It was nearing one am. The town was soundless and vacant, not a soul to be seen. It was silent enough for crickets to be heard. Oddly enough, I liked the quiet of it all. Taking a shortcut through an alley, I pulled my hood over my head. My hands were stuffed in my hoodie's pockets. The chilly breeze pricked my skin, making the tip of my nose feel numb.
I halted in my tracks. Further down the alley, near some trashcans, I noticed the silhouette of a figure. The street lights caused their shadow to tower over me on the bricks walls.
I sighed deeply as I walked over, stopping in front of Phil.
He was tall and lanky with a boy-band-singer vibe to his look. Soft doe eyes, brown hair parted in the middle - very 90's Leonardo DiCaprio of him. His looks were deceiving. Phil was reckless with a short temper, careless to the bone and someone whose bad side you did not want to meet.
His lip tugged upwards in a sickly-sweet smirk. His eyes were filled with sin and sorrow - sorrow that you would feel, not him. "Don't you know it's not safe for a tiny woman like you to be roaming the street alone at this hour?"
I stared at him dully. "It warms me when you're concerned, Phil."
Phil laughed a dry, taunting-sounding laugh. Could it have been a forced laugh? "If only I had an ounce of decency in my bones to spare being concerned."
He spoke the word as if it were poison on his tongue - concern? He had never heard of such a thing. What a bizarre thought, to waste so much mental energy actually caring for anything.
I licked my lips that were starting to feel chapped from the wind. "Just because Cole died does not mean I am required to finish his business. Whatever his duties, those were on him. Not me. I did not sign up for any of this."
Phil laughed deeply, genuinely finding humour in my words. "Really? Think again, sweetheart. It does lie on your shoulders."
For the briefest moment, less than a split second, I could almost see Phil's eyes soften. As if he weren't believing his own words.
"Too bad he died, leaving you hear to finish his dirty-work."
I glanced behind Phil to see two more familiar faces coming out of the shadows.
What a way to be dramatic.
"Derrick Smith and Henry Billard." I couldn't help laughing. "I can't say I'm surprised. Phil can't go anywhere without his little side-kicks. You're like the mean girl in every teen rom-com."
Phil stared down at me with dark and icy eyes. He wasn't laughing anymore. "Watch your tongue." His words spit out like fire.
I shook my head slowly. "You used to be the most loyal person I knew."
Phil's eyebrows raised. "And what was it you used to be into- baking? Song writing, was it?" He snorted, clicking his tongue as if mocking me.
In my pockets, my fists balled up. Mentally, I was throwing acid in each their faces. I exhaled sharply through my nose.
Calm. I will remain calm. Don't poke the dragon.
The street lights behind us at either ends of the alley were the only thing giving us a faint look at each others faces. All their faces were twisted with sinister barbarism, you could see the glint of pure evil in their eyes.
They were soulless.
Behind us, the sound of a can hitting the ground sounded. We all turned towards the main street but there was no one in sight.
It must've just been the wind.
Henry took a step forward. "Our little arrangement with Cole was actually quite a big deal. You don't want to contravene and end up like him, do you?"
The muscles in my jaw jerked. The pit of my stomach was boiling with rage that was dangerously proliferating. "I can give you what I have on hand but that's it. I'm leaving town."
Phil exhaled deeply, annoyance flashing through his eyes. He nodded curtly as he held out a hand. "Hand it over, sweetheart."
Gritting my teeth, I pulled out three cards from the back pocket of my black jeans. "These are hard to retrieve, for the record."
Phil only snickered as he snatched the credit cards out of my hand. "All the more fun using them, knowing what a difficult grab they were for you."
I took a small step backwards.
"Nu-uh." Derrick quirked an eyebrow at me, his eyes challenging as if he were daring me to leave. His lips twisted in a bemused smirk. "Are you forgetting something?"
If I had continued to clench my jaw any harder, I was afraid my whole face could split in half. I pulled a small plastic baggie out of my pocket, throwing at Derrick who had caught it with the utmost ease. "I don't owe you guys jack shit."
They weren't paying me for my services - for the stolen cards or the weed. This was only making my own financial burdens more worrisome.
In their sick and twisted minds, I owed them, they owned me - to some extent at least. I wasn't easily scared but this was not the type of crowd even I was stupid enough to say no to.
Derrick held the bag up, analyzing the weed. He looked back to me, quirking an eyebrow. "Then why are you doing everything we say?"
I bit down on my tongue to stop myself from saying anything.
