TARAHI don't need to exercise. Just a glimpse of him doing his morning workout is enough to make my heart beat like I just ran a marathon. Talagang sa sala niya ito ginagawa? Wala bang malapit na gym?Pinilig ko ang ulo bago pa niya ako mapansin. Tumuloy ako sa pagbaba. Paliko sa kusina ay parang tinatambol ang puso ko. Please sana hindi ako mahagip ng mata niya. Bumuga ako ng hangin nang makarating ng tuluyan sa kusina. He didn't notice me. Nice! Hindi niya alam na nandito ako kaya hindi niya ako pupuntahan. Makakakilos ako ng maayos. Or so I thought.Pagkabukas ko palang sa fridge ay nagsalita na siya sa aking likuran. "I made breakfast." Aniya. My grip tightened on the fridge door. The sound of his breathless deep voice in the morning. Ugh! Sinadya kong humawak ng bagay na malamig para gisingin ang sarili."You cooked for our dinner last night. I'd like to repay that with breakfast." He said. I feel a knot in my stomach."I'll heat it up." Aniya. Kumuha ako ng gatas. Hinarap ko la
TARAHPumasok ako sa cafe kaya ginabi ako ng uwi. I wanted to shut down the thoughts in my head so I made myself work. Atsaka kailangan talagang dagdagan ang oras sa pagtatrabaho para lumaki ang sweldo. Nagsisimula nanamang sumakit ang binti ni papa, tapos humina pa daw ang kita sa pamamasada. Paubos narin ang gamot ni mama. I need more income.I walked straight upstairs. Hindi pa ako nakakapasok sa aking kwarto ay nasa likuran kona si Ezekiel. "Dinner?" He asks. I shook my head. "Kumain na ako." Tipid kong sagot saka na pumasok. Buti ay pinakain ako ni Neana kanina. Kung hindi ay hindi ako makakaiwas kay Ezekiel. I slept and woke up early. Nasabihan ko na kahapon si Mang Marlon na mas maaga na ang alis ko araw-araw at gabi na ang uwi. Kumuha ako ng tinapay at mabilis na nilagyan iyon ng palaman. Kakainin ko nalang sa biyahe. Baka gumising na si Ezekiel. Naiwasan ko siya ng ilang araw sa ganoong paraan. Ka
TARAHKung hindi lang ako nagugutom ay hindi muna ako lalabas. Hindi ako nagdinner kagabi. Ngayon ko ramdam ang gutom. Alas diyes na, ngayon palang din ako nagising. Paano, hindi ako makatulog kagabi. At noong nakatulog ako ay napanaginipan ko siya! Si Ezekiel!Umulit sa panaginip ko ang ginawa niya kagabi. Ang paghawak niya sa aking baba. Ang mukha niyang malapit sa akin. Tinabunan ko ng unan ang mukha nang maalala ang aking panaginip. Why did I dreamt that he was gonna kiss me?! Why did I want to kiss him in my dreams?! Nahihibang na ako.Siya ang unang lalaking nakalapit sa akin ng ganoon kalapit. At unang lalaking humawak sa aking baba. Maraming pakiramdam na sa kaniya ko unang naramdaman.No one made my heart beat crazy that way. No guy tensed me up. I never bothered to look at a guys eyes. And if I do wala naman akong nararamdaman. I met guys with good smell, but I wasn't in a daze. It didn't made me dizzy. No guy has ever got my knees weak. Only him. Only Ezekiel.I think this
TARAHI watched my hand travel on a humpy road. A road it should never drive in.Para akong napaso. At binuhusan ng nagyeyelong tubig. Mabilis kong binawi ang aking kamay at tumayo. Gulat akong nakatingin sa kaniya. Hinihingal. Sinubukan niyang lapitan ako.His voice echoed in my head. "You can touch me anytime... darling." He called me darling for the second time."Gago ka ba?!" Nanginginig kong sabi. Still feeling the adrenaline rush.Galit ako sa ginawa niya. At galit ako sa sarili ko dahil hinayaan ko siya! Hinayaan ko siyang magpahawak sa akin. Hinayaan kong madumihan ang aking kamay. He's clean but... I meant sexually. I've never touched a mans body. Ni holding hands nga wala pa akong ginanon. Kung hindi pa ako natauhan ay baka kung saan na napadpad ang kamay ko.Kumukulo ang aking dugo at nanginginig ang kalamnan sa galit, frustration at gulat. Why would he do that?! Why would he lead me like that? Hindi dapat nagyayari ang ganito."Nagtataka ka kung bakit kita iniiwasan? Kasi
