PAIN. To hurt; to put to bodily uneasiness or anguish; to render uneasy in mind. Dylan Blake couldn’t understand why his heart felt pain as he watched Anna fall to the ground. He had ignored his human conscience of preventing the incident just so he could have fun watching her get hurt. She had played with his mind and he hated that she looked like his ex.
But instead of a feeling of excitement at the scene that played before him, he could feel his heart squeeze in pain and it was heart wrenching. Why did his new heart react against his wish? He really wanted an answer to that as he was beginning to find it bothersome.
Dylan hated how thoughts of him beating up the blonde guy that bumped into her, crosses his mind. He stares at her long enough till her head snaps towards his direction.
Her hazel eyes had a challenging look, but also a bit of embarrassment. Against his wishes, he found himself walking towards her and when he was right in her face, places his left palm on her cheek.
“Are you okay?” Dylan stares at her with concern in his blue eyes but this all felt wrong to him. He wasn’t attracted to her, so why was he concerned. Some seconds later, he takes a step back and drives his fingers through his brown hair.
Anna was still amazed that she hadn’t even uttered a word, talk less of leaving the spot. Confusion covered her hazel eyes as she stares at the maniac in front of her. She considers him a maniac because he wasn’t acting normal around her. She knew he didn’t like her, but couldn’t understand the reason behind his recent gesture. Was he trying to flirt or what?
“What was that?” she speaks up when she was finally able to put some words together.
“I lost focus for a minute, excuse me.” Never was he to do something he hadn’t thoroughly processed, but now he was bewildered at the fact that he had acted without thinking through. Dylan couldn’t bear to face her any longer as he turns around and walks away, not just from her presence, but from the building.
Anna watches the good-looking masculine figure retreat from her presence as she wonders what was going on in his head. He looked calculative from the first time they had met at her office, but right now she was beginning to have second doubts. Maybe, just maybe, he always acted on impulse.
Not interested in exercising anymore, she heads back to the locker room to pick up her bag and drives off from the gym. The drive back home was short and in a few minutes, she was entering her driveway. After parking her Lexus, as she steps down, she couldn’t help but admire the flowers in her mini garden and as she takes in the beauty of mother nature, her attention slowly drifts to the red SUV parked in the driveway of her rude neighbor.
“He must be in.” Anna mutters under her breath as she walks into her apartment. She throws her black gym bag to one of the couches in the living room as she drags herself to her empty fridge. She opens it and grabs a bottle of cold water. That was all she ever kept inside the fridge and it was quite disappointing. She didn’t have groceries inside it as she preferred take-out more to cooking herself.
Or maybe she could just say her cooking wasn’t something often considered edible.
It wasn’t long after that she was in her driveway, unlocking her car as she locks the door to her apartment, getting ready to head to work.
“I guess you were the one who beat me in getting this apartment.” A familiar voice she had been hearing too often sends goosebumps through her skin as she silently prayed it wasn’t the same voice she had encountered this morning.
Anna slowly turns around to find the same cold blue eyes stare at her with a pissed and irritated look that was later replaced with a shocking expression. What was he doing on her porch?
“Why are you here?” She asks him, while trying to look unfazed.
“I could ask you the same.” Dylan speaks up with seriousness and from his tone, Anna could tell that he was angry at her.
Why?
“Isn’t it obvious? I live here Mr. Blake.” She says rolling her eyes as she walks towards her car.
“Why here of all places?” Dylan’s gaze and seriousness doesn’t drop a little as he follows Anna to her car, hoping to get a reply from her.
“Because if feels more familiar to me. Why am I even answering you?” Anna had her hands on her waist as she stares at the confused guy in front of her. His blue eyes kept trying to read her like he was hoping to get some kind of reaction from her but when he doesn’t get it, his stoic and rude gaze is back on.
She was seeing his mood swing too often and it was starting to get disturbing. Anna was yet to get an answer as to why he was in her driveway.
“You still haven’t answered why you’re here.”
“I just moved in next-door and it’s no surprise you pissed me off on our first encounter.” Dylan stares at her one last time before walking away, leaving Anna’s mouth hanging. It wasn’t hard to believe that he was the same rude guy she had tried to befriend on the day he first arrived but the only question that kept echoing in her head was why it had to be him of all people.
He was still a stranger to her about a week ago and if she was to consider their encounters along with her believe in destiny, she wasn’t liking how this was going.
She enters her car and drives off to the hospital, already to get her day started and in approximately fifteen minutes, she was entering the familiar hallway that led to her office.
“Morning miss Davenport.” Macy, Anna’s assistant was seated at the entrance of Anna’s office with two cups of drinks in front of her- a hot coffee and an iced Americano.
She was just the best in Anna’s eyes as she knew Anna had often started her day with a cold drink.
