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Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!
Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!
작가: Millie Bridge

Chapter 1

작가: Millie Bridge
I was found by an older man who was fishing early in the morning. When he cast his line, the hook accidentally snagged onto me, and no matter how hard he pulled, it wouldn't come loose.

He got closer and saw me floating in the water. Terrified, he dropped his fishing rod and ran to call the cops.

When the police pulled me out of the water, I was barely breathing. The doctors who treated me didn't think I would survive, and my family didn't even bother signing the consent forms for further treatment. Yet somehow, I clung to life and became a medical miracle.

The moment of impact when I fell was excruciating, but waking up afterward was so much worse. The pain was unbearable; it felt like my body was punishing me for surviving.

Out of the 206 bones in a human body, I had broken 108, some of them shattered into fragments. Every inch of me hurt, and the torment made me wish I hadn't made it.

I couldn't move, nor could I stand anyone touching me. Even when the nurse lightly pressed on the back of my hand to find a vein for the IV, the pain left me drenched in cold sweat. By the time I endured six full IV drips, I was exhausted and desperate for sleep.

Just as I was about to drift off, Irvin Sawyer's assistant walked into my hospital room. He said, "Mrs. Sawyer, Mr. Sawyer has asked me to bring you to apologize to Ms. Lianne. Please get ready so we can leave."

I lay there, unable to move, staring at him in stunned silence. My injured brain struggled to process what I had just heard.

He added impatiently, "Mrs. Sawyer, please hurry up and get ready. Don't make Mr. Sawyer angrier than he already is. Because of you, Ms. Lianne was kidnapped too, and that upset him greatly. You know she's the apple of his eye."

His tone was polite but laced with disdain and irritation. It took me a moment to snap out of it, and then I laughed bitterly. I had married such a wonderful husband.

When the kidnappers stood on the cliff and demanded he choose between us, he didn't hesitate to save Julianne Sinclair, leaving me to die. And now, as I lay here clinging to life, unable to even move my hands, he wanted me to apologize to his "special someone".

With great effort, I opened my mouth. My voice was raspy and hoarse as I replied, "Tell Mr. Sawyer that I won't be apologizing. Instead, I'll gift him to Lianne as my apology. I wish them a long and happy life together—with kids, of course."

I closed my eyes after that, too drained to say another word. My body hurt so much—every injury on me felt like a gaping wound tearing me apart. The only thing I wanted was to fall asleep, as sleep was the only escape from the pain.

Fortunately, the sedatives in my IV kicked in, and I quickly drifted out of consciousness. I didn't know how long I slept, but when I opened my eyes again, they locked onto Irvin's furious gaze.

His already arrogant and cold demeanor turned even more intimidating when he was angry, and the icy air around him sent a chill through me.

"Why didn't you apologize to Lianne?" he asked. "Do you even realize that because of you, she was kidnapped and now has a cold?"

He continued, his tone sharp and accusing. "And how many times do I have to tell you that there's nothing between me and her? Why would you say something so humiliating to her? Can you stop imagining things and assuming the worst about everyone?"

I stared at him, stunned, feeling as if I had never known this man despite what we had been through.

There was a time when a tiny cut on my hand would bring tears to his eyes. Yet now, with my entire body wrapped in bandages like a mummy, he didn't seem to notice. He only cared about Julianne catching a cold.

I said softly, my voice trembling, "Irvin, I'm hurt—badly. I can't even move my hands right now."

I thought that by saying all of that, Irvin would at least spare me a glance or show a trace of guilt for choosing to let me die and causing my injuries. But instead, he let out a cold, mocking laugh.

He said, "Don't act like you're actually hurt. Even if you were, isn't it your own fault?"

I stared at him, speechless, and then a bitter smile spread across my face. Seven years of love, and this was where we ended up.

Maybe my smile looked too self-deprecating because his expression softened for a moment. But almost immediately, irritation and disdain returned to his face. "Emilia Quill, you're getting better at putting on a show."

He gestured at my bandages, sneering. "Look at you—wrapped up like it's the real deal."

Then, he reached out and tugged on one of the bandages. The slightest touch was already unbearable for me, but when he pulled, the pain was so sharp I couldn't even breathe.

