Amari VannMy plan to ignore everything is obviously failing as the weeks go on. I'm starting to feel paranoid and my anxiety is building up.I received a package the next day, it is from Mira and inside it was the neck tie that Art was missing.I wanted to ask him, I wanted to get mad at him for not telling me anything pero natatakot ako na baka kapag kinompronta ko sya at nalaman ko ang totoo ay mas hindi ko kayanin.He said he is busy because of the upcoming election, to the point that there are days na hindi sya nakakauwi. God knows, I want to believe him but my mind is totally polluted by what Mira told me.I woke up from a bad dream, nagising akong pawis na pawis but I can't remember what I dreamed about pero hinahabol ko ang hininga ko. I reached out beside me to find Art pero hindi ko sya nakapa, mabilis kong binuksan ang lampshade and when the light lit up our room, it confirmed that my husband is not sleeping beside me.I immediately stood up kahit habol ko ang hininga ko, k
Hanna"Vann" I called her for the nth time pero nanatili syang nakatulala kaya lumapit ako sa kanya and sat down in front of her but it wasn't enough for me to get her attention. "Vann"She looked at me but I can't read anything from her facial expression. She is like this, nakatulala at tahimik lang and things will get worst at night dahil iiyak lang sya ng iiyak.She is staying with me after nya ma discharge sa ospital."Vann, we need to go na, kasi hinihintay ka doon, we need to say goodbye to Arthur na, so he can rest in peace""I want to rest in peace too""Vann, please don't say that, wag kang ganyan, wag kang sumuko, nandito ako, nandyan pa si Enzo"She bit her lip as her eyes started to water."Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pang ipagpatuloy ang buhay ko, hindi ko alam kung paano ako gigising sa umaga ng normal. I am supposed to be breastfeeding him, not burying him!"Mabilis ko syang niyakap at hinalikan sa ulo. I feel guilty dahil hindi sana nangyari lahat ito kung hindi ako kam
AmariHabang lumilipas ang bawat segundo ay syang mas dumudurog sa puso ko.Tuluyan ng natuyo ang sementong nasa puntod ng anak ko. Nakailang basa na ako ng pangalan nya sa lapida pero hindi ko magawang tanggapin sa sarili ko na talagang wala na sya.Why did it have to be you, anak?Hindi ko na alam kung ilang tao na ang lumapit sa akin para sabihing umuwi na ako at magpahinga pero natatakot akong umalis dito at maiwang nag iisa ang baby ko.Paano na lang kung malungkot at matakot sya kapag iniwan sya ng mama nya?"Amari" a voice called my name but I chose ignore it, dahil kilalang-kilala ko kung kanino galing iyon. "Amari, you have to go home"Instead of answering, I wiped the tears in my eyes bago ako tumingin sa paligid, malapit na palang magdilim pero hindi ko mahanap sa sarili ko ang tumayo at umalis sa puntod ng munti kong anghel.Nagulat ako ng malakas nya akong hawakan sa braso para maitayo. Mabilis akong pumiglas ng magtapat kaming dalawa."Leave me alone" matigas kong sabi s
Art"Why ka ba laging masungit, hindi ka naman ganyan dati, lagi kang gentle sa akin" Mira sat down in front of my table. Nagpangalumbaba ito at nilalaro ang buhok."Wala ka bang mga pasyente?" tanong ko sa kanya habang patuloy ako sa pagbabasa ng magiging campaign plan ko this year.If I get elected, I will become the mayor of this city. Three years quickly passed by but it feels like it was only yesterday when everything happened.The truth about my marriage with Amari, the death of our son and her leaving with no trace."You know what, Tita Maureen asked me if we have any plans to get married na, she is excited to have a grandchild na totoo""She have a grandchild. Arthur is her grandchild" nag iwas ako ng tingin, just by mentioning my son's name brings pain in to my heart."But he died na, isn't it time to forget and move forward?""Nababaliw ka na bang tunay? You want me to forget that I had a son?""That's what I want, dahil unang-una hindi mo sya anak sa akin, anak mo sya doon