“You’re looking good as usual Macy,” She compliments her hard-working assistant as she picks up her drink from the table.
“Thanks for this, in exchange, I owe you dinner.” Anna winks at the already excited blondie in front of her and just smiles at her before entering her office and putting on her white coat.
Still getting settled in, a quick knock on her door, diverts her eyes towards the direction of the sound. Macy walks in with a shy expression and from experience, Anna knew she was about to say something she wasn’t going to like.
“Just spill it Macy.” she says already sighing without hearing a word yet.
“Dr. Malcom asked that you fill in for him in the emergency meeting between the head of departments. It’s apparently his off today.” She says with a sheepish smile plastered on her face.
Dr. Malcom was the head of the psychiatry department and whenever he was on his off days, he had often transferred some of his duties to me and today was no exception.
“Thanks. What time is it?” there was no way out as someone had to represent the department and it seemed like it was going to be her.
“About ten minutes from now. You don’t have any scheduled appointment till an hour time.” Macy smiles at Anna before exiting the room.
The last time she had attended such a meeting, she had dozed off and ended up embarrassing herself, so she silently hoped today was going to turn out different.
She enters the meeting room and already saw some of the doctors seated while interacting with one another. Anna wasn’t particularly a loner, but she didn’t really have any friends in the hospital. They were all just colleagues that never met outside for personal reasons.
After some minutes pass by, the room gets filled up and as someone walks up to the center of the room, everywhere became utterly quiet.
“We’ll be having a new director of the hospital and he has decided to introduce himself to everyone.” The middle-aged speaker, steps aside as a young man in his early thirties approach the center of the room.
Anna was seated at the back of the room but the distance wasn’t enough to prevent her from seeing those familiar brown hair and blue eyes she was stating to grow accustomed to. He looked the same like when he had walked into her office. Irritated and moody and everyone could possibly tell that he wasn’t liking he fact that he was presently here.
He grabs the microphone from the person that had spoken earlier as his eyes searched through everyone seated in the background.
“I’m Dylan Blake, the new director of this hospital.” Dylan speaks up as a smirk appears on his well-defined good-looking face when his strong and intense gaze stops on Anna Davenport.
What Anna couldn’t phantom was the fact that her patient had turned out to be her boss in less than a week.
ANGER. A strong feeling of displeasure, hostility or antagonism towards someone or something, usually combined with an urge to harm. Anna Davenport had felt this way severally whenever she heard some of the stories some of her traumatic patients had been through and how she desperately wished she could teach the assailants a lesson.Her day hadn’t stated so great as she kept getting involved with Dylan Blake, the current director of her hospital but the patient in front of her just tops it all. She stares at the 17year old teenage boy seated in front of her, looking lost in his own world.He looked adorable and but the lifeless expression his grey eyes carried just made her heart hurt more. Just why did they have to bully him and make him witness such a gruesome experience.From his report which Anna had read, his classmates had apparently bullied him and another person quite often, ti
NIGHTMARES. A very bad or frightening dream. Anna was starting to lose count of the number of nightmares she’s been having since Josh’s death but whenever she woke up with one, clearing her head with a jog had been working well on her. She lets out a sigh as she turns sideways to stare at the mini alarm clock she had next to her bed. The time read 6:00 am and she hated the fact that she had to be awake at this early hour of the day.Finally, gathering all the strength she could muster up, she pushes herself up from the bed as she heads straight to her bathroom to wash her face. She gets changed into her black and grey tracksuit and heads out to clear her head. On stepping outside, the morning breeze felt so cold on her skin, for a moment she considered going back in.She starts jogging on the sidewalk of her neighborhood when her mind wanders off to Aiden, one of the patients she met recently. Given that
DÉJÀ VU. Something which one has or suspects to have seen or experienced before, especially when that is not the case. As Dylan Blake opens his eyes to be welcomed by a bright sunlight reflection, a feeling of déjà vu swept through him. His environment felt familiar but he was still trying to grasp why he was here.A sudden flash of last night’s event crosses his mind as he remembers showing up in front of Anna’s door. Why?Anna’s current apartment turned out to be the same apartment Hannah, his ex, resided in before she passed away. He had wanted to move into it but got disappointed when the estate agent told him someone else had moved in already. Anna just always had to mess things up for him.He p
TIMID. Lacking courage or confidence. Noah Black was the definition of timid despite being a fourth year resident of the department of psychiatry. His cute brown eyes had often times avoided making contact with Anna’s hazel ones, especially when she had directed a question at him during their department meetings.The whole Psychiatry department had a total of six residents; five males and one female. Anna had three males assigned to her, Noah being one of them.“How’s granny Ann’s condition?” Anna asks Noah for the second time with a small smile playing on her lips. She was seated at the farthest corner of the room that had the presence of her fellow professors and residents. They were to give feedbacks on their patients well-being and Granny Ann just happened to be one of her in-patients who was diagnosed with Alcohol addiction.“She’s complaining of being nauseous and having little appetite,” Noah replies, his ey
