NOSTALGIA. A bittersweet yearning for the things of the past. On days like this when Anna Davenport had her morning free, she would spend it at Josh’s apartment and from there, head to the hospital for her afternoon appointments. He would often times, call in sick in other to have an excuse to stay at home. He was ready to do the craziest things, just to spend time with her and see her happy. Josh had always placed her first and she knew no matter what, she wanted to spend a lifetime loving him.
But her dream for a lifetime just had to be cut short by the damn accident he had to be involved in. Now she grabs her gym bag and drives herself to the nearest gym. Since there was no Josh to spend time with, she might as well use her morning exercising, just to get her mind off him.
While driving, her mind wanders off, just thinking about the two rude guys she had met this past week. Her rude next-door neighbor, she had ignored since the night he moved in, and the cocky and arrogant patient that had walked into her office for a PTSD evaluation. People like that, according to Anna needed therapy for their inflated ego, and she would be glad to be of such help.
She parks her car and as she walks into the gym, her eyes drifts briefly to the gyms motto in the entrance that read ‘to stay fit won’t hurt a bit.’ And that was true. Anna never liked going to the gym right from time, but situation changes and since she signed up for it a month after she moved into the neighbor-hood, it didn’t hurt a bit. She found herself enjoying it from time to time.
“Looking good Harold.” The blonde guy in his late twenties seated at the reception desk, gives Anna a bright smile as she signs in. He was good-looking and Anna often looked forward to seeing his ever-smiling face, whenever she steps into the building.
“You’re looking great as usual, miss Davenport.”
“you still act like we’re strangers, when we’ve know each other for a while. I’ve told you to call me Anna, Harold.” She gives him a teasing smile, knowing despite her several pleas for him to call her by name, he still didn’t change. Maybe one day, their relationship would finally get to the stage where he becomes quite free around her.
She liked his vibe and having him as a friend would do her more good than harm. But he was still always shy and quite reserved around her, which she considered odd, since he was free and more interactive with some certain customers. Maybe he has a reason, she always defended.
“Are you flirting or signing in?” a thick voice with an irritated tone speaks from behind. It was then Anna became aware that a figure had arrived next to her. Harold’s face looked flushed like he was embarrassed and that made Anna get pissed at the guy that just ruined her chances of taking her relationship with Harold a step further.
She doubted he was going to get comfortable around her anytime soon.
“Why don’t you stay around to find out.” For some unknown reason, she found the voice quite familiar but she didn’t stay around to find out. His rude tone told her there was no way she’ll want to get herself involved with him.
“See you around Harold.” With that she leaves the reception area and enters the main building to start her morning exercise, not bothering to look behind her to check out the identity of the person that almost ruined her mood this early morning.
Dylan watches the red hair walk away and from her movement, he knew she was pissed at him. Well she shouldn’t have been flirting right in front of him, when he had more serious issues going on in his head. And what was with him and red heads, was the color the new trend? He had wondered. He gets himself signed in as he heads to the locker room to get himself changed.
Hannah, his ex, loved exercising and would often keep him company whenever he exercised at home. He had the basic instruments he needed right within his reach but exercising at home without her next to him no longer felt the same. Dylan hated the thought of staying in the midst of sweaty strangers just to exercise but he had no other choice. It was either he stayed back at home and wallow in grief or exercise here while trying to keep himself a little distracted.
Today especially, he desperately needed to get his head straight.
He steps out of the locker room just to bump into the familiar red hair he met at the reception office. The only difference being that the hair was packed into a messy bun.
He became convinced that she was definitely meant to spoil his morning hours.“Why the hell are you everywhere?” From his tone, Anna could tell that he was irritated at her. The thick masculine voice sounded familiar and without even looking at the face, she could already feel her blood boil in reaction.
She bends down to pick up her headphone and phone that had dropped abruptly.