Art"Akala ko pa naman ay girlfriend mo na yung dinala mo dito, tiyak maraming babae ang luluha" sabi ni VPThey walked closer kaya habang papalapit sila ay mabilis na kumakabog ang dibdib ko. What will happen? Will she yell at me?She is wearing a white coat, it feels like there is nothing underneath it dahil kita ang cleavage nito, something that she doesn't usually wear.Equinox offered his arms to ensure na hindi sya matatapilok dahil sa suot nyang heels.I was out of words, I couldn't say anything. Tatlong taon ko syang hindi nakita and now that she is back, I can't even compose myself."Bagay na bagay kayong dalawa, akala ko talaga ay girlfriend mo" dagdag ni VP."What makes you think that she is not my girlfriend?" Equinox asked kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.Are they together? Sys ba ang tumulong kay Amari?"Equinox"Ayun pala yung sinasabi nya pero halos tumalon ang puso ko ng marinig ko ulit ang boses nya."Okay, okay! Binasted nya na ako ng dalawang beses but they said the t
Amari"Kung hindi lang dahil sayo, I won't come to that party, hindi mo naman sinabi sa akin na nasa iisang party list kayo!" I told him pero parang hindi naman ito na bother at nagpatuloy lang ito ng pagsasalin ng kape sa baso nya."Sit down on the garden, I'll ask the maid to bring out your breakfast" seryoso nyang sabi sa akin."Bakit ang seryoso mo? Galit ka ba?" I asked Equinox.He looked at me before he sighed and drank his coffee."Hey, I'm asking you" I told him.He just came closer to me and looked at me intently before he went ahead to kiss the side of my head.I always pray that when he does that, that I would feel the same butterflies or yung kuryenteng naramdaman ko when I was kissed by Art.Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanya and touched his face. I tried to smile a little. Ilang dipa lang ang layo ng mukha ko sa kanya pero wala akong nararamdaman kundi ang pagkapayapa ng puso ko."What's wrong? hmm?" I asked him."I shouldn't have asked you to come home, I would love to be
Amari Vann"What the hell?!" napatayo ako dahil sa sinabi ni Hanna."Kumalma ka, you need to calm down, okay?" she told me bago pilit na ngumiti."Hanna, my goodness! Sabi ko na nga ba hindi dapat ako umalis ng Russia, kararating ko lang dito a few days ago tapos-Hinawakan ko ang ulo ko dahil parang puputok ang mga ugat ko sa inis."It is not fault okay? Ang daddy mo ang may kasalanan and all of your brother agreed kaya naman-Nag ring ang phone ko kaya I signalled her to stop talking."Hello?" I answered Hossam's call."My lady, the young mistress plane is about to arrive""What?! Goodness! How can she all control you like that?! I am on my way"Mabilis kong in-end ang tawag at tinawagan si Papa."Papa!""My dorogoy, it seems like you are not happy""Papa, why is she here?! I thought you can manage! You even allowed her to use our private plane""Dorogoy, you know that I can't say no to her, she just used her cute little eyes and I just found myself making sure she can fly to be wit
Art Theodore"Will you stop drinking?" mahinang bulong ko kay Mira."What babe?" tanong nito sa akin bago ngumiti. "Hindi naman po maglalasing, grabe ang strict naman"Gusto kong bawiin na lang ang sinabi ko dahil mali sya ng intindi. I don't want her to drink dahil baka gumawa na naman sya ng kahihiyan or worst baka ako pa ang utusang mag uwi sa kanya."Hija, you look lovely in your gown" napalingon kami sa dumating, it is her dad. Senator Ramon Soledad."Daddy! I look good in pink, right?""You always look good anak" nakangiti itong bumaling sa akin. "Bagay na bagay kayong dalawa"Spare me you old hag! I wouldn't be in here if you are not holding my mom and dad in their necks but kaunting panahon na lang, matatapos na rin ito."Where do we sit?" I asked them."Oh, we will be seating in front, we are VIPs in here, we will be seating along with the one who runs this show" mayabang na sabi ni Sen. Ramon.Nauna na akong maglakad papunta doon pero mabilis na kumapit sa braso ko si Mira p