CLUMSINESS. Awkward, lacking coordination, not graceful, not dexterous. Anna Davenport had often tried to be cool and collected, especially whenever she found herself amongst people, but as her clumsiness would always have it, she had just shown that in front of two of her residents.Anna had invited Ruby and Noah over to her place to discuss plans for their presentation and also to give them a few pointers in relation to their thesis. As they had started working on the project, she decided to head to her kitchen and grab a few snacks just to keep their mouths busy but her face is drowned in disappointment when she remembers how empty her fridge was.“Anything you need help with?” Ruby raises his tone a little bit from the living room when he hears little movements of utensils from the kitchen.“I’m good for now!” Anna replies but she knew deep down that she was far from being good. Her fridge was empty and she couldn't
DEPRESSION. In psychotherapy and psychiatry, a period of unhappiness or low morale which lasts longer than several weeks and may include ideation of self-inflicted injury or suicide. Everyone is a patient but just doesn't know their sickness. It could be physical or mental but no one is a hundred percent healthy because of the toxic nature of life. Anna stared at the hospital's homepage from the desktop on the corner of her table. It had become a habit of hers to check the homepage every day just to keep herself updated and today the update she had gotten was on the death of one of the hospital’s ICU nurses. Apparently, she had been suffering from depression and ended up taking her life. Due to the attention the case was getting, the board of directors must have come up with the solution they considered best for the hospital. And that was official
ABANDON. To desist in doing, practicing. To forsake despite a duty or responsibility. Dylan had specifically requested his therapy sessions be with Anna Davenport but couldn’t hold his anger at the notice that he had been reassigned to a different doctor. Who the hell gave the fuck about someone bearing Lucas?He had been abandoned all his life. His parents never acknowledged his existence as he was always one step behind Liam. Now Anna had done the same thing to him and it was making him lose his mind. Was she looking down on him? Dylan had always hated being rejected, so whatever situation he found himself in, he tried his best to be in control.But with Anna Davenport, she just never succumbed and it irked his guts. She had hurt him by rejecting him, but most importantly, she left him angry and he desperately wanted to see her. No Doctor should ever give up on their patient.Angrily, he strides out of his office at a fast pace, his blood boiling a
CONFIDENCE. Self-assurance. A feeling of certainty, firm trust or belief. A lot of people are confident about some particular aspects of their lives. For some, it could be in their fashion taste and others in their appearance. It could also be in a particular skill they possess but there's always one thing people are often confident about in their lives as it serves as their strength.For Anna Davenport, dressed in her white coat gave her all the confidence she needed whenever she strolled through the hospital's hallways."This doesn't feel right," Anna muttered under her breath as she stares at the figure directly in front of her. The figure has a red strapless cross-back gown that hugged her body tightly on, a long slit on the right side of her leg, showing off well-toned yet pale skin. The make-up the figure had on complimented the dress as there were dark shadows around the eyes, highlighting the hazel eyes and the red lipstick on her plump lips seem
VOID. The feeling of total emptiness. Moving back into her apartment after such a long period created some void in Anna’s heart. She knew she couldn’t remain at Dylan’s place after what had gone down some nights before. As a doctor, she always knew when to take a step back. Things felt a little different after that day. Dylan had become a total stranger to her, and she hated how it felt. She did miss having him around, but he had made his face so scarce he barely glanced in her direction whenever they ran into each other. Well, maybe she did deserve the silent treatment. While driving to the hospital, Anna receives a message from Liam asking if they could meet up at the hospital. Immediately, she could tell it had to do with their false engagement that Dylan had announced. She just hoped things hadn’t gone too far. “You have someone waiting for you inside,” Macy says; immediately Anna arrives in front of her consultation room. “Thanks,” She says hurriedly while flashing Macy a bri
FLUSTERED. To be embarrassed or surprised about a thing. Anna was flustered at Dylan’s remark as her cheeks were flushed in embarrassment. He had just thrown various surprises at her all through the day.“Mr Dylan, how long have you both been engaged?”“I won’t be entertaining any more questions,” Dylan says as he grips Anna’s hand and pulls her away from the thousand inquisitive eyes. He doesn’t stop walking till they were both in his office.Immediately he stops walking, she forcefully loosened his tight grip on her hand which was already a light shade of pink.After a loud sigh, she drives her fingers through her hair before saying, “What was that all about Dylan?”“Saving your ass,” he answers while shoving his hands into the pockets of his black pants. His blue eyes had a glint of mischief in them as the corner of his pale lips tilts into a smirk.“How do you call that saving my ass when you were just being impulsive! Now the whole hospital thinks we’re dating,” She raises her vo
