PROLOGUE“Blue.”I heard a deep raspy voice that came close as I was sitting alone scanning through my laptop inside this local cafe on the island. I pulled my head up to check who it could be and saw a tall man with a long brown tousled hair, topless, tattoos almost everywhere on his body and had a blue green board shorts. He had the most perfect curls that a man can have and it makes me wonder what his shampoo is or does he even put conditioner after. I envied his long luscious locks which was slightly past his shoulders. His eyes, glued on mine, were an amazing hue of emerald green as he flashes me his dimpled smile.I looked over my shoulder and found no one there so he must be talking to me. I look back at this man who is still smiling at me. “Excuse me?” I chimed, confused about what he meant.“Blue.” He repeats again and there’s a way on how he said it that makes his plump lips look hot.I scoff, “I’m sorry, are we talking about colors here?”The man with green eyes chuckles br
CHAPTER 0LONDONLondon, England July 7, 2020“Then fuck all of you!!!”“Get the fuck back here!” I hear my father screaming from downstairs.I barged into my bedroom and slammed the door angrily as I feel my fists shaking in anger after having another unhealthy argument with my dad and my elder brothers who think they’re always the better sons because they follow our dad’s orders. Orders, orders, fucking orders even if it isn’t something you want to do. I shove all the clothes I can pack inside my luggage angrily, grabbing one after another, no longer checking what shirt, shorts or trousers that I was putting in. I can’t be in this household anymore because it’s too toxic even though the people living in this home is my own family.“Harrison!” Mum barges inside my room and walks towards me. “What in bloody hell are you doing?”“I can’t be here anymore mum.” I answer as I shove more boxer briefs inside my luggage.Mum follows me, “You don’t have to leave. Please honey, just apologize
CHAPTER 1NORTH CAROLINANorth Carolina, U.S.AJuly 14, 2020 2:47AMStormy Day, Temperature 19℃As soon as the plane landed, I instantly got inside my car and was thankful that I arrived before the storm can ruin my trip back here. I started driving my car which has parked here in the airport as I watch the lightning on the dark sky dancing from one side to another. The weather forecast said this was going to be a big storm unlike any other especially in North Carolina since the eye of the storm is somewhere in between North Carolina and South Carolina and could possibly cause a few landslide and flood in some areas which forced me to come back home early. Some flights heading back here were already cancelled and moved two days after so I was glad I was able to change my flight time.Big raindrops started hitting my windshield and I cursed instantly as soon as it started to rain a little bit. I flinched when a loud roaring thunder echoes above my car which frightened me since I don’t
CHAPTER 2THE ARRIVALI opened my eyes and gasped for air as if someone was choking me the entire time I was sleeping. I feel my own heart beating fast inside my chest as I tried to calm my senses. I pulled myself up from the bed and found myself lying on top of my old mattress with my favourite unicorn bed sheet that I have always loved when I was in high school. I looked around the entire room and realized that I was inside my mom’s house. I reached my mom’s house last night?Wait, what about the car accident?I pulled my arms up and peeled the blanket off my legs and found no stain of wounds all over me. I rushed to my dresser to check myself, I didn’t have any wound from the car accident last night. I was absolutely fine and nothing hurt in every corner of my body. My soul had left my body and I know I saw my own self being carried by the medics. I know I died last night.My brows knitting in the middle of my forehead and was utterly speechless with what was happening to me becaus
CHAPTER 2.1A white vehicle drove me to the Inn where I will be staying called Little Haven and when I got there, the attendant was absolutely friendly while catering to my needs. She handed me the key to my single room and the place was not to so bad at all. I had my own bathroom with a bathtub at an affordable price, my bed sheets were most definitely holistic, plus the mattress was just utterly soft and the entire room smelled like strawberry and had a wonderful air condition. I fixed my luggage inside the wooden dresser and decided to stroll around the island as I rented out a bicycle. I remembered a few landmarks so I won’t get lost on my way back home and I knew I had to find a good place to eat lunch and have a cup of coffee at the same time.I found a really hippie and island life vibing coffee shop which also offers lunch so I parked my bicycle to the side and ordered a solo plate of food. I sat on this tall stool chair as I began to eat by myself as I look around the laidbac
CHAPTER 3195 COUNTRIESThat night, I decided to have dinner in this pizza restaurant and ordered a plate of pasta with a bottle of beer. The restaurant had a very calming ambiance with golden yellow walls, maroon flooring and a few paintings hanging and a very Italian atmosphere. The foods were really tasty and it made me feel as if I was taken to Italy while eating it as the restaurant was filled with an Italian song in the background.The entire day, I spent most of my time on my socials and staring at people who were really enjoying their time. People were talking and meeting random strangers, some were sunbathing and enjoying their time with a few of their friends and there were people who surfed and caught some waves while complimenting each other. Women were flirting to a few good looking men while I was just staring at everything that was going on around me but I was guarded and had my walls up since I think I couldn’t trust anyone else after Charles.“There are 195 countries
