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2020-11-11 13:24:56Few days passed by, I asked him a lot of times to send the syllabus but he didn't. He didn't even cared to reply, left most of my messages on seen. So I decided to let him go. I can't help him now.
Diwali was next week. I was busy shopping for me and my family. Shopping is like drug to me and I decide what everyone in my family will buy.
Kevin - Hi.
Kevin- check your whatsapp.
Kevin has sent you 2 pdfs- notification.
Kevin- I have sent you pdfs, please start preparing notes, my kt exam date is out its on 10th next month.
I turned my internet off. What is this behavior? I asked him to send me the syllabus beforehand. DIWALI is next week, my house is full of guest. What was he thinking?
I already had downloaded the syllabus from the college website and prepared notes for 50% of syllabus. But he is not going to get them easily, i stayed up who
Kaugnay na kabanata
LR-19 - Just another classroom Angry me
After returning from my trip, I spent two days on bed. Final exams starts next week so I had to work hard, the syllabus was huge and I haven't even started yet.I opened my syllabus and sink deeper into my bed. Why do I have to learn 13 metabolic processes taking place in our body, with the structures of organic compounds, when our body do it itself."I am not in medical, make doctors learn that. And what’s up with chick embryology, these drawings looks like disintegrated vaginas." I yelled.Anyway I had to cover this up, I worked my ass off coz I don't wanna fail (I never failed before) and Metabolism I hate you with all of my heart. Kevin texted me before his kt exam, but then suddenly stopped talking. Like what the hell? Then I thought may be he is just worried for exams. Its better not to bother him.On the first exam, I entered the college and called him. He told me to look on my left where he was
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom Oxytocin attack
It was a weekend. I was in a cafè with Dhruv and Rosh…. "So you gave him entry card? He can just walk in and out of your life as per his wish? And YOU with 'ego' let him do that? " Sneered Rosh. "Yes, I agree. I don't remember you forgiving people so easily, after been left on 'seen' for like 15 days." Added Dhruv. "Remember when she stopped talking to us when-" said Rosh but I interrupted. "I know okay. I don't know why I did that. But everything is back to normal" I said. "Kavya, rip the bandage off" said Dhruv. "I think I like him, a little, a soft corner" I said. "Ohhhhhh" unison. "How little do you like him?" Asked Dhruv "Do you want to be in relationship with him?" Asked Rosh curiously. "No. You know how suffocating relationship are and I have already learned my lesson." I said. "But you are attracted?" Added Dhruv. "YES" "Does he knows yet?" Asked Rosh. "NO" I rep
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom Lesbian card
I tried to suppress my emotions. The more I suppressed the more i was drawn to him. He was in my mind most of the time. I liked being with him. And he liked it too. Everyday he checked me out whenever I entered the class. I was walking to the class using my phone. I was chatting with rosh, "OMG! Are you wearing a kurta?" Grasped kevin. I looked up. He was standing outside the class, in the corridor, the same place from where I saw him the first time. "Yeahhhh" i said casually. "Are you blushing?" He put his hands on my shoulders, and shrugged me. "Whatever. Why are you standing outside? What about the lecture?" I was confused. "Lecture got cancel" he said still checking me out. "Kevin stop now" i said shyly. Shyly? Yes shyly. I didn't knew i have this side of me. "Ohh.. you look beautiful" he said making me visibly blush. I felt my cheeks burning and oxytocin level rising. "Thankyou." I said.
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom Dominant him
Me- kevinnnnnnnnn…. Guess what? Me- i played my lesbian card today on chand. Seen no reply. Me- you dared me okay. Don't behave like a baby now. Kevin- Kavya, I don't know what to say. Kevin- you don't know how it feels. Me- Feel what? Kevin- Exactly my point. You don't feel. Me- what do you mean? Kevin- Nothing. Good night. So he is frustrated because he trigged me on the first place. Okay yes i agree i talked to the cute guy but what's a big deal, he was boring and i clearly said i am not interested in him. Men are so difficult sometimes. The next day, I reached early, half and hour early. I waited for him in class. After 15mins he came and sat beside me. "Hello handsome" I chirped looking at him. "Hi beautiful" he replied without even looking at me. He was still bothered. "Someone is not in mood." I said pinching him. "Kavya stop." He shouted. I back
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom Unwanted guests
It was weekend. I spent my whole day binge watching the series and sleeping. I was hormonal. Periods really suck the energy out of me. It takes a lot to control my emotions but i manage, up to some extent. "Go directly to your bed. Your aunt will be here tomorrow, and you have to pick her up from railway station." My mom ordered after i finished my dinner. "Which one?" I was really annoyed now. " My older sister" she chirped clapping her hands. "I am not going to pick anyone up." I said shaking my head. I went straight to my Papa's room, and mumma followed yelling at me. "Ask your daughter to behave." Said my mom looking at papa. "Yeah, he only contributed while making me, you just baked me in your oven for nine months" I said sarcastically. Wrong choice of words in wrong place. "She is not a child, she has to behave herself. What about her responsibilities?" Mom snarled. Papa got out of the room when hi
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom Yes or no?
