's landline rang. I thought it was from a customer. It turns out that it was my Auntie. Ibababa ko na sana yung tawag kaso she halted my by saying that the President invited us to lunch. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ang sabi ni Auntie na dapat umuwi na ako.I feel sorry for Carol. Kasi iiwan ko siya. She's been with me the whole time, listening to my rants. Although I noticed how off she's been acting. "Are you sure you're okay? You don't seem okay," Sabi ko sa kanya.Umiling siya. "I'm okay, Kaia. You don't have to worry." She forced a smile.Tumango nalang ako, not fully convinced. "I'll call you later after
I stared at myself in front of the mirror. I refuse to let a single drop of tear ruined my make up. Today is the day, the day when Lev is going to wed. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako pumayag na pumunta. I told myself that I would never attend his wedding. Kaya nga ako nangabilang-bansa kasi umiiwas ako. But he crossed borders just to see me. Just to invite me to his wedding.Minsan naisip ko na may galit ba siya sa akin. Does he want me to suffer? Or did he assumed that I was okay with this, that I moved on? Does it look like that?Pero kahit pa anong pagkamuhi ko sa mga nangyayari, I still invited myself to be hurt. Talagang sumang-ayon akong dumalo. For what, Kaia? For respect? For you not to look pitiful?"Are you ready?" Tanong ni Kali sa akin.Mapait akong ngumiti. "Yeah.""Tara na!"Kali's invited as well. Akala ko pa nga pipigilan ako ni Kali. But no. She's supportive on my decisions. Hindi ko alam kung saan yung kasal kasi I didn't bother looking at the invitation. Kali knows.Mari
Four months later, I busied myself. I went to Italy to follow my dreams. This time, hindi tumutol si Auntie. She supported me together with Kali. Masaya ako kasi ito lang naman ang hinihiling ko sa kanya, to support me. It took a lot of obstacles just to get here and it is all worth it.Sabay na kami ni Kali pumunta ng Europe. She have a project within the area at sakto namang papunta ako dito. We stayed in the same apartment and supported each other. Si Auntie naman ay naiwan sa Pinas. I told her that she should start meeting men. She will not stay young forever."Kaia, I'll go ahead. Baka hindi agad ako makauwi mamaya so kumain ka nalang nang wala ako," paalam ni Kali."Okay, Kali. Mag-ingat ka!" I waved my hand at her."Bye!"She then closed the door behind her. Naiwan na naman akong mag-isa. Tapos na kasi yung class ko sa morning and so I have the afternoon all for myself. Napalingon ako sa bag ko ang something was peeking from the inside. Lumapit ako dito at kinuha yun. Napahint
"C-Come join us!" Utal na aya ni Kali at agad tumayo. "Kukuha lang ako ng extra plates.""Maraming salamat," ngiti ni Ms. Santos. "Pero kasi, basa kami. Nakakahiya namang umupo sa chairs niyo na parang mga basang sisiw."I blinked twice, realizing that it must be freezing for them. Fully airconditioned pa naman yung bahay. "I'm sorry for that," sabi ko at dali-daling lumapit sa AC para hinaan ito."We only have three rooms in the house," sabi ni Auntie."Okay lang. Pwede naman kaming matulog sa sala, diba?" Sagot ni Ms. Santos."No," iling ni Auntie. "I won't allow you to sleep in the living room.""You can stay in my room," presenta ko. Napalingon silang lahat sa akin. "My room is spacious enough to cater all of you. Doon nalang ako makikishare kay Kali."Tumaas ang kilay ng dalawang kapatid ni Lev. Nakangiti naman sa akin si Ms. Santos as if she's very thankful of what I've said. Si Lev naman ay napatingin sa akin na puno ng paghanga sa mga mata. What? Just because they hurt me doe
"Auntie, we need to go," sabi ni Kali.Hindi ako makagalaw. I can't seem to function well now that I saw him. Mas lalo ko nang hindi maintindihan yung nararamdaman ko. Masaya ba ako kasi nakita ko siya? Malungkot ba ako kasi alam kong hindi ko siya malalapitan. Fück!"Go? Saan?" Tanong ni Auntie habang nakahiga pa rin sa sofa. She seems really tired. Sobrang comfy na kasi ng pagkahiga niya at naabutan pa naming nakapikit ang kanyang mga mata. When she's in this state, hindi dapat namin siya dinidisturbo pero dahil sa pagmamadali, hindi na iyon naisip ni Kali. She wants us to go back home."Uwi na tayo," sagot ni Kali.Kumunot yung noo ni Auntie at napaupo, hinarap kaming dalawa. "Umuwi? Bakit? Hindi niyo ba nagustuhan yung lugar? May mga pupuntahan pa tayo bukas. It's part of the itinerary."Umiling si Kali. "The place is good, Auntie. It's one of the most beautiful places that I've been to. Pero kailangan na talaga nating umalis.""Why?" She asked. "I thought you liked it here?""We