GUILT. Feeling regretful or responsible for an offence or an action taken, whether real or imaginary. Just watching Nicholas sit across from her and say those words, Anna could tell Nicholas was going through survivor's guilt but didn’t understand why. The news had not carried any information on a gun attack involving Nicholas which made Anna more curious as to what he was talking about. “When did this happen?” She enquires further. “About two years ago” “When did your panic attack start?” “About a month ago” Why was the incident affecting him two years later? She was starting to have a tough time figuring it out. “Was the lady very important to you?” “Yes. We had been dating secretly for a year and had agreed to go public once the movie we were shooting aired but she was shot on the last day of shooting Just then Anna remembered two years ago, the movie Nicholas had been shooting with Mia Park, a famous actress, had been cancelled, and about
ECSTASY. An overpowering emotion. A state of sudden feeling. Anna still couldn’t get over what had just happened between her and Dylan as she approached her room and shut the door behind her slowly. Placing both of her hands on the left side of her chest, she could still feel her heart beat fast and loud against her palms. She nervously pushes some strands of her hair behind her ears as her breathing starts to fall into rhythm. Just when she felt everything was fine, she finally noticed the line of soldier ants still marching proudly on the floor and wall of her bedroom, remembering the reason she had left the room in the first place. Anna became conflicted on whether to leave the room and feel awkward around Dylan or just stay here for a while and suffer unending torments from the ants. The choice was hers to make but none seemed favourable to he
TRAPPED. To be in an unpleasant situation in which you lack freedom. Not a lot of people enjoy staying in the hospital, especially when they have an illness that requires constant visitation or admission to the hospital. Due to his heart problem, the hospital always brought bad memories to Dylan and constantly made him feel trapped. So spending the last few days here as a patient was a torment he never wished to experience again. He could manage working here because he was being treated as a boss rather than a patient. And another person seemed to be making his life more interesting by constantly getting involved with him. Dylan hadn’t seen Anna in the past two days since his outburst at her. Well, he probably deserved the silent treatment he was getting as she was only trying to look out for him. If his mom couldn’t deal with him, it was no surpr
ANEMOIA. Nostalgia for a time you’ve never known. A time yet to be seen but yet desperately yearned for. Growing up, no one ever really paid much attention to Dylan and as time went by, he got used to it. But deep down, he yearned for a time when someone would be so scared of losing him instead of him having fear of being abandoned.The only person that had shown interest and given all her attention to him was Hannah but as it was always him against the world, she was nowhere next to him. Not now, not ever. So watching Anna lay next to him gave him a hint of hope, that maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t as worthless as he thinks he is. That he deserved attention just like everyone else.“Don’t bother saying anything mean because I don't plan on leaving anytime soon,” Anna turns her head sideways to get a better view of his expressi
DISBELIEF. Inability to accept that something is true or real. Opening his eyes, Dylan couldn’t believe he was back to being admitted to the hospital for an incident he could have avoided. He feels a sharp pain come from his lower abdomen and curses under his breath as he could have avoided the knife if not for missing a step.“How do you feel Mr. Blake?” A young male doctor with round glasses sitting on the bridge of his nose asks while inspecting Dylan’s surgical site. He was around 6’1 and had a short textured hairstyle with fades on both sides. He was good looking and Dylan had to admit it.Dylan breaks eye contact with the doctor and brings his gaze lower, reading the ID card on the Doctor's white coat. It read James White.“Good. What of the lady that was next to me?&r
EUPHORIA. A feeling or state of intense happiness or excitement. Most people experience some kind of euphoria while on the dance floor in a club. The loud music vibrating through the whole room and your body swaying to the beat just leaves you high and happy, while zoning out the world and being lost in the moment.“Are you sure this is a good idea?” Dylan asks while walking behind Anna as they both enter the club. Disco lights swiveled around the room and for some unknown reason, there were few people on the dance floor.“Any reason why you think it’s not?” Anna questions while her eyes search for a particular face amidst the crowd.“Just get this over with,” He says as they get settled at the central bar where a tall guy with dirty blonde hair and sleevel
REGRET. To feel sorry for a thing that has or has not happened. Anna had regrets from the moment she had set eyes on Amaya Rawlins at the emergency room looking so lifeless and full of hatred.She hadn’t met with her since their last therapy session that Dylan had messed up and just staring at her once again reignited the anger Anna had felt from the first time she had seen her. Anna majorly felt regretful at the fact that Amaya was here with a traumatized expression and sores all over her body while her perpetrators were living a good life because they were well connected.Screw the law.“Does your skin feel less irritating to you these days?” Anna asks while staring at those grey eyes across from hers with utmost concern.Amaya’s