The past few days, i tried to distant myself from him but failed miserably. Everytime i look at his face, my heart melts. He has asked me to think, and all i did was to avoid thinking. I don't want to think… He grew more protective, holding the small of my back when someone looks at me, not allowed me to sit on the railing of balcony.He did small things but i never failed to notice them. Professor kay was teaching us… "People tend to consume steroids in order to built muscles and that greatly affect the gental organs" spoke kay firmly. He was incharge of teaching everything realted to reproductive organs and such topics. He was pretty good at it. "And i have heard they also have small length" whispered carol in my ear from behind, loud enough for kevin to listen. Kevin turned and wink at her. Ohhh i know this. I know who she is referring. I ignored her comment. "Consuming steroids also affect the sperm count in males, which ul
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom On hold
We took our time for few days. As each day passed the more i was attracted to him. The cultural fest came. He was busy with his pre- shooting. But never left my side for more than 10 mins. It was awkward standing between boys, when he and his fellow mates are discussing the shoot and schedule. They would pop out from nowhere and start showing him some presentations. Most of the time I excused myself but sometimes he would put his hand on the small of my back and stop me. I always wondered why. I never liked his team. "You know, i hate them. Just ask them to meet you in alone and not when i am with you." I complained. "I know. It was just 5 mins talk." He said. "Whatever." I sighed. We were walking back to our class after the lunch break. Half of which was wasted by his team. "Finally the couple is back." Teased carol. "We are not." Both me and kevin in unison. "But we can be." He said in my ear.
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25LR-19 - Just another classroom Relationships with conditions
Its been 8 months here. I never thought my life would change so much. I am happy.i have fallen for him. But i still am afraid of relationships. Commitments. Kevin- Hi beautiful. Me- hello… Kevin- Are you free? Me- sure. Kevin- I miss you. Me- we were together like 5 hours ago. College remember? Kevin- i know. Kevin- Do you trust me? Me- Not at all Kevin- I am serious. Kevin- we have known each other for 8 months now. And we both like each other. Kevin-Be mine kavya. Will you be mine? Omg omg omg He finally asked me. Officially. A lot of thoughts were running in my mind. Afraid of commitments was above all. But I can't be afraid forever. I mean i can't. I have to get it over with. Adrenaline was at its peak. Kevin- kavya? Kevin- listen. Just listen to your heart. Tears rolling down my cheeks. A little voice holding me back shouting No.
Huling Na-update : 2021-02-25
Pinakabagong kabanata
LR-19 - Just another classroom Coincidence?
Finally I am here. I always wanted a solo trip and i am here. After working my ass off for 6 years after graduation i finally managed to gather money and convenience my dad. I wanted to have a solo trip with my money. I still am convincing my dad to let me buy my own house, he will understand soon. Soon that what it feels to be independent. Soon that I don't want a guy to buy me stuff. Soon that i can buy myself a diamond ring. I am in International cruise right now. Sipping my wine, watching the mesmerizing hues of sky. Enjoying myself in my perfect world. "Kavya?" I heard a voice calling me from behind. I don't recognise that voice. I looked back, no- one looking particularly at me. "Kavya" i heard again. I saw a man standing near the pool. I recognise him. "Kevin?" I was shocked. "Indeed." He said walking towards me. " Honey" a small voice came behind him. He turned around and hugged a girl. "Meet my wif
LR-19 - Just another classroom Awkward staring
I love my life again. I broke up with him two weeks ago. I can't say I don't miss him. He was in front of me for 6 hours a day. He was not regular in the class. After 2 days of my stunt I apologised to him. Now because what i said, but because in what state i said. It would have gone well if i was sober. But you can't expect normal from me now. Do you? He kept staring at me most of the time. It was like he was longing to talk to me but his ego was stopping him. whatever the reason was, he was not acting mature. I thought Armaan and raaj will stop talking to me after our breakup but turned out they supported me. They talked with us both, kevin and me. Raaj tried to convince both me.and him to talk maturely. I agreed but he didn't. He will eventually come around. Kevin was pretty much angry with his friends talking to me. Even carol stopped talking to him and that amused me. I felt bad for him but deep down i knew he deserves this. He left his friends
LR-19 - Just another classroom Day 1, drunk ; Day 2 single
Its been few days. I haven't talked to him properly, the last time i talked to him was when he took me armaan and raaj out together. I was not comfortable with him acting my bf, i was upset. "Are you two good?" Asked raaj. "Yes absolutely" answered kevin.Raaj looked at me and I rolled my eyes. "Kavya can you send me the link of that free books app?" Asked raaj. "Sure." I said when kevin spoke. "Look Bella upload the picture of her cake. I wish I could eat that. I loved the food made by her." Chirped kevin. I sat there uncomfortable. Raaj and armaan looked at me. "Ohh that's fine. Kavya is not among that cringe gfs who fights on such topics." He said laughing. Yeah I don't fight bit it bothers me. ------------ Today is shivratri. The hindu festival. And marijuana is served as prasad. I drank too. After drinking i entered my room and laid on bed. I couldn't stop thinking. As I got high, the anger inside
