Sarah
I was sitting next to Lucas in the back seat of the car. He had dragged me out of bed in such a hurry that I didn't get to wash my face because it took me forever to pull myself away from the bed. “You're extremely quiet. Did you have a good night's rest?” he spoke up, breaking the silence between us. My eyes were still laden with sleep. Last night was a nightmare. Literally. I wasn't in the mood for a conversation, so I said nothing. But Lucas wouldn't take the hint. He tapped my hand, lightly. “Was it to your comfort?” he continued, unbothered. “ I know you came into luxury when you married Ryder but five years is enough time to know the taste of finer things.” It had crossed my mind that he might have been aware of my past. But it was way too early for me to have a decent conversation and my head sat heavy on my neck. Every part of my body ached and the hard leather seat of the car did nothing to ease it. “Yes, the room was pleasant,” I replied softly. “But my discomfort wasn't from the room but from within. I had difficulty falling asleep.” My eyes strayed out of the car. “Where are we going?” “It's a secret,” he answered with a twinkle in his eyes. “I'm in no mood for games,” I stated flatly. “You either tell me where you are taking me or you turn this car around and take me back to the house.” The smile vanished from his face. “ I don't like being ordered around, Ms Willow. Take note so it doesn't repeat itself.” He eyed me warily and sighed. “I'm granting you what you asked for. Be thankful.” My heart rate picked up at the possibility of seeing Ryder. I sagged generously into the seat. The thought of seeing Ryder made the rest of the journey bearable. We arrived at a gate, well hidden behind a forest of trees and rode up to a mansion with a well-tended garden in front. The building was blazing with light. Lucas pointed towards the house. “The door is open. He should be inside.” “Is this your property?” I asked, stalling for time. I didn't know what to expect inside the house. Ryder had shown me a different side of himself. Another rejection from him will destroy me. “None of your business. Go on, I'll be waiting right here for you.” I murmured my thanks and got out of the car. I took one last glance at the car and walked into the house. My heart rate increased rapidly. I didn't know what to expect. My eyes scanned the house, searching, till they rested on him. There he was, at the top of the stairs, drilling a hole into the wooden floor with his feet as he paced around in circles. “Ryder,” I called out as I took the steps two at a time. I wanted to wrap myself around him so badly. His green eyes widened as he sighted me and walked towards me. “What are you doing here?!” his voice sounded strained, his eyes darting all over the place. “How do you know this place? Who brought you here? You have to leave…” “Lucas, he wan—” “Don't say that name! I told you last night; if you leave with him, you are dead to me.” His voice was rough. “Did you sleep at his place?” “Does it matter?” I searched his face for a hint that it did. That he was jealous I had spent the night with another man. But his jaw hardened and he shrugged his shoulders. “Did you?” I nodded and bent my head, afraid he would see the hurt in them. And toss it aside. I felt his eyes glaring at me. “Then we have nothing to talk about.” “Ryder, be reasonable. We said a lot of things last night. Lu—he was trying to help me. You have to give me a chance to explain. You can't just throw away our marriage just like that.” “I can and I did. I have chosen Alexis to be my Luna. She is going to be the mother of my pup.” I raised my head, returning his glare. “You have made up your mind. I came hoping I could convince you to take me but that isn't going to work, right? ” I question shakily, my eyes glistening with unshed tears. He gave no response. His silence hurt more than I had expected. Five years of my life loving a man and he betrays me without so much as an explanation. “Stay away, Sarah,” he snarled. “I've run out of patience. I'll have none left the next time I see you.” At that moment, I realized I had to accept my fate. It was done. Nothing can get through to him. But I knew I owed it to my unborn child to tell him of its existence. “I'll leave now, you can—” “Don't!” I said quickly, ran to him at the edge of the staircase and grabbed his hand. “I have to tell you something. I'm carrying your child.” “Get your hands off me!” he roared, pushing my hand away and knocking me off balance in the process. I rolled down the stairs, free-falling. I felt every puncture on the stairs as my body gravitated to the floor. I landed flat on my tummy and winced in pain. “Ouch.” I cried softly as the pain blurred my vision for a minute. It was probably a few seconds but felt like an eternity as I struggled to sit up. A burning pain travelled down to my pelvis. I bit my lip to hold back my scream. But a spot on the floor caught my eye. I felt a warm feeling between my thighs and placed my hand