Before I could recover, he pressed hard on my arm. He taunted, "What's this? Blood? Looks fresh. Did you pay extra for the good stuff? Emilia, you really love wasting medical resources."

The bones in my arm that had only just been set felt like they were shattering all over again. The pain was so intense it felt like my heart stopped.

In that instant, cold sweat drenched my body, leaving me as though I had just been fished out of water. My face turned ghostly pale, completely drained of color. I tried to open my mouth to beg him to stop, but I was in too much agony to even speak.

Irvin finally noticed my pale face and frowned as if realizing something was wrong. "Emilia—" he started, but before he could say more, his phone rang.

The distinct ringtone made him pause, and without sparing me another glance, he picked up the call.

"Don't worry. I'm on my way!" he said urgently, then rushed out of the room. He didn't even look back.

In his haste, he accidentally yanked out one of the tubes connected to my body. I instantly struggled to breathe, panic seizing me as I gasped for air. I tried desperately to call out to him, to beg him to get a doctor, but no sound would come out.

It felt like an invisible hand was choking me, cutting off my oxygen as darkness crept in. As my vision blurred and my consciousness faded, a bitter thought consumed my mind.

I didn't die at the hands of the kidnappers, nor did I die when I hit the rocks at the bottom of that cliff. But now, I was going to die because of the man I loved most. The man I gave everything to.

For a moment, the pain in my chest was sharper than anything else. It hurt so much that I no longer wanted to love him—or anyone.

Whether heaven pitied me or simply enjoyed torturing me, I survived again. The doctors said I owed my life to the head nurse, who decided to check on me one last time before ending her shift. If she hadn't found me when she did, I wouldn't have made it.

They called me the luckiest patient they had ever seen. I stared at the doctor, unsure how to respond, and simply smiled.

But this time, when I woke up, I felt hollow, like something was missing. It was as if I had forgotten something important, though no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't figure out what—the only thing I couldn't recall was how the tube got pulled out.

The doctor reassured me that it was normal to forget small details after such severe trauma. He told me to focus on healing and not worry about anything else.

I agreed. He was right—recovery was the most important thing. Due to the added injuries, my condition worsened, and I ended up bedridden for over two months before I could move again.

When I finally managed to move, my body was still stiff and weak. I was unbearably thirsty but struggled to reach the water cup on the table. By the time I managed to grab it, drenched in sweat, my hand betrayed me, and the cup fell to the floor, spilling everywhere.

Staring at the puddle of water only made me thirstier. I tried to figure out how to pour another cup when a tall man suddenly burst into the room.
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  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 2

    The man frowned when he saw the shards of glass on the floor, his cold, arrogant demeanor becoming even more intimidating. "Throwing tantrums and breaking things in the hospital? When are you going to grow up?"I stared at him, completely confused. I wondered, "A tantrum? Breaking things? Who's this guy?"He looked like he had more to say but seemed to think better of it. Instead, he scowled and said, "Lianne is refusing to leave the hospital and go home because of your antics."She's upset and talking about leaving. No matter what, you're going to apologize to her today and convince her to stay."He stepped forward and reached out to pull me off the bed. Instinctively, I recoiled from his hand and shouted, "Who are you? I don't know you! Don't touch me!"Although I could move now, my injuries hadn't fully healed, and the thought of someone touching me terrified me.He frowned, clearly annoyed. "Emilia, what are you doing now?""What am I doing? I don't even know who you are! Yo

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 3

    Suddenly finding out I had a husband made it impossible to fall asleep, so I decided to call my best friend, Cordelia Lowell. I hadn't reached out to her for months because I didn't want her to worry about my injuries. Thankfully, she hadn't contacted me either. If she had, she definitely would have found out how badly I was hurt.But the moment the call connected, I couldn't help but feel a little bitter as I said, "Cordelia, you're so mean. I didn't call you, so you decided not to call me either? It's been over two months! Not a single call or even a text. Are you serious?"I expected her to hurriedly explain that she had been somewhere remote, buried in research, with no signal or way to contact me. Instead, there was a long silence on the other end before she finally said, "Emilia, we're not friends anymore. Did you forget we cut ties?"Her words hit me harder than the revelation about my mysterious husband. I was completely stunned. Cordelia was my best friend in the world—