Oh how I wished I could wipe the cocky, menacing look off his face. The brick wall only made me more tempted- ramming his head into the bricks, watching his eyes bleed-
Breathe.
The amusement that flashed in their eyes, the twisted smirks and mocking tones - they knew they were riling me up, they were trying to and it was working. To them, this was nothing but entertainment. They didn't need me for a little weed or pilfered credit cards. They were just sadistic and finding hilarity in this.
Like dogs digging for bones.
In this case, they were digging up ways to bring me unnecessary misery.
Derrick took some steps towards me. I stayed frozen in spot. I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of watching me shrink under his perverse gaze. "You're scared of us, aren't you? You can't say no even though you want to. You have no power and you hate it."
My lips pressed into a straight line as I glared up at him. He was only inches away from me, a tactic to make me feel intimidated.
Derrick cocked his head to the side. He brought his hand up, sliding one finger across my jawline. "We could have so much more fun with this, if only you were less uptight." His voice was low, his breath smelling like cigarettes and fanning my face.
My blood ran cold.
As if my entire vision had turned red, I grabbed his wrist, twisting it backwards. "Keep your hands off me." My heart was racing. I thought I might pass out.
Derrick winced before his eyes turned black, deathly black. He snatched his hand back before his other hand wrapped around my throat. "You might be a hot piece of ass but try that again and I swear I will ki-"
"Stop!" Henry stepped forward and pulled Derrick away from me. I started sputtering coughs when his hands finally let go of my throat. My hands immediately reached up to my throat that was surely going to bruise.
Derrick looked like he were fuming, practically blowing steam out of his nose. He shoved Henry off himself, taking a few steps away from me as if forcing himself to stay restrained.
Henry stared at me, his face straight but eyes filled with upheaval. "Control yourself. We will hurt you. You know that."
Momentarily, I glanced at Phil. He stood his ground and remained silent but the tiniest shred of guilt flashed in his eyes-for the briefest moment that I almost wouldn't have caught it. It wasn't because he actually cared. It was because we had history. He had changed from the guy I once knew and adored-that was where the guilt rooted from.
It wasn't enough for him to do or say anything.
Once upon a time, Phil and I were close both physically and emotionally. We leaned on each other, we kept each other grounded. We had equal amounts of stress, grief, and trauma that we shared with only each other.
Things changed.
He chose Derrick over me- which did shatter me. He went off with Derrick, I grieved the loss of just about the only person I had, even though he wasn't dead but he may as well be.
With time, I got over it.
I always knew I couldn't rely on anyone other than myself, that at the end of the day, the only person I would have left was myself and that needed to be enough - Phil was a monumental example of that.
I looked up at Henry, scoffing. "Do it. Hurt me, you bastard. Does it look like I give a shit? If you haven't realized, you took everything from me."
Henry jaw tensed. He took a step towards me, bringing a finger under my chin and raising my head. "You've got quite the tongue on you."
My skin felt like it was on fire, despite the cold breeze outside. I was a time bomb, one whose timer just hit zero. I shoved Henry away from me. "Don't fucking touch me."
My fists were practically trembling, my vision blurring from the rage that I was no longer able to control. I was losing my shit. I couldn't see anything but red.
I wanted them all dead.
If I could achieve that, even if it meant that I would end up a corpse myself, it would be worth it.
Derrick crossed his arms over his chest, a twisted smirk resting on his face once again. Oh, he thought this was amusing? I wonder how entertaining he would find it once I had my hands wrapped around his throat.
Henry's eyes glinted with challenge. He wasn't mad that I had just pushed him, he was entertained. He laughed sickeningly. He shoved me right back, watching as I fell to the pavement from the force. "Like I said, we are not afraid to hurt you."
"Derric-" Phil started to speak but Derek was quick to cut him off.
He snapped his ice-cold gaze towards Phil, his eyebrows raising. "You got any protests?"
Phil snapped his mouth shut and shook his head, averting his gaze to the ground.
Derrick was the big-guns, the alpha if you will. Nobody could try to stop Derrick, nobody could speak against Derrick. Phil obviously didn't have the guts to. He had chosen his fate and one day, that would leave him with an open casket waiting.
Derrick knew that Phil and I had history, that we were once close. Derrick also knew that now, Phil's loyalty was to him. Whenever it was time for Derrick to deal with me, he would bring Phil along to witness because he knew there was still a part of both of us that would find it torturous.
He was sick and sadistic and twisted in a way that was repulsive.
