CHAPTER 0
LONDON
London, England
July 7, 2020
“Then fuck all of you!!!”
“Get the fuck back here!” I hear my father screaming from downstairs.
I barged into my bedroom and slammed the door angrily as I feel my fists shaking in anger after having another unhealthy argument with my dad and my elder brothers who think they’re always the better sons because they follow our dad’s orders. Orders, orders, fucking orders even if it isn’t something you want to do. I shove all the clothes I can pack inside my luggage angrily, grabbing one after another, no longer checking what shirt, shorts or trousers that I was putting in. I can’t be in this household anymore because it’s too toxic even though the people living in this home is my own family.
“Harrison!” Mum barges inside my room and walks towards me. “What in bloody hell are you doing?”
“I can’t be here anymore mum.” I answer as I shove more boxer briefs inside my luggage.
Mum follows me, “You don’t have to leave. Please honey, just apologize to your dad and tell him you’ll follow his steps and—”
“Why is everyone in this household so selfish?!” I stopped from packing and exclaimed loudly at my mom who looked shocked that I cut her off. “I told you and dad what I wanted to do with my life and if no one will support me on it then I’m leaving.” I grabbed my luggage, my surfboard and stepped out of my room while my mum follows me and tries to continue leading for me to leave.
I reached the living room where my father is looking at me hatefully together with Elvis Scott, our eldest, and Frank Scott, the second son. Mom joins us as she pants while chasing me and pulling the luggage from my hand as I tried pulling it away from her.
“Harry you know this is a bad decision.” Elvis tells me, the always Mr. Right among the three of us.
“When was my decision ever right in this house anyways Elvis?” I asked him angrily.
Frank walks towards me, and unlike Elvis, he’s more gentle and less like dad or Elvis. “You can’t leave Harry. We can always talk this over, right dad?” He asks as he looks over our dad.
Dad stares at me angrily and with a lot of disappointment in his eyes. He never looked at me with pride in his eyes because ever since I was young, I have always been the son he has hated so much because I am the only son that never follows his command in this household unlike Elvis and Frank.
“Harrison honey please you don’t have to leave us.” Mom cries as she hugs me on my side.
“The house won’t be the same without you.” Frank adds.
I never grew up under my dad’s care because I have grown up under my grandmother and grandfather’s house since my parents had a separation before I was born. Dad cheated on my mom when she was carrying me so mom went back to her parents’ house bringing me with her as soon as I was born and leaving my two brothers with my strict father.
When I was six, my mom and dad got back together and we had to go back to my dad’s house but I still spent most of my weekends with my grandparents since it was more of a home to me than this house with my dad in it. I have always been distant to my father and my two brothers because they never made me feel as if I was a part of this family. My dad never made me feel as if I was his son because he never seems to listen to what I want to do, instead he forces me to plan things for my life and decide things for me.
“Why don’t you let the black sheep of this family finally leave? Let’s see what a complete failure he already is with all this surfing madness he only prioritizes in his life.” Elvis, my dad’s perfect copy, commented with despise.
“What’s your fucking problem?!!” I rushed towards him and slipped out from my mom and Frank’s grip as I grab onto Elvis collar with one hand before I threw a strong punch right on his face. Elvis crashes to the couch and accidentally hits the vase with his hand which caused it to shatter.
“Frank stop Harry!!” Mom screams.
Frank runs to me quickly pulling me away while dad gets in the way and pushes me hard that made me fall to the floor. “Harry! Stop fighting! You’re already hurting mom.” Frank says.
Elvis stares at me angrily as he winces on the spot I punched but before he can throw a punch at me, dad pulls him away. “Enough Elvis.” He said strictly.
Dad looks back at me as I try to stand on my own even though Frank tried to help me. “Why didn’t you let your most favourite son hit me, huh?!” I yelled at my father. “He’s always has been right in front of your eyes ever since anyways!!”
Mom pulls me back while she continues crying. “Harry please. Please that’s enough.”