“Don’t you think sorry should have found its way out of your mouth?” she stands up straight and looks-up to finally meet him eye to eye. For a moment, she seems lost in the blue eyes that had so many untold secrets and unshared pain and the psychiatrist in her wanted to kick in, but as she took in his facial features, a look of dread took over her expression.
Why was she standing face to face with the rude, mannerless but good-looking patient that had showed up in her office for PTSD evaluation? Now she knew why the voice felt familiar and why her blood reacted to it.
Anna didn’t have much belief in coincidence but in destiny on the third encounter and she wasn’t liking how this was her second encounter with him. She had run into Josh on three several occasions and during their third encounter, they had taken interest in each other.
The odd part was the fact that she had met him consecutively at a colleague wedding- their first and second encounter- but the third one was the fact that he turned out to be her friends next-door neighbor. And from the moment they exchanged numbers, it had been all laughter and a fun-filled experience for Anna Davenport. The period of her life she always desperately wished to return to.
But here she was, face to face with someone she desperately wished would just walk past her.
Dylan Blake was still trying to take in the familiar beauty in front of him. Hannah had exceeded his expectations in terms of look, and from the moment they had first met, he admitted it within himself, though it took him a while to say it aloud.
“Hannah?”
As the name left his mouth, an anxious feeling swept through him. It felt like he was losing himself. Hannah McCall, his first love was dead. He watched her lose consciousness right next to him and he always dreaded that moment, but he was always sceptic about the fact that he was absent throughout her burial process. While she was placed under the cold and lonely ground, he fought for his life in the ICU.
There were moments he wished he never survived the accident just so she didn’t have to leave alone, but now he knew that being left behind hurts more than he ever imagined.
Now he knew why he had called the red head in front of him Hannah. She was the young psychiatrist he had met the past week who he had confused as Hannah, though she had gotten on his bad side.
“You still think I’m your ex? Then I must be really pretty to have you confused.” Anna turns around to leave and Dylan follows quietly from behind.
He checks her out and found himself oddly smiling as her pink and black tracksuit hugs her body tightly, thereby showing her curves in the right places. He stares at her converse and the thought that pops into his head was the fact that her job must pay quite well, given the brand she had on.
“The plan was to not meet again.” He speaks up in a cold tone when they finally arrive at the equipment room that was surrounded with quite a number of people exercising. He stretches a little bit to get himself prepared to carry the weight machine.
“Thought so too. I’m not pleased either to meet you here.” She meant it because she disliked the aura that surrounded him. And for a moment she considers the fact that he might have a personality disorder.
Anna walks towards the treadmill as running was what she always preferred to get started with. Dylan watches her leave his side without saying a word, when he notices a guy with ear pods on and eyes fixed on his phone jog towards her. They were both not looking at each other and if he didn’t call on either of them attention, they were definitely going to bump into one another.
And for no particular reason, he doesn’t call their attention and just wanted to watch everything play out.
For the second time this morning, Anna didn’t see it coming, when a blonde guy bumps hard into her. She finds herself on the floor and releases a sigh in frustration. The blonde guy in front of her had a shocked expression as he stretches his hands towards her, to help her get back on her feet.
He removes his ear pods from his ear as he tries to dust her body with his handkerchief.
“I should have paid attention. I’m so sorry. Hope you didn’t get hurt?” He looked concerned and sorry at the same time and Anna knew he wasn’t uncaring unlike some others.
“It’s okay. I should have been more attentive.” She gives him a reassuring smile so he didn’t have to feel guilty over it. He nods at her one more time with an apologetic smile, before he finally left.
She turns her head around as she could feel the strong gaze of someone on her back.