TARAH "Sorry for calling suddenly." aniya. Napakurap-kurap ako. "You weren't answering my texts back. And... Ezekiel said— he, told me last night that... he saw you crying. I was worried."Muli ay napakurap-kurap ako. "Uhm... are you okay? Obviously you're not ok. You were crying. Uhm... I just want to say, if there's anything I could do, tell me."Talaga ba? Kung sabihin kong magmeet tayo sisipot kaba? Haharapin mo ba ako?I should be glad he called, that he's worried and is offering me help but... I don't find it sincere. Siguro kung pupuntahan niya ako oo.I started walking my way to the kitchen. Inuuhaw ako. "I understand your silence." aniya."You don't know me. You probably don't find this sincere." Nagulat ako. "I want to start getting to know you, and get you to know me. It took me this long to finally contact you, talk to you because... I'm not... a confident man."Sumandal ako sa sink. Pinakinggan siyang mabuti. He does sound uneasy."The best way to know a person is by spe
TARAHTo Atarah Schneider Perhaps you didn't want to receive the money immediate today cuz you're thinking you'd have to have breakfast with me starting today. Don't worry it doesn't start today. I have errands to do. I won't be with you today. I left your allowance under this note. Take it, and have breakfast before leaving for school. – Ezekiel SchneiderPaulit-ulit kong binasa ang pangalan ko at ng kaniya. Then his voice and words echoed in my mind. "My surname is now your surname.""Your surname, and my surname are the same.""I took you from your family."Itinabi ko ang note. Nakita ng kabuuan ang sobreng kulay pink. "Please..." I remember him whisper. Hinawakan ko ang sobre pero hindi magawang iangat iyon. "Please..." he whispers inside my head again. Huminga ako ng malalim at dinampot na ang sobre. Binuksan ko, blue bills. Pinadaan ko ang kuko sa bawat piraso. Napakunot ng noo nang may makita sa likod ng pera. I took it out. I wa
TARAHHe was single all his life but got broken once. May niligawan siyang kaibigan. They were close but she only gave her mixed signals. Hindi naman pala siya gusto ni girl. When he asked her to be in a relationship with him, she declined. And from then on, she never talked to him again. He also never tried to get into a relationship dahil tingin niya, marereject lang ulit siya. Ito ang napag-usapan namin ni Gabriel kagabi."Here," ani Ezekiel. Tapos ng hiwain ang pakwan. Umuwi siya ngayong umaga."So my brother visited?" He asked as he sat down in front of me."Yes. But I didn't saw his face. He was in the dark."Sumubo siya ng pakwan. Rinig ko ang pagnguya niya. Sumusunod ang aking tingin sa galaw ng kaniyang panga. Anuba, Tarah! Kumain kana!Kahit hindi ko kita ang ilalim ng mesa ay alam kong nakakrus ang isa niyang paa."Want me to tell you how he looks?"Napatitig ako sa kaniya bilog ang mata. Hindi ako tatangi diyan."He's got a beard too. Got a body like mine. We sometimes wor
TARAHNauna siya sa bahay. Nanatili siya doon sa guest room. Nagbihis ako sa aking kwarto. It feels weird that he's in the house but cannot be seen around the house. I put on a tight shirt and a jogger pants. I want him to see that I am not dressing up for him because I'm not aiming to impress him. He will meet, me. So if he doesn't like the girl he met I would know that it was the real me he didn't liked. Nagkapalit kami ngayon ng pwesto. Siya doon sa may kama. Lumapit naman ako sa bintana. I don't mind if he sees me. Nakita na niya ako kaya ba't pa ako magtatago? Ramdam ko ang paninitig niya. On his last visit, I asked him if he knows what I look like. Baka nagsend si Ezekiel ng picture ko or ano. He was honest to admit, that he stalked me one time. Silang dalawa ni Ezekiel. Naaalala ko na ramdam kong may nakatingin sa akin doon sa park after kong pirmahan ang kontrata. Sila palang dalawang magkapatid ang nakatingin sa akin. Hindi siya nagpakilala agad at hindi nagsabi ng anong
TARAH“Anong gusto mong pag-usapan?! Kung paano natin pinagtaksilan ang kapatid mo?! Kung gaano na ako makasalanan ngayon dahil sa gabing iyon?!"I tried to hold it in, pero ito ang gusto niya. Sige, pag-usapan natin."It wasn't a mistake.""It was, Ezekiel!""Not to me.”I can’t believe he doesn’t see that a mistake. Lumakas lalo ang pintig ng aking puso sa kaniyang paunti-unting paglapit. Nakakafrustate na hindi siya galit magsalita. Hindi ko tuloy mapanatili ang galit ko.“Maybe for you. Or maybe not too. You’re just being denial.”“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Kahit ako ay hindi na nasusupladahan sa aking tono. Naduduwag na ako sa mga sinasabi niya at dahil sa gamit niyang tono. Imbis na maging away ito ay parang inaakit niya ako.“You say it was just lust? Not true.”My back hit the door. “It was just lust. Ganoon din sayo.”"I wouldn't go to this extent if I wasn't in love with you.""W-what?”Halos sumabog na ang puso ko habang siya ay kalmado at masuyong nakatingin