“No it isn’t enough! Ever since from the beginning dad, you were never proud of me! You’ve always thought the lesser of me because I always disobeyed you. I always knew you’re embarrassed to have me as your son! And I don’t blame you, because I am as fucking stubborn as you!”
“Harry! That’s enough.” Frank sounded authoritative.
“Oh shut up Frank. We both know how you hated becoming a director!” I snapped out.
I glued my eyes on my father who still chose to remain silent towards me. “You know, what? Ever since I was a kid, I have always wished that you were never my father!!” I screamed.
Dad landed his huge fist on my face causing me to stagger while Frank thankfully catches me.
“If you want to leave then get out of my house!!” Dad screams at me, pointing at the door.
“Jackson!!” Mom screams as she wraps her arms around me. “You don’t mean that! You’re not letting Harry leave! This is his home!!”
“This is not home.” I answered mom.
She looks at me with so much tears in her eyes as I travelled my eye back to my father, “This was never my home. No one really saw me as a son in this house aside from you, mom. Let’s all admit, Elvis is a famous music producer as what dad wanted him. Frank is now an award-winning director as what dad wanted him. Then there’s Harrison Scott, a son that dad never wanted to have.” I say.
I feel my tears flooding my eyelids as I tried my best to hold it back, “You know what dad, or shall I say, Mr. Jackson Scott? You can be happy now because the son that you despise the most is now leaving this hell that you have created for me! You can’t force me into becoming something that does not make me happy! I’m never going to be in the same household as you! I hate you and I hope you bring those words with you in your grave!” I grabbed my luggage and my surfboard and headed out of the house while I hear my mom calling out to me.
She chases me out towards my car, begging me not to go. “Harrison, honey…. Please… Please my baby don’t leave us. Please Harry.” She cries as she holds my cheeks.
“I’m so sorry mum. Take care of yourself okay?” I kiss her forehead. “I love you.” I got inside my car and drove away, leaving my mom crying by herself.
When I reached the road, my tears began to flood my cheeks as I tried to blast some pretty loud music inside my car to void out the anger and sadness I am feeling inside me. I clenched tightly onto my stirring wheel as I continued crying by myself thinking about leaving my mom like that.
I meet up with my friends in a restaurant where we usually hang out and tried to look fine as I dried my eyes the moment I parked my car. I walked to the table where William and Liv were waiting for me and they already know what happened to me a few minute ago. I took the seat in front of them as Liv chugs his bottle of beer while looking at me and William sits there also looking at me reluctantly.
“Beer?” William offers.
Liv puts the bottle down, “Man you look dreadful.”
“You actually have to say that Oliver.” William scolded. “Here, have a beer.” He handed me one.
I accepted, “Thanks.”
“Look Harry.” William leans closer to me, “Don’t let it get in your head, man. We have this huge surfing competition coming up next week and you can’t let something ruin your focus.”
Liv nods in agreement, “We all know your dad has always been not very supportive of you and your surfing career from the beginning so that’s not really shocking anymore.”
“I’m not sad about that Oliver. I’m sad about my mom. I left her like that.”
“Hey, you can always call her and check on her without staying in that house.” William encourages.
I take a long drink from my bottle of beer as William asks, “So where are you staying tonight?”
“I’ve called up Maddie and asked if I can crash her place and she said yes.” I answered.
“Of course she can never say no to you.” Liv commented. “Maddie’s utterly obsessed with you.”
“Well I am utterly obsessed with my boyfriend Oliver Langley.” I look over to my right and found Maddie already sitting next to me. She kisses my lips and I wince as I felt hurt from dad’s punch.
“Hi baby.” I say over her lips.
She smiles before turning her attention to Liv, “Is there something wrong with being obsessed with my own man?” She asks him.
“Well hi Maddie. It’s nice to see you too.” Liv answers with a smile.
