Amari VannYour dad is amazing baby.I kept saying that in my head na parang sure na sure akong naririnig at naiintindihan ako ng anak namin.He opened the door for me, inalalayan nya ang ulo ko to ensure na hindi ako mauuntog and as much as I try to hide it, ay tila nasa ulap ang puso ko ngayon.He defended me again in front of everyone, not just everyone but in front of his family.His mom and dad along with Hazel quickly came over to us nung papalabas kami, they didn't expect that Victor guy will do that. Sabi ni mommy ay sadyang mayabang daw iyong pinsan nya kaya sya na lang ang humming ng tawad on his behalf.Tahimik na tumabi sa akin si Art, pinaandar na ng driver namin ang sasakyan. Habang nasa biyahe ay ramdam ko pa rin ang seryosong aura ni Art. I decided to remain quiet pero panay-panay ang pagsilip ko sa kanya.Nakakunot ang noo nitong bumaling sa akin kaya nagulat ako at nagbaba ng tingin."Are you seriously going to drink that wine?" may bahid ng inis sa tono nito."Ha?"
Art Theodore"I care about your interests and your voice." I looked around to look at everybody. "That's why I am here today dahil narinig ko kayo mga kababayan, at ipinapangako kong hindi kayo mag iisa sa muling pagbangon natin mula sa nangyaring sakuna rito sa Vista Querencia."Saglit akong napatigil ng makita ko si Amari sa gilid kasama ang ilang mga staff ko. I already asked her to come with me up here in the stage para masigurado kong hindi sya magigitgit sa baba pero she said she don't want to be in the spotlight and she prefers to blend in as one of my staff.Matigas ang ulo ng babaeng iyan. Once she set her mind to it, she will do it at mahirap na syang kumbisihin. Masyado ko atang na spoil ito simula ng hindi na ako magsungit sa kanya. Well, I am afraid na baka marinig ako ng anak namin at lately ang bilis sumama ng loob at ang iyakin ni Amari, kaya talagang pinagbibigyan ko na lang sya.My heart did a weird skip when I saw her smiling widely and waving her hand to a baby na
Amari VannIt's December.Busiest month of the year. Sunod-sunod ang mga commitments ni Art, madalas ay isinasama naman nya ako pero kapag napakalalayo ng biyahe ay mas pini prefer nitong iwan ako dahil baka daw matagtag ako sa biyahe.Just like today, he is in the congress pero masaya ako dahil makakasama ko naman sya mamaya because his family will be hosting an annual Christmas ball."I am amazed" Hanna said while smiling at me."At bakit?" hindi ko sya nililingon dahil abala ako sa pagpili ng kulay ng vase. "Did you know how strict Art? Hindi nya pinapagalaw ang mga bagay na meron sya, but right now, he just let you redecorate his own house to your own choice" Napahinto ako at tiningnan si Hanna. I spoke with Art last week, sabi ko kasi his house looks dull dahil typical na black and white ang kulay nito, I suggested some pastel colors, actually hindi para sa buong bahay kundi para sa baby's room lang pero he said that I can redecorate the whole house and that is what we are doi
Art Theodore"Susmaryosep!"Mabilis na nabaling ang tingin ko nung magsalita si Nana Belen na nakapasok na pala sa kwarto ko, kasunod nito si Susan.Parehas silang nakatingin sa basag na salamin sa lapag."I want this gone, sinabi ko na ito more than a month ago" I tried to lower down my tone dahil ayokong mabasto si Nana Belen."Oo nga hijo pero kasi nahirapan kaming tanggalin lalo na nitong mga nakaraang linggo, hindi naman umaalis si Amari sa bahay, kaya minabuti na naming nandito kasi hindi mo rin naman madalas magamit itong opisina mo""Kukuha lang ako ng panglinis at basurahan" sabi ni Susan before she went and leave us alone."Hijo, ano bang nangyayari, mabuti na lang at maagang ipinasundo ni Hanna si Amari para maayusan kung hindi tiyak na nagulat iyon""Amari saw this Nana and I do not like the way she looked at me, Nana" I sat down on my table.I am totally confused with whatever I am feeling now, all I know is that there is a building fear inside me."Ano bang nararamdaman