TARAH"Not even one reply." He hissed with clenched jaw. I swallowed hard. Kabado sa galit na nakikita ko sa kanyang mukha. Tensyonado sa lapit namin.I must be crazy. Imbis na isipin kung paano makakatakas sa kaniya, ang laman ng isip ko ay kung gaano siya kagwapo at ka-hot ngayon. Namumula ang kaniyang leeg hanggang dibdib.He moved closer. His legs brushed mine. I felt electrified."E-ezekiel."Hindi ko alam kung itutulak ko ba siya palayo, itanong kung bakit siya nandito, kung alam niya ba na nandito ako, kung sinabihan ba siya ni Eve, o ipaalala sa kanya na baka makita kami ng kapatid niya sa ganitong posisyon kaya dapat siyang lumayo."What, Tarah? You finally have something to say? You wanna talk to me now? Now that I caught you?"He was being sarcastic. "Eve's around." Makahulugan kong sambit. Pero hindi siya natinag doon. "Lumayo ka ng konti.""You've been avoiding me for a week!" Lumakas ang boses niya. Pumikit ako ng mariin. I'm guilty as fuck. "Ezekiel...""We will talk.
TARAH"You're not coming home? It's late already. Sunduin kita?""Are you at your parents house? When are you coming home?""Come home, Tarah. We need to talk.""I miss you. I'm waiting for you outside your school.""Answer my calls, please.""I know you don't want your parents to know about me. About us. But I really wanna see you. Baka hindi kona mapigilan puntahan ka sa bahay ninyo. Magkita tayo. Talk to me, please!""Mag-usap tayo please, Tarah.""Hinintay kita sa tapat ng school mo kahapon. Kanina naghintay ako sa kanto ninyo. Did you not come home? Or you successfully hid from me again? Tarah, please... Mag-usap tayo.""Naghihintay ako sa tapat. Ihahatid kita sa Cafe. We don't need to talk for now. Just let me see you.""Please let me know if you're okay.""Tarah...""Darling, please..."Isang linggo higit na mula noong bumalik ako sa puder nina papa. Hindi kona muli kinita si Ezekiel. Ni text niya hindi ko sinasagot. Maging ang kay Gabriel.Alam kong ako ang may ginawang kasala
EZEKIEL"You at school?""On my way. Why?""Is there any way I could speak with Tarah's teachers?" "Why? Something wrong?""Nothing. She'll be absent today, so..." "She sick?"I looked at the beauty sleeping on my bed. So pretty even when she's sleeping. I smiled like an idiot at the memory of last night. "No. But she's in some kind of pain." I can't tell him that his sister-in-law is sore down there because we had our honeymoon last night."O... kay?" Tinulak ko ang sarili mula sa pagkakasandal sa pinto. I walked out of the room. "Should I go there? Para makausap ko ang teachers niya?" I don't think she'll wake up anytime now. I got her exhausted last night. I smiled like an idiot again. Darling, look at what you're doing to me. Someone might think I'm crazy. Well, I am crazy. Crazy over you, Tarah."Would she want that? Pag-uusapan sigurado ang pagpunta mo sa school." Napatigil ako sa paglakad. "Right." She wouldn't want that. Pero ayoko naman din maliban siya sa klase ng wala
(Warning! R18!) TARAH"Let me stretch you a little."I gasps at the feeling of my walls being stretched. His fingers moving like a scissor inside me. Weird, but it feels good. "What are you doing?" I asked, getting dizzy from the pleasure. "Preparing you." He said looking up to me. That damn ridiculously handsome face is inch close from my pussy. And that damn skillful tongue is now back on licking me dry. He's not restraining his moves anymore.Yeah. I do need to prepare. He's huge. That thing is supposed to go inside me. Bumaon ang aking mga daliri sa kanyang buhok nang abutin ko ang rurok. Habol habol ko ang aking hininga. Damn this is exhausting. I might faint before the real thing.He crawled up to my face, planting kisses on my body all the way up. "Lights off? Or on?" He asks. "On." Nakita na niya lahat. At gustong kong makita ang kanyang mukha habang inaangkin niya ako. "Are you ready?" He asks hoarsely. I tasted myself in his sweet mouth. Akala ko ay mandidiri ako, pero