I knew my share of bad people-of sociopathic, soulless monsters but nobody compared to Derrick. Derrick could be the Dark Lord himself.
I pushed myself off the ground, cracking my knuckles. I was going to stand my ground. These morose bastards were not going to make me shrink.
What did I have to lose anyways?
"Back the hell off, Henry. You don't call the shots. I'm not scared of you."
Henry laughed. He quirked an eyebrow, glancing over his shoulder at Derrick. "Well, Derrick, what do you think of that?"
Derrick's eyes glazed over my body from head to toe, his smirk dancing on his lips. "I think it's very cute but no can do, sweetheart."
Henry, taking this as his go-ahead, shoved me back into the brick wall. He dug his forearm into my throat causing me to wheeze as I tried to get air into my lungs.
"I can fight too, son of a bitch." The words came out in a choke. My heart was racing with rage, my teeth gritting to the point I thought they were shredding off. I ducked my chin as far down at I could, biting his arm. When his hold on my loosened, I shoved him off of me and quickly inhaled.
Henry grunted as he met my eyes again. His eyes fogged, all the underlying amusement quickly turning very sour. Henry pulled a gun from his back that was tucked in the waistband of his pants. "Fun's over now, bitch."
I stared down the barrel of the gun, the oxygen from my lungs suddenly disappearing.
I wasn't necessarily afraid of dying but there was no way in hell this was how I was going to die. Not from the hands of this bastard.
"Henry, come on man jus-" Phil started protesting, shaking his head slowly. He stepped forwards but derrick stretched an arm out and stopped him from coming any closer.
I met Henry's gaze. He was heaving with anger. "You don't scare me," I snarled out, practically spitting the words.
If I acted fast enough, I would be able to knock the gun out his hands. He was just standing too far. If he were even a foot closer, I'd be able to. With the current distance, he would pull the trigger before I had the chance to get close enough.
"Sorry, sweetheart." Derrick exhaled a dramatic sigh, shrugging with nonchalance. "Frankly, your attitude and desire to pick fights is getting a little old." Derrick's eyes were nearly bored, as if he couldn't wait for this show to be over with.
My eyes darted towards Phil. I knew he didn't care but if I had to choose which of their three faces would be the last one I ever saw, Phil seemed like the less worse choice.
He was frozen in spot, staring at the gun in Henry's hand. He preferred his life over mine, hence why he didn't move a muscle. He knew this is how people like us were bound to die one day.
I knew it too.
Henry let out a hoarse laugh. "Looks like you'll be seeing Cole sooner than you anticipated. Any last words?"
I shut my eyes, inhaling deeply.
Granted, I could have enjoyed one more chocolate milkshake but at least I was right. There was absolutely no reason for me to still be breathing. I could only wonder why the world decided to keep me thus far.
In the quiet of the night, I heard him pull the slide back. I held my breath. My palms were more sweaty that I anticipated.
I could fight this.
No, I can't.
It's two against one, considering Phil would stay frozen in spot. If I moved, the trigger would be pulled before I had a chance to touch either him or Derrick.
I heard the gun cock.
Then, I'm on the ground.
I'm on the ground.I fell back, my head hitting the brick wall. I grunted in pain; my skull felt like it was about to shatter.Slowly, my eyes flickered open. My arm that I had fallen onto was throbbing in pain but I was confused. My body wasn't raging with pain, not the type of pain a bullet would surely feel like.I pushed myself so I was sitting up.A tall, broad and muscular figure shoved Henry back. Derrick charged towards the figure but stopped. The man was swift and quick to pull out a gun of his own, pointing it at Derrick. Everyone froze.Keeping his gun pointed at Derrick, he bent down to grab Henry's gun that was now lying on the cement.I squinted my eyes in the darkness, trying to grasp who this person was. My vision started to spot with black dots, the world starting to spin.I blacked out.-When I opened my eyes again, my head was pounding. My brain felt like it was hemorrhaging and on the verge of exploding completely. Clutching my head, I sat up and tried to make sen
When I woke the next morning, my entire body felt achy and sore. My head throbbed lightly. The sun seeping through the blinds made my eye sockets hurt.I didn't want to get out of the large bed that was far more comfortable than the motel bed I was used to. When I checked the time, it was nearing 12 in the afternoon. Considering I was in someone else's home, it would be rude of me to sleep in any further than I already had.If I was back in my motel room, I would sleep in until at least 5pm. I really didn't have much else to do. And the extra sleep was probably needed.When I went to the bathroom, I almost winced at the sight of myself. My hair was a tangled birds nest, my eye bags were heavy and darker than normal. My skin looked pale and flush. Essentially, I looked like a walking corpse with a blue bandaid on the side of my forehead.I tried to tame as much of my hair as I could before washing my face and helping myself to the mouthwash sitting on the counter. I navigated my way th
