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2024-10-29 19:42:56It has been a couple of days that I have found out the truth about everything that has happened. I haven't talked to Landon. I have been trying to avoid him as much as possible, not wanting to talk to him just yet. I understand why he did what he did, but I almost feel like he caused all that happened. Even though he wasn't the one that did it physically.
What surprises me even more is that Ivan has been gone since that night he left while I was in the shower. He hasn't been back since. I'm not sure where we stand or what is going to happen between the two of us. I'm afraid that I will not be able to look at him the way a mate should look at their mate. I mean sometimes I even get scared just thinking about being with him with all the pain he caused.
I want to be happy with my mate, but I'm just not sure if that is really in the cards for me. How can I be happy with someone who has caused me so much suffering in the past? I don't know how I feel about anything. M
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IVAN'S POVI can't stay here. I need to get out of here, the smell of my mate's blood is overwhelming me. I couldn't have hurt her. She has to be lying. I am not a monster or am I did I torture my mate. Why can't I remember what the fuck has happened? I need to get out of here. My head is full of confusion.I then began to think, what have I done to my mate. I'm so confused and uncertain about what has taken place. I don't remember ever even meeting her. But when I looked into her eyes, all I could see was her fear of me. I need to get out of here, I can't face her right now. I need to figure all this out. So, I decide not to tell her anything and leave while she is in the shower. I try to be quiet as I open the door and walk out of the bedroom.I shift into my wolf once I get outside. I feel so much anger and pain, but I am uncertain why I even feel this way. I try to remember anything, but it's like I can't think. My mind is like a fog. Nothing is really
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LILLY'S POVThere is so much to figure out why would I ever want to be alone with him? I can see the compassion in his eyes, but I don't care. I want to avoid being anywhere near him. Of course, I'm afraid to say the wrong thing, but I need to stop being afraid. I am strong, I know I am, I have to be for all that I have been through. I just wish that I felt that strength and maybe If I did I would be able to stand up and say what I really want to say.I stay silent, not being able to speak, wondering why can't I Force the words out of my mouth. As he takes a step towards me, I take a step backwards, not wanting to be close to him. I can feel the mate bond making me want to be close to him, but I fight it. Even though I know that he is mine, I don't want him. There is nothing he can do to make me forgive all the wrong things that he has done to me.I watch as he goes to speak to me, “Lilly, there's a lot that I am sorry for, but there are things that are mo
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I hear a knock at the door, I get up, not very enthused. I do not want to go and have dinner with him. I force myself to open the door, knowing That This has to happen, we need to figure out what is coming and how we can protect our pack. He looks at me and smiles. "Hello Lilly, you look beautiful. Are you ready?"I roll my eyes at him and I don't speak. I walk out the door and try not to touch any part of his body. But there isn't enough space as my stomach rubs against his waist, I instantly become wet In between my legs letting out a soft moan not meaning to or even realizing it. I then become embarrassed, hoping that he did not notice or hear me. But when I look up at him, I see the big smile on his face and I know he heard. I begin to blush, not being able to help it. I then bite my bottom lip, trying to control my body from wanting to rip his fucking clothes off his body."The car is downstairs, Lilly, it is waiting for us. I hope you don't mind going out for din
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Fuck, what the fuck is wrong with me? I can't believe myself. There I go once again, I get all heated, and I forget everything. I scoot over to get out of the car. He reaches his hand out to help me, but I ignore him, not choosing to feel his touch. I Then feel the heat from his hand touching the middle of my back. The feeling of lust begins to take over.I try to control myself as much as I can, feel my panties becoming wet. Not wanting him to know how I'm reacting to him. When we approach the hostess, she becomes nervous as her speech stutters, “Alpha, wow, it is so nice to see you. I hope you're having a pleasant evening.”“Yes, I am thank you, I have reservations.”As I watch, her put her hand on his chest, and she begins to flirt with him, taking her finger and rubbing it down his chest. As she begins to speak, “Alpha, there is no need for you to make reservations. You can come in anytime and I will find you the best table.&rdq
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Is it really possible that the Ivan that I know really isn't him. Could Ivan really be a gentle soul, even a father someday. I can feel my heart start to sofe for him when i realize what is happening I then shake my head and tell myself Lilly this is the bond talking you need to stop.I need to stay strong and not let this bond try to take me over. He is at an advantage here because my feelings are being forced because of what I did by marking him. Even thought when I look into his beautiful blue eyes Not knowing how they changed colors because when we first met they were gray. I don't see any kind of hatred like I did before all I see is compassion and love.I become so unsure of myself looking out the window only seeing darkness isn't helping me figure anything out. It is just making me think more and more. I just want to stop thinking I'm so tired. As I look over at Ivan I see that he is also looking out the window. I then begin to wonder what he is thinking a
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Why would Dean do this? They killed so many innocents for what? None of this makes any sense. I'm not sure what to do. Should I fight and rescue Landon or go find Jayden and take him away from here? I then hear Landon mind link me “Lilly Jayden is in the master guest room underneath the bed there is a hole in the floor for hiding, please get him and run as fast as you can away from here.”I turn around to look for the steps to go upstairs. I am unsure where the steps are. I have never been in his house, only outside the door. Why didn't I think of mind linking him? I find the staircase. I creep up with every noise that comes from the steps. It makes me nervous, not wanting to get caught.I then hear a loud scream and pain radiates all over my body, as I fall to the ground. I am struggling to contain myself, realizing the pain that I was feeling wasn't from Jayden, it was from Landon. I am relieved that Jayden has not been suffering. I try to make it to my f