Amari VannDahan-dahan ang naging pagbangon para hindi sya magising pero laking gulat ko ng mabilis ako nitong idagan ang isang binti nya sa akin at yakapin ako ng mahigpit.I can feel his chest on my back."Why are you up so early?" I heard him asked in a husky voice kasi kakagising nya lang."Bumangon ka na dyan, anong oras na" I told him but instead of an answer he just pulled me closer. "Art Theodore, bangon na""Why do you have to call me by my full name?" I heard him chuckle. "Napuyat ako kasi hindi mo ako pinatulog, gusto mo wag akong pipikit habang nanonood ka ng cartoons"Mabilis ko itong nilingon para kunutan ng noo."So, sinasabi mong pinilit kita? Akala ko ba gusto mo kaming samahan manood ni baby?""But our baby is still in your womb-"Naririnig nya na yan!" inis kong sabi dito.He just laughed and pulled me to kiss my forehead."Napakainit naman ng ulo ng misis ko na to"Kusang nag init ang mukha ko dahil sa ginawa nya, ang aga-aga naman kasi!Sa totoo lang ay parang na
Amari"I want to have carbonara for dinner" I told him pero hindi man lang ito tumingin sa akin. "Adi, sabi ko carbonara ang gusto kong kainin""Huh?" nag angat ito ng tingin sa akin. "What do you want to eat?"Umayos ako ng upo at binawi ang legs kong mina massage nya.He just got home from a long meeting pero he immediately went over to me kasi nakita nyang exhausted ako and I was complaining about my legs."Adi, is everything okay? May buma bother ba sayo? You can tell me" I told him.He looked at me straight in the eyes and he reached for my hand, when he finally have it, hindi sya nag alinlangan na ilapit iyon sa mga labi nya at halikan. He closed his eyes as if he is trying to recharge his self."Don't worry, wag ka ng mag-alala pa, exhausted lang ako sa trabaho pero ngayong nandito na ako sa bahay, I feel better"Gamit ang kabilang kamay ko ay dahan-dahan kong isinuklay iyon sa buhok nya."Nandito lang ako kapag pagod ka, kami ni baby""I love you both so much" he said it in a
Amari VannMy plan to ignore everything is obviously failing as the weeks go on. I'm starting to feel paranoid and my anxiety is building up.I received a package the next day, it is from Mira and inside it was the neck tie that Art was missing.I wanted to ask him, I wanted to get mad at him for not telling me anything pero natatakot ako na baka kapag kinompronta ko sya at nalaman ko ang totoo ay mas hindi ko kayanin.He said he is busy because of the upcoming election, to the point that there are days na hindi sya nakakauwi. God knows, I want to believe him but my mind is totally polluted by what Mira told me.I woke up from a bad dream, nagising akong pawis na pawis but I can't remember what I dreamed about pero hinahabol ko ang hininga ko. I reached out beside me to find Art pero hindi ko sya nakapa, mabilis kong binuksan ang lampshade and when the light lit up our room, it confirmed that my husband is not sleeping beside me.I immediately stood up kahit habol ko ang hininga ko, k
Hanna"Vann" I called her for the nth time pero nanatili syang nakatulala kaya lumapit ako sa kanya and sat down in front of her but it wasn't enough for me to get her attention. "Vann"She looked at me but I can't read anything from her facial expression. She is like this, nakatulala at tahimik lang and things will get worst at night dahil iiyak lang sya ng iiyak.She is staying with me after nya ma discharge sa ospital."Vann, we need to go na, kasi hinihintay ka doon, we need to say goodbye to Arthur na, so he can rest in peace""I want to rest in peace too""Vann, please don't say that, wag kang ganyan, wag kang sumuko, nandito ako, nandyan pa si Enzo"She bit her lip as her eyes started to water."Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pang ipagpatuloy ang buhay ko, hindi ko alam kung paano ako gigising sa umaga ng normal. I am supposed to be breastfeeding him, not burying him!"Mabilis ko syang niyakap at hinalikan sa ulo. I feel guilty dahil hindi sana nangyari lahat ito kung hindi ako kam
Art Theodore"Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans, the famous John Lennon said. I used to think otherwise dahil just like what everybody used to know about me, I like everything to be planned out, I do not like when things go the opposite way" I told everyone.It was just one regular day for me. I was just visiting one barangay to give some rice and groceries sa mga mamamayan.I was greeted by a lot of people except for one person who seemed to be lost in the crowd.I was simply trying to flirt with her but I guess it didn't work dahil nilayasan nya ako. That was the first time that somebody did that to me.I even asked myself kung bakit sobrang interested ako sa babaeng yun, but maybe it is because I am lonely, I just got out of a long term relationship with Mira.I don't know what made me attracted to her so bad. I thought we won't see each other again, but fate have its own way to play with people like me.I was so selfish to blame her and made it difficult for