I smile as I lowered my head down so Maddie won’t see me laughing. Maddie cups my cheeks with both her hands and forces me to stare at her, “Are you okay baby?” She asks.
“I am babe. Thank you for coming here despite the time.”
“Awe baby, it’s nothing.” She smiles at me.
We stayed in for a while and talked for a little bit before we finally decided to call it a day. I drove to Maddie’s house where I’ll be staying over for the night. She carried my luggage for me as I carried my surfboard all the way inside her apartment. Maddie has always been here for me and it’s not the only reason why I am keeping her, but she’s just always there for me. She loves me too much and I am quite scared that I am actually not giving her the same amount of love I ought to give her as my girlfriend.
We kissed for a while after we had sex and laid over her bed like how we usually do. We started off as friends with benefits after meeting her over Tinder and ever since then I kind of forced myself to be in this relationship with her since she was also trying to help me void out my problems with my dad. I guess my world only revolved around surfing and having sex with Maddie to keep myself busy.
“Your dad hurt you again?” She asks.
“What’s new?” I answer.
“So what are you planning to do now?” She asks me and she’s always worried about me. “You left home. What about your mom?”
“Maddie, I don’t really want to think about that now. Please.” I answered, sounding annoyed and intending to. “I have this surfing competition and you know it’s really important to me. So just drop it.”
“I’m sorry.” She says softly before she positions her naked self over my body and hovers over me. “So this competition coming up, you’ll be busy with Oliver and William.”
I nod at her as I rub her thighs with my palms. “Why?”
“We both know there’ll be more women flocking around you after.” She sounded jealous and I hate how she acts like this.
“Maddie they’re just fans. And you’re really not helping my mood right now.”
She pouts before landing her lips over mine, “I’m sorry baby.”
“Why don’t we just fuck again before we sleep?” I cooed.
She nods before kissing me as she carefully placed my hard erection inside her.
Somewhere in London, England
July 14, 2020
7:10AM
Sunny Day, Temperature 23℃
Days passed and it was finally the day for the surfing competition. It was a perfect sunny day and the waves looked absolutely stunning. Liv and William joined too but on a different category as me. There were prominent people here who are known in the surfing world and this surfing competition will be very helpful for me to be more popular. I see a few professional surfers who were going to do an exhibition act for the crowd and I cannot wait to take photos of the people I idolize.
Around eight in the morning, it was my turn for the category I signed up for, I prepared my surfboard as Liv and William kept cheering for me. They kept reminding me to remain calm and never do something outrageous to avoid any accidents but they know I am stubborn. I was insanely nervous because this was the biggest surfing competition in all over England but I have a good feeling that I am going to win this since I have never lost a surfing competition before. I know I should not be complacent and I still have to do my best to win this and shove it my father’s face that I can be professional even I am not going to be like him.
“You’ve got this Harry.” William cheers me on.
“Win the crowd. Good luck, bro.” Liv adds.
“Thanks lads.” I say as I clipped the string attaching the surfboard to my ankle.
“Remember, don’t catch bigger waves that you can’t handle. You don’t know the waters in here. Let me tell you that the waves is huge and the current will really pull you down” William reminded.
I belly paddled my way to the shallow water where bigger waves were found as I was competing against a Portuguese who came all the way from Portugal just to join this competition. I rode one big wave from another and performed a few tricks that I have been perfecting for months now which all came to perfection as I portrayed them. I feel speed as wind passes through my face and the awesome feeling of being connected to this wonderful energy through the surfboard. The roars and the taste of salt still amazes me as I stand on my surfboard with huge adrenaline from the sheer power that I am dealing with. The pay-off is a real mountain-top experience of human accomplishment.
As I was about to perform my last trick trying to impress the crowd and the judges who were clapping and cheering my name as soon as I saw a bigger wave, I didn’t hesitate. I remember how William would always scold me not to try a catching bigger wave than what we have been practicing because it will be risky for me in case I perform it during a competition. I let it slip my head and tried riding the bigger wave which will probably make me a champion. It’s now or never.