PAIN. To hurt; to put to bodily uneasiness or anguish; to render uneasy in mind. Dylan Blake couldn’t understand why his heart felt pain as he watched Anna fall to the ground. He had ignored his human conscience of preventing the incident just so he could have fun watching her get hurt. She had played with his mind and he hated that she looked like his ex.But instead of a feeling of excitement at the scene that played before him, he could feel his heart squeeze in pain and it was heart wrenching. Why did his new heart react against his wish? He really wanted an answer to that as he was beginning to find it bothersome.Dylan hated how thoughts of him beating up the blonde guy that bumped into her, crosses his mind. He stares at her long enough till her head snaps towards his direction.Her hazel eyes had a challenging look, but also a bit of embarrassment. Against his wishes, he found
ANGER. A strong feeling of displeasure, hostility or antagonism towards someone or something, usually combined with an urge to harm. Anna Davenport had felt this way severally whenever she heard some of the stories some of her traumatic patients had been through and how she desperately wished she could teach the assailants a lesson.Her day hadn’t stated so great as she kept getting involved with Dylan Blake, the current director of her hospital but the patient in front of her just tops it all. She stares at the 17year old teenage boy seated in front of her, looking lost in his own world.He looked adorable and but the lifeless expression his grey eyes carried just made her heart hurt more. Just why did they have to bully him and make him witness such a gruesome experience.From his report which Anna had read, his classmates had apparently bullied him and another person quite often, ti
NIGHTMARES. A very bad or frightening dream. Anna was starting to lose count of the number of nightmares she’s been having since Josh’s death but whenever she woke up with one, clearing her head with a jog had been working well on her. She lets out a sigh as she turns sideways to stare at the mini alarm clock she had next to her bed. The time read 6:00 am and she hated the fact that she had to be awake at this early hour of the day.Finally, gathering all the strength she could muster up, she pushes herself up from the bed as she heads straight to her bathroom to wash her face. She gets changed into her black and grey tracksuit and heads out to clear her head. On stepping outside, the morning breeze felt so cold on her skin, for a moment she considered going back in.She starts jogging on the sidewalk of her neighborhood when her mind wanders off to Aiden, one of the patients she met recently. Given that
DÉJÀ VU. Something which one has or suspects to have seen or experienced before, especially when that is not the case. As Dylan Blake opens his eyes to be welcomed by a bright sunlight reflection, a feeling of déjà vu swept through him. His environment felt familiar but he was still trying to grasp why he was here.A sudden flash of last night’s event crosses his mind as he remembers showing up in front of Anna’s door. Why?Anna’s current apartment turned out to be the same apartment Hannah, his ex, resided in before she passed away. He had wanted to move into it but got disappointed when the estate agent told him someone else had moved in already. Anna just always had to mess things up for him.He p
TIMID. Lacking courage or confidence. Noah Black was the definition of timid despite being a fourth year resident of the department of psychiatry. His cute brown eyes had often times avoided making contact with Anna’s hazel ones, especially when she had directed a question at him during their department meetings.The whole Psychiatry department had a total of six residents; five males and one female. Anna had three males assigned to her, Noah being one of them.“How’s granny Ann’s condition?” Anna asks Noah for the second time with a small smile playing on her lips. She was seated at the farthest corner of the room that had the presence of her fellow professors and residents. They were to give feedbacks on their patients well-being and Granny Ann just happened to be one of her in-patients who was diagnosed with Alcohol addiction.“She’s complaining of being nauseous and having little appetite,” Noah replies, his ey
CLUMSINESS. Awkward, lacking coordination, not graceful, not dexterous. Anna Davenport had often tried to be cool and collected, especially whenever she found herself amongst people, but as her clumsiness would always have it, she had just shown that in front of two of her residents.Anna had invited Ruby and Noah over to her place to discuss plans for their presentation and also to give them a few pointers in relation to their thesis. As they had started working on the project, she decided to head to her kitchen and grab a few snacks just to keep their mouths busy but her face is drowned in disappointment when she remembers how empty her fridge was.“Anything you need help with?” Ruby raises his tone a little bit from the living room when he hears little movements of utensils from the kitchen.“I’m good for now!” Anna replies but she knew deep down that she was far from being good. Her fridge was empty and she couldn't
