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It's Fine, I am Fine! The End
Lena I sighed with frustration once I saw my car behind the wired fence of the police pound yard. We came early to pick it up, since it got confiscated by the police the night, I drunk my sorrows away. It’s been two weeks since that awful day and I already avoided this matter for long enough. It had to be down today. “We are going to sell, right?” Max asked yet it wasn’t a question, as he knew me too well. “It’s like one mind” I smiled at him. I didn’t want to drive it any more. I didn’t even want to be inside it. All I had was awful memories out of it. It was time. “We’ll drive to the yard to sell it today” he grabbed me by my hand and we walked to get it back. “Does it worth anything really?” “Not much, but it’s better than to have it hanging around for no reason” “I don’t care, I want to get rid of it” I squeezed his hand. We went straight to the used car dealership and it was gone, not for much but I didn’t care. I didn’t even take a last look at
Last Updated : 2023-06-03It's Fine, I am Fine! The Beginning
Hello everyone! This story contains mature language and scenes. This is your only warning 😊😊 Enjoy it!! 😊 ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lena The restaurant was quite full today. Today out of all days, for my bad luck. The loud chatter around me was very distracting and I couldn't move as fast as I wanted to. People were walking constantly towards and outwards the bathroom, leaving me almost no space to move around. Some kids screamed their lungs out, after devouring our special ice cream bundle and their mothers made no effort to quiet them down. As I walked towards the kitchen with a full tray of dishes in my hand, I deliberately inhaled all the delicious smells from around the tables in the dining hall, so the awful scent of the kitchen wouldn't overwhelm me. Smelling burned oil and dirty dishes could easily make me lose my appetite or the will to work. Once inside the kitchen, I stepp
Last Updated : 2023-04-05It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 1
LenaWhat I liked about this gym when I first came here was that it was close to work, and it was quiet. I never liked big crowds, so I avoided places with lots of people.I avoided conversations with people as well, so I guessed I could be a little agoraphobic. Or maybe I was just fine. Being cautious never hurt anyone.As I walked inside, the woman at the front desk smiled widely at me. She always does that, not just to me but to everyone. It was her job to do so, and she was good at it and so pretty.I could never land a job like that because I wasn't as attractive as her. Physical appearance mattered around here. I wasn't a monster, but I wasn't an I*******m model either.I paid ten euros to allow me access to the showers and I walked through the weights area towards my destination. On my way there, I was astonished to realize that there were a few handsome guys working out.Usually, most guys around here are too bulky for my taste. I prefer a lean muscular guy and not the Hulk. I
Last Updated : 2023-04-05It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 2
Lena "Finally!" I exhaled with joy, while holding my new laptop like a new born child in my arms. My driver's seat felt somehow smaller than before, like the laptop was a huge box. A huge box of joy! How much did I want one. How difficult was to save up for it. But finally I have it right here with me. I felt like a was in love, with an object, but still. I would listen to the sweet keyboard sound, touching its smooth surface, clicking on websites, enjoy a piece of technology and most importantly edit my stories with ease, like a normal person and not with pen and paper. Erase, write over... bah... It was a pain in the ass! It might took me three days to transfer my manuscript to my laptop, even though I was typing like a mad person, but hearing the sound of typing made me feel like an actual writer. It was almost too sexy to handle! The guy didn't text me about the cover and it was expected. I didn't really gave it much thought, since I my mind was occupied by my new shiny toy
Last Updated : 2023-04-05It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 3
LenaI have been waiting for Max to text me for four days. How busy was he? I was impatient indeed.I really wanted for the cover to be done and ready to be uploaded along side my story, but also I wanted to see him again, He was very nice and very pleasant to be around. And I finally got a text, Friday I'm free.It was more like a statement, rather than a friendly text. But it would suffice. I was getting nervous even for these small social interactions and that wasn't great, wasn't it?It was only Monday. Bah! I was getting very impatient indeed. I was quick to reply,Great. Let's say around 19:00?AlrightHe isn't a great texter, but who was I to judge, I laughed with myself. Can we meet at Sunset Park on Bridge Street, near the picnic area?I suggested because it was my favorite park and I knew a few places we could take great pictures at. My phone camera couldn't really provide me with the result I wanted without good lighting anyway, Sure. I'll see you thereSee you there :)
Last Updated : 2023-04-16It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 4
Lena I took another deep breath. I kept telling myself that I was stronger than this. I repeated it like a mantra. Not the best coping mechanism, but it was the only thing that worked, at least temporarily. I locked the car and walked slowly towards my meeting spot. I kept looking over my shoulder nonstop. I felt like everyone was looking at me and judging me, when in fact no one paid the least attention to me. People were happily strolling, playing with balls and rackets, smiling, having a picnic, walking their dogs. Some couples were kissing, babies were crying and laughing, and children happily enjoyed the playground... and all I wanted was to curse them all. Even though my life problems weren't their fault, I really wanted to shout at the top of my lungs for everyone to disappear. I took another deep breath to calm the fuck down! For my surprise, I saw Max sitting on a bench talking on the phone. Did he come early? Or was I late? I took my phone out of my pocket and it
