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2021-03-08 12:59:16He slowly retracts his arms and steps back from me.
"What do you mean you're pregnant with my baby?"
Carter stumbles over his words, running his hands over his ashy blonde hair until it is out of its normal flow.
"I think that covers it. I know it's not what you wanted but I won't get rid of it."
He looks at me in shock and wraps me in his embrace again.
"I'd never ask you to do that, you should know that. I love you, Nadia."
I let the heat from his body soothe the anxiety arising.
"I need you to stop being a coward and get us out of here, please. I can't do this anymore, and he is
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He finally turned his body in my direction, which so far was a good thing. “Nadia, I am not here to be friends with my cousin’s wife. I don’t care what happens in your private life, as I don’t care what happens to you. You are just a girl I watch.” I would be lying if I told you that it didn’t hurt me, but he has to know me before he could hate me. “And why not? What have I ever done to you for you to hate me so much?” His lip started to twitch, and I suddenly flinched when his hand moved. “I’m sorry!” I screamed. The air got thicker, and the park became silent as everyone around stopped in their tracks. I uncovered my arms from my face to look back at Carter completely stunned. He was only combing his hair with his fingers. “Nadia I wasn’t going to hit you; I don’t do that to women.” I finally relaxed,
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