in between. The sight of blood on my fingertips numbed me as I screamed out with every fibre of my being.Sarah My eyes fluttered open, greeted by the bright light from a window. Still woozy from the sedatives packed in my system, I tried to recollect the events of the past hour. Then, like a cruel punch, the memories came flooding back—the argument, the push, the unbearable pain. I struggled to sit up but my body protested against every movement. The door to the room swung open and the doctor walked in, closely followed by a woman. “Ms Willow,” his voice sounded cherry, a bit too cheery. “I'm Dr. Adian. I'm glad to see you awake. The sedatives are beginning to wear off. How are you feeling?” “Better,” I lied. Partially. “That's good.” I watched as he whispered to the nurse. I sat perfectly still, like a statue, dredging to ask the question that plagued me. He pulled me out of my misery. “Ms Willow, we have good and bad news. The good is you've sustained nothing major, just a slight concussion. And the bad news is we couldn't save your baby. The fall was fatal—” His voice faded
Five Years Later Sarah I stood in the living room taking in the breathtaking view of the ocean below my penthouse. Watching the waves rise and fall has been part of my morning ritual for the past five years. It was beautiful to see and the sight never gets old. I moved around the room, clad in nothing as the morning sun teased my pale skin. A soft sigh escaped my lips. I need to go out more often, I subconsciously reprimanded myself. It would be good for my social life—not that I needed one. I paused as my eyes caught my reflection on the window glass, which replaced a section of the wall. My long, wavy hair was packed into a messy bun, accentuating my high cheekbones. My skin looked pale under the bright light. I strolled over to the fridge and pried it open. A plate of half-eaten salad stared at me gloomily. My eating habits were bad and needed to be addressed. I made a mental note to stop at the grocery store after my gym session. Which will entail letting my assis
Ryder “Have you gotten the call from Regan?” I spoke as my fingers tapped on the mahogany desk in my office. “Not yet. I haven't been able to get through to him. My calls are always been redirected to his secretary.” Trevor spoke without taking his eyes off the stack of papers in his hand. “I'll keep trying. You have nothing to worry about.” I turned my gaze at Trevor, baffled and annoyed at how calm and collected he was at the moment. He raised his eyes and caught my glaring eyes. “All I'm trying to do right now is to make sure you're calm and not worked up. You wouldn't want to make hasty decisions right now because you feel backed into a corner. He might just be testing you, to see if you would crack.” Trevor was right. I needed to think not react. I looked across my office. It was situated on the topmost floor of the SC Atlantic Enterprise building. The windows were large, giving me a massive view of my city. I slumped into my chair, feeling drained before the day start
SarahI had my bags packed and arranged by the door. It was a small assembly of suitcases, mostly boasting of my multiple gym wear and fighting gear.After my ordeal with the miscarriage, I had learnt to treat my body as a temple. Though, going to the gym helped me focus, its main reason was to release some of the rage buried within me.“Ms Sarah, the driver has arrived,” Valeria called from behind the door, her face flushed from the cold.“I'm all set,” I motioned to the suitcases as I walked past her. “Tell them to be careful with my boxes. I've some valuables stored in them.”The wind outside was bitterly cold. I hugged my coat tighter around my body as I walked towards the black sedan parked by the side of the road.It was in moments like this that the feeling of emptiness washed over me. It's been years and my wolf has been lost to me. Nothing seemed to work.She was gone forever and I miss her terribly,I was wolfless in a community filled with wolves. I worked harder than the a
Sarah My eyes widen, taken aback by his reaction. Lucas was known across the realm for his ruthlessness. But he has never raised his voice at me. Not once. “What does it look like?” I said, still shocked by how fast he switched up. “I was returning the gesture.” He arched his brow. “Which I find very strange. You would never welcome me with open hands. Not you, Sarah.” Lucas wasn't entirely wrong; I had my selfish reasons. If he thinks that I was playing along—which I was doing, willingly—he wouldn't be so anxious to spy on me. Nevertheless, kissing him hadn't been as bad as I’d imagined and I might be tempted to try again. No, I wouldn't. It might send the wrong signals and make things between us uncomfortable. I knew what I was doing being flirtatious over the phone but right now, I have taken things too far. “You're right,” I chided myself. “That's unlike me. Do you need me to apologize?” “No. Never.” His eyes had lost their hardness when they settled on me again.