CHAPTER 3.1The feeling of being on this motorbike for the very first time reminded me of how important it was to never let our problems stress us out or get the best of us because one way or another we will all get through it. Maybe not today or tomorrow but eventually the pain we are feeling will heal one way or another. This kind of bliss and freedom makes me feel that I am actually alive and I have so much to be thankful and be happy for than hurting over one man who cheated on me. I loved how the cold wind brushes over my cheeks as if it was giving me subtle kisses on my face reminding me that I am loved.When Harry parked his motorcycle, I handed him his helmet and noticed that we have entered a very island-like chill kind of type restobar with a Spanish vibe on it. Harry takes my hand as we entered and I didn’t really mind how he held my hand as we walk to the table where his friends were waiting. The restobar has an outdoor establishment extended from the indoor part where liv
CHAPTER 4SWEET CHEEKSI headed out of the bathroom after taking a pee and found Zion sleeping on the living room’s couch, drunk. Neal has been sleeping on the sand on their backyard, also drunk. Diana had already went back home while Olivia is now sleeping inside the spare room of this massive house. I can’t find Harry and Georgina-Rose so I decided to head out to the backyard to wake Neal up and help him out of the sand because I bet he’d catch a cold but I halted when I heard Harry’s voice.I followed where the voice was coming from and it led me up the stairs. I walked to the bedroom where I can hear the voice and he was talking with Georgina-Rose, who also had a lot of bottles to drink earlier. I stood by a slightly opened bedroom where I can see Georgina-Rose crying as she sits on the foot of her bed topless and only had an underwear.“Harry please.” She begs.“Georgie, you’re drunk. You don’t know what you’re saying.” he answers her. “Get some clothes and go to sleep.” He tells
EPILOGUEPOT OF GOLDI have always been fascinated of the beach.There are so many things to do to enjoy and relax and there are a lot of sexy girls wearing bikinis almost looking like it is close to nudity. Yet, I love it. I love it all. I love watching girls in swim wears and how they play beach volleyball. Although I loved the sexual stuff of it, I have always thought that there is something about the sea that just calms my soul and my mind to a whole different level.I never really told anyone about it but it always has that kind of effect to me. Although no one knows much about it, I didn't want to look too softy on the outside being all sentimental about a petty thing.Everyone I know has always seen me as strong and very masculine with the way I dress, talk and act. With all the physicality that I have, everyone assumed that I am a cold-hearted tough guy. People who don't know me well would say I am an aloof. Kids and other townspeople would rather say I am scary. I have had a
CHAPTER 94 WELCOME HOMEM E R R Y Time: InfiniteWhere am I?Those were the first words I thought to myself.I looked around and found myself standing alone on the pristine beach. The water was gorgeously light blue and the horizon was insanely astounding. I paused and felt that I have said those same words somewhere before.Dejavu. It definitely seemed like it.Although I was lost, somewhere deep inside me felt like I was found. I felt surprisingly calm and warm as the sun was hitting my face. Sunlight always felt nice and even though most people don’t like to be under the sun for too long I think there’s something about it that’s calming at some point.Scorching was a word that would best describe the heat of the sun right now. I closed my eyes and felt the gentle and cool sea breeze passing through my hair and hitting against my skin. It was a bright sunny day but the wind felt chilly which provided a perfect balance. For a while, I stood there just feeling nature which was surro
CHAPTER 93 47 YEARSH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.AForty-seven years laterSummerThe woman flinched as she spins around. Her eyes looked surprised as soon as she saw me. It was definitely her and I could never be wrong. It was the same face when we were in LUAHU but her hair was shorter now yet everything about her was the same. It felt so surreal seeing her again.“Diana, is it really…” I trailed off and realized how frightened and shocked she was. I realized that I was getting a little too suspicious and too close knowing that she is a young woman and I am an old man approaching her pettily. I didn’t want to look like a predator.I chuckled humourlessly, “I’m sorry.”She smiles wearily, “I’m sorry too but I think you have the wrong person?”I felt disappointed.“My name isn’t Diana.” She adds.I smiled tightlipped. “Of course. I’m sorry if I approached you like this and pretty much giving you a fright.”She shakes her head and smiles at me, “No, it’s… It’s not really a big deal.