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 4

    I did not sit idly by during the month I spent in rehab. I made sure to conduct a thorough investigation of my relationship with Irvin and Julianne.Irvin and I had married for love—I thought I was marrying for the right reasons. I had poured everything into helping him start his business, even abandoning my studies to become a housewife so I could take better care of him.But all along, he was just using me, pretending to care. The truth was, he was in love with Julianne.After Julianne returned, things became clear. On our wedding anniversary, Irvin took Julianne to see the Northern Lights. On my birthday, he took her to Thogyo to enjoy the romantic spring season. For Valentine's Day, he gave her enough red roses to fill an entire villa and a massive diamond ring. Meanwhile, I received only the free gifts he got when buying her presents.Despite all of this, I didn't want to divorce him. After the pain, I still served him, running around taking care of him, just hoping to keep

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 5

    Immediately, everyone started calling me cold-hearted. Amid their curses, I noticed Julianne's smug and provocative look.Ever since she moved into our house, I had repeatedly fallen victim to her supposed "gentle kindness". She was someone who could be ruthless, even with herself. It reminded me of the time she had framed me by grabbing my hand and forcing me to push her down the stairs. It resulted in her spending over a month in the hospital due to her severe injuries.After I spoke, she gave a pitiful yet sweet smile, and with the knife in her hand, she cut her throat.If it hadn't been for Irvin's quick reflexes kicking in, leading to him grabbing the knife before she could do any real damage, she might have bled out right there. Sometimes, I almost admired her for how far she was willing to go.Despite Irvin's quick actions preventing Julianne from bleeding to death, the knife still left a deep cut. It wasn't life-threatening, but even a small injury was enough to make Irvin

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 6

    Mom was about to say something when my quick agreement stunned her. It seemed that was entirely out of her expectations.Even Dad, who was ready to blow his top, was taken aback.After all, the past me would never have agreed to a divorce even if they threatened to beat me to death.Before they could recover from their shock, I added, "I'm still not fully recovered and don't feel like moving around—I don't think I'll go with you to apologize. Once Irvin drafts the divorce agreement, have his lawyer bring it straight to me."With that, I pulled the covers over my head and lay down.The soaked quilt felt suffocating, and I felt like I was struggling to catch my breath. Still, it was better than facing my parents' impending joy.My parents knew me well enough to realize I wasn't bluffing. Though they were incredulous that I agreed so readily, they understood that I genuinely wanted a divorce.Hence, it didn't take long before their kindness and affection surfaced."You silly child

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   ​​Chapter 7

    Startled, I instinctively took several steps back.I thought he was pretending to be drunk so that he could take advantage of me. But what I didn't expect was for him to be even more dangerous than that!"Honey... I'm back..." He staggered to his feet and lunged at me.With his tall stature and muscular build, I might not survive if he managed to knock me over. Frightened, I ducked to the side.He missed and met with the ground instead, his massive body shaking the floor with a loud thud."Honey…"A pair of doe eyes looked up at me, utterly dejected. He probably couldn't believe I would have avoided him.His expression resembled that of a child whose happiness had been crushed—one who had joyfully run to embrace his most trusted person only to be pushed away.As much as I didn't want to, I felt somewhat sorry for him.I began to understand why I used to be so infatuated with this man, reluctant to let go. His face was precisely my type—charming in a way that tugged at my heart

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 8

    "Emilia, how many times must I tell you? There is nothing between Lianne and me—especially not what you're thinking! Stop using divorce as a threat. Even if you do, I'm not sending her abroad!"I thought it had finally dawned on him that I genuinely wanted this divorce. Who would have known that he would twist my words? Here he was, accusing me of using divorce as leverage again.This inability to communicate with him in a human language was driving me to the brink of despair.Once again, I looked at him with a grave expression and said, "Irvin Sawyer, I'm not being dramatic, nor am I using divorce to threaten you. And I certainly don't intend for you to send Julianne abroad. "I sincerely, wholeheartedly, truly hope you two can be together! If I could cut my heart open and show it to you, you would be able to see just how genuine my blessings are for you two!"Irvin clenched his hands into tight fists at his sides. The veins on the backs of his hands bulged.I once told him I wa