Art Theodore"Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans, the famous John Lennon said. I used to think otherwise dahil just like what everybody used to know about me, I like everything to be planned out, I do not like when things go the opposite way" I told everyone.It was just one regular day for me. I was just visiting one barangay to give some rice and groceries sa mga mamamayan.I was greeted by a lot of people except for one person who seemed to be lost in the crowd.I was simply trying to flirt with her but I guess it didn't work dahil nilayasan nya ako. That was the first time that somebody did that to me.I even asked myself kung bakit sobrang interested ako sa babaeng yun, but maybe it is because I am lonely, I just got out of a long term relationship with Mira.I don't know what made me attracted to her so bad. I thought we won't see each other again, but fate have its own way to play with people like me.I was so selfish to blame her and made it difficult for
Amari Vann"Mrs. Dela Cuesta, do you want to drop by anywhere before we head home?" one of Art's security asked me."Uh yeah, I want to go to this dessert cafe, may gusto si Tatiana na cheesecake" I told him and then I showed my phone.May kinausap sya gamit ang communication system nila, telling them that we will reroute dahil dadaan nga sa cafe.I was surprised by Art's announcement, hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa isip ng lalaking iyon pero hindi ko ipagkakailang natuwa talaga ako. He finally told everyone who am I to him. Dati, iniisip ko lang kung darating ba yung araw na magiging proud sya sakin at hindi na ako itatago sa publiko.I used to think that meeting him was a mistake, na ikinagulo lang ng buhay namin parehas ang pagkakamaling iyon but it turned out na, it was our fate. It is our destiny to be together, ang bumuo ng isang pamilyang parehas namin poprotektahan.I was lost in my thoughts and a loud sound made me deaf for a couple of seconds. I just felt the car makin
Amari Vann"I am delayed"That's what I told myself while staring at the mirror in the bathroom.What am I thinking? Sunod-sunod na kasi ang naging pangyayari that I literally ignored all of the symptoms.Just thinking about the possibility na buntis ako ay may matinding kabang bumabalot sakin.Art and I just got back and I don't know if it would be alright to surprise him with the news, if ever that I am.Naghilamos ako at nag decide ng bumaba para mag breakfast. I want to eat strawberry taho pero I know magiging hassle lang at kwestyonable kapag naghanap ako."Good morning mama!" masiglang bati sakin ni Tatiana.Mabilis naman na nagsilingunan ang mga taong kasama nitong nag aagahan. I smiled at them.Mabilis na tumayo si Art para salubungin ako, he immediately kissed the side of my head."Good morning Adi" he greeted me as he intertwined our hands guiding me to the dining table."Good morning po" I greeted everybody."Good morning hija, we are very thankful, you allowed us to visit
Amari VannMabilis kong pinahid ang takas kong luha. Ang emotional ko naman grabe.Art kneeled in one knee to level himself to Tatiana's height."Happy birthday, my princess""B-but are you really my papa?" That's the first word that came out of Tatiana's mouth. "Why didn't you tell me right away the moment that we met?"Art chuckled probably amazed by how witty my daughter is."Because I have to see first if you've been a good girl""And you still came even though I'm not a good girl" Tatiana's face is about to cry pero mabilis itong yumakap kay Art.The people around us started clapping as if they are on a show right now pero their claps slowly faded away as I focused on the two of them. Art was looking intently at Tatiana's face, memorizing every inch of it. He then turned his gaze to me and looked at me with a look that warmed my heart, he looked at me as if he is really proud how I raised Tatiana."Have you met Daddy Equinox? I think you and him will get along very well" Tatiana
Amari VannParang tinakasan ako ng lahat ng tapang at lakas ng loob ko ng marinig ko ang sinabi nya."She-she's not-"Please don't do that, Amari- we both know that she is mine, I don't know how this possible pero nararamdaman ko, the moment I saw her, ramdam kong akin sya so please just don't lie"I looked at Art and I can see confusion and frustration in his eyes."Art""Just please, I am begging you" he clasped both of his hands as if praying to me. "Anak ko yun diba?"Huminga ako ng malalim."Yes, Art. Tatiana is your daughter"Mabilis nyang naihilamos mula sa mukha nya papunta sa buhok nya ang mga palad nya and then he breathed in and out slowly as if calming himself."Aren't you going to ask how did I conceived Tatiana?"Tumingin sya sakin bago isinenyas ang kamay na magpatuloy ako."We stole your sperm donation for Mira years ago. Hanna was the one who brought it to me in Russia"His jaw literally dropped when I told him that na parang lahat iyon ay naging kasagutan sa mga tano