Out in the spur of moment, I was caught off guard when I lost my balance riding the big wave and I was suddenly tossed around in the powerful surf off the central coast. I held my breath under the water trying to swim back up for some air but the waves we too big and the current is pulling me down. I was getting into trouble being under the deep waters fighting against the very strong current as I held tight onto the string that was attached to my ankle.
I no longer cared about the competition because I was already fighting for my life.
I kept swimming up because I was almost out of breath and I need air. As soon as I was finally able to rise my head out of the water, I see a 40-feet plus wave about to wipe me out and it was too late for me to swim away as it crashes right over my head pushing me down deeper to the water. The strong current broke the string and pulled me off deeper away from my board.
Shit, the current is going to pull me deeper into the ocean if I don’t get out from here.
Suddenly I accidentally felt something sharp struck on the back of my right thigh and there was blood instantly. I look over to my leg and found a huge elongated coral poking through my right thigh, I groaned under the water as the pain was utterly unbearable. I forced to pull thigh off the coral even if it was terribly hurting and when I did, there were more blood surrounding me and I panicked as thoughts of sharks came into my head. I grope onto my thigh as I felt the growing pain beginning to hurt even more and started feeling as if my entire right leg was getting numb.
I was completely drowning as I screamed for pain and help under the water, running out of breath before I lost conscious when I hit my head on a bigger coral as the strong current under the water was dragging me around lifelessly.
CHAPTER 1NORTH CAROLINANorth Carolina, U.S.AJuly 14, 2020 2:47AMStormy Day, Temperature 19℃As soon as the plane landed, I instantly got inside my car and was thankful that I arrived before the storm can ruin my trip back here. I started driving my car which has parked here in the airport as I watch the lightning on the dark sky dancing from one side to another. The weather forecast said this was going to be a big storm unlike any other especially in North Carolina since the eye of the storm is somewhere in between North Carolina and South Carolina and could possibly cause a few landslide and flood in some areas which forced me to come back home early. Some flights heading back here were already cancelled and moved two days after so I was glad I was able to change my flight time.Big raindrops started hitting my windshield and I cursed instantly as soon as it started to rain a little bit. I flinched when a loud roaring thunder echoes above my car which frightened me since I don’t
CHAPTER 2THE ARRIVALI opened my eyes and gasped for air as if someone was choking me the entire time I was sleeping. I feel my own heart beating fast inside my chest as I tried to calm my senses. I pulled myself up from the bed and found myself lying on top of my old mattress with my favourite unicorn bed sheet that I have always loved when I was in high school. I looked around the entire room and realized that I was inside my mom’s house. I reached my mom’s house last night?Wait, what about the car accident?I pulled my arms up and peeled the blanket off my legs and found no stain of wounds all over me. I rushed to my dresser to check myself, I didn’t have any wound from the car accident last night. I was absolutely fine and nothing hurt in every corner of my body. My soul had left my body and I know I saw my own self being carried by the medics. I know I died last night.My brows knitting in the middle of my forehead and was utterly speechless with what was happening to me becaus