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 9

    "It's nothing, just a small injury." Irvin retracted his hand, putting some distance between Julianne and himself.A hint of coolness flashed across Julianne's eyes, but it disappeared in an instant. When she raised her gaze to meet Irvin's, her usual gentleness and concern were back. "Irvin, you should go get your hand bandaged.""There's no need. I'll take you to Professor Stone."My parents sighed inwardly as they watched Irvin tend to Julianne. For her sake, he didn't hesitate to disregard his own injury.If it hadn't been for that incident, Irvin would have divorced and been with Julianne by now! How perfect would that have been?Alas…Convinced it was all my fault, my parents—Henry Quill and Catherine Bennet— found it even harder to like me, their biological daughter, now.Growing increasingly angry, Mom gave me a call. "Millicent Quill, why did you agree to the divorce so quickly? Is it because you knew Irvin would still struggle to get over the hurdle in his heart?"I w

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  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 235

    I was so shocked that I spilled my drink.When I snapped out of my shock, I realized the figure was Irvin. He had his fist raised and was about to swing it again. Seeing this, I quickly rushed forward and grabbed his arm."What are you doing!" I sternly scolded.Irvin had looked like a raging wild beast. However, he instantly looked aggrieved when he heard me reprimand him."But he was harassing you, babe," he whined in protest.He had hurt me repeatedly, and we were already divorced. So, I didn't understand how he had the gall to still call me "babe" and behave this way.His behaviour irked me.Irvin kept claiming he loved me and was miserable. Yet, he still kept going to such lengths to help Julianne. This made me never want to see him again. And now that I had, I went from feeling like I was floating in heaven to feeling like I had descended into hell.I flung Irvin's hand away as I couldn't be bothered to deal with him. Instead, I strode up to Blondie, who was still on the

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 234

    The guard immediately called for assistance using his radio and instructed them to head to the man's rescue.Seeing this, I stopped worrying about the man I had saved. I hurried back to the villa to shower and change my clothes.As I had been in the water and then stood in the cold wind, Cordelia worried I would catch a cold. Hence, she asked our in-house butler to make a large bowl of stew for me while I was showering.I was about to drink the bowl of hot stew when the head of hotel security knocked on our door. He told us they couldn't find anyone at the spot I had mentioned.The news shocked me. While the man's life was no longer in danger, I was sure he was still unconscious when I left. It was impossible for him to wake up and leave on his own in such a short amount of time.Plus, I had moved him so far up the beach that he was almost at the path leading to the hotel's garden. It was also low tide now, so he definitely wasn't pulled back out to sea. So, how could he have disa

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 233

    I would have immediately ran off to get help if I didn't know how to swim. And if he didn't survive because of this, I wouldn't have it on my conscience as I would know I had tried my best.I definitely wouldn't be standing here hesitating as I struggled with myself.Because I did—I knew how to swim.I had seen a psychologist after I nearly drowned in the pond last time. Thus, I was no longer afraid of the water and could swim again. That being said, I wasn't sure if I could save him. While I had regained the ability to swim, I no longer had the same confidence or stamina.A large wave dragged the man further out to sea while I struggled to make a decision. I realized then that it wouldn't matter if I wanted to save him—I wouldn't be able to if he drifted out any further.Thus, I steeled myself and jumped into the water.I had been lucky enough to be saved every time I was in a life-threatening situation. Because of this, I was eternally grateful that someone had chosen to save m

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 232

    Cordelia obliviously threw her arms around Noah's neck while he was lost in thought."What are you daydreaming about, Noah? It's time to board the plane!" she said.She was eager to hit the beach after reading travel blogs the previous night. However, while others read travel blogs to know where the scenic spots are, the blogs she read were on where to find handsome guys. Hence, her eagerness to hit the beach was fueled by the rumor of Daiti being full of chiseled studs.The flight from Claudeville to Daiti was about ten hours long. We all slept soundly during the long flight, so we weren't tired when we landed.We changed into our beachwear upon arriving at the hotel.Cordelia was about to lead us to the beach when Noah received a call. It seemed something had happened at home, and he had to head back.She was about to say the Lowell household was fine but then realized he was referring to his birth family—the Ashfords. It had to be serious given how he needed to leave right awa

