~HAZEL~
As we rode silently in Tristan's car, I couldn't stop myself from fidgeting on my seat. What if something happened? What if I saw more familiar faces and they tried to disgrace me or something? Was this really a good idea? Tristan placed his hand over mine and gave it a little squeeze, pulling me out of my thoughts. “Are you okay? If you don't want to go then I won't force you Hazel" He murmured as he stared at him with concern on his face and I flashed him a tight smile. “We are already almost there, no use turning back now" I uttered then let out a sigh. He stared at me for a while then his hands tightened on mine. “You know you can always tell me anything, right? If something is going on with you,I can help" He uttered and I turned to him with a genuine smile this time. “Yeah I know that, thank you but I'm already too indebted to you and I don't want to burden you with my problems" I murmured and he frowned. “You can never be a burden to me, Hazel. Never" He muttered and I stared into his eyes for a while before the car came to a halt and the driver announced that we had arrived. The driver opened the car door for me and I was about to climb out but noticed Tristan was still holding my hand. I turned to him and saw that he was staring at me. “You look breathtaking tonight. I almost don't want any other man to see you like this. Just me" He murmured softly and for a second, I let the warm fuzzy feeling envelope me. The feeling of knowing you are wanted by somebody but I quickly shook it off as I pulled my hand out his grip and flashed him a tight lipped smile. He smiled back at me and we both climbed out of the car and immediately, we were almost attacked by the paparazzi. Tristan was the Lycan king and in this part of the world, he was the most popular and most important person so everyone wanted a piece of him. He rounded the car and stood beside me then arched his elbow at me and I interlocked our arms as we walked up the stairs. The reporters kept asking us all sorts of questions but I tuned them out and tried not to cower at the flashing lights. As soon as we got into the building, I was about to take a sigh of relief when I noticed we weren't just in any room but a freaking ball room with lights and all. Those ballrooms in movies. It was fancy, a little too fancy for me. “Don't be overwhelmed, I'll be by your side the whole time" Tristan murmured in my ear then grabbed my hand as we walked deeper into the ballroom. I saw a lot of familiar faces but not the faces I dreaded which was good. Hopefully, I won't have to face him. I saw some confused looks being thrown my way by other Alphas probably because they were surprised to see me on another guy's arm but they didn't voice their confusion and just spoke to me like I was new. “Where is Alpha Asher? He's the one I want to see" Tristan suddenly uttered and my eyes snapped towards him. I wasn't surprised, Asher was the most powerful Alpha. He might even be more powerful and influential than Tristan so without Asher, this treaty couldn't be signed. “The party started without me? Shameful" Everyone turned to the voice but I knew the voice by heart and I could feel his Aura fighting dominance in the huge ball room. “Alpha Asher, we meet again under better circumstances this time" Tristan uttered and I clenched my fist. I didn't want to turn around but I could already feel his eyes on my back. He already recognized me. I slowly turned around and my eyes quickly connected with Asher's silver eyes and the shock on his face was priceless. If I wasn't trying so hard to suppress the anger and hate rising up in my chest, I could have laughed. My eyes darted towards Claire who looked like she had seen a ghost and her arms clung onto Asher's tightly. His Beta and Gamma also had the same reaction but I ignored all of them as I turned towards Tristan who seemed to have noticed the rising tension. “Hazel…" Asher called out my name and I bit my lower lip as Tristan glanced between the two of us suspiciously. “You know her?" Tristan questioned. “She…" “He was my Alpha, not anymore" I interjected before Asher could say anything. Everyone was silent for a while till Tristan cleared his throat. “Very well then. Let's go have a little drink, shall we?" Tristan placed his arm on my shoulder as he led me towards a table that had his name and Asher's name on it. Asher walked over to the table and dismissed Beta Ross and Gamma Leo before settling down with Claire. “Are you okay?" Tristan questioned as soon as we sat down and I smiled at him before nodding. I turned towards Asher and Claire and noticed Asher was glaring directly at Tristan who was oblivious to what was happening. Claire was glaring at me and I resisted the urge to slap her across the face. I didn't think I could last another minute on this table without clawing their eyes out. A waiter placed two bottles of an expensive wine on our table and Tristan immediately poured me a glass before pouring himself a glass. “She doesn't drink alcohol. You don't know that?" Asher suddenly uttered, turning Tristan's and my attention to him. So I wouldn't have to agree with him, I took the glass filled with wine and downed the entire contents in the glass and immediately regretted my actions. I hated the way it tasted and I hated the way it made me feel but I was able to put up a front in front of them and by the look on Asher's face, he wasn't happy about what I had just done. Good. My phone suddenly started ringing in my purse and when I pulled it out and saw Rose's name on the screen, I immediately stood up. “It's Rose, I'll be right back" I said to Tristan then immediately walked away as I received the call. “What is it? Is Jaden okay?" I questioned immediately. “Oh he's asleep. I just wanted to know how things were going? Have you met him? Them? Tell me the juicy details" Rose squealed and I rolled my eyes. “Rose, I can't…" Before I could process what was happening,I was suddenly pushed against the wall as two large hands grabbed onto mine and pinned them above my head as he pressed his body against mine. I stared up at Asher's face with wide eyes while he stared down at me with an expression I couldn't decipher. “What are you doing here and why are you with him?"