"Excuse me-ma'am." A knocking sounded on the motel room door. "Anyone in there?"I froze. My eyes were trained on the pillow that was sitting on top of my come. The knocking continued."Miss, there's a package here for you."This could be a trap.The knocking continued for a few more seconds before the young man muttered something I couldn't here. He grunted. "It's by the door. If someone takes it, it's not my fault."I heard his footsteps grow distant. I waited a few minutes to make sure he was gone before finally exhaling and walking to the door. I grabbed the box, quickly, shutting and locking the door behind me.I brought the box over to the bed, setting it down. I debated whether to open it for what felt like an hour. When my head started opening, I ripped the box open. Curiosity had gotten the best of me.What the hell?Inside the box was a watch and glasses. I took the folded piece of paper that sat on top.Small town, one local motel. It was too easy to find you, princess. You
DEAN'S POV"This new girl-are you two friends?" Ben watched me curiously as he slid a smoothie towards me.Ben and his wife were the closest thing I had to parents. I had known them since I was a little boy. They always treated me like I was one of there own- especially after the death of my mother. My father grew distant after that, until he remarried and left anyways.I slowly sipped on my smoothie. "I don't know. I doubt she would consider us friends." I laughed at the thought of Elettra calling me a friend. I could already imagine the look on her face-she would look repulsed.Ben paused thoughtfully. "She's a nice young lady, Dean. I quite like her."I couldn't help laughing. Of course the side of herself that she showed Ben was the polite, cordial side- the one that wasn't really her. She could be nice if she wanted to. It didn't seem like she wanted to very often, not with me at least."Yeah," I murmured, grinning faintly. "She's-something."Something-that she was. She was stron
I sat on a park bench, waiting for Dex. This was the instruction that Sylas had added at the end of his note.I wasn't scared.I felt like I should be considering he was-apparently-a big drug lord, Mafia boss, whatever you want to call him.But I wasn't afraid. The lack of fear almost made me feel like I must be psychotic, sociopathic, something.From the corner of my eye, I saw a man walking in my direction. Subtly, I pressed the button on the side of the watch to start the recording. I didn't know what this was for but it wasn't my spot to ask questions. I was just fulfilling the favour I owed.Surely Sylas wouldn't send me to walk right into my own coffin.I'm not sure how much I would care if he did.A very tall, broad shouldered and muscular man approached me. I could see tattoos around his neck and running past the sleeve of his jacket, onto the back of his hand. He was sleek, an aura of paramountcy around him. His eyes were chartreuse green; bright and glistening as the sunligh
"What happened to leaving?"I turned around in surprise. Dean had caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting to see him at one of the local boutiques."Why must you appear everywhere I am?"He grinned cheekily. "It must be fate."I scoffed. "Don't tell me you believe in that as much as you believe in true love." I rolled my eyes and turned back around, scanning clothing racks.Dean started moving hangers and looking through the racks, despite being in the female section."I would like to take you out tonight."My head snapped up to look at him. He was already peering at me, his ice-blue eyes warm as ever. I blinked. I stopped scanning the racks and narrowed my eyes at him. "Are you asking me on a date, Dean?"Dean tapped his chin, shrugging lightly. "No-if I were, you would decline immediately. Think of it as-the one person you know in town wanting to show you around." He quirked an eyebrow.I hummed and resumed scanning the racks. "What would this-outing-consist of, exactly?""Now if I
All night, I tossed and turned-and this time, it was not because of the springy motel mattress that usually kept me up."You said you leave when there's nothing left for you to do. So-what if I gave you a reason to stay?"Dean's words rang in my head like a broken record. I didn't know how to make it stop. I hadn't even given him a proper response."You said you leave when there's nothing left for you to do. So-what if I gave you a reason to stay?"It felt like there was a lump lodged into my throat. I gnawed on my bottom lip, suddenly feeling very squeamish. Nobody had ever once cared what I did or where I went. Nobody had ever wanted me-wanted me to stay, for them."Things are-" I exhaled sharply. "Things are more complicated than that, Dean."Dean shook his head, as if he were refusing to listen to what I had to say."You haven't stuck in one place since you were twelve. Just give it a chance, Elettra."I inhaled sharply. My lungs felt like they were throbbing in pain. My entire che