Nanatili ang paningin ko sa batang nasa harapan ko.Itinabingi pa nito ang ulo nya na parang nag-iisip din kagaya ko."I- I'm sorry, sir, baka nakukulitan ka na rito sa alaga ko" biglang sumingit yung nanny."No, it's fine" umayos ako ng tayo to get a better look.Ang imposible, napaka imposible ng nasa utak ko. Hindi ko napapansinb napapailing na ako."What did you say your name again?""I already said it mister, my name is as expensive as I am""Tati, let's go na hmm? Pasok na tayo ha tapos diba isusukat natin yung damit mo para sa birthday mo" her nanny told her.Nabigla ako ng magpapadyak ang bata."I told you nanny, I don't want to celebrate my birthday, I just want to go back to Russia!" pagkasabi nito ay mabilis nitong tinakbuhan iyong katulong.Mabilis naman itong sinundan ng huli and I remained on my position.Trying to erase the odd and impossible thought in my head.Maybe Amari just used some part of my name dahil lagi naman syang vocal how much she loves my name.I breath
Amari Vann"It's alright, Hazel" I told Art's sister while hugging her. "Tell Mommy Maureen that I forgive them, things happened and the only thing I or we can do is move forward""Ate Amari, sorry sa nagawa ni Kuya Art""Don't apologize on behalf of him, if I know your kuya don't feel sorry about what happened""Hindi ko talaga alam ang nangyari ate kasi alam naman namin that he only followed that woman to protect us, we can't believe as well na mabubuntis nya pala"Just hearing the last word send pain throughout my whole system."I can only wish your kuya happiness now, and give his freedom for their baby""Ate" halos maluha na ito. I hugged her one more time."Pursue your passion, hmm? Sige na, ipapahatid na kita" I told her and then she nodded.Nung maiwan ako ni Hazel ay syang pagpasok naman ni Equinox, looking so handsome dahil bago ang haircut nito."Ang gwapo mo naman senator""As always" mayabang nitong sagot kaya parehas kaming natawa."That's right, spend your time going on
Art TheodoreI was awakened by a soft knock in our door. A part of myself don't want to wake up but I know that I have to at some point.I pulled her closer to hug her tighter, gumalaw ang ulo nya kaya akala ko ay magigising sya pero hindi, she looks so tired and yet having her here brings peace sa panandaliang panahon.A knock interrupted my thoughts again kaya wala na akong nagawa kung hindi mag t-shirt para pagbuksan kung sino man ito. I covered Amari with the comforter dahil malamig pa rin sa kwarto.I opened the door to see Nana Belen, Ate Susan, and Lena at the door, all smiling brightly at me."Uhm g-good morning?" I gave them a confused eyes."Ay-ay good morning Kuya Art" Lena greeted me first."Good morning Art hehe" Ate Susan gave me an awkward smile."Magandang umaga hijo" Nana Belen greeted me. I nodded kaya naman tila natauhan ulit sila. "Anong gusto mong agahan?"Mas kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa tanong ni Nana dahil madalas naman alam nya na kung anong ihahain para sa alm
Amari Vann"I like the weather in here, mama"Nilagay ko ang cellphone ko sa bulsa ng coat ko pagkatapos kong magsend ng text message kay Art."I thought you prefer the winter in Russia" I asked Tatiana."Yes but the weather here in the Philippines is perfect for beaches and I want to go to the beach on my birthday" Tatiana jumped out of excitement."We'll go to the beach, anak""Will my papa come this time mama?"Parang kusang may kumurot sa puso ko dahil sa tanong nya.I knelt down to level myself so I can see her better."A-akala ko ba galit ka kay papa, you always say that-kaya akala ko""I am mad at him because he missed four birthdays already, he didn't bring me to school on my first day, I have no father on family day and even if I have Tito Rozen, Tito Raegan, Tito Enzo, and, Daddy Equinox,I feel like it would be better if I have my dad""Tati" mabilis kong niyakap ang anak ko."Can you tell him mama to stop flying airplanes for other people and just fly our private plane? I'l