...I stared into Asher's gray cold eyes in shock. He was the last person I wanted to see. “I asked you a question, Hazel. Why are you with him?" He questioned as he tightened his hold on my hand and I glared at him while holding back the tears that were threatening to fall. Why? Why did he have to have the face of the man I had been in love with? Why did he have to have his smell? As soon as his smell invaded my nostrils, the urge to cry grew stronger as the familiarity slapped me in the face, reminding me of how insignificant I had been to him whereas he had been my world. “Let go of me" I struggled against his hold as I tried staring at anything and everything so I won't have to look at his face. “Hello? Hazel!? What's wrong?" Rose's voice suddenly sounded from the phone. “If Tristan sees us this way…" I began. “I don't ever want to hear another man's name on your lips" Asher interjected as he tightened his fingers painfully around my wrist. “I do
“I just want my phone back!” I winced as the pain sliced through my body and I slowly stood up. Refusing to look him in the eye, I quickly took my phone out of his hands as he stretched it forward and I looked him in the eyes letting him know just how much I really hate him and want nothing to be around him right now. And I turned to take my leave refusing to utter any word to him. “Please take me home Tristan” I muttered refusing to show my pain in front of Asher and Claire. The ride back home was as quiet and calm as the Dead Sea. “I just need to hold my baby in my hands” I thought to myself as I tried to fight the pains flooding through me. “Why was your phone with him? Are you okay and did he hurt you?” Tristan finally lets out. I could feel that he had lots of questions to ask but there’s no way I’m going back into that puddle anymore. “I’m fine” I responded in a hurry. I hate to be like this in front of anyone but I needed him to know that it’s best I’m left alone f
~Hazel~ It was another day to shove that man’s name behind me and move on. I stand up to get ready as light peered in from the window. ‘I just need to occupy myself in the shop’ I thought as I got myself and Jaden ready to go open the shop. “Mama, can I have more chocolates?” His sweet tiny voice echoed through the shop grabbing my attention. Jaden is the best thing that has happened to me and I’ll do everything to keep him safe, no matter what it takes. It was a relief that he didn’t have to go to school, I know I needed him closer to me today, “No baby, that’s a lot already. Why don’t you come help mama here in the kitchen “ “Good morning aunty rose!” He immediately walks over to Rose who walks over lazily, she was never an early riser. “What is it Jaden?” She asks, leaning forward. “My mama needs help in the kitchen, please can you help” he asks in the most cute way giving Rose the puppy eyes. It’s so funny how she never sees this coming and always falls pr
~Hazel~ “What’s the problem Hazel, what are you not telling me?” He asked, towering over me as he gazed into my eyes to search for his answers. With the way Rose zoomed outside upon hearing his voice, I know there was no way to ask her to get me out of this. Standing upright to look up at him “it’s nothing, I just didn’t know what to say to you after ruining your night” I said, telling half the truth. He doesn’t need to know anything and definitely not about Asher. “You didn’t ruin anything, my night would have been shit if you didn’t go with me in the first place.” He adds revealing a small smile which showed too much emotions in it for a lycan king. I stand there barely reaching his chest as I wonder what he really expects from a single mom who is just a lone wolf in his kingdom. “Why did she call you a slut? I swear I wanted to split her throat” he muttered with a fierce look and the bloodshot eyes he has on whenever he was to spill some blood comes upfront. I
~Hazel~ “What’s the problem?” He said immediately into his phone as his face changed. I don’t know if anything is wrong or if anything happened but I’m glad the call came in. Whoever is the reason for the call is such a lifesaver. What exactly would I have told him? That my child’s father hurt me?! I couldn’t tell him the truth on why I ran away and it’ll remain like that. I couldn’t lose the peace I’ve found now and Jaden is safer here. “Bring him here, I totally forgot we had a meeting.” He mutters through the phone. “Who’s coming over? Do you need me to prepare anything?” I asked, wanting nothing but to return to our old conversation. “No, it's fine. It should be a quick one,it’s Alpha Asher and it’s just to go over some propositions” he uttered saying nothing else as he stared at me knowing fully well that I avoided his question about Jaden’s father. I take my words back, that man is no life saver but a destroyer. “Don’t you think you need to go to the head h