LR-19 - Just another classroom Carol's birthday
Harry and carol were waiting for kevin amd me in a place called Hyderabadi hut, which served best non-vegetarian dishes. Kevin and I left the college together and brought a cake on the way. I was gifting her a traditional top and kevin paid for cake. We entered the place. It was dark themed restaurant with blood red and black seats. I immediately loved the place. We saw them sitting on the far corner. "Happy Birthday my girl." I chirped and hugged her. I felt kevin's hand on my back. "Happy birthday" he wished. And shook hand with harry. "Hi harry." I greet him We sat on the couch together, kevin and me. I chatted with love birds for a while and saw kevin busy in his phone. I moved my hand on this knee in order to tell him that what he was doing is rude but as i touched him he hold my hand. He interwiend his fingers in mine and placed his phone on the table. It bring back the memories of Kay's lecture, how he seduced me that
LR-19 - Just another classroom His pattern
The more I talked to bella the more she told me about him. A part of me wanted to believe her, another wanted to hold onto him. My personal life was ligetly mixed with college life only my professional life was separate. He continued to introduce me with his friends for few more days… "Kavya do you remember? I told you about how a guy came few days back to see my sister." He entered the class in lunch break. "Where were you? I literally called you like 10 times." I asked. He fold his hands on his chest. "Yeah I remember. They are going to be engaged next month. I know." I replied. "Well, he backed off. He said he don't want my sister." He said. "Just like that?" I asked. "Yes. Someone called him and told about my sister's last relationship and he without even asking-" "Calm down okay." I consoled him. He told me everything. How it happened and how his sister is depressed. He kept talking and i listened
LR-19 - Just another classroom Caught in act
I still trust him. May be what I talked with Bella was lie, I can't stop trusting my loved ones because of an outsider. Everytime he hold my hand, my hands went cold. At this point, the nightmare was turned into day-mares. He ushered me out of the class and asked mw.to wait for him. I was replying to sometexts when he returned with few boys. I remember few faces, they were his work mates. "Kavya, i want to introduce you to my team." He said excitedly. Nooooooooooooooo "This is udaiy" he spoke placing his hand on my back I smiled and shook his hand. "This is jay" I nodded and shook hand "This is Parth and his girlfriend" i nodded. "And this is my kavya, my girlfriend." He finally completed. I thought we were going to keep this hidden. They talked for a while and I stood there awkwardly. I don't want to be here. Why did he introduce me with them. I don't like this. I looked at kevin and he understood my discomf
LR-19 - Just another classroom An outburst of truth
I entered the class next day, kevin was in good mood. He squized my hand and whispered "we need to talk" "What? I mean yes, what is is it?" I asked. "Calm down babe." He winked. "No seriously what is it?" I asked again. "I got a contract, i will be in UDAIPUR for 2 days next week." He informed me. He was so happy, it made me smile. "Congratulations" i hugged him. "We are in class babe, All this can wait calm down." He pinch my arm. I laughed. The lecture started, I couldn't shake the feeling of being guilty. I felt weak. I looked at him. He is happ. " Are you okay? You look tired." He asked. "Yeah, why you ask?" I replied. "Your eyebags tell different story" i whispered. "Its nothing." I looked away. "I will give my 100 percent" "Kavya, i don't know about you but i don't feel like i am relationship" he asked me out of the blue. When we were walking in college gar
LR-19 - Just another classroom Turn down
Stop" i shouted. I felt myself being lifted up. He threw me on his shoulders. "Jaan, don't act now." He laughed. "I said stop" i shout again. "We have needs, jaan" he said throwing me on the bed. I can't breath. My thoughts are all over the place. I felt a hand on my waist. I opened my eyes. I was breathing loudly, i was panicking. I looked around, it was my room. Arjun was sleeping beside me. "Nightmare" i whispered and got off the bed. My top was wet with sweat. I walked out and entered the kitchen. Gulping down the water i decided to sit on the swing, which was on our terrace. Tears rolled down my eyes. "Jaan" i repeat. I pulled my legs to my chest and started sobbing. After few minutes I heard footsteps climbing up. I immediately composed myself. "Kavya, what happened? Are you okay?" Asked my father. "Yes,papa. Why are you up?" I replied. "I don't know, I couldn't sleep. Why are you up? An
LR-19 - Just another classroom Romance in class
Its been 5 days in relationship. We are taking it slow, thanks to me. The first 2 days were awkward because now we can't just say 'look that one is cute' or 'ohh this girl is hell' or 'that guy is handsome'.We decided to keep this thing secret and not tell anyone. I entered the class, raaj was looking at me and smiling widely. He has been smiling at me for last 2 days. What up?I smiled back."Kevin?" I said."Hi darling" he said"Ssssssss…..class" i reminded him. I asked him not to call me with nick names here. "Ohh hi hitler" he laughed."Why is raaj smiling at me?" I asked. He looked at raaj. Then at me again."Umm… i don't know" he looked away. I raised my eyebrows."Okay he knows." He confessed."And?" "Armaan ""Chruch friends" "Best friend" I sighed."Are you ashamed of being in relationship with me?" He asked out of the blue.