DEPRESSION. In psychotherapy and psychiatry, a period of unhappiness or low morale which lasts longer than several weeks and may include ideation of self-inflicted injury or suicide. Everyone is a patient but just doesn't know their sickness. It could be physical or mental but no one is a hundred percent healthy because of the toxic nature of life. Anna stared at the hospital's homepage from the desktop on the corner of her table. It had become a habit of hers to check the homepage every day just to keep herself updated and today the update she had gotten was on the death of one of the hospital’s ICU nurses. Apparently, she had been suffering from depression and ended up taking her life. Due to the attention the case was getting, the board of directors must have come up with the solution they considered best for the hospital. And that was official
ABANDON. To desist in doing, practicing. To forsake despite a duty or responsibility. Dylan had specifically requested his therapy sessions be with Anna Davenport but couldn’t hold his anger at the notice that he had been reassigned to a different doctor. Who the hell gave the fuck about someone bearing Lucas?He had been abandoned all his life. His parents never acknowledged his existence as he was always one step behind Liam. Now Anna had done the same thing to him and it was making him lose his mind. Was she looking down on him? Dylan had always hated being rejected, so whatever situation he found himself in, he tried his best to be in control.But with Anna Davenport, she just never succumbed and it irked his guts. She had hurt him by rejecting him, but most importantly, she left him angry and he desperately wanted to see her. No Doctor should ever give up on their patient.Angrily, he strides out of his office at a fast pace, his blood boiling a
VOID. The feeling of total emptiness. Moving back into her apartment after such a long period created some void in Anna’s heart. She knew she couldn’t remain at Dylan’s place after what had gone down some nights before. As a doctor, she always knew when to take a step back. Things felt a little different after that day. Dylan had become a total stranger to her, and she hated how it felt. She did miss having him around, but he had made his face so scarce he barely glanced in her direction whenever they ran into each other. Well, maybe she did deserve the silent treatment. While driving to the hospital, Anna receives a message from Liam asking if they could meet up at the hospital. Immediately, she could tell it had to do with their false engagement that Dylan had announced. She just hoped things hadn’t gone too far. “You have someone waiting for you inside,” Macy says; immediately Anna arrives in front of her consultation room. “Thanks,” She says hurriedly while flashing Macy a bri
FLUSTERED. To be embarrassed or surprised about a thing. Anna was flustered at Dylan’s remark as her cheeks were flushed in embarrassment. He had just thrown various surprises at her all through the day.“Mr Dylan, how long have you both been engaged?”“I won’t be entertaining any more questions,” Dylan says as he grips Anna’s hand and pulls her away from the thousand inquisitive eyes. He doesn’t stop walking till they were both in his office.Immediately he stops walking, she forcefully loosened his tight grip on her hand which was already a light shade of pink.After a loud sigh, she drives her fingers through her hair before saying, “What was that all about Dylan?”“Saving your ass,” he answers while shoving his hands into the pockets of his black pants. His blue eyes had a glint of mischief in them as the corner of his pale lips tilts into a smirk.“How do you call that saving my ass when you were just being impulsive! Now the whole hospital thinks we’re dating,” She raises her vo
GUILT. Feeling regretful or responsible for an offence or an action taken, whether real or imaginary. Just watching Nicholas sit across from her and say those words, Anna could tell Nicholas was going through survivor's guilt but didn’t understand why. The news had not carried any information on a gun attack involving Nicholas which made Anna more curious as to what he was talking about. “When did this happen?” She enquires further. “About two years ago” “When did your panic attack start?” “About a month ago” Why was the incident affecting him two years later? She was starting to have a tough time figuring it out. “Was the lady very important to you?” “Yes. We had been dating secretly for a year and had agreed to go public once the movie we were shooting aired but she was shot on the last day of shooting Just then Anna remembered two years ago, the movie Nicholas had been shooting with Mia Park, a famous actress, had been cancelled, and about