~Asher~ After seeing his proposal I just couldn’t back down, I needed to come see for myself. He wanted to do business with us and was granting free access to his kingdoms and was asking the same from mine. There are a thousand things I could gain from this but I wanted to know if there’s another motive. Everyone always wants to be on the winning side so why do I seem to gain more from this proposal if I agree to it? On getting to the head house with my beta and enforcers, I saw just how functional and big his kingdom was. And when I heard that we would have the meeting somewhere else, my defences were up but agreed. I need to know if it’s a trap. “Aunty Rose!” I heard a faint voice call out. Then the scent hit me, I looked back in a hurry looking at my beta and enforcers. They looked all too normal with their defences up, having no single idea what I smelled. I turned to look back again to where I smelled the wolf and was backed by a lycan who was definitely talking to so
~Hazel~ What does he really want from me?! He doesn’t even know what happened and he called me easy? I couldn’t stop it as the tears roll down freely from my cheeks. Can’t he just let me be! He tried destroying me once and still wants to do it again?! I won’t let him get to me, I whispered to myself with teary eyes. I know Tristan made him leave as I heard little murmuring, then came a loud bang from the entrance door. I don’t want to see either of them, and I couldn’t face Tristan right now. I don’t want to ever appear weak in front of any man ever again. It happened once and I won’t let it happen again. Putting all your trust on one person has taught me my biggest lesson and to be sincere I don’t think I can ever trust a man by letting my defences down ever again. I’ve been sent out and rejected once and I’ll never put myself through that ever again. The tears run freely as I let out the muffled cry I’ve been holding in as I heard another bang of the front door.
~Hazel~ It’s been days after the incident with Asher at the bakery and I’ve tried my very best to let go of everything. The insults and pain tried to make it harder to let go but I focused my mind on what’s more important, and that’s my life here, my best friend and the safety of my son. That’s all there should be as I prepare to start business for the day. I rarely had customers as most of them only come in for coffee. I only get busy when it’s a little lycan’s birthday and I’ll have to bake cakes and all the fun things that they love. I haven’t spoken or seen Tristan since his meeting with Asher on my turf and he hasn’t come in using the excuse of coffee and doughnuts as he always does when I don’t show up and wants to see me. He’s definitely been talking to Rose, her eyes gave her away that she’s keeping something. It’s either he had her promise to not tell me or she feels it’s better I don’t worry about it. ‘What really will it take to completely move on?’ I thoug
~Lily~ “Did you have a nice sleep or are you still busy with my mom?” His voice swept in like he’d been waiting for ages. I didn’t reply immediately as his voice was the first thing I heard after sleeping for only god knows how long. And the mention of how he personalised his mom strangely sounded not so annoying like it always used to be. “Should go on helping her again soon enough.” My reply came like it wasn’t an issue talking to him in my head. Like I never used to have issues with him hanging in there in my head without permission. “Ohh really? You mind telling me all about this help that only you can offer, or can Kade come lend a helping hand?” He sounded so aware of everything being a complete facade. And with the sound of things, he just wanted to flow along. I took a second to really wrap my head around it as the fact that it was me having a conversation with Jaden through the mindlink and there have been no shouting and disagreement. “
~Lily~ I didn’t let the reminder that it's soon going to be my birthday get to me for long in my head as it drove different signals to me. I was supposed to be up and ready to leave according to what i had planned with Raya. Nothing was eventually stopping me and this was entirely what I was looking forward to but suddenly the urge to run away was slowly fading away. Like I could literally feel it and I’ll be deceiving myself if I said that was exactly what I wanted right now. Hate? Yes I still hate him and I also still wanted to find out why I could feel his sincerity through those words he uttered to me. You can pretend and fake sincerity but you can never fake it so badly that the other person listening doesn’t feel it to know if you are lying or not. “Oh my, thank goodness you are fine.” Her voice brought me completely out of it as I stared into complete emptiness. I must have stayed still for so long, thinking and drowning myself that I didn’t real
~Lily~ “Are you okay baby?” My mom didn’t waste time and went all out with examining my body and her eyes showing too much concern right now like she just saved me from the lion's den. “I’m fine mom, why are you so worked up?” I found myself asking after removing the hand I placed aimlessly on my forehead, that depicted my lack of understanding what was going on. I wanted to go on and ask all the questions in my head but I held back and swallowed all the words at the tip of my tongue, knowing I should be grateful right now that I got out. “Definitely not what I heard so I have to double check.” She didn’t agree with me and still continued. She changed tactics this time around, making it seem all funny and held back my laughter, trying to link one and two together. “Molly got to you?” I asked the question without even thinking twice about it. I already even concluded that it got to be that or nothing else. And while her actions were funny to me, holding back was gettin