Ryder I sat on the edge of the bed. My fingers were lost in Alim’s mop of black hair. Strands of curly hair fell across his face, as he lay on the bed, eyes shut to the world. The silence in the room was temporarily punctured by his soft breathing. I've been told he takes after me. His eyes were the same shade of blue as mine. He has the strength of wolves ten years older than him. He was growing up to be a strong leader. I stared at his face and guilt washed over me. I haven't been paying attention to him. I came back home way past his bedtime and left the house before the sun was up. I needed to make time for my son. This business with Reagan needed to be over so I could get back to my life and son. The thought of speaking to Alexis about her attitude towards Alim crossed my mind. But I quickly dismissed it. It was useless. It was like talking to a brick wall. Alexis had never taken any interest in the boy. After his birth, she had handed him over to the wet nurse and
Sarah The parking lot was closed off to the road. I sat in the backseat, feeling out of sorts as Robert, my bodyguard, who was also acting as my driver maneuvered the car into the empty space. The journey down to this building had been emotionally draining. The sights brought back memories of my childhood. And bittersweet memories of my existence as Luna. “Are you alright back there, ma?” he asked. I smiled at the back of his head. I knew he could see my reflection in the mirror. Robert Harting but ‘Rob’ to his friends was a bear of a man. Though he was a ruthless warrior just like his master. He had fought side by side with Lucas and had retired from active battles after an injury on his right leg. Now, he’s one of Lucas’ trusted guards. I had taken a liking to him the moment we first met. He knew how to tell a joke and take one too. Lucas had assigned Rob to me as my bodyguard after my ordeal at the hospital five years ago. But when I had left the pack, Rob wouldn't follow m
Ryder Something felt different. My wolf senses were all over the place. Which made my wolf restless, beneath my skin. The guard let me through the building and people greeted me as I walked past. I had made plans for today. But only two on the list were my topmost priorities; get over this meeting and spend quality time with my son. Dennis, my ever-present bodyguard, walked at a distance, leaving me to my thoughts. My conversation with Alexis this morning hadn't been pleasant. She seemed not to be bothered about her son. She wouldn’t give two cents if he fell right in front of her, except it benefitted her. **** “You're his father. Do whatever you will. I did my part, I gave you an heir. Something the ‘so-called love of your life’ failed to do. I should be worshipped for that, not treated like a pauper and asked to babysit.” Alexis spat out, her face contorted into something hideous. “Alim is your responsibility. Don't put that on me.” “You're not babysitting anyone.
Sarah“Ryder!” I screamed, searching and punching my way through the chaos. “Ryder!”Pain coursed through me as something slammed into my face, knocking me to the ground.“Damn it,” I hissed, forcing myself up. I should have been more alert, but my mind was scrambled— I needed to find him.A lone figure, standing a few inches away from the fight, caught my attention as I struggled to stand on shaky feet.He had his back to me, but I recognized that broad shoulders anywhere. It was Lucas.Adrenaline rushed through my veins, pushing me off the floor and towards him. He was standing, almost like he was in a trance.Strange. But I was about to find out something worse.Almost like he could sense me, he cocked his head, his eyes briefly locking into mine before turning back.But it was enough for my eyes to register the object of his attention.A chill crawled down my spine. The tall, looming figure in front of Lucas has the moonlight on him.Drako.I froze, my breath catching in my thro
SarahI started up the stairs, ready to strip my sweaty clothes off and drench my body in hot water before the baby woke up; a luxury I couldn’t buy.She had her own routine; keep me up all night and sleep all through the day. It was a miracle she was sleeping right now.The house was quiet, just like I wanted. Everyone was still asleep… everyone except Ryder. He was standing at the top of the stairs.“It’s time.” He whispered, as soon as I got close.It took a second for my tired brain to understand what he was saying. “Are you sure?”It had taken countless talks to get him to agree to the plan and he had done so grudgingly.“Positive. The tracker picked up her movement again. And my man on the ground just confirmed it. They are on the move.”About darn time. It’s been a long week holed up in this tiny cottage, trying to act normal while lying in wait for Lucas and Alexis.And my personal monster.“How much time do we have?” I asked, my blood pulsed at the thought of confronting Luca
Sarah“She’s beautiful,” his voice floated through my half-conscious mind.“I know,” I muttered, my eyes slowly opening. “And feisty too. She held my finger in her little grip for so long… I fell in love all over again.”The memory brought a smile to my face. The labour was tough but getting to hold her in my arms, and seeing her tiny body snuggled close to mine, made up for the hell I went through.And the one I was yet to face.“Just like her mother,” Ryder spoke, grabbing my arm.My eyes lazily settled on Ryder, sitting beside me. He was smiling, despite the bruises covering his face… and hand; I realized as I let my gaze travel down his body.“You look like you've been in a fight and came out the worst of it.”He chuckled. “Nothing compared to how you're looking.” he squeezed my hand gently. “You did well, Sarah. She is beautiful and healthy. Have you decided on a name for her?”I consciously scanned my body. “Not yet. I've been playing around with a few. Any suggestions? I'm open