Last Updated : 2023-04-16It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 5
Maximus I stayed there watching her run away from me like I had the plague. What just happened? I honestly felt foolish, for even offering to take her home. It was a decent thing to do, but she refused again. I think I even saw her eyes water, but she left me no time to react. I stayed there with my eyes wide open, in some sort of shock. What just happened I wondered for the hundredth time. That drunk asshole apologized to me first, as if the ball hit me instead of her. Who does that? It was obviously an accident, but his attitude really pissed me off. He couldn't even stand on two feet, let alone play with a ball in open space. Damn that ball hit her hard. Lena seemed so angry and yet said nothing, did nothing at all. She didn't even demand a new phone as she should. She just stayed there motionless. What was wrong with her? She was clearly in pain, but she said she was fine, as she froze there and then ran away. She was gone in seconds. So weird. I have never had a w
Last Updated : 2023-04-17It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 6
Lena I had such a bad day. Such a lousy fucking day. I ran to my car so fast that he I definitely made him think I was mad. From the moment I found a place to park for the night, I couldn't stop crying, and not just crying, but sobbing! After a good thirty minutes of doing just that, I felt a little better, as anyone does after a good cry. Since I felt haunted by imaginary dangers all night long, I slept worse than I ever had. The heat didn't help either. It took me a while to finally fall asleep and forget, even for a little bit, how messed up my life was. I woke up about four times during the night, nightmares filled my dreams and I prayed desperately for some peace. That peace never came. I woke up sweaty and tired. I must fix the AC, or I might burn in my sleep in this heat if fear or panic doesn't do the trick! Most definitely, I need a safe place to sleep at night and a better job to afford it. This living in my car situation must end at some point. But unfortunately, th
Last Updated : 2023-04-19
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It's Fine, I am Fine! The End
Lena I sighed with frustration once I saw my car behind the wired fence of the police pound yard. We came early to pick it up, since it got confiscated by the police the night, I drunk my sorrows away. It’s been two weeks since that awful day and I already avoided this matter for long enough. It had to be down today. “We are going to sell, right?” Max asked yet it wasn’t a question, as he knew me too well. “It’s like one mind” I smiled at him. I didn’t want to drive it any more. I didn’t even want to be inside it. All I had was awful memories out of it. It was time. “We’ll drive to the yard to sell it today” he grabbed me by my hand and we walked to get it back. “Does it worth anything really?” “Not much, but it’s better than to have it hanging around for no reason” “I don’t care, I want to get rid of it” I squeezed his hand. We went straight to the used car dealership and it was gone, not for much but I didn’t care. I didn’t even take a last look at
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 49
Max Once outside, I gave her a firmly warning "Don't you dare walk away" without even turning to face her "The car is over there" I added in the same way. She followed without protesting, as I heard her dragging her feet behind me. We entered the car and I quickly drove away the moment she closed the door. I didn't even wait to put her seat belt on, I was so angry and tired. I pressed my lips together, to stop myself from cursing all forces of nature, as we enjoyed this awkward silence that could easily kill us both. With a quick look, I saw her looking out the window and having her arms crossed in front of her. Her jeans were slightly ripped on the left side and her sweater was a bit dirty and she had a few scratches on her hand. I slowed down with the gas, as I was calmer, just with the thought she was safe here with me. So many questions filled my angry mind, as we were going through the calm before the storm. "I want a divorce" she breathed and I froze in place. A div
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 48
Lena My widened eyes stayed on her for a second, thanking her silently for this selfless act that would shock me until the day I die. I have never experienced such deep connection with my mother until this day. With that stare I felt love, even though we said nothing. I closed the door and pushed myself in the front seat. I put my keys in the ignition and turned to look at her one more time. She was leaning close to the passenger seat window, as she wiped a tear off her eyes and pressed her lips together. "You'll never, ever, see me again," she whimpered. Her voice was focused and she made extra effort to stop her tears like she was making the statement of the century. As lovely as it was, I preferred to cut my arm off, instead of seeing her ever again! I didn't know how to react, she got me fooled too many times. I was just staring at her, battling between run away or give her one last hug. Was she concerned over me or it was just another rouse? "Go back and live your life. I'
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 47
