IVAN'S POV
As I am laying on the floor, I'm not sure how I got here or what the fuck is going on. I'm not sure what room I'm in. It doesn't look familiar at all. My head is pounding I go to touch my neck, fuck as I touch it I feel pain. Then a smell begins to overpower my nostrils and almost makes me weak in my knees. I go to look up, and that's when I see the most beautiful she-wolf that I have ever seen in my entire life.
She looks so beautiful with her green eyes and her long brown hair as she is looking at me. I see instant fear, not sure why she is so afraid of me. I look down at her body, loving her naked body. As I let a growl out, making sure it's known that she is mine. Not liking that her body is exposed, I want to cover her, but I can see that she fears me and I want to avoid frightening her more than what she already is.
She is so beautiful, but why is she so fucking against me, I have never met another she-wolf that wasn't head over heals for me. Go
LILLY'S POVI don't know what to think, as I'm waiting for him to barge into the bathroom. He never comes. I turn the water on. I let it warm as I feel the heat of the water on my hand, it feels so good. I step into the shower, I let the hot water pour over my body. I am shocked how satisfying it feels. As I look down, I see the water turn brown as it is cleaning all the dirt off my body.As I reach for the soap, it smells of coconut, loving the smell it is incredible. As I fill my hands with soap and rub it all over my body, god, how good it is making me feel. I haven't been this relaxed in a long time, and I don't want to get out of the shower. I could stay in here forever, loving the feeling. Of the heat on my body.I then hear a door close. It makes me jump, thinking that he is coming in here. I open the shower curtain as my hands are shaking. I am trying to control my shaking hands, but I can't. Fuck I hate how I react to him, he frightens me so
I hear Landon talking, but I don't understand the words as I watch his lips move but not understanding the words, I watch as He reaches his arm out to me to comfort me. I then move backwards, not wanting any of his comfort. I'm shocked, wondering if he was involved in everything that has taken place.I don't speak to him, I turn around, and I run, I don't shift, I just run as myself. Tears flowed down my eyes, realizing all that had happened was a test. To figure out, I was a healer. I'm so uncertain about everything. I want answers, but I feel betrayed. I, no what I wanted in the beginning, wanting to find out who I was, but knowing now what it all cost just wasn't worth any of it.It seems like I'm losing small pieces of myself as time goes on. I'm scared that eventually I'm just going to disappear and hate who I become. I don't look back, I just continue to run faster and faster. I need to get away from all of this. I have been held here for too long, it's time to g
LANDON'S POVAs I watch Lilly walk away, I feel sorry for all that I have done to her. Even though I know it is exactly what she wanted. I wonder, though, would she still want it if she knew what it all cost?I snap out of my thoughts when I hear Jayden yelling at me. "Daddy I don't know why you gotta be so mean to Lilly. All you do is make her cry.""Jayden, I'm sorry, all I wanted was to protect you.""Daddy, I don't need your protection. I can take care of myself. I'm a big boy now. I'm 5 years old.""Jayden, it's just too complicated for you to understand.""Daddy only because you make it that way.""Jayden, I think it's time for you to go to bed.""Daddy I wish you would just listen to me for once and not treat me like a baby."I watch as he stomps away. I want to chase him, but I know that it will do nothing. He is so hard-headed, just like his mother, always wanting to help others no matter the cost. He is too you
It has been a couple of days that I have found out the truth about everything that has happened. I haven't talked to Landon. I have been trying to avoid him as much as possible, not wanting to talk to him just yet. I understand why he did what he did, but I almost feel like he caused all that happened. Even though he wasn't the one that did it physically.What surprises me even more is that Ivan has been gone since that night he left while I was in the shower. He hasn't been back since. I'm not sure where we stand or what is going to happen between the two of us. I'm afraid that I will not be able to look at him the way a mate should look at their mate. I mean sometimes I even get scared just thinking about being with him with all the pain he caused.I want to be happy with my mate, but I'm just not sure if that is really in the cards for me. How can I be happy with someone who has caused me so much suffering in the past? I don't know how I feel about anything. M
IVAN'S POVI can't stay here. I need to get out of here, the smell of my mate's blood is overwhelming me. I couldn't have hurt her. She has to be lying. I am not a monster or am I did I torture my mate. Why can't I remember what the fuck has happened? I need to get out of here. My head is full of confusion.I then began to think, what have I done to my mate. I'm so confused and uncertain about what has taken place. I don't remember ever even meeting her. But when I looked into her eyes, all I could see was her fear of me. I need to get out of here, I can't face her right now. I need to figure all this out. So, I decide not to tell her anything and leave while she is in the shower. I try to be quiet as I open the door and walk out of the bedroom.I shift into my wolf once I get outside. I feel so much anger and pain, but I am uncertain why I even feel this way. I try to remember anything, but it's like I can't think. My mind is like a fog. Nothing is really
LILLY'S POVThere is so much to figure out why would I ever want to be alone with him? I can see the compassion in his eyes, but I don't care. I want to avoid being anywhere near him. Of course, I'm afraid to say the wrong thing, but I need to stop being afraid. I am strong, I know I am, I have to be for all that I have been through. I just wish that I felt that strength and maybe If I did I would be able to stand up and say what I really want to say.I stay silent, not being able to speak, wondering why can't I Force the words out of my mouth. As he takes a step towards me, I take a step backwards, not wanting to be close to him. I can feel the mate bond making me want to be close to him, but I fight it. Even though I know that he is mine, I don't want him. There is nothing he can do to make me forgive all the wrong things that he has done to me.I watch as he goes to speak to me, “Lilly, there's a lot that I am sorry for, but there are things that are mo
I hear a knock at the door, I get up, not very enthused. I do not want to go and have dinner with him. I force myself to open the door, knowing That This has to happen, we need to figure out what is coming and how we can protect our pack. He looks at me and smiles. "Hello Lilly, you look beautiful. Are you ready?"I roll my eyes at him and I don't speak. I walk out the door and try not to touch any part of his body. But there isn't enough space as my stomach rubs against his waist, I instantly become wet In between my legs letting out a soft moan not meaning to or even realizing it. I then become embarrassed, hoping that he did not notice or hear me. But when I look up at him, I see the big smile on his face and I know he heard. I begin to blush, not being able to help it. I then bite my bottom lip, trying to control my body from wanting to rip his fucking clothes off his body."The car is downstairs, Lilly, it is waiting for us. I hope you don't mind going out for din
Fuck, what the fuck is wrong with me? I can't believe myself. There I go once again, I get all heated, and I forget everything. I scoot over to get out of the car. He reaches his hand out to help me, but I ignore him, not choosing to feel his touch. I Then feel the heat from his hand touching the middle of my back. The feeling of lust begins to take over.I try to control myself as much as I can, feel my panties becoming wet. Not wanting him to know how I'm reacting to him. When we approach the hostess, she becomes nervous as her speech stutters, “Alpha, wow, it is so nice to see you. I hope you're having a pleasant evening.”“Yes, I am thank you, I have reservations.”As I watch, her put her hand on his chest, and she begins to flirt with him, taking her finger and rubbing it down his chest. As she begins to speak, “Alpha, there is no need for you to make reservations. You can come in anytime and I will find you the best table.&rdq