CHAPTER 2.1A white vehicle drove me to the Inn where I will be staying called Little Haven and when I got there, the attendant was absolutely friendly while catering to my needs. She handed me the key to my single room and the place was not to so bad at all. I had my own bathroom with a bathtub at an affordable price, my bed sheets were most definitely holistic, plus the mattress was just utterly soft and the entire room smelled like strawberry and had a wonderful air condition. I fixed my luggage inside the wooden dresser and decided to stroll around the island as I rented out a bicycle. I remembered a few landmarks so I won’t get lost on my way back home and I knew I had to find a good place to eat lunch and have a cup of coffee at the same time.I found a really hippie and island life vibing coffee shop which also offers lunch so I parked my bicycle to the side and ordered a solo plate of food. I sat on this tall stool chair as I began to eat by myself as I look around the laidbac
CHAPTER 3195 COUNTRIESThat night, I decided to have dinner in this pizza restaurant and ordered a plate of pasta with a bottle of beer. The restaurant had a very calming ambiance with golden yellow walls, maroon flooring and a few paintings hanging and a very Italian atmosphere. The foods were really tasty and it made me feel as if I was taken to Italy while eating it as the restaurant was filled with an Italian song in the background.The entire day, I spent most of my time on my socials and staring at people who were really enjoying their time. People were talking and meeting random strangers, some were sunbathing and enjoying their time with a few of their friends and there were people who surfed and caught some waves while complimenting each other. Women were flirting to a few good looking men while I was just staring at everything that was going on around me but I was guarded and had my walls up since I think I couldn’t trust anyone else after Charles.“There are 195 countries
CHAPTER 3.1The feeling of being on this motorbike for the very first time reminded me of how important it was to never let our problems stress us out or get the best of us because one way or another we will all get through it. Maybe not today or tomorrow but eventually the pain we are feeling will heal one way or another. This kind of bliss and freedom makes me feel that I am actually alive and I have so much to be thankful and be happy for than hurting over one man who cheated on me. I loved how the cold wind brushes over my cheeks as if it was giving me subtle kisses on my face reminding me that I am loved.When Harry parked his motorcycle, I handed him his helmet and noticed that we have entered a very island-like chill kind of type restobar with a Spanish vibe on it. Harry takes my hand as we entered and I didn’t really mind how he held my hand as we walk to the table where his friends were waiting. The restobar has an outdoor establishment extended from the indoor part where liv
CHAPTER 4SWEET CHEEKSI headed out of the bathroom after taking a pee and found Zion sleeping on the living room’s couch, drunk. Neal has been sleeping on the sand on their backyard, also drunk. Diana had already went back home while Olivia is now sleeping inside the spare room of this massive house. I can’t find Harry and Georgina-Rose so I decided to head out to the backyard to wake Neal up and help him out of the sand because I bet he’d catch a cold but I halted when I heard Harry’s voice.I followed where the voice was coming from and it led me up the stairs. I walked to the bedroom where I can hear the voice and he was talking with Georgina-Rose, who also had a lot of bottles to drink earlier. I stood by a slightly opened bedroom where I can see Georgina-Rose crying as she sits on the foot of her bed topless and only had an underwear.“Harry please.” She begs.“Georgie, you’re drunk. You don’t know what you’re saying.” he answers her. “Get some clothes and go to sleep.” He tells
CHAPTER 4.1I loved watching how he would cock his head slightly backwards while closing his eyes when he sings a higher note and how his brows crease in the middle of his forehead as a reflex action to when he sings a lower note. For this moment, I see him as a different man and definitely not the cocky and charming Harry that I knew when I met him earlier. He is naturally musically talented.His eyes focused back on the keys and I can see through his eyes the passion he has for music and even though he tells me that he has not played the piano for a long time, he is still so damn good at it. Thus was pure talent. He can amazingly sing and can reach high notes which was absolutely beautiful. This man, can actually sing on a big stage in front of millions of screaming fans appreciating his talent.“Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell.”His voice softens as his emerald green eyes now focused back at me as his fingers kept jumping over the white and lack keys of this grand p