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I know that I can't run, there is nowhere to run. I need to stay and fight. As much as I hate all that has happened to me, I know this is where I belong and Landon is my Alpha and I need to save him. I go to open the bookcase door, I then look back at Jayden and smile, “I'll be right back, I love you.”Even though he is upset with me, a smile appears on his face, “I love you too, Lilly.”I open the bookcase as quietly as possible. Knowing that I cannot be heard, the consequences could be awful. It is so dark it's hard to see. Then all of a sudden, I can see a golden glow, shocked when I realize it's coming from me. My eyes are glowing. Once blinded by the dark, but now I can see everything. I can still feel discomfort from Landon, but they must be letting him rest to heal a little. Before they begin to torture him even more.I'm confused about how I can feel his pain. I don't understand, but I don't have time to try to figure that out rig
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I am uncertain about what to do, I have never battled so many at once. But I will not show any kind of weakness. Even though my alpha did not protect me, I will protect him at any cost. I refuse to lose anybody else I care about. I was always taught that you protect those that you love no matter the cost, even if it leads to your death, and that is what I'm going to do.I shift into my wolf and go for the kill, not taking mercy on any wolf that comes into my direction. I can't show even a smudge of weakness to where I can be taken down. As I rip through the flesh of many, the metallic taste is remarkable. It makes my wolf lick our lips in delight as the blood drips from my mouth.All of a sudden, I see the same golden light that I saw when my eyes glowed. I get thrown off track, wondering why Jayden came out of hiding. My wolf then gets pushed up against the wall by multiple wolves, they are holding me there. I then become terrified, hating that no matter what I
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As we make our way to the door to the podium, Mary stops us. I look at her with so much anger and disappointment, I tell her, “please let us go. I want to avoid hurting you, but I will do whatever is necessary to protect us.”“They threatened to kill all of us. I thought one life for hundreds would be acceptable. I'm so sorry.”“You tied him up to a bed.”“He wouldn't stop trying to escape. I had no other choice.”“That's the thing, Mary, you had a choice, but you made the wrong one.”I want to rip her head off, but before I have time to, I feel a little hand tugging on my side. “Lilly, I know grandma made a mistake, but she's not bad, she just made a bad choice.”He's so innocent. I feel so bad knowing what is going to have to be done, and he's so little. Can he bear it? Will he forgive me for what I'm going to have to do? I don't want to take the chance of us being captured. It's time to kill them all.“Jayden, some things are unforgiven when you do something so terrible.”“Lilly, j
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I stand there in disbelief. No, this can't be right, he looks nothing like. Sam, how can it be him? Star said it was our mate. I thought me not feeling for him was because of the hate that is deep inside me for him. I thought it overpowered the bond and turned it into nothing. But I was wrong, I felt nothing because this is not my mate. How could I be so stupid?“Sam, what is going on? Why do you look like Ivan?”“Oh Lilly, how easy you are to fool. You're just like your mate.”I watch as he peels his face. It is so disgusting as He removes the skin piece by piece, I then begin to recognize that this is really Sam. Another person who has betrayed me, I know that I shouldn't be surprised, but I am. There's not a person who has not lied to me. It makes me angry and sad all at the same time.“Why would you do this, Sam? I thought you cared about me. I thought we were friends."?“Lilly, it's nothing personal, it's for power. They promised me to be the alpha of the wicked falls pack I've
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I get out of their grip and stumble to my feet. I grab a hold of them and throw them to the ground like they weigh nothing. As my hand gets tighter around their throat, I can hear them gasp. Questioning if I should even give them a breath to speak.I then ask, “who are you and what do you want?” As I slowly release their throat enough for them to speak.“Please don't hurt me. I'm only doing my job. I didn't realize who you were until I already grabbed you.”“Who are you?”“I'm one of the watch Warriors of the pack, my name is Tye.”“There has been so much activity in the past couple of days that I didn't think I'm sorry. I didn't want to take a chance to endanger the pack.”“What do you mean increased activity, why wasn't I informed?”“There have been wolves trying to come into the pack. We are not sure why some seem harmless, but others seem dangerous. With all that has happened, we have not been allowing newcomers to join.”As I listen to him, I become irritated. I am the alpha. I s
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He pushes me inside his grip, making me feel uneasy. Everyone's staring, wondering what my move will be, but I do nothing. I let him push me to the bedroom, not knowing what he's about to say. I'm nervous. It has been almost a month since I have seen him last. I watch, I'm waiting to see his lips move, wanting to hear what he has to say. “Lilly, I have looked everywhere for him. I can't find him. He is gone.” I watch as he falls to his knees crying in despair, my heartbreaking for him. And my body builds up with anger, knowing that his mother is making him feel this way. I ran over to him and let him sob in my arms. Not knowing what to say, I know that I can't tell him what I know. If he found out that his mother had been behind all this, I'm not sure what he would do. “Landon, I'm so sorry that all this had to happen to you. I wish I could take away all your pain.” I feel bad for Landon, but I will not jeopardize saving Jayden just to make him fe
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My senses have improved dramatically, but something else that I have noticed is my anger. I feel my blood boiling inside me. Trying so hard to control it, I don't want to blow my cover. I don't want Mary to know what I know. If she gets any idea that I am up to something, my plan could go very wrong. So wrong that I actually might kill her.She thinks the first move should be me naming my mate as my 2nd in command. Usually, packs have male alpha's and the females are their Luna. In this case, it's very much different, since the female is the alpha. I want to avoid making it official with Ivan. I don't love him. I'm aware that I should since he is my mate, and I'm met to be with him, but I feel nothing.I was always told once you find your mate that the bond is unbreakable. But the bond that I have is nothing. When I look at him, all