~Kade~ “I just need to speak to him for a minute, it’s very important.” She kept on begging and pleading with her eyes as she didn’t dare go all touchy with me. “He’s busy. If it’s so important you can relate it to me and then I’ll surely let him know.” I faced with all seriousness so she could back off. I didn’t need a soothsayer to tell me anything before knowing that she was outright lying to my face and making up excuses just to meet Jaden. I guess keen eyes can be awarded to me after walking in the shadow of Jaden and watching his back. I knew everyone that had potentials of being a pest and had to keep details and tabs on them just in case. “I can’t tell it to you, I need to pass this on myself.” She said still speaking so softly that it was irritating to listen to her speak. I’m not sure it was her voice that was making me lose my patience. It had to be the very fact that I still remembered clearly what she had done to my future Luna. Yes
~Lily~ This was all looking extremely far from all the tricks we went round with or used to go round with. Now it was looking so scary and trying to put up a face or pretend my way through this wasn’t what I wanted to do. It was meant to be the end point as I opened my mouth and spilled all that I should, securing myself from whatever he had planned. He went calm, his eyes lowered, staring and holding mine in place. It wasn’t too surprising anymore since it had become a norm for days now. The words he spoke next also kept me quiet as I listened with utmost interest since it all revolved around me. He explained himself, saying things I thought I’ll never hear him ever say. ‘The almighty Jaden was apologising to us?’ I asked Raya as we found it so unbelievable but that thing in the depth of us could witness with him that he was being sincere. You could sense and see it with the way his eyes moved and looked so soft and gentle even they gazed directly at
~Jaden~ “Do you need anything?” I asked her, watching closely as I managed to make her sit on my bed with my different sets of portraits pushed to one side of the room. I didn’t really think about what to do aside from sticking my hands all over her body and places where she’ll definitely not be in support of. “Anything that’ll keep me alive would be fine.” She uttered with so much anger in her voice that I held back the urge to laugh at how cute she looked even when she tried to frown. I pretty much was blind and too carried away by pain and past events that I let it cloud my emotions and even my person. It was going to be hard to actually prove anything to her but I’ll try my best to make it quicker as I want her always with me. “Got that. Anything else you’ll need or you want to try to be a more specific lollipop?” I tried my luck one more time with her. “Yeah, how about your head on a platter and you stop calling me that.” She snapped with her head bringing out
~Lily~ “So I also don’t get to choose where to stay? I know you know nothing about fun, but when a free day is mentioned, it’s most likely related with anything that’s not working.” I run my lips, hating to be quiet today. If he’s going to play this his way and keep me here then I’ll also talk and if possible cause great harm to his eardrums that he’ll send me out himself. “Fun is whatever we say is fun, lollipop. And the pictures I have up here are every bit of fun but what we don’t know is, if it’s fun to you yet.” He muttered pointing to his head as he made it sound like he could see right through me and afterwards made close eye contact with me after my very best efforts at avoiding it. I held my breath for a second, trying my best to hold his gaze too as I long avoided looking his way since I came in. I never ever took notes and I feel like punishing myself for taking notes now as I stood still, the words hooked on my throat with his mention of the pictur
~Lily~ “Lee, are you okay? Did he do anything to you?” Her eyes followed my every move, waiting patiently till I entered my room. Of course I knew with that public show of the one alpha we both hated, carrying me on his back and talking strangely like he didn’t want to push a spike through my heart, would definitely arouse suspicions and lord of questioning from Molly. I did the best I could and went straight to my room not knowing what I was going to say to her. I didn’t tell her anything the last time and clearly hawk wasn’t bothered about others having their own different thoughts. “I’m fine, he was just filling in for Kade.” I said to her putting on a smile so she wouldn’t suspect anything. She stood there for a minute, watching me closely like if she stayed longer I would break. “I’m guessing you have a lot to tell me because they couldn’t be all.” She finally concluded, opening my door and stepped in first. “Okay I’m all ears, let’s go.” Sh
~Lily~ “What?! Who gives such absurd benefits? It’s no longer a reward then, this is outright punishment.” I screamed at the top of my lungs as I stood facing him in his office. I didn’t even want to talk about how I got to his office in the first place. I was too pissed off right now to be concerned about my earlier disagreement on coming here alone with him. “Was this the original plan?” I averted my gaze to face Kade who was sitting down at the corner of the room acting like he wasn’t there in the first place. I only agreed to come here to take the so-called “reward” if someone was there. I suggested Molly but ended up with Kade. “Absolutely.” He said without thinking about it with a quick nod and went back to being invisible. “They are definitely not absurd, you don’t think everyone would love to spend their free day with me?” He had the weirdest smirk on, with his hands inside his pockets, giving a cool vibe even when all I wanted to do to him was to ca