CHAPTER 4.2Diana rolled her eyes at Zion, “Cotton candy words gets you nowhere, Z. We all know how she begs Harry for sex when she’s drunk. I mean I am horny when I’m drunk but I don’t strip in front of a man begging him to fuck me.”Zion cocks his head, “How do you know that Miss Smarty pants when you’re drunk?”She rolled her eyes at him again.I was surprised that they know about this. I thought I was the only one who though it was weird that a woman would strip in front of a man like that but at least Diana does not think so.“I mean she is so damn lucky that Harry never takes advantage of her when she’s drunk because he respects her a lot and yet she does not even respect herself.” Diana states and it kind of makes me think that she does not like Georgina-Rose. “She throws a tantrum, but rarely, and when she throws a bad temper, she locks herself up in her room for a day.”Diana faces Zion, “I mean is it not a disturbing behaviour to you Mr. Zion Watts?”Zion rolls his eyes at h
EPILOGUEPOT OF GOLDI have always been fascinated of the beach.There are so many things to do to enjoy and relax and there are a lot of sexy girls wearing bikinis almost looking like it is close to nudity. Yet, I love it. I love it all. I love watching girls in swim wears and how they play beach volleyball. Although I loved the sexual stuff of it, I have always thought that there is something about the sea that just calms my soul and my mind to a whole different level.I never really told anyone about it but it always has that kind of effect to me. Although no one knows much about it, I didn't want to look too softy on the outside being all sentimental about a petty thing.Everyone I know has always seen me as strong and very masculine with the way I dress, talk and act. With all the physicality that I have, everyone assumed that I am a cold-hearted tough guy. People who don't know me well would say I am an aloof. Kids and other townspeople would rather say I am scary. I have had a
CHAPTER 94 WELCOME HOMEM E R R Y Time: InfiniteWhere am I?Those were the first words I thought to myself.I looked around and found myself standing alone on the pristine beach. The water was gorgeously light blue and the horizon was insanely astounding. I paused and felt that I have said those same words somewhere before.Dejavu. It definitely seemed like it.Although I was lost, somewhere deep inside me felt like I was found. I felt surprisingly calm and warm as the sun was hitting my face. Sunlight always felt nice and even though most people don’t like to be under the sun for too long I think there’s something about it that’s calming at some point.Scorching was a word that would best describe the heat of the sun right now. I closed my eyes and felt the gentle and cool sea breeze passing through my hair and hitting against my skin. It was a bright sunny day but the wind felt chilly which provided a perfect balance. For a while, I stood there just feeling nature which was surro
CHAPTER 93 47 YEARSH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.AForty-seven years laterSummerThe woman flinched as she spins around. Her eyes looked surprised as soon as she saw me. It was definitely her and I could never be wrong. It was the same face when we were in LUAHU but her hair was shorter now yet everything about her was the same. It felt so surreal seeing her again.“Diana, is it really…” I trailed off and realized how frightened and shocked she was. I realized that I was getting a little too suspicious and too close knowing that she is a young woman and I am an old man approaching her pettily. I didn’t want to look like a predator.I chuckled humourlessly, “I’m sorry.”She smiles wearily, “I’m sorry too but I think you have the wrong person?”I felt disappointed.“My name isn’t Diana.” She adds.I smiled tightlipped. “Of course. I’m sorry if I approached you like this and pretty much giving you a fright.”She shakes her head and smiles at me, “No, it’s… It’s not really a big deal.