I was giggling like a school girl. "Phil, stop it!"Phil tickled my sides, hovering over me as I squirmed around on the bed. He stopped, looking down at me with mischief in his eyes.I regained my breath, shoving him lightly. "You're not allowed to take advantage of my ticklishness."Phil only smiled. His eyes glinted. He reached a hand up, brushing hair away from my face. "Ellie, you are the most adorable sight I have ever seen."I quirked an eyebrow. "You've hardly seen any sights, Phil."Phil rolled his eyes, jumping into bed beside me. He wrapped his arms around me in such a protective manner, it made my stomach flutter. He pulled me closer into his chest. "If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?"I traced circles over his shirt, on his chest, with my finger. "Hmm. I'd go to space."Phil glanced down at me, his eyebrows raising. "Space? What would you possibly do up there?"I shrugged lightly, leaning my head into his chest. "I'd float. I'd be free."Phil kissed
It was a cool autumn night, the wind blowing on our faces as we walked down a vacant street. This late at night, it felt like we were the only people in town. I liked the peacefulness of it. Hot chocolate in our hands, our other hands intertwined and swinging with each step we took.I leaned into Dean's side, his body-heat radiating onto me."I suggest a turtle or something." Dean cocked his head towards me, grinning. "A dog is so cliched. Although, maybe we could get both.""A turtle." I hummed. "That's not a bad idea-but can you buy sea horses here?"Dean let out a breathy chuckle. "Sea horses? You want sea horses as a pet?"I shrugged softly. I peered at him. His eyes held the same warmth I should have been used to my now. Still, looking at him made my heart swell. "What? Wouldn't that be cool though? How many houses can you walk into, to see an aquarium of sea horses?"Dean sipped his hot chocolate, licking his lips. "We may as well buy a couple jelly fish. No?"I quirked an eyebr
LAST CHAPTER It was a cool autumn night, the wind blowing on our faces as we walked down a vacant street. This late at night, it felt like we were the only people in town. I liked the peacefulness of it. Hot chocolate in our hands, our other hands intertwined and swinging with each step we took. I leaned into Dean's side, his body-heat radiating onto me. "I suggest a turtle or something." Dean cocked his head towards me, grinning. "A dog is so cliched. Although, maybe we could get both." "A turtle." I hummed. "That's not a bad idea-but can you buy sea horses here?" Dean let out a breathy chuckle. "Sea horses? You want sea horses as a pet?" I shrugged softly. I peered at him. His eyes held the same warmth I should have been used to my now. Still, looking at him made my heart swell. "What? Wouldn't that be cool though? How many houses can you walk into, to see an aquarium of sea horses?" Dean sipped his hot chocolate, licking his lips. "We may as well buy a couple jelly fish. No?"
6 Years LaterI found my reason. I found that bizarre reason I was still breathing and alive on this terrible planet.That reason was Dean.Dean changed my mind.I do believe in love.Love is feeling that first pull towards someone you probably thought you wouldn't like.I raised an eyebrow, my face straight. "Would you be talking to me?"He glanced from side to side before his eyes settled on me once again. "Is there anyone else in the proximity?"I pulled my hood off my head. I couldn't help narrowing my eyes. "Then clearly I look more inviting than I thought because I didn't know I was talking to you."It's the choice of commitment-to continuously make it work. It's knowing almost everything about them without them having to show or tell. Love is remembering and noticing the tiniest details about them."The feeling of love is not having to act crazy over them to know you're indeed in love. It's risking your happiness for theirs. It's something that will save you from your depressio
I was furiously shoving the few belongings I had into my suitcase.I needed to get out of here.Like, now.My mind was spinning, my chest was aching-everything just sucked.God, I am so sick and tired of this stupidly unfair and cruel world.A rapid knocking on the door made me freeze. I blinked.A whole minute later, the knocking didn't stop. I pulled my gun out from under the pillow before cautiously, walking over to the door. I looked through the peephole. It was Dean.Wait.Dean?What the hell is he doing here?How did he even find me?My mind swirled with thoughts and questions, half of which were probably insignificant. My heart was racing. I was frozen in spot, frantic and unsure. Do I open the door? Do I pretend I'm not here?"Elettra, I know you're in there!" Dean's loud voice was slightly muffled through the door.I gritted my teeth, fury taking over every other emotion I was feeling. I swung the door open while shoving the gun into the waistband of my jeans."What do you wa