Warning! R18EZEKIELA beauty is on my bed. My beautiful wife is finally on my bed. I have prayed every night for this. To spend the night with her. To sleep with her, literally and figuratively. I'm no saint. My thoughts aren’t all pure. I dreamt of making love with her, with my wife. To have the honeymoon we didn't had. Just one touch of hers, I'd burn for her. Gustong-gusto ko siya. Ayokong madaliin ang mga nangyayari sa amin. Pero habang tumatagal, hindi ko na kayang magpigil. Hindi ko na maitago kung gaano ako ka baliw sa kanya. I want to make her know of my dreams. I want those dreams to come true. One just did. She likes me back. A damn dream come true. And I think another dream of mine will be made true tonight. My dream to make love with my wife. Such a beautiful sight beneath me. Her wet hair sprawled on the sheet, her lips redder and plumper from our wet kisses, her perfect body bare below me, blessing my eyes. My gaze stayed longer at her glistening flesh. My mouth w
(Warning! R18!)TARAH"W-what?"He pulled my underclothes down my thighs. One swift move I was put down on top of the table. He then completely remove my underclothes off my body."You don't mean..." Kabado ko siyang tinignan. He sat me on the edge. "Oh my God!" I moaned as he touch me there. Nakatukod ang dalawang kamay ko sa mesa para hindi mahiga."Spread your legs, baby."My breathing hitched. He parted my legs. His eyes burned with desire as he stare at my naked sensitivity. I feel so exposed. But my legs didn't even flinched to deprive him of the sight.Our eyes met. They burn me. He attacked me with a hungry kiss. Sucking the breath out of me. Hawak niya ang magkabila kong tuhod. Iniyakap ang aking mga paa sa kaniyang baywang.Gumapang pababa ang kaniyang kamay mula sa aking leeg pababa sa aking gitna. Napadaing ako ng malakas nang mahanap muli niya ako doon."You're dripping wet, darling." He say between our kisses. "I did that." Mayabang niyang sabi bago kagatin ang gilid ng
(Warning! R18!)TARAH"Bakit mo tinatanong?""Tarah kaibigan mo ako. Pwede mo akong pagsabihan ng mga bagay-bagay."Sumipa ako sa lupa para lumakas ang ugoy ng duyan."I asked you if you love him or at least like him 'cuz obviously you're intimate with each other. He didn't forced you, right?"It's about the hickey."No!" I exclaimed. "No." Mas kalmado kong sabi. "Hindi niya ako pinilit.""You like him." Seryoso niyang sabi. Bumaba sa duyan. Tumayo sa gilid noon hawak ang tali. Hindi ako tumango at hindi ko rin itinanggi."Why are we talking about this?" Ang akala ko ay pag-uusapan namin kung saan ko siya ililibri. We're at the elementary's school park."Pero hindi mo alam kung mahal mo na ba siya?""Hindi pa ako komportable para pag-usapan ito, Elliot. This is the first time I got into a relationship." Tapos ganito pa kakomplikado. Tinukod ko ang paa sa lupa."At ikaw ang unang lalaking kaibigan ko. Naninibago pa ako. Hindi ko pa kayang magsabi sa'yo, at sa totoo lang hindi ko alam k
TARAH"Do you want to have the dessert now?""Hindi pa ako tapos. Istorbo kalang kaya tumigil ako." Bumalik ako sa pagkain."You can have my lips for dessert. It's sweeter and it won't melt until morning." Malandi niyang sabi."No, thanks." Sagot ko agad."I want yours." Bulong niya sa tenga ko. I felt a knot in my stomach."Tumigil ka Ezekiel." Saway ko."What's your favourite food?" he randomly asked. Tapos na yata kumain."Marami.""Kasama ba ako doon?"I side-eyed him. "Hindi ka pagkain.""Pero pwede mong kainin."Pumikit ako ng mariin. "Please stop. Gusto kong kumain ng maayos.""No really. What's your favourite food?""Marami nga. Hindi ka kasali doon." Hindi pa kita nakain. Wait, what?! Napainom tuloy ako."I know you like chocolate mousse cake. You don't like pepperoni but okay with pineapple on your pizza. You mostly cook meals with soup at night. You like ice cream. Yogurt as well. I noticed you like it when Eve makes you one of his yogurts. What else do you like?"You. I me