Happiness is the only emotion a broken soul can't seem to experience. They can only dream of it and hopefully find serenity to fill the void, with the hopes of one day being able to feel it in their being. Akaiia Bleau Stepanova, is she destined to feel this brokenness forever or does her initial definition even begin to cover what true brokenness feels like? Let the flames of life and death drain my essence. An evil thought that grinds in my brain since I heard of my sentence. A bitterness that made himself at home inside of me. Sometimes I just wish I could change my fate, but yes it is just wishful talk. My story is one full of emotion. Treason, hate, love and pretend. A wild combination, you might say. .... "I do." She says with the most beautiful smile, one that even reaches her eyes. One so rare and truly beautiful to witness. "Aiden River King, what is your answer? Do you take Akaiia Bleau Stepanova as your lawful wedded wife?" The priest questions. As soon as I'm about to answer a voice I remember to clearly ego's through the church walls. ... The tears staining her eyes are like daggers in my chest.
View More"Hello." I answer. It's better if I keep my side short and amiable. I've said what I wanted to say."I thought over what you'd said." He says. His tone of voice is indifferent to the decision that is made."Have you come to a conclusion?" I ask. My voice is stoic. Not giving away a single indication about the whirlwind of emotions rushing through my body right this instant."Me and Amia came to a decision that it would be best for me to visit them once a week. She knows the love I have for you overpower anything in this world. So if it is okay with you, can I come back home tonight?" To say that I'm surprised about this quick change of heart is an understatement. "No. I need some time to figure out what I want to do going forward. You have a child now, with another woman. A woman whom I called my best friend. The same woman who tried to murder me and successfully killed my unborn children. It's safe to say I need some time on my own to clear my mind."
How I wished for the woman I love most dearest in this world to have suffered less pain than was dealt to her. You know how people wish to help carry the burdens of their beloved? That's how I feel about her load. But the myth is, would I have ever been strong enough to combine the cards I've been dealt with her hefty load or would I succumb under the pressure? •●•"Well are you going to keep us standing on the doorstep or invite us in?" Noah asks while holding onto a squirming newborn covered in a fluffy pink blanket with little embroidered silver stars on it. The sight of them broke my heart. Leading my trail of thoughts to a dark place, a place of loss, grief and a massive explosion of cold brutal pain. Having Amia stand next to him with the brightest smile she can possibly muster rubbed even more salt in my already raw and still open wound. Without waiting for a reply to his request. Noah pushes me to the side as he makes his way into the h
It's been three days since the baby's birth and my hospitalisation. My stats regulated throughout the night hours after my panic attack and I was lucky to be discharged the next day. Liam has been so kind as to move in with me until I find my groove again. He has truly been a great support and an ease to mom's conscience of leaving her darling daughter alone, because she has to meet with dad for business in Sydney as well. For the determined woman she is, I'm shocked that Liam could persuade her into leaving me in his capable hands. A mother like son is probably the best way to map out their mannerism. They can be equally persuasive, so indeed it should not be a shock in the least.The true hardship, other than my medical status at the moment, that weighs heavily down upon my heart is the absence of Noah, my husband. I haven't seen him since that morning in the hospital next to Amia and their daughter. The image of them imprinted in my brain gives me a consta
"Liam?" I ask dumbfounded at the tall, blonde haired man in front of my hospital bed. "Long time no see?" He says. His voice was deeper than what I can remember. Time flies by quickly, it has to be almost five years since we last saw each other. "No kidding." I say. It looks like he had gotten around to take good care of himself. "I'm glad to see you in great shape.""Wish I could say the same to you.""I felt that," I say lightheartedly. "I would have placed my hand on my heart, but I think it is in favour for me to just lie still until the doctor, here," I say smiling at Dr. Richardson. "gives me the clear to take back life by the horns again.""I'm glad to see you haven't lost your sense of humour along with everything that happened, sis." He says and it almost felt heartfelt and emotional."Since when have you been one for emotional praise?""Well, let me see." He says placing his hands in his pants pockets. "Since I almost lost you, Icy." He s