CHAPTER 92 SATURNH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.ADeath can seem cruel and unfair, especially when you feel someone has died before their time or when you had plans for the future together and growing old together.Death of someone we love is probably the most devastating experience that can ever happen to any of us.The loss and pain can strike you deeply and can shook your mental state of mind and your core.America died from a ruptured brain aneurysm that no one knew she had.All those terrible headaches, nausea, collapsing and drooping eyelids that she been complaining and experiencing, were signs of a grown malignant aneurysm after she was in coma. We all assumed that it was her pregnancy but the latter symptoms were already too late to figure it out that she was experiencing something so much more critical and dangerous.There were so many what ifs that I had after she died and so many regrets that I wished I did and didn’t do. There were so many things in my head and so much
CHAPTER 91.1I smiled as the heart monitor was echoing in the room in synch with the sound from the ventilator. “The second time was when you fainted a day before our wedding. I think your mom laughed at me when she saw me arriving the hospital because I looked stupid with what I wore as I was in a hurry.”I chuckle softly as I was remembering it. “Although I didn’t really notice how bad I wore until it was the morning. It was so funny, you should have seen it.”I placed her hand intertwined with mine against my lips, “That time, as I watched you sleep the entire night, I was able to write a short song. Do you want to hear it? I was never able to finish it though.”I rubbed the back of my forefinger against her cheek, “I’m sure you want to hear it. So give it a good listen, okay?” I speak to her.I cleared my throat as I tried my best to keep my shit together because I didn’t want to cry as I sing for her.“Sweetheart you look a little tired. When did you last eat? Come in and make
CHAPTER 91REALH A R R Y I was speechless and my felt as if my knees went weak and immobile.I wanted to say something but my mind went blank and I wanted to move towards Merry but because of shock, I just stood there completely frozen.My tears fell over my cheeks as soon as I see my wife looking horribly pale while the medics were giving her CPR. She looks lifeless, I thought to myself again and again and it pains me.My feet slowly drags me inside the room as my heart was getting heavier each time I get close towards where Merry was, My entire body was still completely shaken up with what I was witnessing what happening to her with questions fogging my head wondering what really happened to her.I can really feel my whole body quivering in fear, despair and weakness while my lips were trembling as I call out her name softly, “M-Merry…” My soft voice escapes my lips,“Sir, we request you to make way.” The medic instructed me.I shake my head vigorously because he cannot just leave
CHAPTER 90ANOTHER SONGSan Siro Stadium, BrazilThe crowd cheers for Harry as soon as he finished another song.His fans chanting his name continuously was ringing in his ear.The entire stadium was filled with girls screaming, chanting and cheering for him while he keeps a forced smile plastered on his face as he mouthed the words, “Thank you.”Despite how he loves entertaining his fans and performing on stage in front of people who paid this entire event just to see him, his mind was elsewhere and he couldn’t stop himself from doing so. It was evident in his eyes that he was searching through the front row near the stage if America had arrived, but she hasn’t. She was still not around and it made him even much more worried.He was not liking it especially that he hasn’t talked to Jordan about any updates regarding Merry.“I tried calling Ginny earlier and she said there was an emergency.” Those words keeps invading his thoughts making him feel uneasy on stage.“You are a lovely aud
CHAPTER 89.1“Useless?” He subtly moves his upper torso. “Have I ever made you feel like that? I’m sorry if--”“No no no. It wasn’t any of your fault. Like I said, I am grateful for you.”“So why do you feel useless?”“Because I always depend on you. I depend on you when I get out of bed, I depend on you when I need a shower, when I need to go somewhere, when I need to pee, when I need to clean myself as embarrassing as it has always been, when I change my clothes, every thing. Every single thing that I do that are basic things I need for myself on a daily basis, you’re doing them all for me.”“I don’t mind doing them.”“But I do.” I sobbed. “I do mind.”“I.. I’m sorry.” He says with a soft voice as we were now sitting on the bed while he tries to comfort me while wrapping his arms around me tight. “I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. Am I invading too much of your personal space?”I shake my head, “You don’t understand.”He pulled himself away and cups my face, “Then allow me to u
CHAPTER 89 IT WASN'TA M E R I C AMt. Sinai Hospital, North CarolinaHours before the wedding day“Are you sure you don’t want me in there with you?” Harry questions.I gave him a reassuring smile as I squeezed his hand a little bit, “I will be fine.”“So why you don’t want me in there with you?”“I just want to ask him a few things.” I answered nervously.“Like?” He asked.I pressed my lips together, “You trust me, don’t you?”“Of course.” Harry answers quickly.“Then trust me on this. It’s nothing serious.” I responded.He exhales heavily and felt him kissing the back of my hand. I love when he does that to be honest. He tells me, “Okay. I will wait here.”I smiled at her, “Thank you.”Harry walks me to the doctor’s office as he greeted us as soon as we entered his room. The doctor offered us a seat right away while Harry assist me before he plants a kiss on my hair. “I’ll be waiting right outside.”I nodded and smiled at him. I listened to his footsteps which were then followed b