LucasIt felt stupid, standing here, staring out the window while my whole world was falling apart. But that has been my routine for the past week, except today was different.“About time,” I muttered, my eyes trailing the pickup truck that had just pulled in.“I’ll see her in the study,” I spoke to the guard standing at the entrance. “Don’t let her take a step to any other part of the house, except it leads to the study.”I caught his silent acknowledgement as I walked passed.There was going to be a lot of explaining and screaming and I wasn’t going to be the one doing either. She’d betrayed me and this time, she was going to serve as an example to anyone who might be harbouring thoughts of that nature.Especially, her worthless father!The door creaked open, jarring me from my thoughts.“Lucas.” My name rolled off her tongue like a plead, much to my annoyance.But her appearance caught me by surprise.“Alexis. Welcome home,” I replied sarcastically, my eyes slowly taking her in.S
Ryder My lips quivered with disgust. “Tell me again, Zane, when did you come up with this speech?”“This isn't a speech. For the safety and growth of this pack, it is in everyone's best interest that you step aside for someone more capable to take responsibility.”I laughed, although it held no humour, it held traces of my anger. “Everyone? Who have you been talking to?”“Everyone… including the people of this land who you seem to have so confidently forgotten about, because of your heart. Tell me, Ryder, is she truly worth it?”I clenched my fists, fighting to keep my anger on hold. “You think I’d risk everything for her if she wasn’t?”Zane took a step closer, his eyes narrowing. “Love isn’t enough to lead a pack. You need to be able to make tough decisions without letting your heart cloud your judgment.”I did that once and where did it land me? Right here, in this mess. But I couldn't blame Zane. He knew nothing about it.Still, I won't let him tear my pack apart because of ignor
RyderIf I could ask for one thing right now, it would be the chance to go back in time and correct my mistakes.That night with Alexis was a mistake.Trusting her father was a mistake.Hurting Sarah and pushing her away was a mistake.Too many mistakes made already. And I was about to make another if I let Sarah have her way.I had stayed awake last night and yet, I could only come up with the lamest plan, involving the one person I hated and couldn't even afford to trust.I paused on the front steps, taking in deep breaths before uncorking my water bottle and gulping down.“Where have you been?” A voice startled me.A shadow emerged and the light from the porch cast a warm glow on my unexpected companion.It was Ava.I cocked my head at her in confusion. Her question was unexpected, bizarre even. Slowly, I continued my ascent to the front porch, ignoring her.She blocked my path. “She is gone.” Flatly.What was she talking about? And why was she waiting for me, out here in the fark
SarahI sat upright. Another painful ache above my pelvic area.“Why?”“Truthfully?” I nodded, eager to get him out of my room. “I'm doing this for the safety of our pack. Ryd—Alpha Ryder seem to have forgotten his duties to the pack… he is like a man lost in love.”Ryder wasn't in love. He felt guilt. There is a difference.“He won’t listen to reason…” his voice was low like he was ashamed of himself for talking. “He has th—this insane need to protect you, even if it means destroying the pack. And I can't sit back and let it happen.” No, you can't. You don't regard me and my existence isn't worth a dime to you, talk more of the lives of your pack members.“So… I’m not worth it?” I admit. More like an angry statement.He didn’t flinch nor bat an eyelid, which annoyed me the more. “You suggested it… didn’t you?” His cold eyes mocked me. “I’m only granting you what you asked for… or are you having a change of heart?”I swallowed. “No.”“Good. I have got a plan already laid out.”I lis
“SarahThe attack was all Lucas’ idea. A backup plan to get you if you failed to marry him.” I heard Ryder's voice but my gaze was locked on Alexis.“The man I killed… their leader, hinted at a woman, being behind the attack.”I saw something flash through her eyes. It was too fast, I couldn't put a name to it.“Are you sure about it?” Ryder’s voice was laced with disbelief, which I found strange.Was he trying to make excuses for her? Ignoring his question, I pushed my body forward, letting my legs drop to the ground. “You owe me that much, Alexis. If you tried to kill me and failed, you owe it to me to answer my question.” I said quietly, my face barely inches away from hers.“I don't owe you anything,” her foul breath filled my nostrils.What was I expecting? That she would admit to sending rogues to kill me? That she would apologise for ruining my life? That I would find fulfilment when in her misery?I pushed my chair back and stood up. I needed to be done with this part of my
RyderThe meeting tonight had yielded no positive results. Instead, all the advisors had sided with Sarah and Zane, to my annoyance.What they thought was best for the pack, was never going to happen. Not when I was still the Alpha of the Stormclaw pack.But, still, I was running out of time. I had less than 48 hours to find another plan that didn't involve Sarah putting herself in danger.I kissed a sleeping Alim before I got out of bed. He was recovering fine which I was grateful to the goddess for. But he was still wary of me. Pauline had assured me everything would be fine with time and I believed her.Draping my nightrobe, I left the room quietly, not wanting to wake Alim up.I had one more business to take care of before I called it a day. The house was quiet and dark as I made my way down the stairs.“For fuck sake!” I cursed as my feet collided with something on the floor.“Who is there?” I heard Sarah’s frightened voice. It was coming from the living room.“Sarah?”“Ryder? Y