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 231

    Irvin knew doing so would only drive me further away, so he had to wait patiently until I regained my memories. Once I did and remembered my love for him, things would then return to how they should rightfully be.Besides, he believed he deserved to be punished and should suffer every time he recalled the photos of my injuries. So, in the end, his rationality overcame the beast within him."I can't lock her up—doing so would only drive her further away from me. Emi is only being so resolute because she has lost her memories. She'll remember how much she loved me when she regains them. And once that happens, she'll definitely return to my side!" Irvin declared.A lightbulb turned on in Quinton's head when he heard this. The things he hadn't understood suddenly became clear to him."So that's why she's suddenly acting so heartless toward you! It's because she's lost her memories!" Quinton exclaimed. "I was wondering how she could have such a drastic change of heart. He confidently

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 230

    Quinton sneered when he saw the large stack of documents by Irvin's hand."Look at yourself, Irvin. Not only are you allowing your hard-earned money to be spent on another man, but now you're even slaving away to support that man's family! Since when did you become such a benevolent lover!"Irvin didn't say anything as he stared at the photos. However, the pen in his right hand was about to snap from how tightly he was gripping it.He had a rebellious nature, so he had never been submissive or tolerant. However, he no longer had the choice or right to behave that way anymore. Thus, he could only endure until I regained my memories."I know you feel guilty because she had been gravely injured. I'm also aware you're trying to make things up to her because of it, but do you really have to go about it this way? Are you really going to just watch her love another man and be happy with him?"All the money you're earning now is going toward supporting her life with another man. What happ

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 229

    Women always had little self-control when it came to pretty clothes, bags, and jewelry.However, when money wasn't a question, that resistance instantly evaporated because they could buy whatever they wanted.Originally, Cordelia and I had gone out to shop for outfits to wear on our upcoming vacation. But in the end, we got carried away and also bought everything else—various gold and diamond jewelry, hair accessories, and even food and drinks.Our arms were bursting with bags. And although Noah insisted he didn't want anything, we also bought plenty of things for him—especially clothes.Noah was insanely good-looking and naturally blessed with model-like body proportions. He looked so good in everything he tried on that we couldn't help having it all wrapped up.Just as we were about to give in and make more purchases for him, we heard someone yelling."Emilia, you bitch! How dare you spoil your boy toy with Irvin's money!"It was Simone. She was marching toward me, but my body

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 228

    Leaning back in my seat, I smiled and replied, "Nope."I had finally gotten out of one fire pit, so I definitely didn't want to jump back into another. In fact, I hadn't thought about dating at all.Noah smiled and was about to say something. But then, I quickly added, "But there's no harm in having a little fun."Just because I didn't want to get into another relationship didn't mean I couldn't fool around with handsome men. Life was hard, so I might as well enjoy what it had to offer whenever there was a chance. Besides, what woman didn't like to check out good-looking men?The car came to a stop before Noah could think of a response. As I stepped outside, I received a call from the lab.Although I hadn't officially started grad school yet, I was already logging hours in the lab by helping out wherever I could. I would only start school in the spring of next year, so I had to wait until then before I could officially participate in the lab's research.I walked as I talked on th

  • Love You Like I Used To? Forget It!   Chapter 227

    Cordelia heard about Julianne's death after she returned from vacation. She also learned I was in denial about it.Because of this, she told me that while love and hate were completely opposite emotions, they actually weren't very different.Loving someone too much would lead one to do anything to ensure the person was happy. Then, if the person suddenly passed away, it would feel unbearable. One would feel the person shouldn't and couldn't have died just like that.On the other hand, hating someone too much would have one doing everything to make the person suffer. And if they abruptly died, one would lose the target of your vengefulness. Similarly, one would also be in disbelief over their death.Cordelia claims this was the reason I felt Julianne wasn't dead.I was at a loss for words.What she said made some sense. However, my hatred toward Julianne hadn't reached the point where it was all-consuming. I just…"Oh, come on! Stop thinking about her!" Cordelia exclaimed, interr

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