I wish I could say life is blossoming for me, but that would be a far fetched lie. A very contradicting one to the truth. They say a baby is a blessing. A new pure life brought into this world of sin. But then I question, has the sin engulfed Amaya-Blaze? She was brought into this world by great betrayal, a grave sin. The betrayal of a lover and a best friend.•●•June 25th, 2000"It's a baby girl."She whaled on until the doctor placed her on Amia's bare chest. Noah stood beside them in awe of the moment. His right hand clenched in the grip of hers, while the other feather touched the baby's hair – a blonde bush of soft curls. Then the one action that shattered me into millions.Amia turned to look at Noah and he stared at her with an expression I didn't recognise – was it because he hasn't looked at me, his lawfully wedded wife, in that manner before or was it just something that hasn't been done in this universe? I decide to
June 25th, 2000"Breakfast is ready!" I yell towards the stairs. It will just be a minute before Noah's receding form will be visible on them.We have since moved into a new house in Noho. Quite the upscale life, it is the first place that has called to me with a feeling of warmth, honey even. The perfect house to start a family.Stark white walls were something I have always searched for in a home. The steel stair rails coloured a dark wooden brown brings warmth to the space. The massive atria skylight reflects so much natural light and in the nights the sky is a magnificent view, one can only wish for a star filled evening to leave you in a state of admiration. The place of new beginnings, 27 Great Ambrose Street, a traditional cast-iron loft, the duplex also has oversized windows, original wood-beamed ceilings, contemporary finishes, and views of the surrounding neighbourhoods and all the way down to the World Trade Centre.What more can I ask for?
May 20th, 2000Today me and Noah returned from our honeymoon. Paris was beautiful. We did so many fun things together, sightseeing and fun trips all over. We even had dinner on the eiffel towerHe made me feel like I'm the only person walking on the face of earth. A special feeling indeed which I'm still busy trying to try and comprehend, I am not even going to attempt to put it in words. It is something one needs to experience oneself to understand how I feel.The day of the wedding was surreal. Everything was done precisely the way I wanted things to be. My dress was the first thing to bring tears to my eyes. It was everything and more when I laid my eyes upon it. I'm not the traditional girl, I'm futuristic, or that is at least how I see myself. Therefore I didn't want to marry in a white dress, but like every good daughter I had to compromise with my mother. Her precise words to me was, "
That day when Noah walked out on me, leaving me rattled with my own thoughts, I knew it was time for me to build my strength and start living once again, for there is no one more important than myself.No more divided attention and ensuring that all the people in my life feel cared for. They kept taking and taking and me, silly old me kept on giving until there was nothing left to give. I am left as a hollow shell filled with an empty void that the world so kindly provides.I need to stop being so kind to all. People, in this modern era we live in, only use you and afterwards when they have taken all that's needed from you they make it their personal duty to discard you, kick you to the curb the instant they get what they wanted.Such a tragedy. It has been a month. My father finally decided to take me to the countryside where he grew up as a child in Italy. When I told him and my mother about Noah they knew marrying is not in the cards for me in this lifetime. They knew the deep lo
The world me and you live in is a bitter place where sweet things can happen. To some of us life is a gracious pleasure you were lucky enough to stumble upon on your way, but to others it can be the hell on earth most talk about. Not all of us have the before mentioned, but are rather loaded with the heavy load of barring the latter. We all have options in life and therefore need to make decisions with the wisdom handed to us by the Lord.Each and every choice affects more than just the people you directly inflict an obstacle at. That day Amia decided to jump in bed with her bestfriend's boyfriend; the rifles of that splash not only reach them, but a generation who haven't even been born yet. When she decided to pull a hit and run, Isabella could have died if it wasn't for Allé. She called the ambulance on time, she made sure that our Bella was taken care of. It's time that we look into ourselves and stop our selfish ways. Stop making choices only considering yourself and start m
My world is a mapped out labyrinth. A seemingly impossible quest to find anything in the latter. Something so simple for others, but to me an unobtainable thing.Serenity, the one thing I yearn for since I can remember.Right in the centre of all the chaos and destruction, I dare to say, was brought upon me by my beloved ones. In a world as dark and cunning as mine one would think to take the first opportunity and get away from it all. All the anger and desires burning one from the inside and starting anew. Well my situation is a bit more complex for me to just run away and never look back.'Oh how wonderful that would have been to leave my life behind for a new beginning.' Some things are just not meant for some people.To be strapped down and limited by one's own body is punishment enough for all the sins one does commit throughout life – how long or short it might be.It is quite interesting how my story had begun even before my time. A life beyond all boundaries some might say.
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