CHAPTER 3: FIRST KISS

Days passed painfully slow, leaving DeLorna in total breakdown and loneliness. Since the night in the woods, the very night he called her his mate, things unexpectedly changed in her life. And since that very night, she’s been wanting to see him again.

Having felt his warmth, his presence, the urge to have him around her grew. And she doesn’t know why, but the feeling keeps growing every second. That passion and want for him, that desire for pleasure and satisfaction boiled in her inside.

She was fighting it, and it was growing stronger and stronger. She could feel the tingle in her even without him being beside her.

What has he done to her?

Why all these sudden feelings in her??

What’s going on?

Yes, she needs him beside her but this was just beyond her expectations. This was more than she thought. Like her body and soul weren’t in total control of themselves.

What’s happening?

What’s going on with her?

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It’s close to a week now since DeLorna last saw him. She’s been asking questions about creatures like him, and just two days ago she learnt he was not a wolf but a lycanthrope. No wonder he made a statement on the first night they met, “I ain’t a wolf.”

DeLorna also went ahead making research about how Lycans communicate with their mates, and she’s been trying the mind-link method since the day of her discovery.

“ Urgh, fu*king answer me. “ She opened her eyes. “ Guess that’s only for the wolves.” She sighed in defeat.

“ I can hear you. “ Said a deep familiar voice from behind.

She stiffened under his voice.

“ You called me.” She slowly turned to him, she wasn’t dreaming, was she?

She didn’t want to express how happy she was to see him, and how successful mind-linking to him actually worked as well.

“ How was that possible?” She asked. “ I almost thought only wolves could do that.”

“ You just did. You called me. “

She darted her eyes to the door, it wasn’t opened. And to the window, it was likewise not opened. How then did he get in? Maybe, it’s time she stops doubting his abilities.

“ I didn’t mean to bother you. Honestly, I was only trying to figure out how the mind-link stuff works. “ She apologized.

He felt it wasn’t necessary but since she was sincere at the words, he nodded in agreement. “ It’s okay. And besides, you aren’t disturbing me.”

Unlike the other times, she would quickly walk him out but she did seem to notice a lot of things in her life had automatically changed without her consent.

She wanted someone to stay with her. She wanted him to stay, and have a little or more chat with him. Work on her feelings and check if she was actually ready for reality.

She didn’t realize how long they have been staring at each other.

He reached out, his hand barely touching her face. He paused, waiting for a reaction. When he didn’t see any, he reached out with both hands and held her face.

“ Do you… still feel scared of me?” He asked.

“ If I do, I wouldn’t have thought of calling you. “ She replied, sincerely.

He takes his hands off her face, walking a few steps away from her.

“ I still have a lot to learn, a lot to work on. I don’t think I am ready for you, I am not yet the perfect guy you hope for. “ He said, a hint of sadness sounding in his voice. “ I have never been in love with anyone, the journey is a lot tougher than I expected. I will have to work on myself first. “

“ No one is perfect, not even I. We all have so much to learn about the life, about love but that hasn’t stopped us from being what we are and doing what we want. And besides, I wasn’t complaining. “

He looks at her again. “ Why? After all these I did, all those lives I took away, the bloodshed, yet you accepted me. Even though you just barely know who I am.”

She walks close to him and shyly places her hand on one cheek. “ At first, you came to me in the middle of the night. You spoke to me and you told me I was your mate. I was scared, I didn’t want to accept fate because it wasn’t what I hoped for. But then, I realized that no matter what, I can never change what destiny holds for us.

I know, I am still working on my feelings for you but… I don’t hate you anymore. I just want you to be the good man I wish for. I want you to be happy without thinking of who’s next to kill.”

“ I don’t think I can find happiness. “ He said coldly.

“ Don’t… say that. “

“ I have to. “ He walks away.

DeLorna sighed.

“ I have to. You don’t deserve me.”

“ I do.” She didn’t know when it slipped out of her lips.

He looks at her, taking it off almost immediately. “ I have to go.”

“ Wait.” He stops. “ Please, don’t. At least not yet. “

“ I killed, okay! I killed those people because I was foolish and stupid and I thought I was gonna have what I wanted. Every single night I close my eyes, I can’t help but feel tormented. Those people, their screams are like they are all in my head. And I can’t sleep because they are up here. “ He points at his head. “ I already promised myself I would do whatever it takes to see you smile, I wouldn’t want to be the reason for your sadness. “

“ There is time for everything. A time to be happy, and a time to be sad. Whatever makes you happy will make me happy, whatever makes you sad, likewise will make me sad.” She walks to his front. “ You need to stop blaming yourself for your mistakes, the past is gone, those people are gone and there is nothing you can do about it.

All I want is to love and to be loved. But for so many questions I can’t answer, I find myself accepting every bit of you. “ Touches his cheek again. “ Let me help you. “ She pulls him into her embrace, “everything is gonna be alright. I promise.”

“ We’ll figure out a way to make it up to each other.” She breaks the hug.

Their stare was like an eternity as no one wanted to look away. He reached out and casually tucked out a strand of her hair behind her ear, and without meaning to, she sucked in a breath, leaning into his touch.

His brow cleared, and his eyes turned to a honeyed fire as they drifted down to her lips. It was like her body was this traitor, acting without her brain’s permission.

Especially considering what you were thinking earlier, that annoying voice tries to interject. Are you seriously going to let hormones get the best of you when there are important things to consider?

But when Jeff deeps his head down and pressed his lips to hers, his rough stubble scratching against her chin in the most delicious way, her brain shut up entirely.

His hands wrapped around her waist, clinching her to him. At first, she felt scared, she didn’t want to return the kiss back.

He noticed this, making a pause. Then she slightly opened her mouth, and he kissed her lower lip. She kissed him back.

She did kiss him back. And she puts her hands in his hair, feeling the silken strands between her fingers.

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