CHAPTER 92 SATURNH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.ADeath can seem cruel and unfair, especially when you feel someone has died before their time or when you had plans for the future together and growing old together.Death of someone we love is probably the most devastating experience that can ever happen to any of us.The loss and pain can strike you deeply and can shook your mental state of mind and your core.America died from a ruptured brain aneurysm that no one knew she had.All those terrible headaches, nausea, collapsing and drooping eyelids that she been complaining and experiencing, were signs of a grown malignant aneurysm after she was in coma. We all assumed that it was her pregnancy but the latter symptoms were already too late to figure it out that she was experiencing something so much more critical and dangerous.There were so many what ifs that I had after she died and so many regrets that I wished I did and didn’t do. There were so many things in my head and so much
CHAPTER 91.1I smiled as the heart monitor was echoing in the room in synch with the sound from the ventilator. “The second time was when you fainted a day before our wedding. I think your mom laughed at me when she saw me arriving the hospital because I looked stupid with what I wore as I was in a hurry.”I chuckle softly as I was remembering it. “Although I didn’t really notice how bad I wore until it was the morning. It was so funny, you should have seen it.”I placed her hand intertwined with mine against my lips, “That time, as I watched you sleep the entire night, I was able to write a short song. Do you want to hear it? I was never able to finish it though.”I rubbed the back of my forefinger against her cheek, “I’m sure you want to hear it. So give it a good listen, okay?” I speak to her.I cleared my throat as I tried my best to keep my shit together because I didn’t want to cry as I sing for her.“Sweetheart you look a little tired. When did you last eat? Come in and make
CHAPTER 91REALH A R R Y I was speechless and my felt as if my knees went weak and immobile.I wanted to say something but my mind went blank and I wanted to move towards Merry but because of shock, I just stood there completely frozen.My tears fell over my cheeks as soon as I see my wife looking horribly pale while the medics were giving her CPR. She looks lifeless, I thought to myself again and again and it pains me.My feet slowly drags me inside the room as my heart was getting heavier each time I get close towards where Merry was, My entire body was still completely shaken up with what I was witnessing what happening to her with questions fogging my head wondering what really happened to her.I can really feel my whole body quivering in fear, despair and weakness while my lips were trembling as I call out her name softly, “M-Merry…” My soft voice escapes my lips,“Sir, we request you to make way.” The medic instructed me.I shake my head vigorously because he cannot just leave
CHAPTER 90ANOTHER SONGSan Siro Stadium, BrazilThe crowd cheers for Harry as soon as he finished another song.His fans chanting his name continuously was ringing in his ear.The entire stadium was filled with girls screaming, chanting and cheering for him while he keeps a forced smile plastered on his face as he mouthed the words, “Thank you.”Despite how he loves entertaining his fans and performing on stage in front of people who paid this entire event just to see him, his mind was elsewhere and he couldn’t stop himself from doing so. It was evident in his eyes that he was searching through the front row near the stage if America had arrived, but she hasn’t. She was still not around and it made him even much more worried.He was not liking it especially that he hasn’t talked to Jordan about any updates regarding Merry.“I tried calling Ginny earlier and she said there was an emergency.” Those words keeps invading his thoughts making him feel uneasy on stage.“You are a lovely aud
CHAPTER 89.1“Useless?” He subtly moves his upper torso. “Have I ever made you feel like that? I’m sorry if--”“No no no. It wasn’t any of your fault. Like I said, I am grateful for you.”“So why do you feel useless?”“Because I always depend on you. I depend on you when I get out of bed, I depend on you when I need a shower, when I need to go somewhere, when I need to pee, when I need to clean myself as embarrassing as it has always been, when I change my clothes, every thing. Every single thing that I do that are basic things I need for myself on a daily basis, you’re doing them all for me.”“I don’t mind doing them.”“But I do.” I sobbed. “I do mind.”“I.. I’m sorry.” He says with a soft voice as we were now sitting on the bed while he tries to comfort me while wrapping his arms around me tight. “I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. Am I invading too much of your personal space?”I shake my head, “You don’t understand.”He pulled himself away and cups my face, “Then allow me to u
CHAPTER 89 IT WASN'TA M E R I C AMt. Sinai Hospital, North CarolinaHours before the wedding day“Are you sure you don’t want me in there with you?” Harry questions.I gave him a reassuring smile as I squeezed his hand a little bit, “I will be fine.”“So why you don’t want me in there with you?”“I just want to ask him a few things.” I answered nervously.“Like?” He asked.I pressed my lips together, “You trust me, don’t you?”“Of course.” Harry answers quickly.“Then trust me on this. It’s nothing serious.” I responded.He exhales heavily and felt him kissing the back of my hand. I love when he does that to be honest. He tells me, “Okay. I will wait here.”I smiled at her, “Thank you.”Harry walks me to the doctor’s office as he greeted us as soon as we entered his room. The doctor offered us a seat right away while Harry assist me before he plants a kiss on my hair. “I’ll be waiting right outside.”I nodded and smiled at him. I listened to his footsteps which were then followed b