Chapter 3

Kat pov

"you need to eat kat",He says watching me as I pick at my cuticles. I focus on my nails the food makes me want to puke. Looking at him makes me sick to my stomach. Looking at him at all will end with me in tears.

"not hungry Jonathan",I offer not looking up at him. He disgust me so why look up and see the hate he has for me. I hear him sigh as he sits beside me. I flinch. I fucking flinch hard and want to flee. Why is he sitting near me?

"well you need to eat in case your pregnant",He growls. Wow how thoughtful I think looking at the food. I don't want to be pregnant.

"I will eat when I'm hungry right now I just want to go relax in my room",I say looking at the wall. He goes to touch me and I jump up and hustle away. Fuck him I dealt with his terrible shit yesterday. I make to my room before the heartache hits I let him have my virginity and I got nothing in return. My vagina still hurts and my heart feels broken. I'm still bleeding something Dina my wolf has been healing she said I had tears down there. He was so rough I'm surprised I didn't bleed to death or have worse tearing. I'm surprised I didn't need stitches.

I just want to leave this isn't what I was told a mate would do. I was told he would love me and cherish me. I feel absolutely terrible as I hurry to wash again. I soak in the tub and cry again I swear I've done nothing since I met him but cry. I shave slowly and wash gently. Getting out I sigh again and dry my sore body. I'm bruised as well but I just ignore it. I don't even want to look at my body.

How am I suppose to put up with him forever or at least till I die. I wrap the towel around my body and head out. I freeze seeing Jonathan in my room sitting on my bed. My whole body freezes as he stares at me

"Kat",He begins. I don't want to even look at him.

"No just leave me alone please",I say hurrying to my walk in closet. I pick out my most comfortable loungewear set. I dress without wincing but I am still sore. I cover my body up not wanting him seeing me at all.

"Come out Kat",He orders. I sigh I have nowhere to run and escape him. I reluctantly come out scared of him.

"Please just leave me alone you done enough",I utter trying not to sob. I want to break it is right there at the surface. Tears I'm trying to keep in are right there.

He walks in as I'm wrapping my hair in the towel. I won't look at him cause I'm not in the mood to see disgust again. He freaking moaned her name the whole time he fucked me and that fact still hurts. I go to move around him when I hauled into his arms and smashed into his massive chest. I panic. I feel it and I try to break free. I don't want him this close to my body.

"Please let go",I beg. I'm scared he may want more sex. I want him away from me and my body. He didn't take care of me and my first sexual experience was fucking brutal and gross. I hate how disgusted and dirty he made me feel last night.

"Just listen Kat",he says softly. I can't listen not yet I just want him away from me. He makes me sick.

"No I listened. I listened while you moaned her name. I listened while you said how much you can't stand me. I gave you my virginity and I got nothing but pain in return. You could of just rejected me I could of found a mate that actually wants me",I say shaking. I'm shaking so bad my teeth chatter.

I feel his hands rubbing my back and I stiffen up. So now he wants to show gentleness. I try to break free but I can't due to him holding me tight to him. Giving up I stand as still as a statue as he hugs me tight to him. I don't hug back or move a muscle. I stand still giving up. I don't move and I don't even acknowledge he is hugging me.

"I'm sorry",He rasps against my ear trying to soothe me. I try to hold in my tears but the dam breaks and I start sobbing. I try to get away but he holds on. I panic when he goes to lift me up and walk to my bed. I fight in fear I don't want to go there at all. I can't deal with it again..I can't. My breathing goes ragged as fear takes hold.

"Calm down Kat I won't take you",He soothes. He sits holding me as I continue crying. I hurt everywhere and nothing he does helps. I leave his lap and curl up on

my bed clutching my pillow. I feel him behind me and I try to scoot away. I don't need him touching me cause he only brings pain. He brings what I don't need or want. I hate him so much right now. My wolf howls in pain as I break.

"I'm sorry baby",He murmurs but I can't talk he really hurt me and I don't trust him at all. I shudder and lay staring at the wall. Jonathan keeps touching me and I hear Dina whimper even she is still hurting. We will be okay Kat just rest she murmured as I lay there. I just want him to stop touching me I think as more tears fall.

I don't think I can move past how much he hurt me and the idea about pups scares the hell out of me. So not looking forward to the future with him.

I could already be pregnant. A fact that scared the shit out of me even more. A fact I can't face right now. I don't want him near me but he hasn't left.

I just want him to walk out the door so I can sob till I pass out. Having a mate that loves another I'd enough to destroy you beyond repair.

He is still not over his dead mate and I get to suffer for it.

I just want out.