"Are you alone?" Tanong niya.Ilang segundo din akong nakatitig sa kanya. Ano ang ginagawa niya dito? Does she needs anything from me? Wala akong maibibigay sa kanya so why is she here? "I'm sorry," iling ko. "I'm with my Auntie today. Why? May kailangan ka ba?""I wanna talk to you. It will be quick, I promise," sabi niya.Kumunot yung noo ko. "Ano?""May I take this seat?" She asked.Kahit hindi ako sigurado kung ano ang pag-uusapan namin, iginaya ko sa kanya yung bakanteng upuan na nasa harap namin. "Go ahead.""Thank you," sabi niya bago umupo. "Before we start I would like to say how beautiful you are today--""Ano po yung pag-uusapan natin?" I asked, cutting her words. She's not here to compliment me, is she? Napansin niya siguro yung pagkawalang gana ko kaya she compliments me first. Hindi niya ba ako kilala? Hindi ba nakarating sa kanya yung mga rumors kung anong klaseng tao ako? I am a snob, unfriendly, unapproachable, and definitely a person who doesn't beat around the bus
We heard the gates open. Halos magkasabay kaming napalingon dito. I heard the wheels making impact on the pebbles outside of the house. Si Auntie."Quick! Pumasok ka na sa kwarto mo!" Pagmamadali ni Kali sa akin.As I was told, I ran upstairs before Auntie could get in. Dali-dali pa akong nagbihis ng pambahay at winasak yung buhok. I immediately went to bed and covered myself with the comforter."Nasaan si Kaia? Alam kong wala siya dito!" I could hear Auntie's voice echoing in the hallways."N-Nasa silid niya lang po!" Sagot ni Kali."I am not a fool, Kali. Narinig ko na magkasama sila ng batang Laurier at nagtanan pa raw. Kaya pala you two are becoming suspiscious." Sabi ni Auntie."Nagsasabi po kami ng totoo!" Kali insisted. "Hindi pa rin niya ginalaw yung pagkain niya. Hindi din namin nakitang lumabas ng silid kaya imposibleng nakipagtanan yun.""Siguro hindi niyo napansin o di kaya'y alam niyo pero nagbubulag-bulagan lang kayo." Auntie paused. "Kapag wala si Kaia pagkabukas ko ng
"A-Ano?""Hindi na naabutan ni Lev si Mommy and it is all because of you! Grabe! Ang lupet mo no? You ruined my brother's reputation and where were you when everyone was bullying him? Wala! Nagtago ka at sarili mo lang yung iniisip mo!" She shouted.I was left in shock. People were bullying him? Hindi ko 'yan alam! Damn! What happened while I was gone? Was it really my fault? Yes, it was. Kung hindi sana ako gumawa ng tanginang ruse na ito edi sana hindi kami nagkilala ni Lev. I wouldn't have to ruin his life. He told me that we should runaway. Pumayag naman ako kasi siya naman kasama ko. He mentioned how his family started disowning him and I didn't know the deeper meaning of that. Bobo mo, Kaia! Hindi mo man lang naitanong sa kanya kung kumusta siya. Siguro tama mga kapatid niya— that you only think about yourself. "Nasaan si Lev?" I asked. "Is he okay?""Lev? You think papayagan ka naming makipagkita sa kanya? Sa lahat ng ginawa mo?" The other sibling scoffed."Alam mo na may ma
"What?!" Nagising ako dahil sa boses ni Lev. Unti-unti kong minulat ang aking mga mata at nakitang umaga na pala. Siguro nasa 9 am na. But what made Lev shout like that?Napalingon ako sa kanya and he's already standing. Nasa tenga niya yung phone niya. He's talking to someone and I can tell that something is wrong. Nakakunot ang kanyang noo at pakurap-kurap na din yung mga mata niya. It seems like he's in a hurry. Dali-dali niya din kasing isinuot yung lower niya na nasa sahig."I'm coming."Binaba niya yung tawag at dali-daling nagbihis."Lev? What's going on?" I asked.Napalingon siya sa akin at pilit ngumti. "I'm sorry, baby, but we need to go.""Go? Where?""I'll explain while we're on the way. Magbihis ka na at ihanda yung mga gamit mo." Sabi niya at pumasok sa banyo.Naguguluhan man ay ginawa ko yung utos niya. Pumasok na din ako sa banyo para maghilamos at magsipilyo. After that, I prepared my things. Buti nalang hindi ko inilabas lahat ng gamit ko sa bag. It took me a few mi
How am I feeling? I am devoured by jealousy. Paano nagawa ni Lev na talikuran ako only to face the other woman? Lasing siya, Kaia. Hindi niya alam ang kanyang ginagawa.Pero sabi nila, you are most honest when you are drunk. What is this, Lev?"Nagkagusto ka sa akin?" Tanong ni Patty na halata namang namumula na. Ewan ko ba kung sa alak o dahil sa biglaang pag-amin.Lev nodded. "Oo. Well we were young and I had to admit how I admire you."Huh! In-explain pa talaga!"Ano?" Tumawa si Patty. "Dahan-dahan lang, Lev. Hindi kita maintindihan.""Wala!" Iling ni Lev. "Ano lang. Hinahangaan kita noon. Ang bait mo kasi sa akin at minsan lang ako makakita nang babaeng lulusong sa ilalim ng araw. Walang kaarte-arte."Hindi ko mapigilan ang sariling ikompara sa kanya. Maarte ako. Ayokong naiinitan at mas lalong ayokong amoy-araw ako. I was raised to be prim and proper and adventures like what they did when they were young don't interest me. Napaisip tuloy ako. Iyan ba ang mga tipo ni Lev? Yung hi