Amari Vann"Mrs. Dela Cuesta, do you want to drop by anywhere before we head home?" one of Art's security asked me."Uh yeah, I want to go to this dessert cafe, may gusto si Tatiana na cheesecake" I told him and then I showed my phone.May kinausap sya gamit ang communication system nila, telling them that we will reroute dahil dadaan nga sa cafe.I was surprised by Art's announcement, hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa isip ng lalaking iyon pero hindi ko ipagkakailang natuwa talaga ako. He finally told everyone who am I to him. Dati, iniisip ko lang kung darating ba yung araw na magiging proud sya sakin at hindi na ako itatago sa publiko.I used to think that meeting him was a mistake, na ikinagulo lang ng buhay namin parehas ang pagkakamaling iyon but it turned out na, it was our fate. It is our destiny to be together, ang bumuo ng isang pamilyang parehas namin poprotektahan.I was lost in my thoughts and a loud sound made me deaf for a couple of seconds. I just felt the car makin
Amari Vann"I am delayed"That's what I told myself while staring at the mirror in the bathroom.What am I thinking? Sunod-sunod na kasi ang naging pangyayari that I literally ignored all of the symptoms.Just thinking about the possibility na buntis ako ay may matinding kabang bumabalot sakin.Art and I just got back and I don't know if it would be alright to surprise him with the news, if ever that I am.Naghilamos ako at nag decide ng bumaba para mag breakfast. I want to eat strawberry taho pero I know magiging hassle lang at kwestyonable kapag naghanap ako."Good morning mama!" masiglang bati sakin ni Tatiana.Mabilis naman na nagsilingunan ang mga taong kasama nitong nag aagahan. I smiled at them.Mabilis na tumayo si Art para salubungin ako, he immediately kissed the side of my head."Good morning Adi" he greeted me as he intertwined our hands guiding me to the dining table."Good morning po" I greeted everybody."Good morning hija, we are very thankful, you allowed us to visit
Amari VannMabilis kong pinahid ang takas kong luha. Ang emotional ko naman grabe.Art kneeled in one knee to level himself to Tatiana's height."Happy birthday, my princess""B-but are you really my papa?" That's the first word that came out of Tatiana's mouth. "Why didn't you tell me right away the moment that we met?"Art chuckled probably amazed by how witty my daughter is."Because I have to see first if you've been a good girl""And you still came even though I'm not a good girl" Tatiana's face is about to cry pero mabilis itong yumakap kay Art.The people around us started clapping as if they are on a show right now pero their claps slowly faded away as I focused on the two of them. Art was looking intently at Tatiana's face, memorizing every inch of it. He then turned his gaze to me and looked at me with a look that warmed my heart, he looked at me as if he is really proud how I raised Tatiana."Have you met Daddy Equinox? I think you and him will get along very well" Tatiana
Amari VannParang tinakasan ako ng lahat ng tapang at lakas ng loob ko ng marinig ko ang sinabi nya."She-she's not-"Please don't do that, Amari- we both know that she is mine, I don't know how this possible pero nararamdaman ko, the moment I saw her, ramdam kong akin sya so please just don't lie"I looked at Art and I can see confusion and frustration in his eyes."Art""Just please, I am begging you" he clasped both of his hands as if praying to me. "Anak ko yun diba?"Huminga ako ng malalim."Yes, Art. Tatiana is your daughter"Mabilis nyang naihilamos mula sa mukha nya papunta sa buhok nya ang mga palad nya and then he breathed in and out slowly as if calming himself."Aren't you going to ask how did I conceived Tatiana?"Tumingin sya sakin bago isinenyas ang kamay na magpatuloy ako."We stole your sperm donation for Mira years ago. Hanna was the one who brought it to me in Russia"His jaw literally dropped when I told him that na parang lahat iyon ay naging kasagutan sa mga tano
