It has been a week since Raven lost the baby; she seems to have settled down, feeling a lot better. But even though her face carries a smile, it does not seem to reach her eyes.
I am afraid that our relationship is going to fall apart in a spectacular way. I have, on many occasions, come close to asking her where our relationship stands, but then I remember that she is under a lot of pressure and that I should not dump anymore than what she is carrying.
After all, she is still dealing with the loss of our child, which I, can honestly say, have not been dealing with in a good way. I cannot say that I have come to deal with it because I have not, and I do not think that I ever will.
So I find myself here, early morning, sitting outside as I do with so many mornings alone now and think of how much different things should have been. This is not the way that I have planned my life, and most of all, my relationship to be.
We are like strangers in one house; I t
She has done it again.She makes love to me, then she hits me with that.Is she honestly for real? Why? Our relationship is not that bad. We still have a lot to fight for. Why is she giving up now?Not wanting to fight with her after all that we have just been through I sit up and listen to her. With the deepest affection that I hold in my heart for her, I take her hand for I know what is about to come and god! I cannot bear to go through this again.This is fucking killing me."Raven, what do you mean?""Hunter, I think you know.""Now I don't, please talk to me. Tell me the truth.""There is no us anymore."She shakes her head, the agony of her words comes through, and just when I think the words won't kill me, then I see her crying."Hunter, our relationship is not working. I cannot see how we can go on like this.""I don't understand."With that, the agony that is hiding behind my voice burst int
As I stand in the quiet corners of my room, I dread to make this call to Raven. Yes, what was our love lay completely in tatters, and in a way, I know that I can make peace with that.What? Not for one fucking minute am I accepting that.It takes me a very deep breath, and with a rather big lump in my throat, I finally speak as she answers."Hey, princess.""Hunter.""Listen, I do not want to fight, but I need you to tell me whatever it is that you have been trying to say.""Hunter, I think you need to sit down for this.""My god, Raven, what have you done?""Please, just listen until I have finished, and then you can say whatever you feel that you need to say. I don't think that, well apart from this, that there is any more damage that can be done between us.""Raven, just tell me what is going on."As she hesitates for several moments, I start to pace the length of my room, waiting for her to speak. And as she f
I toss my phone over the length of the table, but before it hits the floor, somewhere is there to catch it. As I look up, with eyes that are turmoiling in more tears than they really should, I look into the soft chocolate brown eyes of Maddison."Maddison.""Hi, Hunter."It is hard to say which comes first, but the moment those words come flowing from lips that I know is sweeter than honey, that ache I felt not so long ago has now disappeared."When did you get here?""This morning. I would have come to say hello sooner but have been so busy settling into the new place.""So what? Are you back? Are you staying?""Yes, this time I am staying."Maddison looks at me as she places her hand softly onto my trembling hand that feels far colder than it truly should. Her smile is warm as her eyes meet mine,"Sorry, but I heard the end. Do you want to talk about it?""Sorry about that. I guess I just had to get that off my
It has been three weeks since things between Raven and me have fallen apart. I have come, in my own weird way, to accept that it has come to a spectacular end. I have on the occasion, and might I say too many, but I have had the desire to phone her. I find myself with my phone in hand near sending her a message quite often. But between Mason and Maddison, I have managed to come to a point where I can say that I am moving on, slowly but at a certain pace.It is early morning; it is still dead silent. I have come to the only place where I can breathe and free my mind. My office. As I sit here with my eyes closed, just as I am completely drifting off into my own mind, I hear a scuffle behind me."What the fuck, Maddison?""Whoa, Hunter. Is that the way to greet a woman?""Why the hell are you sneaking up on me?""Came to bring you coffee."She reaches over to me and hands me the hot steamy coffee that buys from the Bistro around the corner from
I don't know why, but I ignored Raven's phone call. I don't think that my heart is ready to speak to her again yet. I somehow cannot help but wonder what it is that she wanted. Well, I can only think of one thing, things with her and Jax fell through, and she wants me to let her back into my life.That is simply not going to happen.I can say that I have slowly started to move on with my life. Yes, Maddison has been a welcomed distraction, and yes, after all these years, I still have those feelings for her that I once had. She was a part of my life when everything was dark, and I felt lost.We were together for a good couple of years, and that is when I met Raven. She saw that my focus was not on us anymore, and we both decided to end it.Yes, perhaps she is saving me from myself and from a broken heart, and there is the possibility that she is a rebound. But there are things that a man can simply not do alone. Now, all we have done was kissed that one ti
…Raven POV…Hunter is not talking to me.It has been four weeks since our relationship completely fell apart. I am not going to lie, but yes, I do miss him, but I won't lie either when I say that I am starting to realize that I should move on with my life.Yes, I am the one that caused all of this. If I did not try and find in Jax, what Hunter and I were lacking, then our relationship would not be where it is now.Jax did make me realize that I cannot hold onto something that is no longer there. I guess, in a way, he is also waiting for me to decide what it is that I want.That is what I thought Hunter was doing. I thought he was waiting for me to decide what I want, but then I saw him with a girl in town the other day. Jax said that it was his girlfriend before he met me. I had the desire to get angry, but then I realize that I was no different, that I was the one that cheated. Not him.So, on urging from Jax, I am sending him
The thought has not left my mind since yesterday that I spoke to Raven.Am I in love with Maddison?It is early morning, and we both are sitting in my office with a cup of warm coffee. As I look over at her, I can see the beauty that her face holds. She might not be Raven, but she is a woman of her own. I loved her deeply once. Do I still love her?Then she catches me staring at her for what seems for a moment too long."What is on your mind, Hunter?""Do you really want to know?""Is it Raven? Did you guys fight again?""No, I am not thinking about Raven; I am thinking about you."I pull her closer to my body that is now trembling, and softly whisper in her ear, "I think I love you.""Hunter.""Ssshhh Maddison. Let me just talk for one minute. I know if loved you once, and I think I never stopped loving. Spending this time with you made me realize that you were always the one. You always choose me, and I was alwa
…Raven POV…It has been three weeks since I last spoke to Hunter.I have been trying to phone him regularly, but he has no desire to talk to me at all.My perfect life is not turning to be so perfect at all. I am still with Jax, and I have quite fond of him. Whether I love him or not is a complete question on its own.There is a mutual friend of Hunter and Jax that has asked us to go to the club tonight. We have reluctantly decided to go.We are busy getting ready; I see as Jax is watching me intently."Raven, you have no idea how that thing is making my blood boil.""What thing?""That thing you call a dress.""I do have something shorter than this.""Fuck Raven."Unexpectedly, he presses his fingers in my thighs and lifts me up, wrapping my legs around his waist. The moan that escapes my throat only fuels the lustful craving hidden in his brown eyes. Our lips crash together; I can taste the