ECSTASY. An overpowering emotion. A state of sudden feeling. Anna still couldn’t get over what had just happened between her and Dylan as she approached her room and shut the door behind her slowly. Placing both of her hands on the left side of her chest, she could still feel her heart beat fast and loud against her palms. She nervously pushes some strands of her hair behind her ears as her breathing starts to fall into rhythm. Just when she felt everything was fine, she finally noticed the line of soldier ants still marching proudly on the floor and wall of her bedroom, remembering the reason she had left the room in the first place. Anna became conflicted on whether to leave the room and feel awkward around Dylan or just stay here for a while and suffer unending torments from the ants. The choice was hers to make but none seemed favourable to he
TRAPPED. To be in an unpleasant situation in which you lack freedom. Not a lot of people enjoy staying in the hospital, especially when they have an illness that requires constant visitation or admission to the hospital. Due to his heart problem, the hospital always brought bad memories to Dylan and constantly made him feel trapped. So spending the last few days here as a patient was a torment he never wished to experience again. He could manage working here because he was being treated as a boss rather than a patient. And another person seemed to be making his life more interesting by constantly getting involved with him. Dylan hadn’t seen Anna in the past two days since his outburst at her. Well, he probably deserved the silent treatment he was getting as she was only trying to look out for him. If his mom couldn’t deal with him, it was no surpr
ANEMOIA. Nostalgia for a time you’ve never known. A time yet to be seen but yet desperately yearned for. Growing up, no one ever really paid much attention to Dylan and as time went by, he got used to it. But deep down, he yearned for a time when someone would be so scared of losing him instead of him having fear of being abandoned.The only person that had shown interest and given all her attention to him was Hannah but as it was always him against the world, she was nowhere next to him. Not now, not ever. So watching Anna lay next to him gave him a hint of hope, that maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t as worthless as he thinks he is. That he deserved attention just like everyone else.“Don’t bother saying anything mean because I don't plan on leaving anytime soon,” Anna turns her head sideways to get a better view of his expressi
DISBELIEF. Inability to accept that something is true or real. Opening his eyes, Dylan couldn’t believe he was back to being admitted to the hospital for an incident he could have avoided. He feels a sharp pain come from his lower abdomen and curses under his breath as he could have avoided the knife if not for missing a step.“How do you feel Mr. Blake?” A young male doctor with round glasses sitting on the bridge of his nose asks while inspecting Dylan’s surgical site. He was around 6’1 and had a short textured hairstyle with fades on both sides. He was good looking and Dylan had to admit it.Dylan breaks eye contact with the doctor and brings his gaze lower, reading the ID card on the Doctor's white coat. It read James White.“Good. What of the lady that was next to me?&r
EUPHORIA. A feeling or state of intense happiness or excitement. Most people experience some kind of euphoria while on the dance floor in a club. The loud music vibrating through the whole room and your body swaying to the beat just leaves you high and happy, while zoning out the world and being lost in the moment.“Are you sure this is a good idea?” Dylan asks while walking behind Anna as they both enter the club. Disco lights swiveled around the room and for some unknown reason, there were few people on the dance floor.“Any reason why you think it’s not?” Anna questions while her eyes search for a particular face amidst the crowd.“Just get this over with,” He says as they get settled at the central bar where a tall guy with dirty blonde hair and sleevel
REGRET. To feel sorry for a thing that has or has not happened. Anna had regrets from the moment she had set eyes on Amaya Rawlins at the emergency room looking so lifeless and full of hatred.She hadn’t met with her since their last therapy session that Dylan had messed up and just staring at her once again reignited the anger Anna had felt from the first time she had seen her. Anna majorly felt regretful at the fact that Amaya was here with a traumatized expression and sores all over her body while her perpetrators were living a good life because they were well connected.Screw the law.“Does your skin feel less irritating to you these days?” Anna asks while staring at those grey eyes across from hers with utmost concern.Amaya’s