Max My eyes laid on Christina’s calm face with great surprise. Firstly, because I thought she left with Karen and secondly, I have never seen her wearing a simple loose athletic outfit that’s not super tight on her. "Why are you here, Chris? And especially now?" "Because your mother called and said there was something wrong with you” “And the first person she thought to call at this hour it was you, smart” I scoffed. “I came here to check on you. You know I care for you, Max" "Why the hell did she call you? You shouldn't have come and you shouldn't care. I'm fine. Just leave" I firmly said, showing her the way out with my hand. "No. I would rather stay here and talk about what's wrong. Where is your... wife?" I snorted. Shit, she was enjoying my pain, wasn't she? Where was Lena, it was an excellent question. I didn't know if I should be worried or angry at her. At least she could leave me a simple note or something, Fuck you, bye. At least! But she didn't leave a note f
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 46
Lena I stopped the car in front of this very sketchy bar. It seemed dirty, as every bar in this city that wasn’t downtown. I sighed, as I didn't expect anything better. Vanessa’s boyfriend was waiting for us outside and waved to her the moment we parked. He was tall and seemed very strong despite his weight. He was bald but had a huge beard. His tattoo above his right eye seemed painful and it was like a tiger or something, I couldn't see clearly. Both of his knuckles were fully tattooed and even though I liked tattoos a lot, I didn’t like what I was looking at. He opened the door and sat on the back seat, like we knew each other for years and we were about to have a fun ride. He had a very confident attitude. A heavy smell of marijuana filled my car and I felt like throwing up. I hated the smell, as it reminded my childhood. "Hello, baby" Vanessa greeted him with the greatest joy, like he was the most important thing for her, as he just simply nodded at her with a half-smile
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 45
Lena My heart was racing as I quickly put on a pair of tight black jeans and a black thin sweater. I crossed my bag over my shoulder and then stormed out, to find Vanessa, hoping for the best. I couldn't let come closer to Max's parents. I was embarrassed enough already to look them in the eye, after they found out about Oliver, how could I let them meet Vanessa? She would probably ask them for money, so I would let her ask me instead. I would give her all my savings and then she would leave. I hoped. I parked near that coffee shop and walked angrily towards it. My heart was pounding, as I felt anxious, fear and disgust. I would meet the woman who was laughing, while her son was dying. The woman who never help us when we needed her the most and then disappeared like she never had children. I noticed her from afar seating on a table outside the shop. I would recognize her anywhere, despite how many years had passed. It was chilly outside and I was thankful for the sweater I w
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 44
Lena Once I reached the final step of the stairs, Max rushed close to me and yelled, not to me but definitely around him "We are leaving, now!", as he grabbed me by the wrist and dragged me towards the main entrance door. "What is wrong, son?" Karen raised her voice in concern. She got no answer. He quickly put me in the car, without saying goodbye to anyone and practically drove like crazy through the driveway and out of the house in seconds it seemed. The wheels even spined during his effort. He was very angry, very, very angry, I haven’t ever seen him like this. After five minutes of just driving in silence, I dared asked him "What happened?" "Karen happened!" he raised his voice; he wasn’t yet calm. "What did she do?" I tried to stay calm for the both of us. "She invited her!" He kept the same tone. "Christina?" "Who else, babe?" "Why were you chasing each other?" "What?" he snapped and looked at me for a second and then turn his eyes on the road again. At least h
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 43
Max I had this unusual feeling that I couldn’t shake off since morning. We were getting dressed for the party at my parents’ house and I felt nervous, and I couldn’t understand why. I knew that Karen would screw this up in one way or another, the how wasn’t important, so feeling this way made no sense. We dressed up for the occasion, it was a formal event that Karen was in charge. We matched our outfit without planning it, as she wore her nice black knee-high dress and her heels and I wore a black suit, minus the jacket. We arrived at my parents' house at 20:00 and all most of the guests were already there. My Karen quickly welcomed us at the front door, wearing a very expensive blue dress and she had her pearls around her neck. She smiled politely and hugged Lena, as she softly kissed my cheek without the affection, someone would expect. I felt good with that as she just simply smiled at me. Lena might be softer with her, but I still couldn't. "You look so beautiful, dear," m
It's Fine, I am Fine! Chapter 42
Lena Paul asked the server to add two more sittings to the table and he politely obliged. He set them up between Paul and Chris. Karla didn’t even greet anyone, as she was sitting on her chair. She kept touching her hair with her long red long nails and looked bored as always. Karen on the other hand, sat softly on her chair and crossed her legs, as she pointed her nose up proudly, like she accomplished something. Even though I didn’t like her change of attitude, she kept herself behaved. I thought she would start a fight or complain about something at least minor, but nope, she was being an angel. She stayed there silently at her seat and listened to the rest of our guest chatting. I was relieved and somehow happy, considering that I wanted her in her son's life, she was his mother. Funny that I was quick to let her off the hook when I couldn’t do the same with my own mother. We kept chatting, laughing, and sharing stories, as it was excepted. "And we were dancing at this c
