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77. The overflow of emotions was getting arise
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Clarissa was annoyed by what she heard from Nena. All this time he was very sure that Adimasta was a loyal and honest guy. He was a trustworthy man. Because of that Clarissa no longer held back her heart to fall in love with Adimasta.
That night, everything unfolded in front of her. Adimasta was not different from any other guy. Clarissa wouldn't be able to be by his side if he was playing another heart. Behind her, Adimasta had a secret that he shouldn't be allowed to do. If they loved each other, he wouldn't play with Clarissa's feelings.
Clarissa didn't want to be a weak and stupid woman like her mother. If Adimasta really couldn't keep his heart for Clarissa, it was better to just end it all. She was fine without Adimasta before, if she had to let him go, she would be fine too.
"It’s enough, it is. I don't want to be the next victim. Mom and Dad are now happy with their respective partners, but I know how painful it was when love was ruined by distrust
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