DEAN'S POV"Dean."I glanced at Ben, giving him a questioning look. He motioned for me to come over."What's up?" I leaned against the counter.He paused for a moment. "You were with a girl," he noted. He was missing his usual playful, teasing tone.I laughed awkwardly. "Uh-yes, that's right. I was."He pursed his lips in thought. He looked far too intrigued by the counter he was wiping down. "Was it a date?"He didn't seem-happy. That was usual. He was the one eager for me to find a wife. He was the one always encouraging me to start dating.I cocked my head to the side. "It was. I met her at the library the other day. We started talking, she was nice so I-I suggested lunch. Her name's Isabelle."I smiled faintly. Isabelle had just left, right before Ben called me over. It was a-fairly decent date, I suppose.Ben peered at me in thought, his eyes slightly squinted. There was something he was not telling me, I could see it on his face. My smile vanished, I stood up straight. "What is
I could feel nothing but conflicted and confused. It was surrounding me like an ocean of water, slowly bringing me further and further under the surface. I couldn't think straight.Days had passed since the night of the party. An acumen behind my perplexity was the loss of why I was still in this town. There was nothing here for me. Under usual circumstances, I would have already moved on to the next best place. No friends, no family, no house, no possible opportunity to win the lottery-so what was holding me back from leaving?Honestly, I didn't really need to ask myself that question.Although, not leaving this town wasn't the only thing taking my mind for a spin. Dean hadn't spoken to me since the party. When I woke up the next morning with my skull feeling as if it were being pierced repeatedly, he was gone. He had left a note saying he had to meet a friend.I woke up in his bed and he left me a goddamn note.The party itself was mostly a blur.I hadn't seen Dean around anywhere-b
"You and Callaway's boy have become good friends, huh?" Ben looked at me with a quirked eyebrow as he handed me my usual chocolate shake.I smiled faintly, shrugging. "Dean-I guess so. A little." Most of the time he would just join me without invitation.But he had asked me to stay.That made me rivet with anxiety and dread.I didn't want to care about Dean.Everyone I had ever cared about had left me."He's a good kid," Ben continued. "Hasn't taken much interest in a girl since high school."I smiled politely, watching as he walked off. My stomach was twisting so much I could hardly look at my chocolate shake. I sighed, pulling my hood over my head. Talking about Dean was not helping my already conflicted mind."It's a Friday night-should I be surprised that you're spending it sitting here, sipping a chocolate shake?"I closed my eyes as Dean sat down beside me. I could feel the warmth radiating off his body. I could smell his woodsy smell. Cedarwood, cypress and pine."Boring town.
I was giggling like a school girl. "Phil, stop it!"Phil tickled my sides, hovering over me as I squirmed around on the bed. He stopped, looking down at me with mischief in his eyes.I regained my breath, shoving him lightly. "You're not allowed to take advantage of my ticklishness."Phil only smiled. His eyes glinted. He reached a hand up, brushing hair away from my face. "Ellie, you are the most adorable sight I have ever seen."I quirked an eyebrow. "You've hardly seen any sights, Phil."Phil rolled his eyes, jumping into bed beside me. He wrapped his arms around me in such a protective manner, it made my stomach flutter. He pulled me closer into his chest. "If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?"I traced circles over his shirt, on his chest, with my finger. "Hmm. I'd go to space."Phil glanced down at me, his eyebrows raising. "Space? What would you possibly do up there?"I shrugged lightly, leaning my head into his chest. "I'd float. I'd be free."Phil kissed
All night, I tossed and turned-and this time, it was not because of the springy motel mattress that usually kept me up."You said you leave when there's nothing left for you to do. So-what if I gave you a reason to stay?"Dean's words rang in my head like a broken record. I didn't know how to make it stop. I hadn't even given him a proper response."You said you leave when there's nothing left for you to do. So-what if I gave you a reason to stay?"It felt like there was a lump lodged into my throat. I gnawed on my bottom lip, suddenly feeling very squeamish. Nobody had ever once cared what I did or where I went. Nobody had ever wanted me-wanted me to stay, for them."Things are-" I exhaled sharply. "Things are more complicated than that, Dean."Dean shook his head, as if he were refusing to listen to what I had to say."You haven't stuck in one place since you were twelve. Just give it a chance, Elettra."I inhaled sharply. My lungs felt like they were throbbing in pain. My entire che