Nanatili ang paningin ko sa batang nasa harapan ko.Itinabingi pa nito ang ulo nya na parang nag-iisip din kagaya ko."I- I'm sorry, sir, baka nakukulitan ka na rito sa alaga ko" biglang sumingit yung nanny."No, it's fine" umayos ako ng tayo to get a better look.Ang imposible, napaka imposible ng nasa utak ko. Hindi ko napapansinb napapailing na ako."What did you say your name again?""I already said it mister, my name is as expensive as I am""Tati, let's go na hmm? Pasok na tayo ha tapos diba isusukat natin yung damit mo para sa birthday mo" her nanny told her.Nabigla ako ng magpapadyak ang bata."I told you nanny, I don't want to celebrate my birthday, I just want to go back to Russia!" pagkasabi nito ay mabilis nitong tinakbuhan iyong katulong.Mabilis naman itong sinundan ng huli and I remained on my position.Trying to erase the odd and impossible thought in my head.Maybe Amari just used some part of my name dahil lagi naman syang vocal how much she loves my name.I breath
Amari Vann"It's alright, Hazel" I told Art's sister while hugging her. "Tell Mommy Maureen that I forgive them, things happened and the only thing I or we can do is move forward""Ate Amari, sorry sa nagawa ni Kuya Art""Don't apologize on behalf of him, if I know your kuya don't feel sorry about what happened""Hindi ko talaga alam ang nangyari ate kasi alam naman namin that he only followed that woman to protect us, we can't believe as well na mabubuntis nya pala"Just hearing the last word send pain throughout my whole system."I can only wish your kuya happiness now, and give his freedom for their baby""Ate" halos maluha na ito. I hugged her one more time."Pursue your passion, hmm? Sige na, ipapahatid na kita" I told her and then she nodded.Nung maiwan ako ni Hazel ay syang pagpasok naman ni Equinox, looking so handsome dahil bago ang haircut nito."Ang gwapo mo naman senator""As always" mayabang nitong sagot kaya parehas kaming natawa."That's right, spend your time going on
Art TheodoreI was awakened by a soft knock in our door. A part of myself don't want to wake up but I know that I have to at some point.I pulled her closer to hug her tighter, gumalaw ang ulo nya kaya akala ko ay magigising sya pero hindi, she looks so tired and yet having her here brings peace sa panandaliang panahon.A knock interrupted my thoughts again kaya wala na akong nagawa kung hindi mag t-shirt para pagbuksan kung sino man ito. I covered Amari with the comforter dahil malamig pa rin sa kwarto.I opened the door to see Nana Belen, Ate Susan, and Lena at the door, all smiling brightly at me."Uhm g-good morning?" I gave them a confused eyes."Ay-ay good morning Kuya Art" Lena greeted me first."Good morning Art hehe" Ate Susan gave me an awkward smile."Magandang umaga hijo" Nana Belen greeted me. I nodded kaya naman tila natauhan ulit sila. "Anong gusto mong agahan?"Mas kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa tanong ni Nana dahil madalas naman alam nya na kung anong ihahain para sa alm
Amari Vann"I like the weather in here, mama"Nilagay ko ang cellphone ko sa bulsa ng coat ko pagkatapos kong magsend ng text message kay Art."I thought you prefer the winter in Russia" I asked Tatiana."Yes but the weather here in the Philippines is perfect for beaches and I want to go to the beach on my birthday" Tatiana jumped out of excitement."We'll go to the beach, anak""Will my papa come this time mama?"Parang kusang may kumurot sa puso ko dahil sa tanong nya.I knelt down to level myself so I can see her better."A-akala ko ba galit ka kay papa, you always say that-kaya akala ko""I am mad at him because he missed four birthdays already, he didn't bring me to school on my first day, I have no father on family day and even if I have Tito Rozen, Tito Raegan, Tito Enzo, and, Daddy Equinox,I feel like it would be better if I have my dad""Tati" mabilis kong niyakap ang anak ko."Can you tell him mama to stop flying airplanes for other people and just fly our private plane? I'l